The best of bamboo horses

Sure enough, Fang Lin called again, saying hesitantly that he came with his mother and was waiting downstairs at his house.

The weather in June was really sweltering, and the sun was very hot. Ning An saw that it had been a long time since Fang's mother entered the door, so she hurried downstairs without caring about the awkwardness.

The elevator stopped on the second floor for a while, and he couldn't wait any longer, rushing down the stairs all the way.

Fang Linzheng was standing downstairs, still tall and straight, but the aura around him was much more relaxed than before.

Probably because the burden of the college entrance examination was finally relieved, Ning An thought to himself.

The two of them hadn't walked side by side like this for a long time, and they were both a little unfamiliar.But the friendship and tacit understanding of nearly ten years cannot be changed. Even if we face each other silently, we don't feel embarrassed.

Fang Lin took him to a cat cafe he usually likes very much.The environment is quiet and warm, and there are fluffy kittens curling up their tails and snoozing at your feet, not to mention how cozy it is.

It's just that the last time he came here in his memory was when he and Fang Lin hadn't become so indifferent.From then on, Fang Lin didn't accompany him, and he was busy studying, so he didn't have time or mood to come.

Probably because the college entrance examination had just ended, other grades in the school hadn't had a holiday yet, and it was a working day, so there were few customers, only a couple in the corner whispering.

Ning An absent-mindedly stirred the juice while pressing the kitten's paw on the cat climbing frame next to him.

When he was alone, there were too many things he wanted to say, too many emotions he wanted to confide in, and he even wanted to complain.But Fang Lin really sat across from him like this, staring at him intently, so he forgot everything.

He was a little annoyed, he had already decided to take the initiative to show his favor, but if he really had the opportunity, why couldn't he open his mouth?

He stirred the juice resentfully, and the grievance that appeared on his face unconsciously made Fang Lin laugh.

This smile didn't matter, Ning An felt even more wronged.

"What are you laughing at, is it funny?"

Fang Lin shook his head hastily, Ning An was no longer the little boy who would blush and shy when he said anything, now Fang Lin didn't dare to provoke him.Otherwise, as long as Ning An's eyes were red and his mouth was deflated, Fang Lin would have to cede land and pay compensation, and then stare dumbfounded at his face-changing skills in a second.

The two stalemate for a while, but Ning An managed to organize his words and said, "I don't know why we became like this, I don't know what to do, but I can't blame you, because you probably don't know either. So... ..."

Fang Lin interrupted him: "No, I know."

"what?"

Fang Lin looked straight at him: "I know why we became like this, you can blame me, it's all my fault."

Ning An endured his sadness and complained in a low voice: "Why?"

Fang Lin looked at his white fingers unconsciously rubbing the quilt, and looked away.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Ning An became anxious: "Did I do something wrong?"

Fang Lin laughed at himself, thinking about whether Ning An would splash this glass of juice on his face later.

Although Ning An is not such a person, he is gentle, kind and educated, but he managed to hold Ning An out of the small shell with his own hands. Once he said the words, I am afraid that he will shrink back and never see himself again, and maybe he will be vicious. Clamp your own hand and let yourself feel a sharp pain.

Fang Lin raised his head, looked directly into Ning An's eyes and said, "I can no longer be friends with you."

"The last time we came here, you hugged the cat and smiled at me with squinted eyes, and I realized that I have the urge to be with you for you."

"It's not the desire to go to school together, play ball together, or go outing together, but the desire to hug you, kiss you, and be jealous of the cat in your arms."

"I know that we have known each other for almost ten years, and I also know that we trust and depend on each other, which may create the illusion of love."

"So I went to check the information, I went back to all our common memories, and I wanted to tell myself that it was just because the sun was so bright that day, the atmosphere was too warm, and you were so beautiful, I had hallucinations and impulses."

"But I failed."

"Every time I think of you, it only makes me more convinced, and I find that you are more good, and I like you more."

"I know it's wrong. I miss my best friend and best brother in Xiao. Auntie asked me to take good care of you, not for me to lead you astray."

"So I ran away. I want to go to the farthest place to study in university, far away from you and everything here. Until I forget about you, until you have a successful career and a happy family, I will come back and drink you a glass of wedding wine."

Ning An desperately shook his head: "No..."

Fang Lin looked at him in panic, his eyes were terribly red: "But I'm not reconciled."

"I have cherished my baby for ten years. I know all your preferences, all your bottom lines, and all your looks before and after. Even looking at your current expression, I can guess what you want to say. Why do you let me A complete stranger to love you for me and take care of you for me?"

"When I think about someone holding your hand, kissing your forehead, eating your cooking, sleeping with you and seeing bear underwear that only I have ever seen, I even have the desire to kill someone."

"I'm sorry for you, sorry for auntie, but I want to be sorry for myself once. I want to allow my heart to express once. As long as it is once, I will never trouble you again."

Ning An covered his face, the tears rolling in his eyes finally fell, his voice was hoarse but firm: "Stop talking."

How could he accept the appearance of a third person in their world?From childhood to adulthood, other than his parents, he only had Fang Lin, only Fang Lin.

He couldn't imagine losing Fang Lin, even if it was a cold war that lasted for several months, he was secretly confident that Fang Lin would not leave him behind, that they would always go back to the past.

But hearing Fang Lin's resolute and firm tone now, he was afraid.

He didn't think about who he liked, and he didn't understand the taste of love.No matter how many books he has read and how many romantic stories he has seen, it is someone else's love, and he cannot empathize with it.

But Fang Lin threw his love at him passionately and forcefully, making him almost unable to move. The shock and fear made him speechless for a moment.

Ning An grabbed the tissue on the table and wiped away his tears indiscriminately, before running out without looking back.

Only Fang Lin was left sitting there motionless, quietly watching him run away.After a while, Fang Lin stretched out his hand to hold Ning An's cup, feeling the remaining warmth in his palm, and cursed himself as a pervert.

As soon as Ning An got home, he dug out all the things that Fang Lin had given him and put them in boxes, intending to return them to him.

The cup he uses every day is that there are bookmarks given by Fang Lin in more than a dozen books, and there is even a junior high school math error book that Fang Lin left here...

The more Ning An tidied up, the slower his movements became, thinking of Fang Lin's good things for nothing, and in the end he put the box heavily on the ground in frustration, and hurriedly opened the box to check if the cup was broken.

Forget it, he thought, forget it.

When filling out the volunteers, Fang Lin deliberately chose cities far away from city A for the first three volunteers, and made the Chinese language and literature of each school his first choice. Finally, he confirmed the submission, and he was depressed for more than half a month. I feel much better.

His parents respect his own choice and have no objection to him studying in such a far place.

It wasn't until Fang Lin sent him to report with his parents that he knew that Fang Lin had applied for the University of Political Science and Law next door to him.

In front of the parents of the two families, Ning An didn't like Fang Lin's cold face to make them suspicious, but Fang Lin, the culprit, acted as if nothing had happened, talking and laughing, heartless.

Fang Lin started school later than Ning An, so he helped Ning An tidy up his dormitory and went to live in a hotel off campus.

Ning An felt very sorry, but it happened that his roommates hadn't arrived yet, and he wanted to go out to live with him, but was blocked by Fang Lin's hooligan "Aren't you afraid of me?"

In the end, Ning An insisted on sending him to the hotel, watched him put his luggage away, and told him several times not to leave anything behind after two days of reporting.

Fang Lin stopped him: "Ning An."

Fang Lin has been calling "Xiao An" for a long time, and sometimes teasing him and coaxing him will deliberately call "An An", Ning An has not heard him call his full name for a long time.

Ning An unconsciously blinked: "Yes."

Fang Lin sighed, stepped forward and put his arms around his shoulders: "I've already let go of that matter, let's not remember it, okay?"

Ning An quietly clenched his fists: "So you want to tell me that you were really impulsive then?"

"No." Fang Lin retorted without hesitation: "I just figured it out. I not only want to be with you, but also want to be with you forever."

He didn't finish his sentence, but Ning An understood.The safest relationship is not intimacy, but long-term.Being friends and brothers are stronger relationships than being in love.

But how can someone who really likes be willing to be friends?

Didn't Fang Lin say that he didn't want others to hold his hand, kiss his forehead, eat his cooking, sleep with him, and look at his...underpants?

Ning An turned her head to look at the hand on his shoulder, thinking, scoundrel.

Before Fang Lin started school, he ran to Ning'an's dormitory every day, invited his roommates to dinner, took care of the roommates properly, and added WeChat friends.

"Are you arranging spies by my side?" Ning An looked at Zhang Bingyan who was next to her in disbelief, dancing and dancing in the dormitory, and praised how good Fang Lin was.

Fang Lin smiled, and the laughter was particularly deep and provocative through the microphone: "Are you afraid, and report your puppy love to your uncles and aunts at any time in the future."

"What kind of love is it? I'm already a college student. It's reasonable and legal to fall in love."

Fang Lin stopped laughing: "Well, my aunt keeps talking about it every day that it's hard to find a girlfriend these days, so you should bring a daughter-in-law back to your uncle and aunt early so that they can rest assured."

Ning An was at a loss for words for a while, and the good mood of being teased by his roommate was gone, so he replied angrily: "Okay, I will definitely work hard."