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Xiao He didn't know how long he stood there blankly. When he came back to his senses, his right hand was already numb, and a sticky feeling was too obvious on his wrist.

He gently pulled up his sleeve, the bandage was covered with blood, and his sleeve was also stained with blood.

He belatedly went to the room to get the painkiller, swallowed the medicine with saliva without even drinking the water, but he still couldn't swallow it, it got stuck in his throat, he just frowned and swallowed forcefully, trying to spit it out The feeling of vomiting actually gave him an unusual sense of comfort.

He felt too painful, not physically, but mentally.

He never thought that Song Yi would feel that he didn't love him.

I never thought that there would be such a situation today.

Song Yi's later words kept playing repeatedly in his mind, and even the sadness and disappointment revealed in the last look, he remembered clearly.

Why should Song Yi be disappointed?He is the one who clearly does not keep his word.

Xiao He returned to the living room with heavy steps, sat where Song Yi had sat just now, and recalled his appearance in women's clothing.

He reached out and brushed the ashtray on the coffee table to the ground.The heavy ashtray fell to the ground with a muffled sound, and the muffled sound seemed to hit his already painful heart, adding another heavy blow, causing him such extreme pain that it almost made him go crazy.

The sky was getting dark little by little, and only the wall clock on the wall was ticking in the whole house.

Xiao He's eyes were very watery, he leaned on the sofa and looked at the ceiling in a daze, and soon tears slid down his cheeks from the corners of his eyes.

This is the first time since his grandparents passed away for so many years, he cried for someone.

The whole right hand can't move anymore, but he doesn't care anymore, Song Yi feels that he doesn't love him anymore and has already left him, so what does it matter if he wants this hand or not.

He couldn't hug the person he wanted to hug the most.

There was a ringing of the doorbell at the door, and it took about a minute for Xiao He to stand up with his left hand to open the door as if he had just woken up from a dream.

After the door was opened, Zhou Yan looked up, and immediately opened his eyes wide, "What's wrong with you?"

A good person in the afternoon, why did he become this inhuman and ghost-like person in just a few hours?

He went down to look at Xiao He's hand, saw the blood on the sleeve of his white dress, and saw the broken glass in front of the porch cabinet.

He hesitated and stretched out his hand to gently pull Xiao He's sleeve, and found that his bandaged hand was full of bright red blood, and the big part of his wrist was all stained red with blood.

His temples protruded, and his voice became much higher, "Are you fucking crazy? Where's Song Yi?"

Everyone knows how important this hand is to Xiao He, but now it has become like this, which is shocking. His first reaction was that Xiao He might not be able to keep this hand.

Xiao He was indifferent to what he said, only when he heard Song Yi did he react.

"Song Yi left. He felt that I didn't love him, so he left." Xiao He's voice was slightly hoarse, but he couldn't hide his emotion.

Zhou Yan didn't think about it, and now was not the time to understand the specific situation, so he grabbed Xiao He's left wrist and pulled him out.

Xiao He followed him like a puppet.

Zhou Yan kicked the door shut with his feet, and dragged him towards the elevator in strides.

As soon as he got out of the community, he stuffed him into the car, got in the car and went straight to the hospital, and called Xiang Li by the way.

"It's me. The wound on Xiao He's hand was split open and the bleeding was serious. I don't know the specific situation. You should prepare for the worst."

Zhou Yan was really convinced. He became like this after not seeing him for a few hours. He didn't dare to make any mistakes along the way, and raced against time to take him to the hospital in the fastest time.

When Xiang Li received the call, he started to make preparations. When he saw someone coming, he took him away directly, and left Zhou Yan to deal with the admission procedures.

It took another few hours for Xiao He and Xiang Li to go, and when Xiang Li came back to see Zhou Yan, Xiao He had already entered the ward and was lying down.

"How is it?" Zhou Yan asked him.

Xiang Li didn't speak, he took a few more steps to the side, opened the door at the top of the stairs, and Zhou Yan followed him, only to see him lighting a cigarette and smoking it violently.

"I wish I could cut off his hand, damn it." Xiang Li kicked the wall while speaking.

"What's going on, can you keep it?" Zhou Yan was in the same mood as Xiang Li, but he had better understand the situation first.

"I kept it, but it won't take three to five months to recover. It will take at least a year and a half. If there is another problem, don't send it to me. Really, the next time you appear in front of me like this, It was the day when I personally took off this hand for him." Xiang Li gritted his teeth.

Then Zhou Yan also took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket, followed Xiang Li to smoke, exchanged how he found out, and analyzed the situation according to what Xiao He said, but no one thought of it. So come here.

After the two finished smoking, they were silent for a while, and finally Zhou Yan said to him, "I'll go and see him, lest he go crazy again."

Xiang Li waved his hand, and took a step first, "I'm really afraid of him."

Zhou Yan followed behind him, closed the door at the top of the stairs, and went to Xiao He's ward.

Xiao He was getting an infusion with his left hand, and he looked at the wall blankly, not knowing what he was thinking.

Zhou Yan opened the chair and sat beside the hospital bed, "I wanted to tell you about the live broadcast platform, but now it seems that this is obviously not the time to talk about it. What happened to you and Song Yi?"

Xiao He frowned subconsciously when he heard the word Song Yi, and then his empty eyes became more focused, and he tilted his head to look at Zhou Yan, but didn't say a word.

"Why did you start arguing when you were so good? He knew you had an operation and still quarreled with you. It shouldn't be." Zhou Yan didn't know what happened at all, but it was the first time he saw Xiao He like this in the past six years. .

"He doesn't know." Xiao He's throat was still a little hoarse, and there was still a depressed and hurtful emotion in his words.

"Then what's going on?" Zhou Yan didn't ask clearly, he was completely worried about his state, and he was going to die.

Xiao He finally told Zhou Yan what happened.

"Am I wrong? He clearly promised me, am I wrong?" Xiao He was a little emotional again.

Zhou Yan comforted him, "Calm down first, there is no right or wrong."

In the eyes of others, the relationship between Xiao He and Song Yi will not be a problem. Song Yi is mature and tolerant to Xiao He in everything. Whether it is his temper or his character, Song Yi, good or bad, will always be happy. Accept all the orders, and Xiao He's love for Song Yi has penetrated into the deepest part of his heart.

Doesn't Xiao He love Song Yi?

He loves it.

But in this matter, why did Song Yi ask such a question?

Zhou Yan thought that it was because Xiao He still hadn't learned how to truly love someone.

Xiao He has always been stubborn and domineering. In the past few years in the professional circle, he has been sitting on the altar for a long time. Both the people in the circle and the fans look up to him, and the people in the base also follow suit everywhere. Watching him, as time goes by, his heart becomes more domineering, so his feelings and love are destined to be too tough, just like what he likes and dislikes, there is a clear line, he will not allow people he cares about to cross that line This is his bottom line and stubbornness, and he won't change it easily.

His understanding of love is also very simple. He wants to be with Song Yi for the rest of his life, treat him well, and slowly change for him. This is love for him.

But he still doesn't understand how broad the boundaries of what the word love includes and what it carries.

Zhou Yan thought for a long time before he spoke to him, "Ahe, let me tell you about me and Chi Fei."

"Chi Fei has a bad temper and has never suffered. He has always been a respected young master. He can get what he wants, except that he simply wanted to enter the showbiz on his own and failed. , there may be nothing that hinders him. He is an unattainable son of heaven in the eyes of the world. His smooth journey has led to his perverse and changeable personality. , you should know a little bit about this.”

Zhou Yan recalled the past Chi Fei while talking, and the scenes of the past were clear in his mind.

"I have been with him for so many years. To be honest, I am very tired. His family background destined him not to be a person who obeys restraint and control. I especially hate the hair he grew before. I have a small knot in the back of the head every day. , made a very coquettish look, even if he didn't do anything, someone tried to stick it on him.

I also hate the jokes he made on some formal occasions. He always said that he got married and his children are over two years old. I don’t know if he said this to me, but even if I listened, so what , I can't become a woman, and I can't bear him a child.

I also hate that he will always come up with inexplicable scripts to act with you when you are talking about business, as if he doesn't care about the things you worry about for him, making you feel like a monkey in a circus, being overwhelmed by him Play around. "

Zhou Yan gave a wry smile when he said this. Everyone thought that he could only enjoy endless glory and wealth with Chi Fei, but no one knew the complicated network behind this relationship and his unspeakable helplessness.

He sighed and then said to Xiao He, "As for him, he hates that I live more in the base than at home all the year round, and also hates that I care too much about your affairs, and thinks that I care more about anyone in the base than I do. The concern for him, I hate that I can't get rid of the habit of worrying about it, and I also hate that I have never been impatient to accept his scenes, and I feel that I am rigid and ignorant of style.

We both hate each other's chronic diseases that cannot be changed, but we have not separated. "

Even though there were too many dissatisfaction and complaints about each other in this relationship between them, and they had quarreled countless times over these things, they never once thought of breaking up, even though he could not look forward to the future in this relationship , he was not willing to let go of Chi Fei's hand.

"There is no other reason. In the final analysis, it is because we love each other too much, so we continue to broaden our bottom line with each other, and quietly open the back door to this person only for what we used to regard as "absolutely unacceptable". Love and slowly restrain each other, allowing each other to be true to themselves."

Zhou Yan looked at Xiao He, met his eyes and told him that there is no right or wrong between him and Song Yi. Feelings are things like this, you come and go, you compete with each other, but in the end you widen the bottom line for him in your heart .

"Over the years, he has gradually changed his habit of playing me at every turn. He has learned to decide whether to act or not based on the occasion and my face. He also got rid of the habit of making jokes in public, and never mentioned his former so-called wife. Son, I finally cut off the hair that I don't like. I also began to slowly transfer my concern to him, and the time I lived in the base became less and less. When he was in high spirits, he would Cooperate with his script to make him happy."

Zhou Yan said that none of these had strong emotions. As far as he was concerned, he and Chi Fei had pulled out each other's thorns for so many years, and would never hurt each other so easily again, just like two long All the edges and corners of the gears worn by time are no longer sharp.

But for Xiao He, the thorns on his body were still too sharp.

"Ahe, because you love someone, you will shake your boundaries for him, instead of letting him abandon everything he likes and then approach you. Song Yi is right, he is not your appendage, You can’t give up being yourself just because you like or don’t like it.” Zhou Yan felt that Song Yi’s position was not wrong, he was a soft ball from the beginning, catching all the thorns on Xiao He’s body, and approaching him step by step. Get close, even if he sometimes stabs himself, he still treats Xiao He tenderly.

Zhou Yan looked at his frowning face and said, "Ahe, he is not born to you, it is not your private property, and he is at your mercy.

Have you ever thought about that, in fact, he doesn't like many things about you?For example, can't accept your violent temper, can't speak nice words and old-fashioned ideas?Because he loves you, he regards you as the best person in his eyes. Those things that he could not accept before, but because of you, he accepts and tolerates them unconditionally, and never mentions them to you. "

Xiao He fell into more and more confusion. In Zhou Yan's words, his heart became tangled into two voices.

One is telling him firmly that he loves Song Yi.

But the other is questioning him, he doesn't really love Song Yi.

Just when he was about to go crazy with these two voices, he heard Zhou Yan say again, "So Ah He, he asked if you really love him because he really gave up too much for you, You have paid a lot, but you don't get your understanding, and before you even start talking, you start to lose your temper after having a good talk with you.

So, you need to calm down, think about it carefully, and go to him when you think about it. "