After rebirth, I am with my rival

Okay, three people in a row have chosen the truth, this is too boring, this time I can only choose the big adventure. "

Tang Dou accepted the big adventure calmly.

Pull out a note with adventure content from your hand: Hug the second person on the right.

it's me.

As if being hit by a pleasant surprise, I was a little dizzy when I heard the adventure content read out by Tang Dou. I unconsciously clenched the empty cup in my hand and breathed lightly to the extreme.

Is he coming to hug me?Just like in my dream, being gently embraced into my arms, I can feel the warmth of his body, or just slightly close to him, the breath blending together.

Can you still smell the familiar fragrance of milk when holding Doudou?He has grown up, tall and straight, handsome and young, especially when he smiles, like a green bamboo plucked after a spring rain, with the spirit of a young man all over his body, but the branches and leaves stained with dew are soft and hairy The fluff, scratching makes people feel a slight itch.

I was a little nervous, I wasn't ready to hug him yet, I thought that being able to observe him secretly through a person was already the greatest happiness.

I don't know if I should stand up and embrace him actively at this time, or just sit there, waiting for him to come to me step by step, open his arms to me like before, and say softly, "I want to hug. "

I was nervous as hell.

I forced myself to relax my tense body, and my slow breathing was stretched. I played with the wine glass at hand, my fingers were stiff, and I didn't dare to look into his eyes.

I'm afraid that I can't help rushing over to hug him tightly, greedily inhaling the familiar and strange smell on his body, and then never letting go, never letting him go.

But I can't make him hate me any more.I need to use all my strength to restrain myself from acting rashly.

I was excited from the bottom of my heart, as long as he took the first step, all the remaining 99 steps can be left to me.I am a brother, this is what I should do.

I was looking forward to it, and the time suddenly became extremely difficult.I can't help it.

Tang Dou raised his eyebrows, he stood up, looked around the people sitting, his eyes paused on me, and then quickly skipped over.

He stretched out his hand, Doudou's hand is very beautiful, with well-defined joints, slender like jade, rounded nails, dull and healthy pink.

I held my breath, I watched his hand getting closer and closer to me, a voice in my heart urged me to go forward, I froze in place, unable to move.I waited for his breath to approach.

The clamor in my heart was getting louder and louder, and the wine glass was about to be crushed by me, because I was too nervous, my expression was stiff, and I looked extremely indifferent.

I had no time to take care of these things, my eyes kept falling on the glass at hand, and Tang Dou's outstretched hand reflected on it was about to touch my shoulder.

The cool fingers stopped just when they were about to touch my shoulder, and a mischievous smile appeared on Tang Dou's lips. He shrugged apologetically towards the crowd, turned his elbow, grabbed the beer on the table, and raised his head drank it down.

The smell of beer and wheat spreads silently in the air, whistles, hisses, jokes, cheers, one after another, like a cold blunt knife, cutting my expectation inch by inch, grinding it back and forth on my heart , cruelly mocking my wishful thinking.

He chose punishment.He doesn't want to hug me.He still hates me as always.

I accidentally crushed the wine glass in hand, the girls screamed and lost their voices, the transparent glass shards pierced into the palms, and the bright red blood dripped down the edge of the table, meanderingly dripping onto the smooth floor, blurring a flower Beautiful flowers.

I was in a trance, as if I heard the sound of my heart being pierced.

What a fucking pain.

It really hurts.I lowered my eyes to look at the severed veins in my palm, trying to find the hot ending that was burned by time.

I can't find it, I can't wait, I can't see it.

My eyes were swollen, my heart was astringent, and all the strength in my body was taken away. I remembered the dream back then. If I could, I would also want to cry out loud.

But you can't, because no one will feel bad.

Doudou, please feel sorry for me, okay?Just one click, just one click.

Brother Ozawa hurts.It really hurts.It hurt so much that brother Ozawa was going to die.

This time, I'm really, really, really, really, really sad.

Tang Dou, how could you be willing to make me sad.

In the sea of ​​people, I heard someone whispering silently. They said that people who are not remembered and liked have no right to be sad.

I am indifferent.

It doesn't matter, I think, as long as it's you.

My shadow walks the road and I melt into the dust.

did you see me

For many things, I missed the first time to confess, and no matter what happens later, there is no chance or need to say it.I never reminded him of me.I never had a chance to hear him call me again, brother Ozawa.

I don't know how the days passed. Doudou and I saw each other almost every day, but we were like strangers we were most familiar with.

I thought of old K's hesitant eyes again and again, and finally laughed out low.If I go back to Country J, I must ask Old K to come out and have a good drink. How could he be so foresighted?

Makes me so sad.

W city has started to snow.The snow fell heavily that day, fluttering, and after a while, a layer of snow-white blanket was spread on the ground.I took off the hat on my head, closed my eyes and looked up to feel the cold touch of snowflakes falling on my face.

That's great, you see, without your company, I can grow old in the first snow day by myself.

The heavy snow was fluttering, I took off my gloves, and focused on building a snowman behind the house.Doudou used to like making snowmen the most, but Doudou was afraid of the cold, so every time I would build the snowman ahead of time and leave the nose for him. In this case, Doudou and I built this snowman together.

Doudou will be very happy to build a snowman with brother Ozawa.

Satisfied, I fastened the black buttons on the snowman, pretending they were its eyes, and steamed into my frozen hands, and turned away.

A child's surprised voice came from behind.

This snowman has no nose, brother, come on, let's put a nose on it together.

Brother Ozawa, this snowman has no nose, let's put a nose on it together, in this case, brother Ozawa and I built this snowman together.

Doudou's cute smile appeared in front of my eyes, and the lips curled up in an upward arc, and I said, "Okay."

Blown by the bone-piercing wind and snow, the "good" was not heard by those who wanted to hear it.

Days go by so fast without anyone noticing, when I come to my senses, Tang Dou and I have already arrived at the time when we are about to take the college entrance examination.

I heard someone talking about Tang Dou's carelessness in the Chinese test, and he got stuck in the answer.

When I heard the news, I was preparing for the last comprehensive science exam.

I sat in the examination room for a long time.

The last big question is very difficult, really difficult, I can't do it, I can't do it even if I rack my brains, and I can't do it no matter what I do.

I calculated it many times and filled up the entire draft paper, until the bell rang for the submission, I stopped writing, packed up my things and left.

The draft paper was full of two little people holding hands.

You see, as I said, I will always be with you, no matter where you go, I will find you, and then stay where you can find me when you turn around, quietly waiting for you to see me.

Tang Dou and I went to the same university, with different majors and different dormitory buildings.I inquired about his class schedule, pretending to be casual again and again, and then passed him by.

He still ignores me.

That's good enough.I think this is really good.No disgust, no boredom, no avoidance.I already feel satisfied.

How can I feel satisfied.

Like this thing, many times it is like a false proposition that cannot withstand scrutiny.

But the important thing is never the why, but that I already like him, even if all the prerequisites are replaced and eliminated, the conclusion is still that I like him.

I am the one who can't love, I am the one who is wishful thinking, and I am the one who wants to get closer to him, so I deserve the pain again and again, and I am the one who tosses and turns in the middle of the night.

I deserve to be in a place where others can't see, pressing the painful brow, and burning out one bitter cigarette after another with my fingertips.

I really deserve it.

The lively crowd, the fireworks in full bloom, the exaggerated applause, the candles arranged in the shape of a heart, the shy girl holding flowers, and the words of shy love words spoken.

I stood among the crowd and looked at Tang Dou, who was the protagonist, and gently accepted the flower from the girl.The girl hugged him on tiptoe, with a bright smile on her lips.

The scene in front of me gradually overlapped with what happened many years ago. I felt the bursts of pain in my heart, and thought numbly, I really deserve it.Maybe I shouldn't be here at all.

I looked at them masochistically, and finally fled in despair.

I wandered outside for a long time, with no purpose, no direction, no home.I saw that girl, smiling like a flower, but the person beside me was not Tang Dou.

What happened later made me very angry, I saw them hugging and kissing in the dark, after Tang Dou took the flowers in her hand.

The boy left, I walked up to the girl, and warned her with a cold face, not to get too close to Tang Dou, not to be with Tang Dou.

The girl looked at me in surprise, she didn't know what to think of, she blushed suddenly, and replied shyly, "Okay."

What happened later became more and more beyond my expectation. The girl ran to Tang Dou and asked Tang Dou to break up with her in my name.

I was almost furious.

Then came the scene that made me tear up.

Tang Dou fell to the ground, his face was pale, bright red blood flowed out from the back of his head continuously, drop by drop, scalding my heart, leaving hideous and ugly scars.

I didn't protect Doudou well. If I hadn't been nosy that day, everything today might not have happened, and Doudou would not have been injured, and she would not have been lying in the hospital with a pale face and no knowledge of personnel.

I couldn't forgive myself and I was stuck in a dead end of self-loathing.

When he wakes up, how much he will hate me.

That night, I smoked almost all my cigarettes, and the scattered cigarette butts piled up on the floor of the room, and I was slumped in the lingering smoke.

With a desolate smile from my lips, I crushed out the cigarette butt, and finally decided to leave.Just like when I decided to come back, I decided not to appear in his world in the future, and to be a person who would bring him harm.

Without me, perhaps Tang Dou would live a happier life.

Even those happy things have nothing to do with me.

Many times I think, if only there is a chance to do it all over again in life.

If I could do it all over again, on the day when we meet again after many years, I will definitely muster up all my courage, walk up to Tang Dou, and say to him with a smile:

Hi, I'm back, would you still like to play with me?

If you can be more greedy, I hope you can remember me and don't forget me again.

I am really sad that you have forgotten me.

Bamboo horses are trees, double trees are forests, my love has become a swamp to imprison me.

My name is Lin Ze, and I am in love with my bamboo horse.I'm not desperate, I'm just sorry.

I love him so much.

A week later, Tang Dou who silently muttered "Lin Daze" woke up in the hospital, causing a riot among the doctors and nurses. At this time, Lin Ze had already boarded the plane to country W.

That night, a piece of news was pushed to Tang Dou's phone.

"It is reported that the plane flying from my country to country W crashed midway due to unknown reasons this morning, and none of the passengers on board survived."

In fact, I don't have to ask you to love me, but if you are willing to love me, then I will be very happy.

It's just that there will probably never be such a chance.

What a pity.

The author has something to say: ①A story has three sides, one for you and one for me, and one for the story itself.Everyone has misunderstandings, but not all misunderstandings will be solved.

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