safety and distance

You hide your heart, but who can't read the love and hatred in your heart?

People's lives are too ordinary and too conventional.Xu Anyuan just laughed off Cheng Tiao's intentional mention at the time, and didn't think too much about it. How could he have thought that it would be a blunt warning hint.

Xu Anyuan knew that he liked Cheng Tiao.It's easy for him to like someone.

How much do you like it?have no idea.

His emotional view has never had the word "it's up to you".He feels that one of the most wonderful things in the world is that no one can be replaced.He is used to fighting against the feeling of being different from ordinary people, he is superficial, and his private life under the night is also out of control. At that time, he was "in love" with Cheng Tiao, so it was a matter of course.

Up until now, Xu Anyuan felt that the sex between him and Cheng Yuan was a product of alcoholism, a physical act of mischief. The right time and place were right there. He thought about it, and Cheng Yuan didn't resist, and then everything came to fruition... He has no face To beautify the sex between him and Cheng Yuan, no, there is no love between them, they just had sex.

How could he have liked him then?

Who likes which way a person will choose for intercourse?

But the irony is that after this sex, love has not yet awakened, but jealousy and pain have already preceded, and suddenly connected the ordinary past between him and Cheng Yuan, reminding him that he seems to have fallen into it.

Shockingly, it almost crushed him.

And what he couldn't forgive was that Cheng Yuan knew it long ago.

I can't forgive him for his heartbeat that day.

What the hell is Cheng Tiao trying to do?

No initiative, no rejection, no responsibility.He kissed him, he let him kiss him, he rode on him, and he didn't refuse, when he entered his body, he was so satisfied, so not afraid.Xu Anyuan didn't feel much at the time, just a little regretful.Later, Cheng Yuan rolled over and rolled over, and he heard him talking in his ear, calling him monchéri in the language he had learned.

my dear.

He hugged him tightly at that time, thinking that this night should not end.It's okay for them to stay like this all the time, and it's okay for five people. Can we not end it.

He stole the man for one night.

But one night is too short.

Later, he and the youngest came to him.

They were walking side by side, he listened to him talking to the youngest, he really wanted to give Cheng Tiao a sneaky touch, even the hem of his clothes.

But he can't.He didn't even dare.

Even in front of Hua Xin, he could only say that Xu Anyuan was the youngest's target.

Because as long as there is someone, whether it's indoors or outdoors, whether the youngest is present or not, Cheng Yuan is fucking not Xu Anyuan's.

He and he stood on the side of the road with their backs to the youngest, and he took the initiative to talk to him, but he didn't dare to touch him, didn't dare to look at him, standing at an arm's length apart, he didn't even dare to speak loudly .

And every time, he thought, they've already done it.He was stabbed in pain.

Can't Cheng Tiao stay away from him?

Can't he stop the youngest when he comes looking for him?

At first Xu Anyuan couldn't bear to hear some news about the youngest and Cheng Yuan. After he ran away halfway that day, he never returned to the dormitory.His roommates were not surprised, anyway, no matter how they searched the dormitory, they would not write Xu Anyuan's name on it. They thought he had a lot of parties and went all night.

There are parties, but not every day.Xu Anyuan just didn't want to give himself any chance to bump into the youngest. Every time in class, he stepped on the bell to enter the classroom, sat in the last row, didn't chat with anyone, and left after class. He didn't care about anything the teacher arranged for him. Push it to the branch secretary.

When someone in the courtyard asked him out, he would not refuse anyone who came, and followed them all night.

Xu Anyuan never sang love songs before in the karaoke hall, firstly because those songs sounded awkward, and secondly because he didn't have so many emotions to express, but during that time, he took advantage of the late night when many people were confused , he ordered a row of Cantonese songs, then sat on the sofa and sang quietly, until he shed tears.

He is cowardly.

No matter how ambitious and tactful he is in other aspects, he is cowardly when it comes to feelings.

The youngest also approached him a few times, and he also rejected them. The youngest wanted to go out to a party for his birthday, and he always sent the gifts over first, thinking about how to make up reasons to say no.

He wants to stay far away.

He kept reminding himself in his mind like a repeater.There is still more than a month before the summer vacation, he doesn't have to bear it for too long, besides, next semester Cheng Yao will always go out to find a job, it doesn't matter what he is looking for, as long as he can't see it, if God opens his eyes, he and the youngest are too separated because of work and study. Great, it would be better if it was broken in the end.

There was nothing around him that had anything to do with Cheng Tiao.