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For a moment, Dou Tianxiao was completely dazed, and reflexively took out several tissues and handed them over.

Is this simply a parent's attempt to test their son's emotional life, or is it a follow-up inquiry after they already have clues?

During the two seconds when Jiang's father wiped his face, several ways to die had flashed through his mind.

The first reaction of a person with a guilty conscience is usually to cover up the truth. Dou Tianxiao scratched the back of his head pretending to be blank and asked, "He already has a date?"

It's a pity that Dou Tianxiao's reaction was still not fast enough. During the two seconds he hesitated, Wang Yingsong already had the answer in his heart.

——This kid is acting.

"You don't know, do you?" Wang Yingsong patted him on the shoulder, "Did he mention it to you?"

Dou Tianxiao shook his head, "I don't know, he didn't tell me everything either."

Wang Yingsong's eyes stopped on Dou Tianxiao's face, and he didn't speak for several seconds.

His eyes are sharp, with a meaningful message, as if to say, "Now you confess and be lenient, and I can spare you." He can often stare the criminal down the spine.

It was the first time Dou Tianxiao was stared at until he was hairy all over, and he almost knelt on the ground and kowtowed a few times, shouting: "Uncle, I was wrong! I will never dare again!"

Wang Yingsong raised his eyebrows and smiled, and returned to his usual relaxed tone, "Actually, it's not a big deal for him to fall in love at this age. As long as it doesn't affect his studies, we as parents are caring and caring at most, and we won't deliberately intervene. It's just that, He sneaked up in the middle of the night the night before..."

It was midnight the day before yesterday!

Dou Tianxiao's heart tightened, and various shameful images unconsciously appeared in his mind.

When Wang Yingsong said this, he suddenly stopped, gave a "tsk", and shook his head, "Forget it, you don't know anyway."

"..." In the middle of speaking, the listeners felt as if they were scratching their hearts, "Then did you see where he slipped away?"

Wang Yingsong took a sip of mung bean soup, leaving him with an inscrutable smile.

He hasn't said to sneak out yet.

Wang Yingsong's answer was that he didn't know, and Dou Tianxiao, the donkey, didn't react. As soon as he entered Jiang Ran's bedroom, he locked the door furtively and whispered, "Your father seems to know that you sneaked into my house!"

"Ah?" Jiang Ran was also shocked, "Which time? When did you know?"

"I don't know either!" Dou Tianxiao spread his hands out, imitating Father Jiang's unsmiling expression, "He just stared at me like this, making me hairy, and said he saw you sneaking out."

"What did he say?" Jiang Ran asked.

"The original words..." Dou Tianxiao rubbed his chin and recalled carefully for a while, with a resentful expression on his face, "I forgot, I was too nervous at the time, anyway, he asked me if I knew you were dating, and said to see When you sneak out in the middle of the night... You said he might have followed you, and then he already knew that we were in a relationship, and reminded me on purpose?"

Jiang Ran frowned, and after thinking about it carefully, he felt that it was unlikely, "If he knew, he would have skipped a long time ago. It's impossible for him to ask such a calm question. I guess he was trying to trick you. How did you tell him?"

Dou Tianxiao thought his answer was impeccable, "Of course I said I don't know! He didn't ask me any more."

The purpose of Wang Yingsong's questioning this time is nothing more than to use Dou Tianxiao's mouth to remind his son not to do some inappropriate things.

From that day on, before going to bed, he would lock the door of the house and lock two hairs. If the hairs are still there in the morning, it means that his son did not sneak out.

Obviously, his goal has been achieved.

The hair has never fallen out, and the frequency of my son sending messages to his mobile phone at home has increased, and sometimes he even takes a photo before eating and sends it to others.

Jiang Qing caught a glimpse of his mobile phone screen once, and the note displayed in the dialog box was "Domestic puppy", and there was a sentence in the chat history: I will feed you.

Talk about love so blatantly.

Instead, bring people home!

Every time, the kid Dou Tianxiao came over and yelled, "Mr. Jiang, I'm here to eat again."

After entering autumn, the maple leaves in the community turn red a little bit.

Ye Xi's online shop has added a lot of new styles one after another. In addition to small accessories, there are also scarves, hats, socks and other gadgets.

No matter in terms of product quality packaging, delivery speed or service attitude, he tried his best to be the best. The types of gifts are also varied. The business of the online store has gradually improved, and the maximum daily turnover is as high as more than 2000 yuan. That was his dream. Things I dare not dream of.

After the order volume increased, the packaging and delivery speed of the product could not keep up.

Ye Xi had no choice but to squeeze out the time between classes.

He pushes screenshots of the next night’s orders to his mobile phone every morning, and spends time between classes handwriting face sheets on the table, and even takes time as much as possible to fold small gift boxes.

When I got home in the evening, I warmed up the meals for my grandfather, and I took a bowl of instant noodles while taking orders and packing them.

Sometimes I am so busy that I can eat a bowl of instant noodles for more than an hour, and in the end they are so rotten that I can’t eat them.

After Dou Tianxiao entered the third year of high school, his studies were heavy, and his daily homework was basically in bundles. The schoolbag was as heavy as a shot put.

He didn't write his homework fast, and it was almost past eleven o'clock after finishing his homework, so he couldn't help at all.

Grandpa is old and doesn't know much about online sales. Ye Xi explained to him the process of online shopping for a long time, but he still didn't understand how everyone bought things.

How can I open a shop at home?

It's amazing.

But seeing my grandson wishing to be busy until two or three o'clock in the morning every night, I really wanted to help share something.However, he was old and dim-sighted, and his hands and feet were inconvenient. After packing it several times, he saw Ye Xi secretly unpacking it and putting it back in another box.

Realizing that I was doing a disservice.

Since that stroke, the old man's body has been getting worse day by day.

Especially after the weather was cold, he often had a headache and brain fever. One night, he felt thirsty and didn't want to trouble his children, so he pushed the wheelchair to the living room to pour water.

He didn't know what was going on, but the moment he got up from the wheelchair, he suddenly felt dizzy.

The whole person seemed to have lost consciousness and fell to the ground with a clang.

The wheelchair was turned over by his body and pressed against his hip bones.

I don't know how long it took, but I seemed to hear Dou Tianxiao crying anxiously, and when he gradually regained consciousness, he found that he was carried on the toilet in the bathroom by the two children.

The lower body is a bit different.

He lowered his head as if struck by lightning, and saw that his trousers were half taken off, hanging wet on his calves, his thighs, trousers, shoes and socks were all covered with stinky excrement, Ye Xi was lowering his head to help him take off his shoes.

After a moment of unspeakable shame, he closed his eyes, and when they reopened, their eyes were empty and blank.

I... am incontinent again, and worse than before.

The two children were clearly in a panic, their faces were still stained with tears, they kept yelling "Grandpa", and the palms holding him were sweaty and sticky.

"Grandpa, are you okay? What's wrong? Is it a stomachache?" Dou Tianxiao was so frightened that his voice was trembling.

He was doing his homework in the bedroom, when he suddenly heard the sound of something falling outside, he rushed to the living room and saw that his grandfather had fallen to the ground.

When Ye Xi rushed out to help his grandfather up, he found a puddle of wet pants on his pants.

The two dragged him to the bathroom with great difficulty, one gave Jiuxin Pills and the other took his mobile phone to make an emergency call.

Ye Xi knew that his grandfather had been decent all his life, so he would definitely not be happy to be put on the ambulance in this state, where all the neighbors could see him, and he didn't forget to change into a pair of clean pants for him after hanging up the phone.

"I, I'm fine." The old man didn't feel dizzy again after he woke up, but he didn't have much strength in his body. "Did you call an ambulance?"

"Ah, I'm screaming, what's the matter with you? Did you eat your stomach? Does it hurt?" Ye Xi was afraid that he would catch a cold, so she quickly put on clean pants, shoes and socks.

"My stomach doesn't hurt. I don't know what's going on. I just felt dizzy." Grandpa waved his hand, "Tell the ambulance not to come. I'm fine. I'm not dizzy anymore."

"No, I still have to go to the hospital for an examination." Dou Tianxiao's tone was very strong.

The old man was supported by Ye Xi and walked out of the bathroom. There were pale yellow traces on the immaculate white floor tiles of the house.

Dou Tianxiao frantically put the dirty pants into the water to soak, mopping the floor no less than three times.

When the old man was carried to the ambulance, his mind was still empty, only one thought became clearer and clearer in his mind.

I live to let the children suffer...

The hospital's emergency CT scan showed no major problems. The doctor suspected that it was a sequela of a stroke, and suggested taking drugs to improve the problem of incontinence.

That's another big expense.

Grandpa stayed in the hospital for one night and then was discharged.

After he was discharged from the hospital, the two brothers paid more attention to him than before. They changed their three meals a day as much as possible, and when the weather was good, they would push him downstairs to a small park.

The strange thing is that Dou Tianxiao always has a bad premonition in his heart when he sees his grandfather talking with a smile.

He told Ye Xi to watch his grandfather more, so Ye Xi moved all the computer desks to the living room so that he could see the movement in the grandfather's room clearly, and also hid various medicine bottles on the refrigerator, and he only gave one sleeping pill a day.

It's a pity that people always have omissions. This afternoon, Ye Xi was busy dealing with an after-sales problem. He called the customer repeatedly to ask him to change the good review. The other party finally agreed to change the review. Put the medicine box on the dining table, go to the computer and teach her how to operate it.

The old man quietly picked up the small medicine box and went back to the room. It contained his usual antihypertensive medicine, motion sickness medicine, antipyretic medicine, Xueshuantong, sleeping pills...

The road to death is lonely, and no one can really accompany the other.

Everyone is afraid of death.

He is also included.

The physical pain has been tormenting his willpower, which minimizes his fear of death, and he even looks forward to the day when the time of death will come.

He wants a relief.

And the children are the only thing he wants to live.

But it was precisely because of this heavy love that he crushed his last remnants of this world.

Before leaving, he picked up a pen and paper and wrote a short suicide note crookedly.

To my family:

I thought for a long time and decided to leave.

It's not that you didn't take good care of me, it's just that I miss your grandma, especially, she entrusted me with a dream two days ago, saying that she had been waiting for me for a long time, and asked me why I didn't go to see her, so I agreed to her.

I hope my funeral will be simple, don't hold any banquets, there is no need for that, please bury me with your grandma after cremation.You should take good care of yourself, especially Xiaoxiao, you should pay attention to what you eat and wear, as it is cold and you are prone to catch a cold.Xiaoxi also don't keep facing the computer, it's not good for eyes.

Xiaoqin, thank you for taking care of Wen Tao so unswervingly. I am relieved to have you here, and Xiaoyue, come back to see the child when you have time.

Don't be sad any of you when I'm gone.

I have had a great time in my life.

Before leaving, he still thought about how to minimize the harm and guilt to the children.

The old man pressed the suicide note under the pillow, and then greeted his grandson with a smile, saying that he was sleepy and wanted to sleep.

In fact, he really wanted to wait until the family got together for a meal before leaving, but he was afraid that he would be in such an atmosphere, so he was reluctant to leave.

Ye Xi said hello, afraid that the sound of her calling and typing on the keyboard would disturb him, so she closed the door behind her.

Twenty minutes later, he locked the door of his house and went to the wholesale market to buy goods.

At three o'clock, Dou Tianxiao came back from the cram school, and before he could throw away his schoolbag, he shouted at the top of his voice, "Grandpa, let's eat pig's trotters tonight. I bought two knuckles. Do you think it's better to braise it in brown sauce or stew it in clear water?" ah?"

The people in the room didn't respond, and he thought his grandfather was asleep.

When he saw the countless empty medicine boxes on the bedside table and the grandfather who was foaming at the mouth, it was not an exaggeration to describe his state of mind as a catastrophe.

For a moment, he felt that his soul was scared out of his body.

He almost used all his strength to prop up the seat behind him to stabilize his body that was shaky due to excessive fright.

Ye Xi heard a miserable cry on the phone, her legs were weak, and she sat down on the ground.

It was five o'clock in the afternoon when Jiang Ran received a call from Dou Tianxiao, and the phrase "my grandpa committed suicide" hit the back of his head like a bolt from the blue.

It took a few seconds for my mind to come back to my senses.

His hair was only half washed, and the foam on his forehead was hurriedly washed off before he even had time to dry it before rushing to the central hospital.

Dou Tianxiao sat blankly at the front of the emergency room, where several doctors were giving first aid to grandpa.

In the ambulance, seeing Grandpa's weak heart rate, he had already thought of the worst possibility.

But he can't accept it.

"Xiaoxiao." Jiang Ran saw that lonely figure in the chaos, it looked like a person whose spinal cord and nerves had been removed, squatting limply in the corner of the wall, hugging his knees.

"Brother." Dou Tianxiao called him softly.

The emergency room is not an independent room. There are family members of various patients who are being rescued due to car accidents or other accidents outside the door.

It is roughly estimated that there are about twenty of them, both men, women and children.

Jiang Ran bypassed the chattering crowd and walked over to hug him, only to find that Dou Tianxiao was shaking like a sieve, his fingers were bitingly cold as if they had just been fished out of ice water.

I don't know if it was because he was in such a hurry, but Dou Tianxiao didn't even put on his coat, he just wore a white sweater, which made his face pale.

"Is grandpa okay?" Jiang Ran asked.

Dou Tianxiao put his arms around him, like a child who fell down and was helped up, crying heartbroken.

not good at all.

After swallowing so many pills, the doctor took over, passed out, with little hope.

"Brother...why..." Dou Tianxiao spoke with a strong nasal voice, sobbing softly, "Why do you think he..."

Jiang Ran took off his coat and covered him, wrapping him tightly in his arms.

He felt that Dou Tianxiao had lost a lot of weight recently, and his shoulder blades were unusually prominent, and he could feel the outline of his ribs through the sweater.

"Grandpa is still being rescued, right? Then wait a little longer." Jiang Ran pressed against his cold ear, trying to warm him up, "Wait a little longer."

In Dou Tianxiao's hand, he was holding a mobile phone for the elderly, which he bought for his grandfather after earning money, and it fell out of his grandfather's trouser pocket during the rescue.

My grandfather used to brag when he met everyone, and my grandson bought me a new mobile phone.

Even if the function of that mobile phone is only to make calls, send and receive messages, and take pictures.

Grandpa didn't know when he figured out the function of changing the screen saver, and changed the phone screen to a photo of Dou Tianxiao and Ye Xi having dinner.

The pixels of the mobile phone are very low.

The faces of the two people in the photo are blurry and ugly, but they are smiling happily.

That is probably the most precious thing of grandpa.

Before leaving, I still carried it with me.

Soon, there was lightning and thunder outside the ward, and it began to rain heavily.

They waited for more than five hours, but all they got was, "Please forgive me."

For about half a minute, Dou Tianxiao was in a daze. He felt that he had heard it wrong, or that the doctor hadn't tried his best.

The person on the hospital bed was covered with a white cloth, Dou Tianxiao went to the bedside and knelt down, holding his grandfather's fingers, and crying loudly.

Jiang Ran also burst into tears.

Outside the emergency room that night, many people cried hoarsely and mourned.

Of course, this is a place where someone cries to the point of exhaustion almost every night.

Dou Tianxiao's voice became hoarse from crying, and he was tired from crying. He started to have a high fever when he returned home. Jiang Ran stayed with him all night and forced him to take antipyretics.

According to the local customs, the deceased should stay at home for one more day, and then be cremated after the funeral.

Grandpa's funeral was held in the countryside, after all, the fallen leaves return to their roots.

Dou Tianxiao's mother and stepfather also rushed over to wear sackcloth and filial piety.

Dou Tianxiao didn't have the energy to greet them, and leaned against the corner all day without saying a word, except for drinking a few sips of water, he didn't eat anything, even Jiang Ran's coaxing was useless.

On the day of grandpa's cremation, Dou Tianxiao was so burned that his muscles ached, he was dizzy, and almost fell down even when he stood up from the chair.

My aunt and Ye Xiaoyue took care of everything behind my grandfather, and the online shop was closed for a few days.

The funeral was kept simple according to my grandfather's request, and the cremated urn was buried with Ye Xi's grandmother.

"It can be regarded as fulfilling one of his wishes." The aunt comforted herself.

Because of those pills that were not placed in time, Ye Xi blamed himself so much that he couldn't eat, even though everyone reassured him that it was not his fault.

If grandpa really wanted to leave, there would still be ten thousand ways to seek death.

Dou Tianxiao read that suicide note several times, and with his poor memory, he could memorize every word in his mind.

No matter how calm the attitude towards death was in the suicide note, and even showed yearning, Dou Tianxiao still believed that he had not fulfilled his responsibilities and failed to take good care of his grandfather.

If he had seen the clues earlier and spent more time with grandpa, maybe he would not be willing to leave?

Jiang Ran always comforted him with the words "everyone is mortal", but his grandfather's death was really unexpected, and he was tortured before he died.

This made him uneasy.

Even if it is a joy or funeral, the living will be in great pain, not to mention the grandfather who wanted to die like this, the conscience of the living will be condemned for a lifetime; the regret for not being filial in the future is also for a lifetime.

"Grandpa." Dou Tianxiao touched the black and white photo of his grandfather, sobbing in a low voice, his voice was hoarse because of the persistent high fever, "You are really cruel."

The grandfather's posthumous photos were taken by Dou Tianxiao himself before he had a stroke. At that time, he had just bought that new mobile phone, and he liked to take pictures of daily life at home.

The grandfather in the picture is radiant and smiling, looking like he said, "I've had a good time in my life."

During the time when Dou Tianxiao was delirious from the fever, there was still a question that often hovered in his mind.

During the period before grandpa lost consciousness, did he ever regret it?Did he want to take one more look at them during the few seconds when he was in pain and he was about to stop breathing?

Unfortunately, no one will know the answer.

There is a thorn stuck in my heart, no matter how I pull it out, I can't get it out, and it hurts like a piercing pain when I move it.

Grandpa's sudden death had a huge impact on Dou Tianxiao. After a long time, he still couldn't escape from the fact that grandpa had passed away.

He always felt that his grandfather was still by his side, and would tell him to be careful on the road before he went out, and would also give him a handful of white rabbit toffee.

He would habitually push open the door of his grandfather’s room every morning, stare blankly at the empty room, sit by the bed for a while, talk to himself and the photo on the bedside table, and then recite Go to school with schoolbag.

In his world, grandpa is always there.

It's just... out of sight.