camouflage

Shu Xia's biological clock is very punctual, and he automatically wakes up at five o'clock. Looking at the unfamiliar environment, he is still a little dazed, but the weight on his body reassures him. School, he has already left that small county town.

Rubbing his eyes, looking at the light coming in from the window, Ji Xi fell into a deep sleep, his whole body was almost pressed against his body, the bed was small and hard, it felt like his bones were about to break, and his waist was sore.

He turned slightly sideways to let go of Ji Xi, the temperature in the morning was low, he covered Ji Xi with a blanket, and gently got up and went to his own bed, wondering if the two people on the opposite side had come back, whether they knew Their relationship...Anyway, one thing more is worse than one thing less.

He touched the scar on his head, it was obvious to the touch, it didn’t hurt but it was painful, the scene of that day appeared in his mind, he didn’t remember it very clearly, but the feeling was still there, the moment he jumped down was only relaxed for a second, and he regretted it Unfortunately, even if he vacated and adjusted his posture, he still slammed heavily on the edge of the flower table. At that moment, he thought he was really going to die. He was unwilling and relieved at the same time. He was probably really sick, and he persisted despite such setbacks. no.

He took out his phone to unlock it, turned off the airplane mode, and waited quietly for the contact.

Afraid of all kinds of speculation and questioning, he put his phone into airplane mode at night, and he didn't want to contact anyone, and he didn't want to talk to anyone.

After waiting for a while, WeChat was full of group chat messages, Qi Xin and the others chatted a lot, all kinds, girls, games, school, their affairs... He cleared the group messages as if evading, and opened Don't disturb the group messages, I don't want to have anything to do with the past.

Mei Ting didn't call or send him a message, as if his departure didn't matter.

Get sick!

He despised himself, annoyed him when he was looking for him, and annoyed him when he was not looking for him. He himself felt that he was difficult to serve.

Throwing the phone aside, my mind was in a mess.

There is still a shortfall of 10 yuan, including Liu Qiang's settlement salary, which is barely 1 yuan. He has to find a job. He is heavily in debt now...

Thinking about it, time passed quickly, at six o'clock, the school radio played early music, which startled him, and then the lights turned on.

The glare of the lights, followed by Ji Xi's low curse sound, it seems that he was not the only one who was frightened.

He got up and looked at Ji Xi's position, and retracted into the quilt, without any intention of remembering.

Turn over and fold the quilt, get out of bed and wash.

The air in the morning was very fresh, and the sky was mostly bright, and there were noises around him. He stood on the balcony and brushed his teeth, looking at the teaching building opposite and the high-rise buildings in the distance, unfamiliar but not afraid.

Ji Xi didn't get up after tidying up, he climbed onto the bed to mess with him.

"Brother Xi, get up, let's go for a run."

Ji Xi groaned and climbed onto him, murmuring indistinctly: "Baby, I'm so sleepy!"

Rolling her eyes, Shu Xia grabbed his ears and slowly exerted force, "Get up soon!"

"Fuck, Shu Xia, it hurts!" Ji Xi broke away from his hand, got up and sat looking at him, dazed, "Can I sleep for another 5 minutes? Just 5 minutes."

"Then I don't care about you, I'm going for a run, what do you want to bring to you?" Shu Xia is used to his lying in bed, every time he does this, he has to sleep for 5 minutes and has to add 5 minutes.

"Let's go together." Ji Xi immediately got up, touched his forehead, and clicked softly, "I'm not used to having no hair."

Shu Xia helped him fold the quilt, and replied angrily: "You're an afterthought, I told you a long time ago that I wouldn't listen."

Ji Xi squeezed his waist and got out of bed with a smile.

When I got out of bed, I happened to meet the two people who came back, and they looked at each other.

The two of them looked like they were taking drugs, their faces were ugly, their hair was like a chicken coop, and Shu Xia was tidying up the quilt in his hand, these had nothing to do with him, he came here just to study.

Instead, the two greeted each other, "Good morning, I have a lot of time to go out in the future, so don't make small reports!"

Ji Xi gave them a white look, and went to wash up.

Shu Xia smiled, as a tacit consent, whether they skip class or not has nothing to do with him.

Ji Xi dawdled too much, they didn't have time to go for a run, so they had to wait till night to run.

The canteen of No. [-] Middle School is much better than that of No. [-] Middle School. The food in the two canteens is very rich. Shu Xia seldom eats in the canteen. After squeezed with Xu Xi once, she never wanted to go in. Speaking of which, Xu Xi He and Xiao Ning didn't know what was going on, so he didn't pay attention.

Today they got up early, there were not many people, but they ate too much, their eyes were dazzled, and it was difficult to choose.

"Rice noodles are more delicious, do you want some?" Ji Xi put his arm around his shoulders, but he couldn't find anything to eat after looking around.

"What did you often eat?" Shu Xia stared at the dazzling array of foods, wanting to try each of them, so he couldn't choose.

Ji Xi led him to the window on the far left, "I used to rarely eat in the cafeteria. There were too many people, so I always went out to eat or let day students bring me in."

"Then why do you live on campus?" Shu Xia asked, since you don't eat in the cafeteria, living on campus is so troublesome.

"You are popular." Ji Xi said with a smile.

Shu Xia opened her mouth, but couldn't find any words of comfort. Ji Xi's life might not be as easy as he said, right?

Parents remarried, each has children, he is the one who is superfluous wherever he is, living alone in such a big house, the only one who comes and goes is Tang Jing, a caring friend, he pats him on the shoulder and smiles Said: "Should we have a cat or a dog, so that it will be lively."

"Are you stupid? We live in school now, how can we raise it?" Ji Xi rubbed the back of his head funny, only touching his hat, he glanced at it, and said tentatively: "The weather is too hot, why don't you take it?" right?"

Shu Xia fell silent, touched her head, and smiled relievedly: "I'll buy a band-aid later, and I can take it off."

"Well, good." Ji Xi said with a smile, and pulled him over to line up, "Let's eat rice noodles, it's delicious."

"Eat rice noodles early in the morning?" Shu Xia looked up at him suspiciously, "Isn't it greasy?"

"Brother Xia, you are right to live on campus." Ji Xi suddenly smiled.

"Why?" Shu Xia asked.

"Because after a whole day of class, you will find that you can eat even greasy food, and you can change your eating habits." Ji Xi said.

Shu Xia was dubious and followed him in line.

His meal card has not been recharged, so he can only follow Ji Xi.

The rice noodles are really delicious, neither bland nor greasy, and the portion is sufficient.

"I'm going to find a part-time job on the weekend." Shu Xia blew the rice noodles, it was too hot, and she was sweating profusely after eating it.

"But you've just started school life." Ji Xi said disapprovingly, and put a piece of beef into his bowl, "There's no rush, your health isn't good yet!"

He took a bite and said, "My little money won't last long."

"And me, isn't mine yours?" Ji Xi frowned, "I'll give you whatever you lack."

"I also have hands and feet, why use yours?" Shu Xia picked up a rice noodle to see if she didn't eat it, and paused for a while before she spoke, "Ji Xi, I'm not a canary."

Ji Xi clicked his tongue lightly, "I know, but you should focus on your studies now."

Shu Xia nodded indiscriminately, "I know."

After the meal, they went to the canteen to buy a Band-Aid, and Ji Xi put it on for him. His face was not very good, and he tugged at his sleeve, "I'm sorry, I won't do stupid things again in the future."

Ji Xi patted him on the forehead after pasting it up, "What about the future? You, it would be nice if you could think about me." He said as he walked forward, putting his hands in his trouser pockets, not in a good mood.

"Ji Xi." Shu Xia followed him and walked side by side, looked at his stinky face, pursed her lips, "In the future, I will work hard!"

He smiled, put his shoulders on his shoulders and walked to the classroom without saying a word.

This thing was like a thorn, and he lost control of his emotions when he touched it. The tactile sensation of those bright red blood flowing by his cheeks made him palpitate just thinking about it, and he wanted to beat him to relieve his anger, but he was reluctant to do it.

There is no difference between early reading and No. [-] middle school, but the time is earlier.

When Tang Jing came, she complained that they didn't show loyalty and didn't wait for him, so Ji Xi stopped her.

At the end of the day, he understood what Ji Xi said. The progress of No. 10 Middle School was too fast, and he couldn't stop thinking all day long. Usually, after a class, he would give lectures for the first 10 minutes and the second [-] minutes for the topic. Various question types, although the basic knowledge is fixed, but the derived thinking and question types are varied. If it weren't for his lack of foundation, he would hardly be able to keep up with the rhythm of the class.

The teacher is also very efficient. A dozen or so people are selected to ask questions in a class. He is asked six times a day, and the whole class knows him.

After class, I feel hungry. The greasy meat in the cafeteria is useless. After two classes, I will be hungry.Ji Xi bought some snacks, and fed him while eating, and passed a few classes.

The learning atmosphere in the class is very strong, and I don’t go out after class. I am all immersed in the questions and lectures.

But the little tricks are still going on, holding hands, making a few jokes, writing his name on his book...

Tang Jing and his deskmate Wen Xin quarreled as soon as they were in class, it wasn't considered a quarrel, it was a unilateral crush, and Tang Jing would find fault with him anytime and anywhere.In the front row are two girls who like to whisper.

He wasn't interested in their topics, and he could hear a sentence or two, but Ji Xi could strike up a conversation with anyone, as long as he changed his pen carelessly, it seemed to be perfunctory.

Only when the bell rang for the end of evening self-study get out of class did he feel relaxed. The study pressure here was greater than he had imagined, and everyone was moving forward with purpose.

"Going to the cafeteria?" Tang Jing knocked on the table.

"Brother Xia, are you hungry?" Ji Xi put away the books and test papers, stretched himself, studying hard is really uncomfortable!

Shu Xia took the vocabulary book and stood up, "I'm not hungry, so I won't go."

"Then I won't go either." Ji Xi said.

"Tsk, you have to watch Shu Xia when you go to a cafeteria? You don't know if you're hungry?" Tang Jing grabbed her schoolbag angrily and left.

They followed behind, Ji Xi said slowly: "I'm not hungry either, going to the cafeteria is just boring."

"I want to go to the playground for a run." Shu Xia said.

Tang Jing turned her head and said: "If you are full, you will have the strength to run, otherwise you will be exhausted."

Ji Xi felt that what he said was reasonable, and dragged Shu Xia to the cafeteria. The cafeteria did not have as much food and drink as in the daytime at night, but there were quite a lot of people.

It was crowded and noisy.

"I wouldn't have come if I knew it earlier, and it's the same when I go out to eat." Ji Xi muttered after him.

"It's okay, I'm used to it." Tang Jing said, "Since you left, I seldom hang out with them. I always eat in the cafeteria and squeeze around like this every day. It's actually quite interesting. It’s very exciting when grabbing food.”

Ji Xi grabbed his head and slapped him like a watermelon, "You're blaming me, aren't you? Didn't you wean you? Didn't Baba come back?"

"Let go, men and women can't kiss each other, I don't have anything to do with a married man." Tang Jing shook off his hand, walked three steps away from him, and said angrily, "Don't hook up with me in the future."

Shu Xia couldn't help chuckling, the indifference on her face melted into water, but the band-aid on her head didn't look like a good person.

"You, smile more in the future, do you know what people in the class say about you?" Tang Jing looked at him and said, "Gao Leng, you don't talk much, cool and handsome, but not easy to get close to."

Shu Xia raised her eyebrows, he's quite gentle, right?

"I also asked if you were a school bully before. It was too difficult to discipline and you came here. Anyway, there are a lot of gossips. You can try to let go in the future. Everyone is a classmate, a person of the same age." Tang Jing said while walking, copying Start, "After all, there are many ways to know more people!"

"Hey, you still work part-time in chicken soup for the soul?" Ji Xi said with a smile, but he didn't refute or agree. He can do whatever he wants, whether it's aloof or approachable, whatever he likes.

"This also belongs to the psychological category." Tang Jing made a noise with her mouth, raised the corners of her mouth, and walked lightly into the crowd.

Ji Xi ignored him, and leaned on Shu Xia's shoulder, "Don't listen to him, just do what you like, don't force yourself."

Although Shu Xia has no barriers in interpersonal communication, it is very difficult for him to make friends. He used to look gentle and polite, he looked like a nerd, and he has no one to get close to, let alone now, the whole tall and cold man, who dares to approach him ah?

"Well, it actually makes sense." Seeing the noisy crowd, he turned up his voice, "I changed my way when I met you."

Ji Xi leaned against him and smiled lowly. He hadn't heard Shu Xia talk about love for a long time, and when he heard it suddenly, he felt relieved.

"This is the only road, so don't think about changing it again." Ji Xi said with a smile, approaching the crowded crowd, the smell of food filled the entire cafeteria.

"Do you want to eat tamales? The specialty of the canteen." Ji Xi asked.

"Well, fine." Shu Xia replied.

The queue for steamed pork was very long and there were many people. Tang Jing ordered hot and sour noodles and waited for a while before seeing the two of them coming.

"Hey, you still eat such greasy food at night, aren't you afraid of gaining weight?" He stared greedily.

"I'll dig out your eyeballs again." Ji Xi warned and sat down, and Shu Xia went to cook. After a day, he had already adapted to the environment of the cafeteria.

"I want to take a bite." Tang Jing watched eagerly, swallowing.

Ji Xi moved away two centimeters, "No way!"

"Tsk, be stingy." He rolled his eyes angrily, and glanced at Shu Xia who was queuing up, "Your family is very adaptable!"

"That's right, you won't die of hunger wherever you go." Ji Xi looked proudly in Shu Xia's direction, and when he saw a girl talking to him, he still lowered his head slightly to listen to her.

"Yo yo yo, look, your house is about to be snatched away." Tang Jing smiled gloatingly, "That girl is the art committee member of our class, isn't she pretty?"

"Beautiful fart, short man!" Ji Xi stuffed a piece of pork ribs into his mouth, chewed them vigorously, and cooked rice as he wanted, what to talk about, what's there to talk about?

"Damn, Ji Xi, can you stop being so sour? They didn't mess with you." Tang Jing said with a smile, "Besides, don't girls have to be 1.8 meters long to be considered short? The art committee recognized it Beauty, good figure, good looks, are you blind?"

"Where didn't you mess with me? What kind of girl is beautiful? She doesn't go back to the beauty sleep at night, but also comes to the cafeteria. She looks like a bucket at first glance, and Shu Xia can't afford such a girl." Ji Xi stared, chewing vigorously, The sound of crunching bones.

"...Crazy you!" Tang Jing shook her head with a hopeless face, and took a bite of hot and sour noodles, "I still like the hot and sour noodles that I ate halfway through the trip last time. The taste of the cafeteria is not good."

"Forget it if you eat to death." Ji Xi said poisonously.

Tang Jing looked at him with wide eyes, "Damn it, Ji Xi, are you really sick?"

"I'm fine!" He stood up and walked towards Shu Xia, looking for a rival for him without looking at him for a while.

Tang Jing looked at his back, took a deep breath of hot and sour powder, almost choked to death, damn, why is Ji Xi so unreasonable?This possessiveness... What kind of unlucky Shu Xia is, to meet Ji Xi like this.

"From now on, you can ask me anything you don't understand. It's my responsibility to help new classmates!" the girl said with a smile, raising her head.

Shu Xia pursed her lips and smiled, "Thank you, please give me more advice in the future."

"I didn't expect you to look at Gao Leng. In fact, you are quite gentle. I didn't dare to talk to you just now." The girl said with a smile.

"What are you talking about?" Ji Xi cut in.

"Have you bought it? I'll be here soon." Shu Xia looked back and said with a smile.

"Ji Xi, do you still remember me? From the previous class." The girl asked with a smile.

Ji Xi glanced at him. In fact, he is not short among girls, and he is pretty. However, no matter how beautiful he is, he cannot be robbed!

"Sorry, I forgot," he said.

"Uh... That's normal, after all, we haven't talked." The girl was taken aback for a moment, and soon recovered her smile, "My name is Wishing, and it's the birthday wishing."

"Oh." Ji Xi nodded, and moved forward with his arms around Shu Xia's shoulders.

"Are you on a good relationship?" Wishing asked.

"That's because of being able to sleep on the same bed." Ji Xi replied with a smirk.

Shu Xia stabbed him in the waist and warned him not to talk nonsense, but Ji Xi ignored her.

Wishing suddenly realized, "So strong? No wonder they are inseparable all day long."

"Well, it's very iron!" Ji Xi said.

When it was their turn, Shu Xia ordered two bowls of rice, looked back and made a wish, "Then let's go first."

"Okay." Wishing nodded with a smile.

Ji Xi walked quickly with his arms around his shoulders, and Shu Xia collided with others several times, almost spilling the meal, "Slow down, what are you in a hurry for?"

"It's because you took too long, the dishes are cold." Ji Xi slowed down a little, pushing away the crowd so that he didn't bump into anyone again.

"How long has it been?" How could it be so cold in just a few minutes?

"Are you addicted to chatting with her?" Ji Xi turned to stare at him.

Oh shit!

I was jealous for a long time!

Shu Xia obediently shut up and followed him.

"Yo, I'm back, I'll finish eating if I slow down." Tang Jing squinted at them.

Ji Xi glanced at the ribs, three pieces were missing, and sat down angrily, "Are you a rat? You're not afraid of being poisoned to death."

"I only ate two yuan, why are you so picky?" Tang Jing asked.

Ji Xi grinned: "I want to support my family, so I should save a little."

Depend on!

Tang Jing glanced at Shu Xia, and saw that he didn't respond, she seemed to be used to it!

The tamales tasted pretty good, Shu Xia couldn't help eating a few more pieces, she was still full when she went to the playground, Tang Jing went back to read after eating, he is now the seventh age, if he works harder, he might get in Five years old.

"Stop running, take a walk, let's talk?" Ji Xi walked slowly with his hands clasped.

Shu Xia stretched her waist, glanced at his serious face, "What are you talking about?"

"Shu Xia, do you want...to see a psychiatrist?" He asked, there is a good psychiatrist in the school.

Shu Xia paused and looked at him with a frown. Did he also think he was sick?

"It's not what you think." Seeing that he misunderstood, Ji Xi immediately explained, "It's because you are too depressed, maybe you can release it by talking about it, it's not a big deal."

Shu Xia continued to walk forward, looked at the bright lights, and sighed, "Are you still thinking about that?"

"Shouldn't I think about it?" Ji Xi followed him. He also avoided this matter. After holding it down for a long time, he suppressed his tone as calmly as possible, "You didn't think about me at all, did you? The moment you jumped down, What am I to you?"

"I... just afraid." Shu Xia whispered.

"I'm not a clay doll, I'm not afraid of those gossips at all, do you know how the school talked about me before? Gay, all men and women, psychopaths, violent tendencies... a lot, I didn't care, why do you think I bear it? No?" Ji Xi asked in a low voice.

"Shu Xia, I'm not a soft persimmon, so don't worry about it. It's not surprising that Lao Lai knows about our relationship." He said lightly.

"You..." Shu Xia's mind was buzzing, "I... just afraid of hurting you."

Ji Xi panicked: "So you hurt yourself? Then have you ever thought about me? Just in order not to hurt me, you let me bear your life? Then why don't you think that you are the one who hurt me the most? Fuck me Treating you like a treasure, what about you, do you think I'm heartless? No matter how bastard I am, I can't do it..."

"I'm sorry." Shu Xia interrupted him, he was very angry at the time, "I didn't think about it that much, at that time... I had already warned her twice, I warned her twice, she didn't care about my life at all, Thought I was joking, I was just angry... She didn't think about me at all, Shen Shi knew it, and the two teachers in the office knew it, I just... I can't find a way..." He covered his head and knelt down, he I just don't want to hear any more words from them, the astonished eyes, Mei Ting's indifference to him...

"Just for this you can die? What about your strength? What are you insisting on for so many years? Ah? For what?" Ji Xi squatted in front of him, listening to his cries, not wanting to comfort him.

"She asked me to drop out of school! Dropping out means that all my persistence is in vain, in vain, you know? My persistence for so many years is a fucking joke, in her eyes, it's nothing..." He growled in a low voice , with tears all over his face.

Ji Xi leaned over and hugged him, "It's not that she dropped out of school if she wanted to. Why are you so stupid? Ah? You still have me, how can... There is only one life, and if you die, you die. How can you do this? "

"She's my mother! She's my mother, do you know?" He growled, "She gave birth to me. I stayed in that place for her for so many years. I stayed there for five years. I gave up everything. The school is my place. She wanted to occupy the only place where I could breathe a sigh of relief, cutting off my only way, what do you want me to do? What should I do?"

The person who loves you the most in the world is your mother, but does his mother love him?

If this is the way she loves, then he can't bear it.

Ji Xi hugged him tightly to comfort him, "Okay...okay, it's okay, it's different now, it's okay, I'm here!"

"Ji Xi, I really couldn't hold on at that moment. I didn't do it on purpose... I really worked hard..." Shu Xia grabbed his collar and held him tightly, "She has been my friend for so many years. The reason to persevere, but...she has changed...everything has changed, I am even in the same room with her, my nerves are tense, what can I do? What else can I do? "

"I don't know when I will go crazy. I have worked hard. Why are everyone pushing me? Why are you pushing me? I have nothing now, why are you pushing me...why..."

"No, I didn't force you, Xiaoxia, I didn't force you, if you don't go, you won't go, we won't go." Ji Xi hurriedly patted his back to reassure him, "I won't go, we won't go, it's okay , everything before is over, no one is forcing you..."

Shu Xia pushed him away, stood up and wiped away her tears, and went straight to the dormitory.

Ji Xi followed behind him, watching him hurriedly leave him alone behind, wishing to beat himself to death, why bring up this topic seriously.

He ran after him and walked alongside him.

He didn't say anything, didn't cry, just kept silent and hurried on his feet.

Ji Xi followed him through the playground, across the stairs, through the teaching building, and up the stairs in the dormitory, and then watched him climb into bed, covered his head with a blanket, and said nothing.

He sat down in his seat frustrated.

Before Fang Qiang and Zhang Hao came back, he climbed into bed again and sat next to Shu Xia, watching him hide in his own world.

"Xiao Xia, you are free now, you can do whatever you want." He gently patted his back.

Shu Xia lifted the quilt and got into his arms, whispering, "Ji Xi, I'm not sick, I'm really not sick."

He just... just escaped, impulsively, and did that.

"Well, I'm talking nonsense, don't take it to heart, you're fine." Ji Xi whispered softly, wrapping him in his arms.

……