camouflage

Tomb-sweeping Day only had three days off, and the first day was taken for an outing. Shen Shi hired a bus with the class fee, and departed from the school gate at ten o'clock in the morning to the Long March Memorial Hall.

Liu Yang and his class went to have a picnic. The third group of people who knew the news complained and envied all kinds of complaints when they got in the car, and then began to share snacks.

The three of Ji Xi and the others occupied the last row, occupying five seats like a gentleman, and putting bags in two.

"Why isn't Shu Xia here yet?" Qi Xin glanced, everyone was almost there.

"Maybe it's stuck on the road, or something else." Meng Ke took out the snacks in the bag, tore open a bag of crispy corners, and ate it with a bang.

Qi Xin was so greedy that he went over to eat together.

Ji Xi sent Shu Xia a message with his mobile phone, but there was no response at all. He didn't know what to do, so he called directly.

He rang for a long time but no one answered. He frowned and called again, but no one answered when the ring automatically hung up.

Last night he played games with Qi Xin and the others until late and slept in the Internet cafe, forgetting to send Shu Xia back.

Something must have happened!

Bastard stuff!Don't say anything about the situation, it's just a shame!

"I'm not going. I have something to do. You can play on your own!" He put his bag on his back and left.

Qi Xin looked at him holding a crispy corner: "What's the matter? What's the matter?"

Meng Ke also followed him out of the car, "What's wrong?"

"It's okay, you just say that I have something to do when Lao Jiu comes." Ji Xi left without saying a word.

"What's the matter?" Qi Xin caught up with Meng Ke and looked at each other in blank dismay, eating a piece of crispy corners to suppress his shock.

Ji Xi ran back to ride his bicycle, this Shu Xia was just looking for a beating!Worried and furious at the same time, he went upstairs and threw his bag on the sofa, picked up the key and ran downstairs, riding his bicycle to Dawanzi.

Along the way, he was wondering what the hell happened, could it be his mother...Ji Xi didn't even dare to think about it, he stepped up the accelerator, honked the horn, and sped past.

This time, he didn't stop at the side of the main road, but rushed directly to the courtyard in front of Shu Xia's house. The courtyard was very quiet, as if no one lived there.

"Shu Xia?" he called out.

No one answered.

Not at home?

Ji Xi took out his mobile phone to make a call, while walking towards the window sill of Shu Xia's room.

The phone rang in his ears, he opened the window, the phone rang from the bed, but no one was there.

Where did it go?

He ran to the front to knock on the door again, but no one answered at all, where did he go?

Depend on!

Unable to resist kicking the wall, he drove towards the city, calling Qi Xin and the others while riding.

"Is Shu Xia here?" He asked.

"Understood." He hung up the phone.

Ji Xi frowned and thought for a while, then went to the town hospital.

After wandering around like a headless chicken a few times, he remembered to ask the nurse at the front desk.

After getting the room number, Ji Xi heaved a sigh of relief, it would have been better if it hadn't been Shu Xia.

Psychiatric Ward 416.

Shu Xia saw that Mei Ting closed her eyes, her tense nerves relaxed, and her body was full of exhaustion. He sat on the accompanying bed and leaned against the wall, watching the aunt in the next bed hugging the plush doll and chanting, listening to the doctor's words. Said she came in because she lost her daughter and went crazy.

Mei Ting fell ill suddenly, which caught him off guard. She was sent to the hospital early in the morning, and she calmed down after a lot of tossing.

This time the outbreak was silent, if he hadn't gone back, he wouldn't have noticed Mei Ting's strangeness, she was very quiet, too quiet, sitting on the sofa without moving, like a sculpture.

When I came to the hospital, I cried and made a lot of noise. I was given a sedative before I calmed down. After waking up, I continued.

He was so flustered that he didn't even bring his mobile phone, he buried his head wearily, and was blocked by a lot of troubles.

Ji Xi rushed in angrily, and the moment he saw Shu Xia, his anger suddenly disappeared.

He held his heavy panting, and walked over to sit next to him with light steps. Shu Xia suddenly raised his head, looked at Ji Xi in a daze, and then said: "Why... I'm sorry, I was too anxious, I didn't bring cell phone."

"It's fine, just as long as you're fine." Ji Xi rubbed his head, his tense nerves relaxed, "How is it?"

"It's okay." Shu Xia leaned against the wall and glanced at Mei Ting, "I'm used to it, I knew there would be such a time, but I didn't expect it to be today."

"Next time...remember to call me." Ji Xi said with a sigh.

"Ji Xi, you promised me, don't worry about this matter." Shu Xia frowned, not wanting to involve Ji Xi in this matter.

Ji Xi held his breath in his heart. He clenched his fists and suppressed his anger: "Shu Xia, then you have to tell me about your situation. Do you know how worried I am about you? I'm afraid... afraid that you will be hurt, afraid What happened to you, you are always like this, have you never thought about how worried I am not being able to contact you?"

"I'm sorry." Shu Xia lowered his eyes, he couldn't find anything else to say except sorry.

"You are always like this, even if you don't let me interfere, you still have the right to know, right?" Ji Xi looked at him frustrated.

"I'm too anxious." Shu Xia said.

"Are you too anxious or have you never thought of me? You have time to send her to the hospital but you don't have time to call me? At least, at least give me a call." Ji Xi said wearily.

"Ji Xi, can you stop talking about this now? I'm very tired!" Shu Xia closed her eyes, not wanting to explain. He couldn't explain, and he really didn't think of Ji Xi at the first time, and didn't intend to let him get involved.

"...Shu Xia, you are like this, it's very boring, you know?" Ji Xi said in a hoarse voice.

Shu Xia opened her eyes and looked at him, with tears falling down, silently, he raised his hand to wipe it off, "Ji Xi, you...if you're tired, stop."

"You bastard!" Ji Xi turned and left angrily.

Shu Xia burst into tears and didn't chase after him. He worked all night and tossed about early in the morning. He didn't have the heart to move again. He wished he was a tree, without thinking or worrying, just needing to be quiet. Stay in the same place quietly, spring, summer, autumn and winter, the four seasons reincarnate, until gradually getting old and turning into dust.

Ji Xi hid in the stairwell and smoked. He knew that he shouldn't argue with Shu Xia at this juncture. He was bored and tired enough, but he still complained to him willfully, but twice, Shu Xia said it twice Depressed words.

How can you say it so easily?

What did you take their feelings for?

It's so easy to say give up, this fucking love!Talk about a fart love!

Ji Xi knew his difficulties, but this time he didn't want to bow his head first, Shu Xia always relied on him liking him and ignored his feelings, and excluded him again and again.

"Damn it! You bastard!" Ji Xi couldn't help cursing in a low voice, and Ji Xi went downstairs and rode away.

Uncle's!

Stop serving!

love whoever!

Standing by the window, Shu Xia watched Ji Xi's figure fade away, tears couldn't stop falling, he gritted his teeth and silently swallowed back the crying, it was enough, and he couldn't absorb his light any more.

Just go, don't worry about him, live his wanton life, have friends, have fun, don't need to be woken up by a phone call in the middle of the night, don't have to break appointments with friends repeatedly to take care of his emotions...

Shu Xia returned to the companion bed and sat in a daze.

Fuck all to hell!

He cursed pessimistically, wishing he could escape from this ghost place.

Ji Xi rode a bicycle to keep up with the bus, he didn't want to humiliate Shu Xia, he didn't want to go back to the empty apartment, the only place he could go was to participate in class activities, forget everything, and play with himself to his heart's content.

It took an hour to arrive at the Long March Memorial Hall.

It doesn't feel very high, it's very simple, a few large characters are engraved on the stone tablet, and because of the Ching Ming Festival, many people come to offer flowers.

At the front is a monument to heroes, engraved with names, surrounded by yellow and white bouquets.

Shen Shi took the whole class to present flowers, which was solemn and sacred.

Ji Xi stood in the last row, his thoughts had already flown away.

After presenting the flowers, Shen Shi led people inside. They brought a history teacher, a woman, who spoke softly and with a small microphone, telling stories about the Long March in those years.

"Brother Xi, what's wrong with you?" Qi Xin asked worriedly.

Ji Xi cast a glance at him, found a stone bench to sit on, and looked at the endless stream of people, his face full of displeasure.

"Brother Xi, what's the situation?" Meng Ke sat down next to him, "Where's Shu Xia?"

"Don't mention him to me!" Ji Xi frowned irritably.

"...Did you quarrel?" Qi Xin asked.

Ji Xi didn't bother to answer, stood up and followed the big team in.

Qi Xin and Meng Ke looked at each other: What's the matter?

Near the memorial hall is an ancient town, old-fashioned brick and tile buildings, wooden structure, simple and reserved, next to a river five or six meters wide, there are many people visiting during the Ching Ming Festival, and there are elementary school students led by teachers wearing red scarves and holding five-star red flags , going in one by one.

Ji Xi turned around and went to the square, not wanting to squeeze with them.

The square is full of bronze statues. Soldiers with guns and cannons have different shapes and faces. The only thing in common is that they are running, and their faces are determined to die. There are many people taking pictures, leaning on the bronze statues Do various poses.

Qi Xin tutted his tongue and said, "Do you think those martyrs will be so angry that they will get up and look for them?"

"It's possible, I don't know what's good to shoot?" Meng Ke nodded, and it was rare that he didn't confront Qi Xin.

"Brother Xi, why are you so absent-minded?" Qi Xin squatted on the flower bed, picked a geranium, and tore off the petals.

"Your hands are itchy!" Meng Ke clapped his hands, "Did you provoke you by such a trick?"

Ji Xi lit a cigarette, glanced at the double-standard person who criticized others for taking photos but now killed Hua Hua, "Go and look around, I'm so bored!"

"But will Lao Jiu scold us?" Qi Xin glanced at Shen Shi's position. He was showing his classmates around the Red Army's temporary hospital. The history teacher spoke eloquently. listen.

"What a coward!" Meng Ke complained about him.

The three of them pretended to wander around and left the gate of the memorial hall, and went to the ancient town.

Quiet and unsophisticated, the stone-paved path extends to an invisible end. An old man in ethnic costumes sits at the door embroidering, holding the soles of his shoes, with smiling faces. The three of Ji Xi walk along the same road. The stone road is smooth, like It has been trampled by generations and has a strong sense of history.

"This place is really clean!" Meng Ke said.

"Well, raising a dog, planting some flowers, and hanging out around the house, isn't it a paradise?" Qi Xin sighed.

The house is built on the mountain, the shortest is two floors, the same size of wood is arranged to form a corridor, painted with black paint, and a few red lanterns are hung on the top, with the words "peace and auspiciousness, happiness for all generations" Bronzing characters, antique.

Ji Xi walked in front, a bit regretful that he didn't bring a SLR. The ancient town here is not the ancient town built today, but a building in the Ming and Qing Dynasties. It has a history of hundreds of years. It looks elegant and full of charm.

"I still like the city." Qi Xin said, "This place is suitable for retirement, not for new youth like me."

"Cut!" Meng Ke gave him a white look, "I can't afford it if it suits you!"

"Damn!" Qi Xin couldn't refute, it was really unaffordable to live here.

Ji Xi ignored them and walked straight forward.

At the end of the trail is a temple with a red exterior wall and prayer flags fluttering in the wind.There is a circle of evergreen planted outside, and tourists take pictures on it.

"Are you still going?" Meng Ke asked.

"Go back and find a place to eat." Ji Xi turned around and walked back. No matter how beautiful the scenery is in a crowded place, there is no special feature, and all the people in the mirror are strangers.

Ji Xi was in a bad mood when he saw it, Qi Xin and Meng Ke didn't dare to ask more, he just said what he said.

There are many snacks in the ancient town, all of which are on the side of the road. They walked around and there were people everywhere.

"I didn't expect there to be so many people in our small county!" Qi Xin sighed.

"No knowledge!" Meng Ke said.

They chose the one with the least amount of family members, ramen, which was pitifully few, and the taste was not very good. Sure enough, the eyes of the public were discerning, and good things had to be waited for.

After dinner, Ji Xi was in no mood to go shopping again, seeing that Qi Xin and the others would not leave, he rode back by himself.

My mind is messed up like a mess of twine, and I'm upset and irritable, all because of that bastard Shu Xia!

I can't wait to fight to calm down, that bastard!

I don't know good from bad!

Before Mei Ting woke up and went back to cook, Shu Xia had more than a dozen calls on his phone, from Ji Xi and Shen Shi, and the news was overwhelming. He clicked and looked, Ji Xi's, and group chats.

He called Shen Shi to explain. Shen Shi understood his situation and cared for a few words. After a few sentences, he hung up and stared at the phone in a daze. Today's mood is so bad that he feels tired even talking. .

He cheered up and made some food casually, packed a portion for Mei Ting, and then he went back to the hospital.

Mei Ting woke up, but didn't say a word, just sat there blankly, Shu Xia put the food on the small table, and didn't call her.

He is like a trapped beast, bound around Mei Ting, unable to struggle, and unwilling to sink down.

"What's going on in your mind?" Shu Xia looked at her with a sense of powerlessness all over her body. Why can't she live a positive and optimistic life?

Mei Ting looked at him bluntly from the side, then slowly turned back, looking at the crazy woman next to her, her eyes were dazed and dull.Shu Xia wanted to grab her and scold her, but she was just a poor woman, as long as he looked at her face, he couldn't bear to ignore anything.

He has nothing, why do you do this to him?

"If you get better again, I will send you to a nursing home." Shu Xia said in a hoarse voice, "This is the last time. If you continue to make trouble like this, I will really leave you alone!"

Mei Ting didn't even look at it, as if his words were on deaf ears and didn't work at all.

Shu Xia was so angry that she stood up and turned around twice, unable to find a breakthrough in the depression and resentment all over her body, this fucking life!

Forcing her to eat, Shu Xia went to the balcony to smoke for nothing. He bought it when he came back. Cigarettes are like a cure for anxiety. After taking a sip, the exhaustion all over his body disappeared, but his heart was empty.

He won't be choked when he smokes now, what a bad idea!He spurned himself, but still didn't put out the cigarette. He needed something to numb himself to ignore reality and powerlessness.

The flowers in the garden are blooming, red ones, white ones, yellow ones and purple ones, and the trees are sprouting new branches and leaves. When will his new life... come?

He stopped smoking halfway. Moderate indulgence can help him relieve the anxiety and emptiness in his heart, but it can't solve any problems. He has strong self-discipline and knows where his bottom line is.

Let the smoke burn, Ji Xi's shadow is all in his mind, knowing his kindness, but...he is really tired!He even considered dropping out of school, how absurd and helpless it seemed to him!If he chooses to drop out of school, he will not stay in this ghost place long ago. Maybe as Liu Qiang said, in a certain city, on a certain stage, he has some fans. He either stands quietly on the stage and plays the guitar, or wantsonly Swing to rock music.

But he chose to continue studying. If he gives up now, what is the purpose of his hard work these years, what is the significance, and even his dream is still his dream?

Shu Xia didn't know that continuing to study was his last choice and persistence. He didn't want to give up when he was on the verge of life and death, and he didn't want to stay here. He lowered his head and devoted his whole life silently to a home that wasn't warm at all.

The sun is very dazzling, and the temperature is also very high, which makes people feel warm all over.

If...Mei Ting doesn't get any better, he will send her to a nursing home and pay someone to take care of her every month. He wants to go further afield!

Untie the knot in her heart, Shu Xia took a deep breath and then let it out, it's no big deal, there will always be a way, didn't Ji Xi say that even if there is no way, there is still a bridge!

Thinking of him, Shu Xia took out her phone, clicked on his dialog box, entered a few words, then deleted them, repeated several times, and finally only entered two sentences.

sorry!

Promised you, I always remember.

He didn't know if Ji Xi could understand it, or if he would calm down, it was indeed his fault this time.

Ji Xi didn't reply.

Shu Xia extinguished the cigarette and threw it into the trash can, and went to Dr. Li's office. He had to be fully prepared.

Either sent to a nursing home, or cured to go home.

There were very few people in the bar during the daytime, just a few in twos and threes, at the bar counter, Qi Lei poured out his glass after taking a sip, and said in a compromised way: "Look, this time I really drank it all up!"

"One more glass." Ji Xi filled it up for him, poured another glass for himself, and drank it all in one gulp.

"Tsk, that's enough, is it necessary?" Qi Lei took his wine glass away and sighed, "Look at you, how are you doing here?"

"What kind?" Ji Xi picked up the bottle and drank.

"You weren't so sentimental before. You're a rich second generation with a high-level glance, full of thorns and arrogance. Look at you now, you've actually used alcohol to get rid of your worries." Qi Lei also took his wine bottle Let's go, Ji Xi's arrogance when he refused to accept it at that time is still vivid in his memory. He crushed him with his desperate driving skills, and even gave him a contemptuous middle finger when he got out of the car.

"I'm broken in love." Ji Xi lowered his head and mumbled.

"Fuck, who was still throwing dog food and having fun last week?" Qi Lei couldn't help but swear, and lost his usual style of being a second-rate youth.

"So I got retribution!" Ji Xi said.

"Tell me, I'll give you a staff officer." Qi Lei said with a smile.

Ji Xi can't wait to kick him twice, it's a gloating thing!

"He said to break up twice, the first time I forgave him, and he promised not to say it again, but he said it again today, you know? That idiot, who promised himself, actually broke his promise, bastard! Bastard!" Ji Xi couldn't help cursing, playing him like a monkey?

Ji Xi is also a school bully after all, how could Shu Xia treat him like a monkey?Knowing that he likes him, but saying those words, you bastard!

"Tsk, aren't you quite cheeky?" Qi Lei took a sip of his wine, "Stalker, if you don't give me a lesson, you'll be good."

"Reluctantly." Ji Xi said, Shu Xia frowned and felt sorry for him, he didn't want to bother him with such annoying things as stalking.

"Tch, we really broke up?" Qi Lei still didn't quite believe it, he was still showing off last week, did he really respond to the phrase "Love does not hide, kills oneself" right?

"No, I'm just upset!" Ji Xi pulled his hair irritably, "He didn't pay enough attention to this relationship, he didn't put me first, and he couldn't think of me as a boyfriend when something happened, super upset!"

"Cut, childish!" Qi Lei couldn't help but said, he couldn't see it, "Shu Xia is much more mature than you, love is not everything, if he doesn't tell you, you don't know! Why do you have to rely on everything?" you?"

"But I'm worried about him." Ji Xi frowned, as if he owed someone 80. "His family situation is too complicated. I'm afraid he'll get hurt, or he'll collapse from exhaustion."

"If you're worried, just watch it anytime." Qi Lei didn't care, he was just thinking about this shit, "Besides, you can't live without you, Shu Xia, right?"

"I found that I can't communicate with you." Ji Xi frowned and glanced at him, "I just hope he can tell me as soon as something happens."

"Tsk tsk, you're just being hypocritical, and being independent still hinders you?" Qi Lei said, "Even couples have to have their own private space. Maybe it's because of other reasons that he didn't tell you!"

"He's just afraid of hurting me." Ji Xi took out his phone and looked at it. When he saw Shu Xia's message, he immediately opened it. Looking at those two sentences, he shouted excitedly, "Damn! He apologized!"

"Huh?" Qi Lei looked at him suspiciously.

"I already knew that it was his fault in the first place, did you think an apology would be useful? You bastard, I won't forgive you this time!" Ji Xi murmured.

"Childish!" Qi Lei said again.

Ji Xi refrained from replying, he couldn't just bow his head every time, he must be taught a lesson this time.

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