camouflage

Ji Xi knew he was doomed.

Shu Xia left suddenly, obviously he didn't live there for many days, yet he was not used to it.

Playing games, chatting, drawing... I didn't fall asleep until after one o'clock in the morning, and I was uneasy when I fell asleep. He actually had a dream, and it was still a dream!

He was so scared that he got up and ran to the toilet, changed his underwear, and looked up somewhere, feeling uncomfortable all over.

After washing his face with cold water, looking at his blushing and hot face in the mirror, he smiled wryly, what's the matter!

In the dream, he pinched Shu Xia's waist, it was very soft, he pinched him twice, and pressed him to do bad things.

Depend on!

He took another handful of water and sprinkled it on his face, and the images in his mind couldn't stop them from flooding up.

In Shu Xia's nest, on the sky blue bed, Shu Xia is reading a book, reading very seriously. He is sitting next to him. Shu Xia's clothes are fiddled with to reveal a white waist. He can't help but hold and pinch. After pinching, it was unbelievably soft.

The camera suddenly switched to him pushing the person down, Shu Xia stared straight at him with big wet eyes, her face was slightly flushed, she lowered her eyes and pursed her lips and smiled, pure and vivid!

He couldn't help lowering his head, and bit his lip, which was unbelievably soft, like jelly, he trembled with excitement, Shu Xia crossed his hands and hooked his neck, his eyes were crooked, and he was all in his eyes.

He was so excited that the people under him wept softly, with bubbles in their eyes.

It may be because he can take pictures, those shots are very in line with his aesthetics, and every frame is full of temptation.

Ji Xi cursed, beast!

A good student, with a domineering side, was made to cry by him, lying under his body, and then he was frightened awake.

Fuck!

Exhale and suppress those charming shots.

He looked at the time, it was almost seven o'clock, and Shu Xia was about to leave work, and he no longer had the leisure time to go to him for breakfast, having such a dream, he was a little afraid to see people.

I'm afraid I can't help but do something immoral.

So early in the morning, on Sunday morning, Qi Xin was woken up by a phone call, so annoyed that he just wanted to kill Ji Xi to relieve his hatred.

"Brother, look at what time it is now, it's 52:[-], it's not even [-]:[-], do you know what this concept is? I'm dreaming, and you call me, I don't even have time to do something You messed up!"

Ji Xi moved the phone away a little, and waited until the shouting was over before saying, "Are you still dreaming? Sexual dreams?" He coughed a little uncomfortably, because he also had a sexual dream just now.

"How is it possible? I'm very loyal to Yiyi, it's impossible to dream of other women." Qi Xin roared, "I dreamed of flying a plane, and I was enjoying it! You scared me so much that I thought it was a plane crash. Yeah, it scared me to death."

Oh, Qixin's dream is to fly a plane.

Ji Xi ignored his complaint: "Come out for breakfast, I'll treat you."

"No, I want to sleep." Qi Xin flatly refused.

"The one on Guanyuan Road." Ji Xi said.

"Wait for me, right now!"

Ji Xi hung up the phone.

The tall restaurant on Guanyuan Road only serves breakfast and is closed at other times. It tastes great and many people go there.

Most importantly, Qi Xin likes that store.

For a foodie, sleep is not so important.

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When Shu Xia woke up, she didn't know what time it was.

He doesn't have a mobile phone or a watch, and he relies on his biological clock, guessing it's about one o'clock in the afternoon.

Dizzy, I got up to wash up. The mirror in the toilet was missing a piece, which may have been broken by the previous tenant. Only half of the face was left, and I couldn't see the whole face when I stood close.

His face was pale and his hair was messy.

There was no water heater in the toilet, and the condition was so poor that it was inconvenient to take a shower. He washed his head with cold water, wiped his body casually, and went out.

The landlord downstairs was eating, and when he saw Shu Xia, he greeted him and asked if he wanted to eat.

Shu Xia refused with a smile.

The house is private, some years old, the walls are not paved with tiles, just ordinary cement surface, some things are scribbled on it, it may be a child's masterpiece, he can still recognize so-and-so from the dog-like words A visit.

I don't know what to do here, here... Shu Xia looked around, there were several houses next to each other, there was a mountain behind, and there were several foam boxes at the door, in which some onions and garlic were planted.

The door is facing the roofs of other people's houses. The houses here are scattered here and there, and there is no shape.

There are many tenants in this area, part-time workers, school-goers, cheaters, gangsters... The landlord is a gossip uncle, he said a little about everything, and he also listened to some.

Shu Xia was unlucky, and met a gangster who lived next door, a young man who looked honest but was not very old.

Scruffy and sloppy.

Sitting at the intersection with a cigarette in his mouth, his legs crossed, his hair covering half of his face, his eyes squinted at people, when he saw Shu Xia, he took out the cigarette and held it between his fingers, and slowly exhaled.

"Yo yo, new here?"

Shu Xia glanced at him, nodded slightly, but didn't speak.

"Do you know who owns this place?"

Before he could say that he drove the road and planted the tree, Shu Xia said, "I don't have any money, and I'm also stupid."

"...I don't care if you're confused or not, since you're a Taoist, you should understand the rules." The man stretched out his hand, rubbing his thumb and index finger, the meaning was very clear.

"I said I have no money." Shu Xia ignored him and went straight over.

Seeing that he didn't know what to do, the man stood up and stood in the middle of the road, "No matter how poor you are, there will always be three or forty yuan."

"Don't say no, even if I have, why should I give it to you, you think my money came from the wind?" Shu Xia sneered.

"Tsk, brat, you're still studying! Do you know the way to the No. [-] Middle School? That's my boss. Be sensible and bring it here." The man stretched out his hand and said.

Shu Xia almost thought that he would say that he was Ming Lu's boss.He has heard of Ming Lu, a senior in high school, a jerk, who is often on Director Zhang's list.

Fighting, smoking, gambling... It's the rat shit of the school. This is Director Zhang's evaluation of him. Shu Xia has never seen a real person.

What he does in school is not only study but also study, and the classmates in his class can't recognize him clearly, let alone those who cross grades.

"No, get out of the way."

Fighting is always easy, especially when the other party is not easy to mess with. Shu Xia doesn't know how to fight, but he strikes hard and is ruthless enough. He used three points of strength to hit Shu Daqing and beat that person to tears , Just knelt on the ground and begged for mercy.

"Next time, don't trouble me." With a warning, Shu Xia walked away with her bag on her back.

There is a library in the county seat, which is open. Anyone with an ID card can go in and read. It is free to read inside, but you have to pay to take it out.

Shu Xia went to the counter to apply for a library card. The phone number was Ji Xi's. He doesn't have a card yet, and he has lost the previous one and has no plans to get it back.

There is a card to take the books out, and the price is also cheap. As long as it does not exceed three months, it only costs a few yuan. If it exceeds, it will be doubled until the book is returned. However, the card needs 100 yuan, which is to restrain those who read books for three months. Hot people.

The library is funded by the county government. It has a wide range of books. There are five or six staff members in it, who sort out books, clean up, and register at the counter. They wear uniform black suits, and they look like civil servants.

Shu Xia put the civil servants that her mother was thinking of on these people, and suddenly felt that it would be better to study hard, get good grades in the exam, and leave here.

This kind of [-]-to-[-] job, where the work location remains the same, and the work content is also the same, is not suitable for him.

He borrowed ten books, several college entrance examination guidance books, college entrance examination analysis, and two prose books. He also borrowed "Disqualification in the World". Stronger and more rational, some people are very calm after reading it, and some people find themselves after reading it...

He didn't know which category he belonged to.

Today's weather is not good, some gloomy, it may rain.

This place is very distinct, and there is no transition period.

It can last for several months when it is time to sunbathe, and it is unambiguous when it rains. It is a miracle to be able to see the sun.

Shu Xia felt that winter was coming.

He is afraid of the cold, winter is the most difficult season for him, maybe he is Shu Xia, who belongs to summer, but he was born in autumn.

He also secretly scolded himself for being hypocritical, it was just a cold body, not that artistic.

Carrying a book on his back, he went around the streets and alleys, but he didn't see a suitable job. There were many jobs, but he didn't fit the category of going out early and returning late, and being able to go every day.

Very few people want to only do weekends.

I spent the whole afternoon looking for work.

In the evening, he ate a little casually and arrived at school on time for evening self-study.

Ji Xi didn't come for evening self-study.

Shu Xia thought that Shen Shi would look for him on Monday, but he didn't expect him to be in such a hurry and waited for him in the classroom.

Shen Shi's office is still in good order, the succulent has grown a lot, and there is a new pot of succulent next to it, blue and fluffy.

Shu Xia's mind was far away, and she didn't notice what Shen Shi said.

"Student Shu Xia, tell the teacher if you have any difficulties." These words were too familiar and sensitive, and successfully brought back his thoughts of wandering to Java.

He said lightly: "Teacher, I'm fine and I have no difficulties. I will study hard."

"Why is there no difficulty? Look at how sick your mother is. You really shouldn't run away from home even if you get angry again. Your mother is very worried about you." Shen Shi sighed and said, "Besides, why are you Lie to the teacher that your father has gone to work? The teacher has no malicious intentions, but just wants to know more about your situation. You are a good seedling, and the teacher expects a lot from you."

Shu Xia was suddenly very annoyed by his nagging, so she held back her irritability and asked, "Teacher, my mother, what did she say?"

How did it become that he ran away from home?Still worried about him?is he angry

Just angry?He was obviously afraid, afraid of drinking their blood unsuspectingly, afraid of Mei Ting, afraid of Shu Daqing, afraid of such a life.

"She told me about your family's situation. I can see that she is in poor health, but you can't run away. Even if it's difficult, you should go to the teacher or the government to solve the problem. The teacher also knows that you are working hard. You have to go to class and take care of your family, but, Shu Xia, she is your mother and your father..."

"So, what my mother means is that I couldn't bear the burden of the family and abandoned her?" Shu Xia asked hoarsely.

Shen Shi sighed: "The teacher knows that there are rebellious periods in your age group, just communicate more, the teacher can help you, let's overcome it together."

"Teacher," Shu Xia called him in a high voice, "I have no difficulties. My problems are gone. If there is nothing else, I will go to class."

"Shu Xia, again..." Before Shen Shi finished speaking, he rushed out the door.

He actually became a coward who couldn't bear the family difficulties and ran away!

There was a burst of anger in my heart, I couldn't tell if I was suffering, and it was his fault in the end?

Went to the toilet to wash his face, and washed away all the tears that were about to come out. It's no big deal, just talk about it. He has heard enough gossip, but it's just that he is not filial. He even beat Shu Daqing. I have lost my filial piety for a long time, and I am afraid of what others will say.

What about cowards?

What about running away from home?

Now he no longer needs to be afraid, and has his own shelter.

When entering the classroom, it was no surprise that she got some attention. Shu Xia didn't feel anything before, but now she erected her spines all over her body like a hedgehog, with a cold face, and went to her seat expressionlessly.

Xu Chen glanced at him, but didn't dare to ask Shen Shi about looking for him.

In fact, Shen Shi has been looking for him many times, because he studies well, and students who study well will get the teacher's attention.

It's just that his complexion was not good this time, and Xu Yi guessed that something must have happened.

Shu Xia took out the test paper and glanced at the clock above the blackboard, it was 07:30.

Their evening self-study is two classes, and the get out of class ends at 08:30.

There is one hour left, which is six 10 minutes.

Also, I didn’t do comprehensive science. The time for the college entrance examination for science and comprehensive examination is two and a half hours, and the three subjects are equally divided into five and 10 minutes.

10 minutes are reserved for each subject for inspection, that is, four 10 minutes.

There is still an hour before the end of get out of class, and I will try to do two subjects.

Everyone in the evening self-study was not quiet, they chatted and talked about everything, and Director Zhang came once a while, either standing at the front door or at the back door.

There is a correspondent in the class, as long as the situation is not right, he will cough twice, and everyone will know that the teacher is coming.

The teacher is here, and the signal is scary.

Those who eat snacks, chat, talk about love, and play games all take out their books, straighten their backs, and pretend to be deeply discussing academic issues.

When Director Zhang walked up to him, he was able to say hello without changing his face, and asked a question or two by the way.

Director, look at this question, if point p is movable, find its maximum moving range, can you see if this is the case?

Hello, director, this question, I can't tell whether it is an apposition or an attributive clause, look...

Director, I can't tell the difference between the oxidizing agent and the reducing agent, look...

Classes two and three in high school are Director Zhang's nightmare.

He only graduated with a major in politics, so he couldn't understand the problems of their science class at all, but Jiang was still old and hot, and every time they stood at the door, they would consciously sit down and read a book to do the questions.

Shu Xia didn't know how many times Director Zhang came, and his classmates asked a few questions, but he put the noise in his ear to the wind, and worked hard on the questions.

There are three subjects of science and comprehensiveness, chemistry and physics are more difficult, and there are multiple choice questions.

Different from the national comprehensive science paper, the three subjects of the test paper of No. [-] Middle School each account for [-] points, multiple-choice questions, fill-in-the-blank questions and answer questions.

Shu Xia only does chemistry and physics.

The weakest subject should be biology. It is a bit more liberal arts, just like geography in liberal arts is a little bit more science. There are a lot of things to memorize. He doesn't like to memorize, so biology is his weak subject.

According to the agreed time, when the bell rang for the end of get out of class, he stopped writing. He couldn't keep up with the speed of time and needed constant practice.

Counting, today will be the first time he sleeps in his own den at night.

Not surprisingly, he suffered from insomnia.

His mind was in a mess and he couldn't find the source of his boredom, so he could only read a book to relieve it.

It may be that Shen Shi was looking for him, it may be that Ji Xi did not come to class, or it may be that the environment is unfamiliar, although he arranged it himself.

Unspeakably irritated.

He picked up "Disqualification in the World", opened the title page, there was a brief introduction of the author, he didn't read it, and turned to the preface.

……

I, have seen three photos of that man.

One of them should be the man's childhood!

It is estimated that the photo was taken when he was about ten years old. The child is surrounded by a large group of girls (you can imagine, probably the child's sisters and cousins) standing by the pond in the courtyard, wearing a thick striped kimono hakama, with hair Slightly leaning to the left at thirty degrees,' with an ugly smile.

Ugly?However, for dull people (that is, people who don't care about beauty and ugliness), it is an expression of indifference, as if the child's smiling face is ordinary, and they say: "What a cute child!" The words are very flattering, and the hypocrisy may not be heard.

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first letter

All the while, I lived a life of shame.

Seeing this, Shu Xia froze for a moment, as if seeing her own shadow.

It is said that the shame is not that serious, it is just hidden, as long as others don't know, he can pretend that nothing happened.

He has always believed that as long as the thin layer of window paper is not pierced, it means that everything will be safe.

Just like Ji Xi, as long as he doesn't think about it or dig deep, he can eat and play with him as a friend, and even fantasize about taking the college entrance examination together and going to the same university.

Just like Mei Ting and Shu Daqing, as long as everyone doesn't know that they can live in the sun unscrupulously and aboveboard, he can also pretend that nothing happened and he doesn't live in such a family.

Relying on the personality of Xueba and his gentle smile, he maintains a delicate balance with the people around him, does not invade each other, and even hopes to have a positive image that is looked up to.

In fact, in the final analysis, it is a life of shame, or a little more tolerant and tactful, a life of self-deception.

Feeling so bad that he was irritable, he glanced at the music box on the windowsill, and put the book on the pile of books at the end of the bed.

I lost interest, turned off the light, hugged a pillow and looked at the window sill, the air was very quiet, so quiet that I could clearly hear people downstairs, the sound of slippers rubbing on the ground when walking, the sound of crickets, and occasional coughing.

He listened carefully, his thoughts drifting away.

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