camouflage

When Shu Xia arrived home, Shu Daqing was sitting on a small bench in the courtyard smoking a cigarette, his face was full of boredom and empty eyes, when he saw Ji Xi, he immediately changed his expression, smiling like a shit flower, that kind of The color is very black, the flowers with only three petals, the smell is very smelly, there are many in the forest of Dawanzi, it is poisonous, and people who go into the mountains usually avoid it.

"Oh, I'm back, come in and sit down, come in and sit down." Shu Daqing stood up and greeted him like an enthusiastic uncle. If there was no scene at noon, Ji Xi would have been deceived by his appearance.

"Hello, Uncle." He shouted casually, and followed Shu Xia in.

Shu Daqing walked in front, muttering constantly, as if the other party was a distinguished guest.

"It's been a long time since we've had guests at home, come in quickly."

"Where is your family from? It doesn't look like a local!"

"Sit whatever you want, uncle will pour water for you."

Shu Xia quickly walked over and snatched the water cup from Shu Daqing's hand: "I'll do it."

He took the cup he used, and Shu Daqing stood there in embarrassment, and started talking nonsense after a while.

"Hey, come sit here, sit here."

"Have you eaten? Let's eat together later, uncle didn't eat either, none of them are at home, no one cooks, alas!"

"When you marry a daughter-in-law in the future, you must be virtuous, don't be like a fucking mother, you prodigal bitch!"

"Do you want some fruit? There are still some oranges at home that I bought a few days ago."

Ji Xi smiled awkwardly: "Thank you uncle, no need."

Shu Xia gave him the water, and glared at Shu Daqing. The warning in his eyes made Shu Daqing shut up, and the room fell silent, only the sound of breathing was heard.

Ji Xi has never been so embarrassed, he didn't drink any water, took out his phone to click, and sent Shu Xia a WeChat message.

Ji Xi: Why don't I go to your room, why is it a bit embarrassing!

Shu Xia took a look, stood up and said, "Didn't you say that you can't do it if you have a question? Go to my room."

Ji Xi stood up: "Uh, good. Then uncle, I won't bother you."

"It's okay, it's okay, you young people have something to talk about, go ahead!" Shu Daqing stood up and waved his hands.

After entering the room, Shu Xia closed the door.

Ji Xi didn't regard himself as an outsider at all, lying lazily on Shu Xia's bed, sighed: "Your father is so enthusiastic! I can't stand it anymore."

Shu Xia sat at the desk, a little absent-minded.

"Hey, to be honest, how embarrassing I am!" Ji Xi threw the pillow on the bed dissatisfied and hit Shu Xia on the head.

Shu Xia came to her senses and embraced the pillow that was about to fall to the ground.

He asked sullenly, "Am I... very hypocritical?"

Ji Xi was taken aback, seeing that he was not in high spirits: "No, everyone has secrets that they don't want to tell others, and you haven't been sorry to anyone, and you have nothing to worry about."

He smiled and said, "This is not a master at all, it doesn't fit your status."

The last sentence is a joke, but it doesn't seem to work.

Shu Xia has too many things to worry about, and it's not something that can be explained in a short while.

If it is found out that Mei Ting also has AIDS today, their house will really be...the home of the virus, who dares to come and play with him, if he accidentally hurts someone, how innocent and unlucky that person is.

Not to mention this incurable infectious disease, Shu Daqing's face, Mei Ting's mental illness, who can stand it!

"When are you leaving?" Shu Xia asked, it would be good to leave early, in case Qi Shu Daqing has a dark heart and gives him bloodletting and something to drink.

Ji Xi got up and sat down: "Hey, you chased me away? Who was still eating my roasted meat just now, how ungrateful!"

Shu Xia looked up at him, pursed her lips: "No, it's up to you."

"Okay, I'll be leaving in 20 minutes or so. I'll sleep for a while, and I'll lend you your earphones." These days, he has been upside down day and night, lack of sleep, and feels a heavy head if he doesn't sleep.

Shu Xia threw the earphones to him, very common earphones, bought at a street stall for [-] yuan, it is a necessary tool for him to listen to English.

Ji Xi chose a song at random and lay on the bed, "Tsk, the sound quality, the quality of the earphones is too bad, Xueba."

Shu Xia ignored him, and took out Wusan to do it.

Seeing that he ignored people, Ji Xi got used to it.

There was a faint smell of laundry detergent on Shu Xia's bed, a bit like lavender and a bit like camellia.

It smelled good, he took a deep breath and closed his eyes.

As soon as 02:30 arrived, Shu Xia didn't care if Ji Xi was asleep or not, she lifted his quilt and shouted twice: "It's time, they should look for you."

Ji Xi crawled over in a daze, covered the quilt, and said in a muffled voice, "Sleep for another 5 minutes, I'm going to die of sleepiness."

"No, I'm going out, you can't stay here." Shu Xia pulled back his quilt again.

Ji Xi sat up: "Student Shu Xia, do you have any sympathy?"

"No."

"you are vicious!"

When going out, Shu Daqing was looking at his car again, and even reaching out to touch it, his saliva was about to flow out. If it wasn't for Shu Xia's face, Ji Xi would have lost his temper, especially when he hadn't woken up. When he died, he was woken up when he fell asleep.

Thinking of this, she glared at Shu Xia with dissatisfaction.

Seeing Ji Xi, Shu Daqing's enthusiasm came out again.

"Where did you buy this car? It's so beautiful!"

Ji Xi replied angrily: "City A."

Unexpectedly, Shu Daqing's eyes lit up: "City A, not bad, really good!"

Shu Xia looked at him coldly, Shu Daqing didn't dare to say more, and went back to the courtyard dam to sit in desperation, wrinkled his face, and muttered in his mouth: "I'm not filial, dare to stare at me, it's okay Little, deserve to be struck by lightning..."

It was the first time Ji Xi saw such a person, and it was a little strange, but he didn't dare to make a joke when he saw Shu Xia's face was not good.

"I'm leaving," he said.

Shu Xia waved her hand and watched him walk away.

"Brat, it's great to have a rich friend. You dare to stare at me. Sooner or later, your legs will be broken. You bastard, a debt collector..."

Shu Xia ignored him and called Mei Ting.

Still shutting down.

what happened?

He closed the windows, locked the door of the room, and went out to find someone.

There was no one in Shu Xinfang's house, she said that Mei Ting came to sit for a while in the morning and then left, and Shu Xia went to another house to look for her.

During this time of gossip, it is impossible for her to stay in any house for a long time.

He was going to look for it on the street.

Mei Ting has a habit of finding someone to talk to when she is in a bad mood, or find a corner on the street and sit in a daze.

He took the bus and brought Mei Ting's ID card and medical records with him.

Sure enough, here.

Shu Xia looked at Mei Ting in the gazebo, sitting blankly, like a fool, but in fact she was a fool, when she went crazy, she didn't understand anything, she didn't know anything.

The gazebo is very big, and many elderly people like to gather here to play cards. They play cards all day long, and it is very lively at night. There will be several barbecue restaurants next to it. People buy things and eat in the gazebo if they can’t sit down.

Crossing the bridge and crossing the zebra crossing, Mei Ting saw him before he got close to her. He took two quick steps and came in front of her.

"Mom, what are you doing here?"

"Just sit here. I wanted to go to the hospital, but I found out that I didn't bring my ID card and my phone was turned off. I just wanted to wait here for you." Mei Ting said.

Shu Xia sat next to her helplessly, Mei Ting almost moved away subconsciously, he froze, and said with a choked voice: "What if I can't find you, just wait stupidly?"

"I know you can find me," she said.

Shu Xia looked at the river ahead and blinked: "You haven't eaten yet, what do you want to eat?"

"Eat, just bought buns."

Shu Xia: "Let's go to the hospital!"

Mei Ting didn't move, she lowered her head and said, "Xiao Xia, if it's true, we don't need to cure it, it won't work anyway."

"...Check first and then talk." Shu Xia walked ahead first.

When they arrived at the hospital, there were quite a lot of people. Because of the medical records, Shu Xia took Mei Ting directly to the doctor's office last time.

After entering the isolation room for inspection, Shu Xia waited outside alone, his heart was in a mess, and he couldn't find a stop. The pressure from all directions was on his shoulders, making him breathless and helpless.

The waiting process was excruciating, and 1 minute seemed like an hour.

The door of the examination room was not opened until the leg went numb.

There was no expression on the doctor's face, Shu Xia couldn't tell if it was good or bad.

It took more than 40 minutes to wait for the test results. He took people to sit outside and waited. There were quite a lot of people who came for the test. Shu Xia didn't know if they were all infected or if they were taking precautions. She just felt terrible.

The doctor's armed appearance is terrifying, and this disease... is also terrifying. People who suffer from the disease are not just scary, right?He looked sideways at Mei Ting with a calm face, he couldn't tell what she was thinking.

The first time I came into contact with AIDS was in the first grade of junior high school. It was written in the biology book, and the teacher also mentioned it. The real understanding was only when his father was infected.

Although you won't die immediately, your immune system will weaken. Although the doctor said to keep a good attitude, don't work too hard, and have regular work and rest schedules...all of these can be slowed down. If you are lucky, you can live for 20 years.

But Shu Daqing was afraid that he would not survive.

It is common for him not to return home at night. He plays cards and smokes, eats irregularly, drinks alcohol, runs around all day, and has no mentality to move forward at all. Shu Xia hears his cough every two days, and she is also very thin. .

So when the doctor told him that Mei Ting needed to persist in treatment, maintain a regular schedule, eat a healthy diet and exercise properly, and cooperate with a good attitude, the chance of getting sick would be greatly reduced, he knew it.

Later, he didn't listen to what the doctor said. He only knew to take the bill to get the medicine and pay, and then took the bus home with someone.

He was very silent along the way, he didn't have time or extra energy to watch Mei Ting's condition, and when he arrived at Dawanzi Station, he slowly regained his senses.

"Mom..." His voice was so hoarse that he couldn't utter it, "Do you hate him?"

He didn't know why he asked this question, but suddenly he couldn't find anything to say, maybe he just wanted to find an outlet.

If his mother said hate, maybe he could beat Shu Daqing right now, and then what?

Then what?Can the result change?

"No hate," she said.

Shu Xia asked hoarsely, "Why?"

"Anyway, people are going to die. It doesn't matter if he dies sooner or later. He didn't do it on purpose. It's all because of the widow Wang. It's all that... bitch... It's all her, woo..." She burst into tears and sat on the stone With despair on his face, he pushed the source of the crime to the widow Wang.

"He...wasn't like this before. He loved us very much. He left early and returned late. He would give me nothing when he got his salary..."

"He also gave me a ring...a big one, they all envy me..."

She was crying and sitting on the stone next to the bus station, recalling their good memories, she couldn't remember every word of Shu Xia.

Shu Daqing's good memories of him seemed to have been exhausted in the past few years, leaving only pain and disgust.

He knew that he was not a filial child, nor did Mei Ting miss his old love as much. He only saw that the road ahead was very dark, and he couldn't get out no matter how hard he climbed. His parents dragged him back, and he was on the edge of the cliff struggling.

"Mom, he's gone," he said, "that person is long dead, and only lives in your memory."

When I got home, it was already past six o'clock.

I don't know why Shu Daqing didn't go out today. Maybe it's because he saw him a lot after the holiday. He usually sees him every two or three days in class. He doesn't say a word. Xia Lian didn't want to go home.

He was sitting on a stool by the door smoking a cigarette. He had changed seats and was no longer in the courtyard. His feet were bare and pitch black, and he hadn't washed them for an unknown period of time.

Leaning against the wall like a pile of rotten meat, his eyes were dead and empty, and when they came back, he just rolled his eyes to prove that he was still alive.

Shu Xia ignored him, but Mei Ting rushed over and gave him two slaps. Unexpectedly, Shu Xia froze in place in surprise.

"Bastard... bastard..." She beat and cursed, tears streaming down her face.

Shu Daqing didn't dare to provoke Shu Xia, so Mei Ting was not afraid, he stood up and pushed Mei Ting, Shu Xia didn't have time to catch it, and hit the wall.

Mei Ting seemed to have exploded, she got up and continued to fight.

He stepped forward and pulled two hands, "Stop hitting!"

Mei Ting threw him away directly, and got into a ball with Shu Daqing.

He was suddenly very tired and didn't want to worry about anything. He actually found it quite interesting to watch them hit me and I hit you.

Hit it, hit it, hit it enough, even if you kill it, you will be free.

He didn't give a damn, walked straight into his room, slammed the door behind him, and shut the mad couple out of his world.

But the yelling kept ringing around his ears, he wanted to hide, he didn't want to hear it, he didn't want to see it, he couldn't find the earphones, so he turned the music volume to the maximum.

Themonster's running wild inside of me

……

Solost,

I'm faded

……

These shallow waters never met

Whatineeded

I'm letting go

Adeeperdive

Eternal silence of the sea

……

Very strong electronic sound, excluding the sound outside the door, Shu Xia leaned on the bed and listened to the phrase solost, I'mfaded.

Tears slid down the ends of the eyes, onto the hair, into the ears, onto the pillow.

He lay on the bed, curled up into a ball, buried his head in the bed, only the words I'mfaded in his ears, and his heart was empty.

It is obviously a dynamic electronic song, but he can hear the feeling of loneliness and emptiness. He can't arouse any fighting spirit. He just wants to sink and fall into a dark place with a few stars, which is very empty. Man, he is the only one who can't think, can't have the emotions and desires, just empty like this... let those few bright stars accompany him, sinking all the time...

Today's picnic was generally quite successful, and the tossing didn't end until almost six o'clock. The fish was not killed because no one dared, so Ji Xi brought it back and kept it in the living room, with Tang Jing's little turtle. A nest, a black fish, nothing special, but I just don't want to kill it, I have to give it a chance to grow up, Ji Xi suddenly thought of what Shu Xia said.

Well, I'll eat you when you grow up.

He threw in a handful of the bait he bought today, and he couldn't feed it to death.

Tang Jing laughed at him while playing with her mobile phone: "Crazy, it's not good to raise a goldfish, what to raise."

"Shut up." Ji Xi put the bait next to the glass fiber reinforced plastic, and waited for time to buy fish feed, "You don't understand, this is the first time I caught a fish, it's a commemoration."

"This fish belongs to that friend of yours! What's it called?" Tang Jing couldn't think of that person's name for a long time. Can't afford the name.

"Shu Xia, the surname is Shu and the first name is Xia, the summer of summer."

Ji Xi kicked his leg off the tea machine, picked up the remote control panel and tuned a random TV station, playing a soap opera.

"The name is quite special." Tang Jing looked up, "When did I start watching soap operas?"

Ji Xi shook his head, playing with his mobile phone, "I didn't watch it, it was just busy."

Tang Jing is more sensitive, so she reacted immediately, "Are you going to stay here forever?"

"I don't know, anyway, I don't want to go back now." Ji Xi said.

"Why don't you go back and stay here?" Tang Jing didn't even bother to persuade him, what he said was nothing to Ji Xi.

"Okay, long-winded." Ji Xi didn't want to bring up this topic.

He opened Weibo and posted the fish he caught today, with the text: The first fish in life.

I don't think it's accurate, this fish belongs to Shu Xia logically, but it's his in his hands, he doesn't plan to change it, click send.

Tang Jing received it immediately, he opened it and commented: Shameless.

He is not the first to comment, there are already many comments below--

Baba finally posted a picture!

Why is it a fish, or such an ordinary fish!

Upstairs, you are blind!How can this be an ordinary fish?This is the most common grass carp paired with a bully shooting technique, it is a bully fish!

Hahahahaha!

shameless.

Upstairs is black fans, sisters, tear him up!

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Tang Jing's Weibo was scolded by some stupid fans privately, and she yelled angrily: "Fuck, these people are blind, I'm not ugly, I'm so handsome."

"What's wrong?" Ji Xi turned to look at him.

"Look," Tang Jing handed him the phone to look at, "This person calls me ugly and makes more troubles. How can I be ugly?"

"What did you do?" Ji Xi understood his pissing behavior, so he must have done something.

"Just a comment on you."

Ji Xi turned to Weibo to read it, and after seeing the shameless sentence, he agreed very much: "They are very discerning."

"Fuck, Baba, you don't love me anymore..."

"When did you get a little bit of Baba's love? Get away..."

The sound outside didn't know when it stopped.

Shu Xia's whole body was numb and he couldn't move. He opened his eyes, but couldn't see any light. He didn't know if it was covered by the quilt or it was already dark outside. He didn't want to move. Annoyed to close it.

Quiet around.

Only then did he realize that there was no sound outside, maybe the quarrel was over... no, the fight was over, what happened?injured?or dead?

I don't want to care, I don't want to listen.

He took out his phone and looked at it. It was past eight o'clock and he had to go to work tonight. He was so anxious that he wanted to smash the phone, but unfortunately, he would have no money to buy a new one if he smashed it. Yes, I have three years of life, a birthday present for myself.

Tomorrow...is the Mid-Autumn Festival and also his birthday.

Not wanting to go to work, he called Liu Qiang to ask for leave. Liu Qiang knew the situation of his family, so he agreed with a few words of comfort.

He huddled under the blanket in a daze, and somehow thought of Ji Xi, and the sweet corn he roasted, it was very sweet...

It was too bitter now, and he wanted another taste of the sweet.

He stood up, turned on the desk lamp, and did the questions with May Three in his arms. Doing the questions could squeeze out his distracting thoughts and irritability, leaving only the knowledge in his head.

Eat too much during the day and can't sleep at night.

Ji Xi held his mobile phone to play match 416 games. He played level [-] for several days, but he couldn't get past it. He went to play the game a little bored, and found that everyone was very quiet today.

"Hey, girl, come and play a game." He pushed Tang Jing who was sleeping like a pig beside him.

"I'm sleepy, don't fight." Tang Jing muttered.

Ji Xi held the phone boredly and couldn't fall asleep.

He seldom suffers from insomnia. When he first came here, he was not used to being in a daze all night. He said that he was asleep but he was awake. This feeling was very uncomfortable, and he felt drowsy during the day. Sleep, can't sleep at night.

Then slowly got used to it.

Now it starts again.

He got up and went to the balcony. Tomorrow is the Mid-Autumn Festival. Tonight's moon is as round as a compasses drawing. He took a picture and posted it on Weibo without any text.

A few night owls below wish him a happy Mid-Autumn Festival.

He took a look and left.

Click on WeChat, the word Shu Xueba on the top is very conspicuous.

He tapped his phone, and it was only 10:30, but he was too tired during the day, and everyone had no energy to shout about what to do, and the group was silent.

At this time, Shu Xia should not be asleep yet, so he sent a sentence.

Ji Xi: Xueba, what are you doing?

Waited for a long time to reply two words, no punctuation marks.

Shu Xueba: study

Ji Xi smiled, and as expected, he replied: I like it, but there is a mistake in the last sentence, it is a shame that a dignified student would make such a mistake!

after awhile.

Shu Xueba: Study.

Ji Xi chuckled and pressed the video call button for him, but the other party cut it off unexpectedly!

Fuck!

He tapped the screen fiercely and typed: ungrateful! ! !

Shu Xia didn't reply to him, he sent a bunch of emoticons to him, throwing bombs, holding knives, calling him to kneel down and beg for mercy... There was no response, he was so angry that he wanted to beat him up, this person is too good at hanging Appetite!

After about a few minutes, the other party sent a sentence.

Shu Xueba: Do you still have sweet corn?

Ji Xi was taken aback and didn't reply for a long time. What happened to Shu Xia?

He is not someone who asks others if they have anything. He is used to giving, and he doesn't seem to ask for anything. Of course, except for money, a preoccupied iron cock, ah... not today, and bought him a bottle of water.

Ji Xi: Yes, what's the matter?

Shu Xueba: I want something sweet.

Ji Xi didn't reply.

Shu Xia didn't ask any more.

He may be on a whim, or he may be hungry. He didn't eat lunch or dinner, and he has survived on Ji Xi's baked goods until now, and he doesn't know the reason.

He didn't go out all the time, he just went to lie down when he didn't want to do the questions, it was really uncomfortable to lie down, and he got up to read a book again, his mind was empty, he couldn't put it in, and he couldn't get out.

He started to do the problem again, but found that the simplest equation could not be solved.

Annoyed that he couldn't find an exit, it was like a bomb was thrown into his heart, it was about to explode at any moment, but he didn't know when it would explode, which made him restless.

It may be that the last straw has not been pressed, and he has not yet fallen.

It may be that he is more resistant to pressure, the pressure is very unconvinced, and he has been playing tricks in his heart.

possible……

He couldn't find any other possibility.

It was very quiet outside, and he guessed idly that both sides might be hurt, or both would die together, and it was impossible for the two to reconcile.

Anyway, no one called him for dinner, maybe he had already called, but he didn't hear it.

The moon is so round that it seems that you can reach it through the window.

When he was a child, he liked Mid-Autumn Festival very much, because it was his birthday, although Mei Ting would start to read his birth at that time. She didn’t get mooncakes to eat that year. There are many traditions in the village, and there are too many things you can’t eat or make during confinement , Greasy ones will make you fat, spicy ones will make you angry, salty ones will make you stutter, sweet ones will cause diabetes, washing your hair will cause headaches, taking a bath will cause rheumatism...

Shu Xia didn't know what it was based on. The old man would always say: When you get old, you will regret it. I just didn't listen to the older generation... That's why I got this disease... Pained all my life.

The novice mother who was so frightened that she knew nothing about giving birth dared not do this or that.

Mei Ting was afraid of leaving the root cause of the disease, so she didn't eat a single mooncake during confinement. The Mid-Autumn Festival has already passed since confinement, and she has never forgotten it for so many years.

It's nostalgic enough.

Tomorrow is his birthday, and no one will celebrate it for him.

I didn't buy moon cakes either. Today's shock was enough, and no one thought of buying them.

It seems that he hasn't received a birthday gift for many years. Elementary school is fine. At least at that time, Shu Daqing's job was not lost, Mei Ting was not sick, and the family was relatively well-off. He can ask for things he likes, such as cars, superman, Rubik's Cube...

just now……

"Hmm", the phone vibrated interrupted his thoughts, and Shu Xia brought it over.

It's Ji Xi.

He scratches the green dot.

"Xueba, are you asleep?" Ji Xi's clear voice came from the phone.

He miraculously calmed down, and whispered: "Not yet."

"come out."

"I'm on the main road below your house, and I dare not go up, for fear of disturbing your parents."

"Will you come or not, I brought you sweet corn."

"If I don't come down in 3 minutes, I will leave."

After hanging up the phone, Shu Xia was a little dazed, unable to recover, Ji Xi is under his house?

And sweet corn?

He just casually asked something that even made him feel bored, and he... came running!

Shu Xia didn't know how she felt, moved, shocked, wanted to cry, wanted to call him an idiot, and stayed up late at night, but...

He quickly tidied up, put on a white casual coat, picked up his phone and ran out.

Thinking that the lights were still on, I ran back again.

When he was going out, by the moonlight, he saw that the small wooden bench was broken in half, he paused for a second, and ran down like a 800-meter sprint.

It takes 3 minutes to run fast from his house, and he was delayed by almost 1 minute at home.

When he ran out of breath to the road, there was no one there.

Ji Xi left?He timed out?

He was deceived?

Somewhat uncomfortably leaning on his knees, panting heavily, really... let's go!

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