my cp turned out to be

As Ma Jiao said, Zhao Yuanbin was almost obedient to him.After he promised to chat with Zhao Yuanbin every weekend, Zhao Yuanbin immediately vacated a guest room for him at home and decorated it completely according to his preferences.Not only that, he sent additional staff to the hospital that night, and specially found reliable experts to treat Ma Yuan.

From that day on, Ma Jiao and Zhao Yuanbin had a long entanglement.He reported to Zhao's house every week, and stayed in the living room or dining room most of the time. If Zhao Yuanbin's subordinates came over, he would go back to his room.

The first year with Zhao Yuanbin passed quickly.One evening in the spring of the second year, Ma Jiao gave the living room to Zhao Yuanbin and his subordinates to discuss matters. He passed by Zhao Yuanbin's bedroom and returned to his room, but heard a strange noise in the door.He stopped in his tracks, frowned and looked towards the room, worried that there might be thieves—many of Zhao Yuanbin's important items were kept in the bedroom.

He retreated to the stairs and wanted to call for someone, but he saw the solemn atmosphere downstairs, as if he was discussing some life-threatening matter, so it was not easy to disturb him.After thinking about it, he decided to open the door in the corridor to have a look, and call someone if he saw anything suspicious.

After making a decision, he emboldened himself, turned the doorknob, and slammed open Zhao Yuanbin's bedroom door.

The bedroom was pitch black, with only the faint street lights from the neighborhood outside the window peeking in.The room was very quiet, and the strange noises heard earlier had long since disappeared.

Ma Jiao breathed a sigh of relief, turned on the lamp at hand and looked around, but his eyes were fixed on the bedside - he saw a very luxurious shrine there, and a familiar and cheap Guan Gong statue, which was previously captured by Ma Yuan. The one enshrined!A gust of cold air hit Ma Jiao's back, making him shiver slightly: What's going on?Why is this statue of Guan Gong here?Shouldn't it be enshrined on Lao Qi's grave?How could Brother Zhao put it beside his bed, and it was equipped with such a high-end shrine?

He swallowed, walked into Zhao Yuanbin's room slowly, and carefully examined the statue of Guan Gong. The discomfort he felt in Ma Yuan's rented house once again came to his heart, and he couldn't help frowning.Ma Jiao stood still in front of the statue of Guan Gong, and flashed in his mind the emaciated appearance of Ma Yuan who woke up from the hospital half a year ago, and the morbid madness shown by his brother, making him more and more sure that there was something wrong with the statue of Guan Gong.

He hesitated a little, thinking of Zhao Yuanbin's pampering to him, he felt that he had a backbone, reached out and picked up the statue of Guan Gong, aimed it at the ground and smashed it down!Unexpectedly, the carpet in the room was too thick, Guan Gong seemed to bounce on the ground twice, but it didn't break.

Ma Jiao gritted his teeth, bent down to pick it up and wanted to smash it again, when he heard a loud shout from the door: "What are you doing!?"

Zhao Yuanbin strode in with a dark face, snatched the statue of Guan Gong from him, gave him a hard look, then carefully placed the statue of Guan Gong back on the shrine, picked up the incense, and bowed respectfully three times.

Ma Jiao was terrified by him, shivering and dodging to the side.Seeing Zhao Yuanbin's posture, his heart sank, and he felt that he saw a second Ma Yuan: Do you want to have a good talk with Brother Zhao?But he seems very angry with me... Besides, can he listen to me?No, even if you don't listen to me, I still have to say, you can't... you can't just watch him have an accident.

"Brother Zhao, this Guan Gong looks very wicked, don't..."

Before Ma Jiao finished speaking, Zhao Yuanbin snarled at him like an annoyed lion: "Shut up! What kind of evil is not evil? This is called efficacious! Ma Jiao, did I spoil you so much that you forgot your weight? You What is it, who allowed you to enter my bedroom casually? Get out, you get out now! If I find you in again, I will kill you and let your brother be buried with you!"

Ma Jiao was completely stunned.After agreeing to Zhao Yuanbin's request, the other party showed a ferocious face to him for the first time.The sockets of his eyes were sore, and the bottom of his heart seemed to have been opened with an awl, the pain was unspeakable, and the bitterness inside surged up one after another.He comforted himself: Brother Zhao was only affected by the statue of Guan Gong, and everything would be fine if he smashed it; but he felt a wave of despair: Wake up, how can there be any ghosts and gods in the world?Whether Ma Yuan or Zhao Yuanbin, you are nothing in their eyes, not even an object...

With thousands of words stuck in his throat, Ma Jiao managed to force out a sentence: "Believe it or not, it's no good for you to keep this Guan Gong like you... I'm sorry Brother Zhao, I, I'm leaving." After he finished speaking, he staggered out of the room Zhong ran out, all the way out of the gate of Zhao's house.

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"Zhao Yuanbin is also influenced by this Guan Gong statue." Hearing this, the old man of "Shan Hai Jing" said with a sigh.

JOJO imitated Ma Jiao and repeated: "It seems that Brother Zhao was also affected by the evil spirit on the statue of Guan Gong... Strangely, Ma Yuan was affected by it because he was young and wandering outside, unable to go home and have no one to rely on," He paused when he said that, apparently he had some experience of the pain of not having a sense of belonging, "But Brother Zhao is so fierce and powerful, why is he also affected?"

"Probably because he also has a weakness in his heart." Lin Xi guessed as she turned the water glass in her hand.

Ma Jiao nodded to Lin Xi: "Yes, Brother Zhao's weakness is that young man that I can't replace."

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From the day Zhao Yuanbin got angry with Ma Jiao, the latter never went to Zhao's house again, and Zhao Yuanbin didn't come to see Ma Jiao either.

Ma Jiao felt sad and helpless, but at the same time was a little calm that he couldn't force it.He went to school peacefully, and went to the hospital to see Ma Yuan, who was recuperating, when he was free. Even if he was kicked out again and again, he was not annoyed. In his free time, he did odd jobs to save money, and was going to pay for the medicine owed to Zhao Yuanbin for his brother. Pay back.

This went on for 3 months.When autumn came, Ma Jiao was blocked by people on his way to work.

The person who blocked him was Zhao Yuanbin's subordinates, and Ma Jiao had seen him in Ma Yuan's rented house.He introduced himself as Awei and said he would invite him to drink tea.Ma Jiao wanted to refuse, but Ah Wei said earnestly: "I have something to ask, it's about Brother Zhao...it's very important, we really have no choice." Ma Jiao left with him.

Arriving at the tea restaurant near the school and entering the small private room, Ma Jiao immediately asked, "What's wrong with Brother Zhao?"

Ah Wei sighed: "I shouldn't have told you, an outsider, about this matter... But seeing how much brother Zhao valued you before, you can't say you are an outsider, right? This is so evil, how can I put it..."

Ma Jiao's heart skipped a beat: "Evil? Is it related to the portrait of Guan Gong that brother Zhao took back from my brother?"

"Oh, you know? When did you find out?" Ah Wei was surprised, and then nodded, "Yes, it has something to do with the Guan Gong statue. I have been with Zhao Ge since I was 14 years old, and the Guan Gong statue was still with him. I bought it from a street stall. In the early years in my hometown, although we offered it, everyone knew that it was a dead thing... At that time, we laughed at you when you were about to smash it in the alley, didn’t we? "

"But it's different now. We're also to blame for our carelessness. We didn't find out what was wrong earlier. Didn't you say that when you brought back the portrait of Guan Gong from your brother at that time, it was going to be enshrined on Brother Seven's grave? But when we got home, Brother Zhao took the portrait Tao Xiang changed his mind after a while, and put the thing in his room. Before that, you went there every week, and the situation was fine. Although Brother Zhao often lost his temper, it was still normal. Since three months ago If you don’t go anymore, Brother Zhao seems to be a different person suddenly..."

Speaking of this, Ah Wei scratched his face with his hands: "He became very irritable, irritable, and belligerent, and he always let his brothers compete with others for territory and conflicts. Many things can obviously take a step back, but he He wanted to fight to the death with others, and many brothers in the gang were injured in the fight with weapons, and each of them complained endlessly. We tried to persuade the brothers who followed him in the early years, but we were all scolded back. Later, I heard from the nanny that Brother Zhao Recently, he always hides in the bedroom, holding the statue of Guan Gong in his arms and chattering, Guan Erye showing his spirit or something... We guessed that he might have been hit by something unclean."

Hearing this, Ma Jiao felt that Awei's words were all within his expectations, so he said: "I also think there is something wrong with that Guan Gong, I even tried to smash it three months ago... and I was kicked out by Brother Zhao .I understand what you said, but it's useless for you to come to me, right?"

"No, it's useful." Ah Wei tapped the table with his fingers, "Our brothers calculated it together, and I feel that you seem to be able to suppress the evil spirit of the Guan Gong statue. Besides, Brother Zhao loves you, which is obvious to all. What do you say? It must be more useful than us. I came to you just now, and I hope you and I will go over to see Brother Zhao. It would be best if you can persuade him to smash that crap. If it doesn’t work, steal it and let us deal with it.”

"This..." Ma Jiao hesitated.

Ah Wei stood up and bowed to him: "Please, little brother, it's all for Brother Zhao."

Ma Jiao found that Zhao Yuanbin had become his weakness, he choked for a while, and finally nodded: "Okay, I'll go with you."

Goodbye to Zhao Yuanbin, Ma Jiao realized that the man had lost weight.

His cheekbones are particularly prominent because of his thinness, his face is as handsome as ever, but it lacks the usual free and easy indifference, and adds a chilling shadow.Sitting on the sofa in the living room, he raised his eyelids and looked at Ma Jiao who was pushed in by Ah Wei, and asked coldly, "Why are you here? Who allowed you to come here? Didn't you stop coming?" Looking at the door, He sneered, and then said, "Is that Ah Wei? The brat is getting more and more courageous. Why, you made an alliance with them and came to persuade me to smash that statue of Gong Gong? You are not reconciled to not smashing it last time, are you? "

After hearing this, Ma Jiao stood there in a daze for a while.He didn't know what to say, he just looked at the man's face stupidly, finally walked over, raised his hand to caress Zhao Yuanbin's cheek and said the first sentence: "...Why are you so thin?"

As soon as these words came out, he felt his eyes were hot, and tears rolled down uncontrollably. The thoughts and grievances that had been suppressed for the past three months rushed in his heart, causing him to bend over and hug Zhao Yuanbin uncontrollably, and asked tremblingly, "How did you make yourself look like this?"

Zhao Yuanbin obviously didn't expect Ma Jiao to react like this.His body was stiff as a rock at first, then slowly relaxed.He hesitantly raised his arms to embrace Ma Jiao, and then he slowed down and exerted force slowly, and then spoke in Ma Jiao's familiar gentle tone: "...don't cry, I'm fine...don't cry, such an adult Now, why do you love to cry so much?"

Ma Jiao buried her head in his arms and shook vigorously.

The two hugged each other silently.After a long time, when Ma Jiao regained control of his emotions, Zhao Yuanbin spoke again: "Did you come this time because of the Guan Gong statue?"

Ma Jiao sat up straight, looked straight into the other's eyes, twitched his nose and nodded.

Zhao Yuanbin stroked Ma Jiao's hair like a small animal, thought for a while and said slowly: "I admit...there seems to be something wrong with Guan Gong, but...I really can't live without it."

"The pottery statue was placed on the bedside by a ghost that night, and I had a dream that night. I dreamed...he, dreamed that he frowned and helped me with my homework. Every time I got a question right, he would give me a lesson. He has a nice smile... To be honest, I haven't dreamed of him for many years, and I almost forgot what he looked like."

"This kind of dream can only happen when I am in my room. If I sleep elsewhere, I can't dream. I tried to put the statue of Guan Gong in the living room, and then went back to my room to sleep, but I couldn't dream. I knew it, my dream It has something to do with the statue of Guan Gong... A voice in the dream said to me that he is the second master Guan, as long as I worship him well, I can always meet that man in my dreams—this temptation is too great, I can't say no."

"I started to enshrine him, and that person became more and more vivid in my dreams, and even many small things that I had forgotten were repeated one by one, and the most repeated thing was that he was beaten with a stick , the scene where I can't do anything... I feel aggrieved, angry, annoyed... I can't help bringing these emotions into the day, I know I'm wrong, and I know I can't go on like this, but I... I can't leave that place The statue of Guan Gong, even in a dream, I still want to see him..." Zhao Yuanbin's voice slowly trailed off, and he buried his face in Ma Jiao's arms.

Ma Jiao was fascinated by what he heard, and could not restrain his envy and even jealousy of the boy in Zhao Yuanbin's memory.Obviously, that person is Zhao Yuanbin's eternal weakness and heart knot, which cannot be touched or untied. His death will forever bind Zhao Yuanbin, but it also makes him willing and happy.

From then on, Ma Jiao knew that he could never replace that boy.What he desires, he will never get.But even so, he still wants to help Zhao Yuanbin, he still wants to treat Zhao Yuanbin well...

Resisting the soreness in his heart, he lightly pressed Zhao Yuanbin's back of the neck, and asked gently: "So that's the case. Since you always see the scene of that person dying in your dreams, let me ask you, when he was beaten , did he beg you to beg for mercy from those people?"

"……No."

"Did he use his thin body to stand upright, gritted his teeth and didn't say a soft word to those people?"

Zhao Yuanbin's body trembled, recalling these made him very painful, but he still answered: "Yes."

"Then do you remember what he said on your back before he died?"

"He said he liked me... let me not be sad..."

"Then what are you doing now? Zhao Yuanbin, you let him down."

Zhao Yuanbin raised his head to look at Ma Jiao, and Ma Jiao pressed his head back into his arms: "He likes you so much, he likes you so much that he doesn't bow his head even when he is beaten, let alone let you bow your head for him, he likes you until you die I also want to give you peace of mind, so that you don't feel sad... He likes you, and he wholeheartedly wants you to be well. He always advises you not to fight and study hard, just hoping that you can live a safe and happy life. But what about you now, for him Bewitched by a statue of Guan Gong, becoming tyrannical and provoking more disputes because of him...Brother Zhao, you are hurting his heart."

"I... broke his heart?" Zhao Yuanbin's tone trembled a little.

"Well. Didn't you say that I am very similar to him? I am as stubborn and obedient as him. If one day I have an accident because of my brother, then my greatest hope is that my brother can live a better life. In this way, I didn't take this life in vain...I believe me, my feeling must be right, because..." He cut off the conversation abruptly.

But Zhao Yuanbin didn't notice that Ma Jiao's words were only half spoken, he was completely touched by the first half of the other party's words.His mind was full of the boy's voice and smile, and his heart was full of nostalgia and guilt for that person.So he didn't know, Ma Jiao, who was hugging him at this moment, suppressed tears, and silently completed the second half of the sentence: because... I like you too.

In this way, Ma Jiao persuaded Zhao Yuanbin to no longer rely on the Guan Gong statue.

Under Ma Jiao's persuasion, Zhao Yuanbin was going to smash the pottery statue, but his heart softened after he lifted it up, so he just handed it to Ah Wei, and asked Ah Wei to offer it to Lao Qi's grave.Faced with Ma Jiao's doubts, Zhao Yuanbin explained: "Keep it, at least... it also gave me a good dream for a while."

Ma Jiao couldn't help it. Seeing that Zhao Yuanbin had returned to normal, Ma Yuan seemed to cheer up, so he didn't care about the whereabouts of the Guan Gong statue anymore.At that time, he didn't know that the impact of this "Second Master Guan" on his life was far from over.