my cp turned out to be

Spring four years ago.

Zhao Zixuan returned home thoughtfully, and parked the car in the garage.Sitting in the car, he watched the gardeners come in and out busy planting peach blossoms, and took out the small peach wood pendants from the rearview mirror to play with.

The small pendant was very rough in workmanship, it was just a half-palm square mahogany signboard, and the sides were sanded so that people could hold it with their hands.On the front, "Repelling evil spirits" is written in Xiaozhuan, and on the back, "Ping An" is written in official script. The handwriting is rusty for beginners, but not lacking in aura. Both sides are inscribed in small script: "Xiuyi" - this is written by Zhao Zixuan. Zhou Jun's expression.

Since Zhou Jun proposed to leave last summer, the relationship between Zhao Zixuan and him has undergone subtle changes.On the surface, Zhao Zixuan hated the young man's "daring and arrogance", and threw him into the nanny's room to make him reflect; in fact, he subconsciously increased the number of times he came back, and inadvertently flattered Zhou Jun in every possible way: such as teaching calligraphy by hand, accompanying him He appreciates gold, stone and fine wine.

And Ah Jun was as obedient as ever.From the moment he moved into the nanny room, he never mentioned the matter of leaving, and devoted himself to learning the various skills taught by Zhao Zixuan, and he never refused to come, and practiced all of them.He was originally a person with a dexterous mind, and with a little effort, he made rapid progress. Gradually, he was able to chat with Zhao Zixuan about some things about Yangchun Baixue.When two people meet, they prefer to be in the study instead of the bedroom more and more...

It's just that he will never ask coquettishly "Will you leave me?" Most of the time, he prefers to hug Zhao Zixuan tightly and sleep quietly.

Zhao Zixuan was a little concerned about this. After exercising on the bed, he hugged him and asked, "Why didn't you ask?"

Ah Jun was so exhausted by him that he couldn't even open his eyes: "...What are you asking?"

"Ask if I will leave you?"

"Hehe," Ah Jun chuckled, and finally regained his energy.He opened his eyes, looked at Zhao Zixuan's calculating face, and pecked at the other person's mouth like coaxing a child, "Why should I ask such a stupid question knowingly?"

"Oh?"

"Oh what..." Ah Jun pulled Zhao Zixuan down with a little force, let him lie down, and leaned on the latter's arm and said lightly: "We have been together for more than seven years, and I can understand your character: you are better than anyone else. Domineering, more greedy than anyone else. As long as it is what you want, you will never let go... So, you will not leave me, although at the same time, you will never give up your marriage. "

"Then you are willing?" Zhao Zixuan hugged Ah Jun sideways, feeling very complicated - uncontrollable distress, guilt and a little bit of relief.

"How can I be reconciled." Ah Jun shook his head with a smile, and lightly bit his shoulder, "Watching the person I like marry a wife and have children? How could I be reconciled... But what can I do if I am not reconciled? Mess? I How much more shameful. Leave? It's not like I haven't tried it. It's just...Zhao Zixuan, Zhao Zixuan," he sighed softly, "Do you know? The moment I saw you cry, my legs went limp."

"At that time, I knew that I was completely finished. I was tied up by your side until I died. This is probably my life... How should I put it? I only hope that there will be a next life. In the next life, I will never fall in love with you, and I will never leave. Take the current path of being a mistress. As for this life, I’m just a wimp, I just hope you don’t drive me away.”

"Hearing your tone, are you going to rely on me?" Zhao Zixuan said bitterly, he didn't know how to answer, so he could only joke.

"Yes! I'm relying on you!" Ah Jun broke free from his own thoughts, and thoughtfully put on his lively smile again: "No matter what you say, don't let me leave you! No matter how far you drive me, I will definitely come back!"

"Honey, why am I willing to drive you out?"

Reminiscing so far, Zhao Zixuan couldn't help rubbing his brows, feeling more and more speechless in his throat—in fact, when he came back today, he wanted to drive Zhou Jun out, because his fiancée proposed to live together.

Two hours ago, he accompanied his fiancee to watch a movie and sent her home.The other party got out of the car, turned back suddenly, and asked with a half-smile, "I heard that you have a small western-style building outside the Fourth Ring Road, the one full of peach blossoms?"

Zhao Zixuan's heart thumped, his thoughts turned, but he nodded calmly.

The fiancee smiled sweetly: "I heard that it is your secret base. Except for Henry, no one else has ever been there? I sound curious. I want to go and have a look tomorrow. If it suits my eyes, I will move there. You don't mind?"

Zhao Zixuan didn't answer immediately, but narrowed his eyes slightly to guess what the woman was thinking.

The woman laughed generously: "Don't think too much, I just want to make sure, lest I become a sinner who broke up Liu Che and Chen Ajiao. We will get the certificate soon, I don't want any mistakes, and you think so too Right, dear?" And in her eyes it was clearly written: I know all about your filth, if you want to marry me, you have to restrain yourself.

"Of course, dear. I'll pick you up early tomorrow morning." Zhao Zixuan smiled with deep eyes, kissed his fiancée on the cheek, and drove away.

On the way home, on the one hand, he was upset that the woman asked someone to check him, and on the other hand, he admired the other party's methods and generosity - such a woman is worthy of him - but on the other hand, he was in a dilemma, how to talk to Ah Jun and let him leave temporarily.Yes, leave temporarily, Ah Jun is a toy he raised in shock, how could he be willing to drive him away?It's just to temporarily dismiss him and change his house after a while.

After thinking about it, Zhao Zixuan put the mahogany card back on the rearview mirror, got out of the car and walked into the yard.Unexpectedly, as soon as he entered the courtyard, he saw Ah Jun sitting among the garden workers, joking with them in dialect. It was at this moment that he made up his mind.

Seeing Zhao Zixuan's return, Ah Jun's face flashed with joy and a little panic.He jumped up from the ground and patted his clothes in embarrassment: "You are back."

The gardening workers also stood up one after another: "Young Master Zhao."

"Yeah." Zhao Zixuan nodded politely to the workers, without looking at Ah Jun, he went straight into the room, the latter followed him in with a white face, closed the door, and then stumbled to explain: "Zixuan, you are angry ? I know you don't like my association with these workers... But, but, they are all from Jiangxi, I haven't seen the fellow villagers for a long time, so I chatted for a while..."

"Have you not seen your fellow countryman for too long? Then you should go back to your hometown." Zhao Zixuan changed his mind and made up his mind, without even looking at him, he said coldly, "Pack up your things and go buy a bus ticket tonight. Stay in the country as long as you like!"

"...Are you throwing me away?" Ah Jun's face was bloodless, and he was stunned for a long time before forcing a smile on his face and pulling him up, "Zixuan, I know I was wrong, don't be angry... "It was swung away!

Zhao Zixuan turned his head, with a bit of anger on his face, more of arrogance and disgust, and full of impatience: "Don't touch me! Your hands are full of mud, tsk."

"Zixuan..." Ah Jun was shaking like a sieve, and the water vapor slowly condensed in his eyes and rolled down.The peach-eyed man was full of panic and bewilderment, as pitiful as a dog abandoned by his owner, "Zixuan, I don't want to leave, I promise I won't associate with those... who are not popular, okay?"

Zhao Zixuan's heart softened immediately.He couldn't help reaching out to wipe Ah Jun's tears, feeling that the other side rubbed his palm timidly, and almost blurted out "Don't go", but fortunately he remembered his plan at the last moment.So he sighed, made a considerate look and said softly: "Okay, don't cry, what does such a big person look like. I'm not driving you away, I just see that you are homesick and give you a family leave to think about What are you? Don't worry, I will definitely call you back within a week or a month at a time—you also said that I will never leave you, huh?"

"Yeah." Looking carefully at Zhao Zixuan's eyes, Ah Jun finally smiled through his tears, he tentatively touched the man with his hand, and seeing that the man frowned unhappily but did not make a sound, he finally felt relieved, "What about you? You don't come back with me."

"I've been busy with work recently." Zhao Zixuan patted him on the head, "Okay, go wash your face and pack your things."

"Oh." Ah Jun replied with a smile, turned and went to the bathroom.

Zhao Zixuan hooked the corners of his mouth and let out a sigh of satisfaction.

"Then what? Ah Jun just left and never came back? Did he take your bankbook with you?" JOJO blinked his golden cat eyes, and various American drama plots flashed through his mind, asking repeatedly.Seeing Zhao Zixuan shaking his head, he became even more curious: "Then tell me quickly, what happened in the spring four years ago, and how did you drive him away?"

Zhao Zixuan rubbed his brows, poured himself a glass of lemonade to moisten his throat, and then looked back at the peach blossoms outside the window: "I drove him away because he left and came back that day..."

The next morning after Ah Jun was sent away, Zhao Zixuan followed his fiancée back to his home full of peach blossoms.

The woman curled her lips disdainfully at the peach blossoms all over the courtyard, and commented: "Gordy." Zhao Zixuan nodded in agreement.

The two of them didn't stay in the courtyard and went directly to the gate.

Zhao Zixuan took out the key to open the door, turned around and his heart sank: The door is not locked?But when he left this morning, he locked the door.

An ominous premonition crossed his mind, Zhao Zixuan immediately turned to his fiancée, "Our tennis court is very nice, do you want to go and see it?"

The fiancee raised her eyebrows, her face full of suspicion.

Just at this moment, someone opened the door from the house—A Jun, who was wearing a white shirt and jeans, stood at the door and greeted Zhao Zixuan with a smile: "Why are you back at this time? I left something important and came back to pick it up. Thinking of meeting..." He stopped talking abruptly, staring blankly at the woman with delicate makeup behind Zhao Zixuan, showing an expression of disbelief.

Zhao Zixuan was sweating, he forced himself to be calm, opened the door and introduced to his fiancée: "This is my housemaid, who helps me clean the house and garden, and is leaving today." He bit the word "go" It was very heavy, and he gave Ah Jun a stern look, signaling him to get out immediately.

Ah Jun stood there motionless.He raised his head slowly, his seductive peach eyes were full of dim light, and his face was as white as a ghost: "...you let me go, it's not because you are angry that I associate with 'inferior people', but because you don't want me to dirty her eye, is it?"

"Heh, the male servant?" Before Zhao Zixuan could speak, the fiancée let out a sneer first, and she looked at her fiancé leisurely, "What an imposing male servant."

"I'm spoiled." Zhao Zixuan's self-esteem was stabbed by the woman's smile, and he felt his face burn.He forced himself to maintain his last demeanor, and signaled Ah Jun with his eyes: Get out!

After receiving Zhao Zixuan's instruction, Ah Jun's expression twisted all of a sudden, he showed a weird look that was not a smile, and he shook his shoulders and laughed lightly: "The spoiled male servant? Hehe... Really good status... I originally thought...haha...I thought I could hold on to something, but in the end, hahahaha...I'm so stupid, I thought this is our home..." He let go of his hand and let the things in his hand Floating down, he brushed his hair with both hands, revealing his beautiful face and ferocious expression, "Are you very angry, Zhao Zixuan? Then be angry. I have already said that if you keep me here, sooner or later, I will will turn your life upside down..."

"Slap!" Zhao Zixuan was frightened by Zhou Jun's expression, coupled with his anger and frustrated self-esteem, he subconsciously raised his hand and slapped him. The action was so big that Ah Jun's nose bleeds.

Ah Jun's expression was blank for a moment.He covered his injured face, didn't look at Zhao Zixuan again, and rushed out of the door in slippers.

As soon as the slap fell, Zhao Zixuan already regretted it.Seeing Ah Jun running out, he subconsciously wanted to hold him back. When he turned around and saw his fiancée's face, he came to his senses and stopped moving.

The fiancée smiled faintly, took a step forward to pick up the things Ah Jun left behind, glanced at him, and patted him in Zhao Zixuan's arms in disgust: "Thank you for letting me watch a good show, I'm going back. As for getting the certificate I have to think about it again.”

Zhao Zixuan forced a smile: "Shall I take you back?" His fiancée waved her hand to refuse and left resolutely.

The man watched the woman go away, and leaned against the door weakly, feeling a splitting headache.He gasped for breath, unable to tell whether it was shame or annoyance, remorse or sadness, and he raised the thing in his hand to his eyes: it was a photo: two men stood among the peach blossoms, one with a narrow smile, the other with a full face. Crimson is better than spring flowers.Someone drew a heart with a red pen to surround them, and wrote in neat handwriting: Zixuan and Ah Jun!

This is the first and only photo of him and Ah Jun.