Don't understand

On the night when Chen Gan was closed in front of Yu Ran, Zou Pei was killed quietly, and Liu Er died in the hands of the warlord's wife. She went away without even a word of excuse. A little person like a duckweed in troubled times returns to the west.

The total number of days that Zou Pei joined the group was just over two weeks, but he got along very well with everyone. Zhang Ji Xiao Zhou said goodbye to him with some reluctance, Makeup Xiao Ji also came to congratulate him, and the director also patted Zou Pei approvingly and said, "You did a good job. When the time comes to promote the new film, come to the stage." Zou Pei smiled obediently and said goodbye to everyone, saying politely and humbly that he has learned a lot and will continue to work hard in the future.

Zou Pei looked around, but he didn't see Chen Gan. He was puzzled, so he asked Liu Yu. Liu Yu said that he had left beforehand, and congratulated Chen Gan on his completion, and had dinner together when he was free.Liu Yu's attitude was appropriate, and Zou Pei didn't want to ask too many questions, so he thanked him and left.

Zou Pei was in a trance on the return journey, staring at the flashing neon lights outside the window, looking at one tall building after another, looking at the handsome men and women dressed in fashion on the street, he couldn't help showing a lonely expression, The corners of his eyes were originally bent down, and he looked pitiful, but now his brows and eyes were lowered, and he looked like a wounded little animal.

Zou Pei bit her lip, took out her phone, and sent Chen Gan a text message.

Brother Chen, I finished the filming today, and I feel very lost. Can I meet you for a drink?

Zou Pei seemed to regret immediately after sending out that line, and wanted to delete it angrily, but deleting it was nothing but self-deception, and the message had safely arrived on Chen Gan's phone.Zou Pei clutched the phone, as if trying to squeeze a hole out of the back case, but a thin layer of sweat dripped from his fingers.

Information came in a short while.

Alright, see you at "Moonlight" in Sanlitun.

Zou Pei seemed to have been pinched by someone's neck and then suddenly loosened. A large amount of air rushed into his lungs. Zou Pei took a low breath and confirmed the information again. Then he raised his head and said to the driver, "Go to Sanlitun."

The driver didn't show much surprise. Stars spend most of their night life in nightclubs and bars. It's strange to be able to go home honestly. He was only hired to drive, and he just satisfied Zou Pei's requirements, and immediately turned around at the next intersection. , turned around and drove towards Sanlitun.

Zou Pei fell back on the backrest and closed his eyes tiredly.

The agent assigned to him by the man kept a distance from him, and only took care of his work-related matters, and never took care of the rest of his personal time, so he thought he was making a report at the moment.Zou Pei couldn't help but sneered that the man's hands and eyes were open to the sky, did he still need to use an agent to stare at him so obviously and childishly?

Trapped in the same place, with nowhere to go, he struggled, shouted and cursed to no avail, only the man's endless cold love and almost perverted possessiveness, he seemed to be loved, but also seemed to be hated, Sometimes he enjoys extravagant treatment like the queen of favor and is enshrined on the altar, and sometimes he is shackled by anklets and plunged into the bottomless abyss in a dark secret room, all depending on the person's preference.Their slightest friendship was spread out on the iron-handed negotiating table, and he was never a good opponent who was eloquent. He could only submit, kneel, and obey orders.He is like a holy angel during the day, and a goblin and ghost at night. Without makeup, he allows him to draw at will, and puts on makeup just to make him smile.

When I dreamed back at midnight, there was always a little boy with two small canine teeth smiling at me. He wanted to go up to tease him, but he was ruthlessly opened. The little boy stood in front of him and scolded him with a weird expression, a bitch.He suddenly realized that this was himself, his two small canine teeth had been removed long ago when he debuted, and his chubby little face was not as pale and thin as it is now. He stretched out his hand, but he couldn't touch anything.Every time I wake up, I already burst into tears, looking at the majestic sleeping face of the person beside me, the despair welling up in my heart almost kills him.

He wants to escape, he wants to get the light, he wants to bask in a sunny place, so that the dark and corrupt dregs deposited on his body and the few remaining shameful hearts will be washed away, he is guilty, he wants to be forgiven, he is unwilling, He wants to be happy, he is greedy, and he wants to start over.

No matter who, whoever stretched out his hand to him, he would hold it without hesitation, as long as the hands were strong enough to pull him out of the mire and lead him out of the darkness.

If I hurt you, please forgive my intentional or unintentional.

"Moonlight" is an inconspicuous bar. In Sanlitun, where every inch of land is expensive, it only rents a small place. The table, chairs and bar counter are simply inserted on the wall with a flower branch that cannot be named, and the color is rich. There is usually a small stand next to the seat, on which there are classic works wrapped in Moroccan lambskin, including poetry and classics. Wen, only when you lift the sheepskin can you know whether it is emotion or reason.

The place here is not spacious, the lights are dim and ambiguous, and occasionally a long-haired singer sings French ditties on it. When he takes a sip of wine, his voice will be a little hoarse immediately, but it has a special flavor.

This can be regarded as the old place of Chen Gan and Zou Pei. Chen Gan and Zou Pei, who played the gay Qin Xiuran, had a fierce sex scene. in person.At that time, Chen Gan couldn't shoot because he couldn't find the feeling, and Zou Pei didn't know how to respond because he was nervous and shy. Later, Chen Gan suggested that the two should get in touch with each other in private to cultivate their relationship, so he often asked Zou Pei to come to the bar to chat.Zou Pei's delicate face appeared blurred and soft in the dim light of "Moonlight", Chen Gan was slightly drunk, and almost couldn't help but stepped forward to touch her, Zou Pei turned her head to avoid it in a panic.Chen Qian seemed to have found a feeling suddenly, the feeling that he only found in Guan Xiao before, but he also felt a little bit in front of such a clean Zou Pei.Chen Qian was happy, and firmly remembered the feeling at this moment. He was not Zou Pei, he was the lover he dreamed of, he was his childhood sweetheart for many years, and he was his partner who had been dreaming of Yin and Yang for two lifetimes, Chen Qian When he thought of Guan Xiao, his heart was so painful that he wanted to suffocate.Fortunately, he got what he asked for, and he didn't have to feel the bone-destroying longing and pain.

Chen Gan came earlier, he received a text message on the way out from Yu Ran's house, he was so upset that he had nowhere to go, so he simply responded, such a bad night really needed the stimulation of alcohol.

Chen Gan ordered a red wine, opened it first, poured himself a glass and waited for Zou Pei to arrive.

When Zou Pei came in, Chen Gan was looking at the long-haired female singer on the stage with his head propped up. When Zou Pei took his seat, Chen Gan turned his head.

"coming?"

"Well, brother Chen is in a bad mood?" Zou Pei took off his coat and put it on the armrest beside him. The waiter came over and asked if he needed to hang it on the coat rack until he left, but Zou Pei politely refused.

Chen Gan leaned forward and poured a glass for Zou Pei, then sat back with a heavy heart and said, "It's quite troublesome, something."

Zou Pei smiled, held the cup and shook it lightly, and took a sip.

Chen Gan looked at Zou Pei. Zou Pei is also 25 this year, and he is in his youth. Now that he meets again after many years, this person's temperament is the same as that of 3 years ago, refreshing and clean. Looking closely, there is a slight trace of the corners of the eyes and eyebrows. The style is simple and moving, which is eye-catching.

Zou Pei knew that Chen Gan was looking at him, but he just showed no clue, raised his eyes and smiled, "Brother Chen Gan, you haven't congratulated me yet because I finished the filming today."

"Congratulations Zou Pei, your acting is really good, I am a little attracted by you," Chen Qian praised with a smile.

Zou Pei blushed and turned the stem of the cup in her hand, and said, "Brother Chen Gan, I am really happy to be praised by you."

Chen Gan smiled and said, "Why do you still react like a newcomer, so unflattering, there will be more honors waiting for you in the future, and then you won't care about my compliments."

Zou Pei shook her head with bright eyes, and said earnestly, "Brother Chen Gan, you know, you are the one I admire most."

Chen Qian smiled and said, "I just said that now I don't even need idol style, just like my little fangirls."

Zou Pei puffed out her mouth in embarrassment, looking soft and cute.

Chen Gan is in a slightly better mood. Thinking about these things, you have to take your time. Falling in love with a man, who is still a public man who is more popular than him, is not just about family. Suspicious, and some trouble.

Chen Gan pressed the center of his brows with a headache, and Zou Pei asked worriedly, "Brother Chen Gan is not feeling well? How about we leave now."

"It's okay, there's no rush, let's go after drinking," Chen Gan waved his hand as a signal.

"Is it about Brother Guan Xiao? The family disagrees?" Zou Pei tentatively asked.

"Well, that's right, it's just a part of it." Chen Gan shook his head with a wry smile, took a sip of the wine, and continued, "People like us are not only intolerant in society, but also our relatives are not tolerant." He looked lonely, as if he had a heavy burden on his shoulders.

Zou Pei seemed to understand it very well, and fell silent.

You at least really love each other, and that's good enough.

The two sat opposite each other and drank, the weeping aria was like a sigh, winding and imprinting on the hearts of the two, the blurred eyes of the singer glanced at the two from time to time, and the corners of his mouth curled up to give A faint smile.

Chen Gan felt that he drank too much, and just a glass of red wine was just to add to the fun, and he would not feel drunk at all, but now Chen Gan was already a little dizzy and his legs were weak.

Zou Pei called the waiter to settle the bill, then slowly put on his overcoat, put it on Chen Gan, and helped Chen Gan to go out.

The night is dark and cool, but the streets are still very lively, the lights are as bright as day, it seems that all the joy and wantonness of this city are sprinkled on this street, desire, ugliness, transactions, all the glamor is full of eagerness to move The filth and filth, only the dark night can they come out.

Chen Qian began to lose his consciousness, as if all the waking factors had turned into fireflies all over the sky, flying away, but he couldn't catch any of them when he stretched out his hand, but he was getting more and more sleepy.The strength of the whole body seemed to be emptied, the whole person was floating in the air, the restless volume in the nearby nightclub was still vibrating his eardrums with the beat of the drum, and Chen Gan was nowhere to be found.

Zou Pei struggled to get the man into the car, bent down and followed in.After reporting the address to the driver, he reached into Chen Gan's trousers pocket to find his cell phone, found Xiao Guan's name, and sent a message:

Come out and pick me up.