Don't understand

It was already 10 o'clock when the door rang, Guan Xiao sat on the sofa in a daze, only came to his senses when he heard the movement, hurriedly put on his slippers and ran over, stood in front of Chen Gan and watched him bend over to change his shoes.

"Go in, it's cold at the door," Chen Gan lifted his body, held the clothes in his hands, patted Guan Xiao on the back, and walked straight to the living room.

Guan Xiao was a little sad.

After the meal was set on the dining table, the heat was gone. Guan Xiao picked out the pork ribs soup from winter melon and fed it to the buns.On the table is the freshly made soup with mushrooms, crucian carp and corn and shrimps. Next to them are two lonely pairs of chopsticks, which look deserted and desolate.

Chen Gan's complexion was still gloomy. When he saw the supper on the table, he hesitated and sat down. He picked up a small bowl and poured himself a bowl of soup.

"The soup is cold, I'll warm it up for you before you drink it." Guan Xiao came over and wanted to take the fish soup to the microwave for a while, but was stopped by Chen Gan.

"No need, I'll just take a sip," Chen Gan swallowed a mouthful of the fish soup, it was delicious and refreshing, but unfortunately it became bitter after a while, and Chen Gan lost his appetite immediately.Chen Gan put down the bowl, got up slowly, and said to Guan Xiao calmly, "Sit here, I'll heat it up for you, drink more, the soup is good."

Provoked by Chen Gan's attitude, Guan Xiao felt sullen for a moment, and angrily picked up a large piece of fish from the bowl in front of him and ate it, "I don't need it anymore, it's just right when it's cold."

Chen Gan frowned, didn't say anything, turned around and went upstairs to take a shower, only Guan Xiao was left in the dining room chewing the fish in his mouth resentfully, and couldn't eat any more after a while.

When water dripped from Chen Gan's body, he found that Guan Xiao had already laid down with his back to him.

Immediately, boundless anger surged in Chen Gan's heart, and the flame of desire that he had just warned himself to calm down and talk to Guan Xiao when he was taking a shower was completely extinguished in an instant.This person has no sign of explaining at all. From the time he entered the door to now, he can speak at any time, and he waits for him to tell himself the whole story verbatim. He is about to go crazy waiting, but he falls asleep as if nothing happened. up.Chen Gan suddenly felt confused and disappointed. He couldn't grasp his emotions and couldn't explain why. It seemed that he was waiting for Guan Xiao to speak not just for Guan Xiao to state the facts, but to hear Guan Xiao complaining to him, getting angry at himself, and even Crying at himself, all this was ordered by Yu Ran, and it's okay for him to bear the blame, but he just acted like he didn't want to say anything, and didn't show anything, as if what happened to him was insignificant at all.Chen Qian felt that the sadness after being angry was the most wronged person. He just wanted Guan Xiao to get closer to him, just like himself, telling Guan Xiao all the big and small things around him. The matter itself is irrelevant. The attitude of sharing is the most important.

Obviously, in this matter, Chen Qian had to admit that he was placed in a dispensable bystander position by Guan Xiao, which made him feel extremely discouraged.

It was as if he took 99 steps towards Guan Xiao enthusiastically, and when he thought that everything was within reach, Guan Xiao stepped back 10 steps, the feeling of loss was indescribable.

"Guan Xiao, are you asleep?" Chen Qian asked unwillingly, I don't want to make trouble with you, I just want to be honest with you.

"No," Guan Xiao's voice came in a very low voice.

"Don't you want to talk to me?" Seeing that people still refused to turn their faces to face him, Chen Gan sighed in his heart, but he still asked patiently.

"En," it seemed that Guan Xiao was a little impatient, he only replied in a low voice and then remained silent.

"..."

Chen Gan couldn't help clenching his fists, the veins on the back of his hands bulged, his chest heaved vigorously, he slammed the door and left after holding back for a while.

What is the attitude of this person!

Chen Gan angrily grabbed his coat and wanted to leave. As soon as he went out, he was shocked by the cold wind from the shop. His hair was still wet, and he trembled, and he became sober.

Always feel something is wrong.

Chen Gan snorted his hair irritably, and drove to the film and television base.

Chen Gan drove all night and arrived at the set at 3 am. His head hurt a bit, probably from the wind. After taking a breath, he began to put on makeup at 4 o'clock. Liu Yu saw that his eyes were bloodshot and he looked haggard after staying up all night. He was a little worried. Asked, "Didn't you go home yesterday, didn't you have a good rest?"

Chen Gan suddenly became sluggish again, "Don't mention it, it's better not to go back and get angry."

"Can you still be angry when you go back? Just you? With Guan Xiao?" Liu Yu wondered.

"Your tone not only questioned the truth, but also questioned my personality! Why can't I be angry with him?" Chen Qian cast a sideways glance at Liu Yu angrily, and the makeup artist Yun Danfengqing forcefully tore off his head and then smeared it.

"No, I mean that the relationship between you two is like a city wall turning, that's a strong one! Why are you still arguing?" Liu Yu still felt fresh.

"Xingran hid him, my mother did it," Chen Gan looked dejected, looked at his middle-aged self in the mirror, and pouted even more dissatisfied with his old-fashioned appearance.

"Ah?! Your mother is so ruthless? This is a killer move! Then you still quarrel with others, and you are not beaten to death. The price of following you is too high, losing your career, that is, Guan Xiao Is it an ordinary star? Tsk tsk, this incident caused a lot of losses, " Liu Yu smacked his lips in disbelief.

"Why do I feel that you are taking pleasure in other's misfortune? I wish he could fuck me. He is good enough to keep me secret. He lied to me to take a vacation. I didn't know anything after staying at home for two weeks, and I even persuaded him to take a vacation." Well done," Chen Gan said with a wry smile, and hooked the corners of his mouth in self-deprecating manner.

"Hey, people have that kind of character, I'm afraid you'd be anxious if I told you, how sensible," Liu Yu said in relief, "If my family loses their job because of me, they will have to work hard with me every minute! That's not good I'm the one to blame."

"That's not being sensible, it's being born." Chen Qianchang sighed and closed his eyes.

Today there was a dialogue between Ge Shun and Liu Er, Zou Pei had finished her makeup early in the morning, and she was on the side with her slender waist in a moon white gown, with a soft expression, looking like a little girl at first glance, Chen Gan couldn't help but shine .I have to say that Zou Pei's appearance is really fresh and clean. Although Liu Ersheng's life is hard, it's hard to hide the pure temperament of her body. The unbearable fate of rolling in the mud still can't hide the kindness of nature. Zou Pei's interpretation is indeed true. is a bright spot.

"Brother Shun, will you look down on me?" Liu Er shyly lowered her hands, not even daring to lift her head.

"Brother Shun, I also want to be like you, to be an officer and kill bad guys, it's really exciting," Liu'er's eyes lit up, and there was infinite longing in it.

"Brother Shun, take me as well. The Japanese are not good people. If I can use my skin, I can help you," Liu'er was a little excited, expressing her loyalty.

"Brother Shun, Brother Shun..."

When Chen Gan entered the play, he was fascinated by Zou Pei, who was in front of him with a low eyebrow and pleasing eyes, and his chest was agitated for a while.Liu'er, a weak willow blowing the wind, has such surging power in his heart, but under his childish face, there is a sharp determination like a knife, to fight against the enemy and contribute to the country, which cannot but make people's hearts flutter and blood rush to their hearts.

"Good Liu'er, Brother Shun will definitely fulfill you, let's drive the foreign devils out of China together!" Ge Shun promised with great righteousness.

"Okay! CUT!" The director stopped with satisfaction.

Chen Gan felt that the filth accumulated in his chest was finally exhaled, and he freely expressed Ge Shun's high spirits in front of the camera.

Zou Pei came over with a smile, Chen Gan patted Zou Pei's shoulder vigorously, and praised, "Good boy, it's really different when you go abroad!"

Zou Pei's face was still blushing with excitement, and there was affection in the corners of his brows and eyes. No one knew whether Liu Er had such thoughts for Ge Shun, but Zou Pei obviously paid attention to Chen Gan.Seeing that Chen Qian praised him loudly in front of so many people on the set, Zou Pei smiled embarrassedly.

Chen Gan was in a good mood, and sat aside to read the script for the ending. The scene hadn't been set up yet, so Chen Gan put it aside after flipping through it for a while, and picked up his mobile phone to browse Weibo.He didn't pay attention to many people, so he just rubbed his fingers twice, and a piece of news he wanted to see popped up.

Guan Xiao posted a Weibo——

"do not want to talk."

The time display is 2 o'clock last night.

Chen Gan's expression froze. Guan Xiao didn't sleep well last night, and he couldn't help feeling distressed, but what does this sentence mean, provocative?What do you mean you don't want to talk, just say that you don't want to talk to me, and your attitude is so bad even now, does this mean you want to fight with yourself to the end?

The more Chen Gan thought about it, the more angry he became. He almost wanted to unfollow him, but he couldn't bear it, so he simply quit Weibo and stopped watching.

The exasperated emotions spread to the night again. Chen Qian's mobile phone was quiet, and there was no sign of reconciliation at all. There were no missed calls and no text messages. Not good, the director thought it was because of being too tired, so he simply rested early and continued tomorrow.

Zou Pei obediently came over to say goodbye, and then left with the manager.

Chen Gan felt impatient and always felt that something happened to his head, but there was nothing wrong with it, so he had to beg Liu Yu to help him go home and have a look, to take care of what Xiao was doing, and to carry some for him if he hadn't eaten, and come back after seeing him recover.

Liu Yu didn't say anything, and readily agreed, probably because Chen Gan was really worried.

An hour and a half later, when Chen Gan was restless, Liu Yu called. Chen Gan pressed the connect button with a "swish" and asked impatiently,

"How is it?"

"Damn it, hurry up, I'm a little dizzy, and I'm seriously ill!" Liu Yu's anxious voice came from the other end.

Chen Gan's heart skipped a beat, as if he had been punched in the heart in an instant, he was so sore that he just wanted to cry, and he couldn't breathe as if someone had strangled his throat.

"Look at him, I'll come right away, if not, send him to the hospital, wait for me!" Chen Gan collected himself, turned his head and ran out.

"No, I'm confused. He ignored me and didn't say a word. When I said I was going to the hospital, he just shook his head. Hurry up and see what's going on!" He stopped talking and tried to persuade, "Little Guan, give Brother Liu some face, let's go to the hospital, don't make Chen Gan worry, he misses you."

Chen Gan was about to shed tears when he heard that, his heart ached, his vision blurred suddenly, and he quickly put down his emotions and stepped on the gas pedal, rushing home quickly.

When Chen Gan rushed into the house, Liu Yu was wandering around in the living room. Chen Gan didn't care about changing his shoes, so he jumped up and asked, "Where's the person?!"

Liu Yu pointed upstairs and said, "He's lying in the bedroom. What does he mean by not saying a word? He didn't say a word. I was bored for a while. I came down even if I couldn't be persuaded. I don't think so." Yes, go up and have a look."

Chen Gan didn't talk nonsense, he ran up in three steps and two steps, pushed open the door, and saw the person curled up under the quilt.Guan Xiao's face showed a sickly blush, the lips that were originally crystal clear and moist became pale and dry, the big eyes that were lively and beautiful in the past were tightly closed, the slender and thick eyelashes rested on the lower eyelids fragilely, the palm-sized Half of her small face was buried in the pillow, feeling helpless and pitiful.

This scene was about to tear Chen Qian's heart apart. Chen Qian couldn't care about anything else, he strode to the bed, gently shook Guan Xiao, and cried out distressedly, "Guan Xiao, Guan Xiao , I'm Chen Gan, we're going to the hospital right now," he said, going to pick him up.

"No..." Guan Xiao struggled to resist, his voice was already hoarse beyond recognition.

"Listen to your voice, how dumb is it? Don't you want your voice anymore?" Chen Qian was heartbroken when he heard Guan Xiao's weak cat-like voice.

Chen Gan put his face to Guan Xiao's cheek to try it, it was shockingly hot, and it was cold and sticky from a cold sweat.Chen Gan gritted his teeth and insisted on getting him up. Guan Xiao swayed weakly, but Chen Gan put on his coat and carried him down the stairs.

When Liu Yu saw someone coming down, he quickly took the key and went out to drive.

Chen Gan hugged Guan Xiao and sat in the back. Guan Xiao was panting non-stop because of his physical discomfort, and groaned subconsciously from time to time with the bumps of the car. They all leaned over.

Like a dying swan, Chen Qian carefully hugged him for fear of making Guan Xiao more painful, his lips were about to bleed, and he wished that he, who was angry at Guan Xiao yesterday, would die immediately.

"pain...."

Guan Xiao said unconsciously, even crying in his tone.

"Where does it hurt? Where does it hurt Guan Xiao? Be patient, we will be there soon," Chen Gan's heart has been shattered into slag like dumpling stuffing, let go of his betrayal, let go of his indifference, as long as Guan Xiao takes good care of him, he will take care of him for the rest of his life Xiao's expression was fine.

After a while, the car arrived at the nearby Xuanshan Hospital. As soon as Liu Yu stopped the car, he saw Chen Gan rushing out of the back door like a cannonball and ran to the emergency room. Waiting for the headlines tomorrow!"

Chen Gan was also dizzy, so he calmed down and took the mask and hat that Liu Yu handed over. Fortunately, they were all ready-made in the car. Chen Gan also armed Guan Xiao. When Liu Yu called, he contacted the company After finding a familiar doctor, I quickly stepped into the emergency room.

After the examination, the doctor looked at the two people in front of him seriously, and said sternly, "The foreign body infection in the pharynx shows signs of erosion, causing high fever that will not subside. If it is delivered late, something serious will happen. First, infuse it for two days and observe."

Chen Gan's shoulders trembled slightly, he clenched his fingers unbearably, and asked, "Doctor, can you explain in more detail? Why did he suddenly get a foreign body infection? He didn't eat anything either."

The doctor adjusted his glasses before saying, "During the examination just now, we took out a fishbone from his infected part, which should be because of this."

Chen Gan froze on the spot as if struck by lightning.

Fishbone.

That night, I was so angry that I didn't eat with him, but Guan Xiao ate fish in front of me, and I didn't think much about it when I was upset, and let him suffer all day with a fishbone stuck in his throat.

How painful it must be.

This stupid boy.

It turned out that when he said he didn't want to talk, it wasn't that he didn't want to talk to himself, but that he was really in pain and couldn't open his mouth.

Chen Gan couldn't bear it any longer, and squatted on the ground covering his face. Liu Yu hurriedly patted Chen Gan on the back to get him out, and said repeatedly to the doctor, "Thank you for your hard work, doctor, please prescribe the medicine. I'm going to make a list now."

The doctor quickly wrote the list and handed it to Liu Yu, who took it and ran away.

When Liu Yu finished the procedures and came over, Chen Gan just leaned against the wall and waited outside the ward.

"Why don't you go in?"

"Liu Yu, am I an asshole?" Chen Gan smiled wryly.

"Where is it? It's all a misunderstanding, so stop thinking about it, go in and have a look, even if you want to plead guilty, you have to meet in person." Liu Yu patted Chen Gan on the shoulder and pushed him in.

Guan Xiao had already woken up, with the infusion in his hand, his head was turned to the window and lay quietly, when he heard the door knock, he turned his head slowly, and when he saw someone coming at the door, he stopped motionless.Chen Gan walked to the bed, held Guan Xiao's other hand in his palm silently, stroked the smooth back of Guan Xiao's hand with his fingertips, and then asked, "Guan Xiao, does it still hurt?"

Guan Xiao was silent for a while, then shook his head lightly.

"It's my fault, I was too careless, Guan Xiao, blame me," Chen Qian said with reddened eye circles and a haggard look.

"I didn't tell you that I was hidden by the company because I didn't want you to worry. I'm sorry, Chen Gan," Guan Xiao struggled to explain to Chen Gan with a burning throat.

"Stop talking, I know it, I know it all, I'm too stupid," Chen Gan's eyes were already filled with tears.

Chen Gan raised his eyes and looked at Guan Xiao's face quietly. He seemed to be able to recall his dissatisfied murmurs when he woke up in the morning, the satisfied smacking of his lips after having a satisfying breakfast, and the fawning embrace of his neck. Shaking hard, thinking of all the beauty and tears in the past.Flash forward 3 years, he and Guan Xiao have come all the way to the present, it seems that there has never been a big dispute, only this time, both sides ended up hurting.This is Guan Xiao, who swore to protect him for life, and the motivation for him to persevere countless times. This is his once-in-a-lifetime lover, the other half of his soul.How much he loves Guan Xiao, this feeling has not diminished until now, on the contrary, it has become more intense and frightened him.

Guan Xiao smiled, patted the place beside him, and signaled Chen Gan to lie down.

Chen Gan came up from the other side carefully, and took Guan Xiao's back into his arms, intimately and tightly.

How much Chen Gan wanted to tell Guan Xiao, I don't need you to be sensible, I hope you can always be innocent and like a child, laugh when you are happy, cry when you are sad, ask me if you want it, kick me and beat me when you are angry , Laziness is also aboveboard, and acting like a baby is also like no one else.

How I wish I could spoil you, that's what I'm most proud of.If you don't speak, you are really hurting me. You punish me with your natural kindness and my carelessness.

I wish one day, you can tell me without hesitation, Chen Gan, you made me angry, I am not happy, you come to coax me, then I feel so happy just thinking about it.

Instead of forgiving me magnanimously and quietly without justifying me like now.

This makes me feel, Guan Xiao, I am still far from the love I promised myself.