deep cabinet

First loves are generally not successful.

I think it might be a matter of timing.

DN's internship started a week later than mine.

I said, I will go back to school first after my internship is over, and I won't wait for you.

The DN said the company could agree to a one-week extension.

I said, it's going to end anyway, and I don't want others to think I'm special.

Speaking of this, I think DN understands a little bit.

I was afraid that he wouldn't understand, so I specifically asked him when did the time-limited love mentioned at the beginning refer to.

Ideally, he said, it would be the day he flies to Country Y.

Emmm... Fate begins with the plane and ends with the plane.

This is really a rational situation.

But I couldn't wait for him to fly to country Y, so I specially booked the plane ticket before going back to school.

In the last few days in City H, he also intentionally cooled down.

It's not just the relationship between cooling and DN.

It also cools the relationship with the company, or it is a kind of finishing touch.

Because I am always very enthusiastic, so the sudden silence may make people feel that the atmosphere is not right.

The funny thing is, looking back now, DN, who should have felt the most neglected at the time, didn't seem to react too much. On the contrary, the colleagues around me were obviously uncomfortable because of my sudden reticence.I can clearly feel their discomfort, and I didn't do anything to remedy it. Instead, I spent all my energy on the internship report. Sometimes I am more self-willed.

On the last day of the internship, after I finished the internship report, the manager talked to me again.

During the process, I didn't actively agree with it as usual, and I was even a little bit sad.

I don’t know if it’s my illusion, but the “mourning” made the conversation more substantive. The manager clearly expressed his willingness to hire me, and even complained to me about various dissatisfaction with his current subordinates.

I also learned from the manager that the reason why he knew I was gay was because I went drinking with him when I first came to practice, and I was so dazed that I slipped my mouth.

So, people with secrets can't get drunk!

But now that he knew that his uncle DN was wrong, it didn't help.Because I have already thrown in the towel.The unwarranted fear of sexual orientation has seeped into my real life.

The next day at H City Airport, among the hurrying pedestrians, I hugged DN and told him what I had in mind.

I said, brother, this is the end of this internship of basic love. I started before you and ended before you. Let's take care of ourselves.

Then he walked into the security check line without looking back (?).

Flying on a plane is as uncomfortable as ever.

In the future, I don't know whether we can start from scratch.

I'm certainly not an affectionate person, but every minute I was on the plane, I kept thinking about my relationship with DN.

Thinking of our incongruous acquaintance and incongruous getting along, even the confession was in a hurry.

We have never experienced illness and disasters, nor have we experienced ups and downs in life, nor have we even experienced the obstruction of our parents, so it is destined not to be profound enough.

Even after breaking up, he didn't try hard to stay.

He didn't make any fucking effort to keep it!

Oh, it was my fault after all.

I really want to make another mistake.

I turned my attention to the handsome guy sitting next to me.

I smile politely rather than awkwardly, handsome guy, where are you flying from?

No fruit.

Back to the school after more than a month's absence.

Back to the familiar classmates.

I met my ex-girlfriend and Xiaoshan more than once in the cafeteria.

Go to the school next door, and meet the straight man of steel and his fragile girlfriend.

It seems that the straight man won after all.

The HR of XX company called me and said that the offer will be issued later, but it is basically sure that I will be there.

I still continue to pay attention to the recruitment information on the market.

One day I went to a lecture, and a classmate I knew teased me: This kind of small company can also attract talents like you.

I? ? ?

Good TM familiar dialogue.Have you seen this student on the Internet?

A whole week passed like this.

During the period, DN only sent me a WeChat message because of a transactional problem.

When he sent the WeChat message for the second time, he was already on the plane back to school and asked if I would pick him up.

Of course not.

I said, brother, haven't we already broken up?

He said, when? ? ?