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Reluctantly, I still want to recall the day of flying.

I have already started to regret it, why did I write about this embarrassing thing on the Internet?

Oh, because of my self-inflicted nature.

After learning that only DN and I were going to the terminal in the whole school, we made an appointment to go to the airport together.Of course I took the initiative to contact him, but he even knew me.

We did have a little intersection before, in an elective course called "Film Appreciation".Hearing this name, one can almost know how watery this course is.And it is said that DN once skipped the course because of the simplicity of the professional course to audit the postgraduate class, so he also showed up in the exam for such a poor elective course.

And one side has an impression on me, hehe.

On the day of departure, we met at the school gate, took the airport special line, and then went to the airport to go through formalities. DN was watching Kindle the whole time.Makes me want to buy a kindle.

After boarding the plane, I turned off my mobile phone early, and DN kept looking at the kindle. I was very anxious. The plane started taxiing, and he finally turned off the kindle.

Then, the plane accelerated to sprint, wobbled away from the ground, raised several times abruptly, but still failed to fly smoothly.

After going to the sky, my eardrums were swollen and painful, and swallowing saliva didn't work at all. I heard the sound of "puff puff puff" several times, which made me think that the eardrums were about to leak air.

Then the forehead also started to hurt, and the blood vessels seemed to burst at any moment, and then the eye sockets also hurt!

It's no exaggeration, it's the first time I've grown up so uncomfortable.

DN has been looking at kindle.

Maybe it's because of low-cost airlines, the flight is not stable, and there are sales.I couldn't hear what the stewardess was trying to sell, but I just felt upset and put my head on the back of the front seat. My body was tortured and tired, and I felt like I was going to die.

Then, I may have an auditory hallucination, because I think I heard something about the danger of the plane, but when I look up, my ears are still close to deaf.

At this time, the plane suddenly crashed!The cabin began to tremble violently.

I'm not sure if it was an auditory hallucination or what happened, but I just saw the person on the other side of the aisle bowing his head and crossing his arms.

Looking at the DN next to him, his eyes are tightly closed, his brows are a little angry, and he is protecting his kindle on his chest.

This gave me a particularly bad premonition.

And what really started to break me down was when I saw a flight attendant go crazy.

Well, remember when I said there are sales pitches on airplanes?I found out later that what was being promoted was the same silk scarf as the flight attendant.

So the flight attendant I thought was crazy was not a flight attendant, but a female passenger who bought a silk scarf.

She wasn't crazy either, but she was a little flustered when the water spilled on her body.

But this is a later story. At that time, my senses were almost useless, and my nerves were even more fragile. I really thought that the plane had an accident and was about to fall into the sea.In fact, if we look at the map, we should not pass the sea, but I was inexplicable at the time and thought that the plane would definitely fall into the sea.

There was really no sense in that moment.There is only "death" left in my head, but I am still so young, I haven't enjoyed life yet!

Do you know what the weirdest thing is?

But before this, I had never felt reconciled to hiding my gay identity.

But at that moment, when I decided to explode, the first thing I thought of was coming out!

And it was very direct, just yelling these four words - "I want to come out! I want to come out!"

As if afraid that the angels on the road would not hear him.

If there are angels, if it is true that homosexuals will go to hell in the Bible, the consequences will be unimaginable.

Trying to recall now, I really can't figure out where these four words come from.

I really never had any intention of coming out.

Then, there is only one explainable logic left.

What I longed for was not coming out, I yelled these four words, just to carry out the next action "righteously" - I pressed DN's lips.