Tide beat empty city

Taking a nap in the afternoon, Yong Ning patted Zhan Xin to fall asleep, and gradually became sleepy.When I closed my eyes and wanted to sleep, there were soft footsteps by the door, which seemed to hesitate for a while, and then fell silent again.

Yong Ning forced himself to open his eyes, and saw the human figure in the ambiguous light.He wanted to scream but stopped, took a look at Zhan Xin, and slowly got up from the bed.The visitor hurriedly approached each other and whispered, "Sister, be careful."

It's you, why are you here at this time.Yongning smiled and motioned him to talk outside.

After sitting down, Yongnian was a little irritable.Tapping his knuckles on the table, he asked, has brother-in-law gone out?If you don't take a good rest, run around or something.

Yong Ning picked up the tea bowl and said with a faint smile, Yu Yuan is here.Your brother-in-law sent him back.

Yongnian stop, Yu Yuan?

Yongning drank his tea with his head down, silent.He said that next spring, look at the peach blossoms.The crimson light green, misty rain is like a dream, not something that can be found here.

Can you remember Jiangnan?

Thinking about it, I couldn't help but smile, are you finally willing to take me back home?Why look through the autumn water, look forward to the return date, and still feel sore in my heart.

Yongnian was very surprised and asked, why did my sister laugh, but what did Yu Yuan say?

Yongning shook his head, nothing.Your brother-in-law is probably homesick.

Yongnian swayed slightly, and hurriedly closed his eyes to overcome his dizziness.After a while, he opened it and smiled: Zhaocheng's family has been in the family for several years, and they have never returned to their hometown to worship their ancestors.I was negligent, I just wanted to accompany him, and forgot to let him go home and have a look.

Yongning looked at him in surprise, his mind was blank.

Yongnian shook his clothes and sat down, smiled and said, I knew him not earlier than you?Know him, not deeper than you?That's what I called him when we shared the same bed in Bianliang.

Yongning couldn't stop trembling all over, and couldn't say a word.

Glancing at her sideways, Yongnian continued, "Do you think you are the only one who hates Bai Yutang?"I have hundreds of ways to get rid of him.Using your method is just because you are infatuated with Zhao and have some feelings.

feeling?Yongning finally found a ray of light, but his heart felt as if someone had dug a hole, the wind and rain were precarious, and it was getting colder and colder.He muttered in his mouth, why didn't I think of it, why didn't I think of it, you lured me to take out the ecstasy grass back then, just to make him hate me today?

No matter how you imagine it, Yongnian treats Zhan Zhao like this.

Yongnian sighed with a smile, no wonder you couldn't get into his heart.You really don't know, if you haven't loved, where can you hate?He is just pitying you, how he treated you in the past is the same today.But, can you not hate yourself?Can you continue to deceive yourself and others, thinking that you can stick to him?

It took a long time for the tears to flow out.If you can't hold it, it turns out that one more time, one more second is just a luxury.No one took pity on her prayer, she stretched out her hand, moaning helplessly: Wait for me, give birth to this child...

has no meaning?Yongnian forced to come over, his eyes were almost stern: Are you waiting for me?If I want to abandon my husband and wife, father and daughter, and return home, then I have endured so much and done so many things, so what is it?It's you, can you let it go?

Yongning stared blankly, what did he mean, that she didn't want her to have this child?

Yongnian nodded, his tone softened slightly, sister, why are you still not satisfied.If it weren't for me, Zhao would have returned to Da Song long ago, he only needs one word, Ding Yuehua, Bai Yutang, no matter which one will wait for him for the rest of his life without complaint or regret.But these years, you are the one who has been with him like a shadow, whether he loves you or not, he has given you his years and loyalty; if you still care about it, what should I think?What should they think?Um?

Yong Ning was numb with infatuation, turned his head and said for a while, what do you want from me?

Yongnian bowed his head and smiled, what should I do? Do you still need me to teach you?Anyway, it's already so painful, I might as well tell you one more thing.The ecstasy grass you gave me, I sent someone to the tower, only half of it; when dealing with rivals in love, you always leave half the chance for yourself, so I replaced it with other poisons.The other half, what do you think will happen if you mix it with civet fruit?

Yongning stood up suddenly, his feet were unsteady, and he almost fell.

Yongnian grabbed her and said with a smile, there is no need to guess, you know.Therefore, it is your credit that the princess rode a crane to reunite with her father.Yu Yang also knew that he really did not violate his oath, and he would protect the descendants and reputation of the Yuwen family until his death.It's a pity that such a person wants to rob me.

Yongning's heart is about to burst.The younger brother whom she had treated sincerely, the new king whom her mother supported with all her strength, killed someone with a knife, how cruel.Why?Why?why do you hate so much

Shouldn't I hate, Yongnian's eyes are cold.You call me crazy and twisted, think about who made me crazy and twisted.I am not as lucky as you. My parents are loving and my mother loves me, and I grow up healthily; a shade plant cannot see the sun for a lifetime.Who made it so?Cruel, isn't your mother cruel.She should know the ending of today, the father's debt is paid by the son, if you want to blame, blame her for not accumulating merit and doing evil to her children and grandchildren.

Mother has repented and always wants to make it up to you; could it be that you don't think a little bit of kindness between actions?

Enyi?My life, this life, has been ruined from the very beginning, because of whose ruthlessness, what can she make up for.What I did today is the cause of what happened in the past; I have never complained, you sinners, why do you question me?

How long are you going to hate...

until when?not far.So I don't want children.Give Zhao back to me, and I will have the strength to forgive.

Or forgive you, forgive your children.

Understood, Yongning smiled bitterly.He wanted to go out, but he was dizzy uncontrollably, and hit the corner of the table.The desolate and sharp pain seemed to tear her apart; the bubbling hot stream rushed out of the body, leaving only the cold and blackness of the day and the ground.

It's like cutting off a four-pillared roof, and it's a waste of time.

Zhan Zhao returned home, only to catch up with his wife dying.A stillborn baby also takes away the mother's energy and soul.She refused the medicine, and only waited for the blood to run out; but she was unwilling to open her eyes, and was still hoping.

She held out her hand to him and was taken.There were no tears at this time, she smiled and said, do you want to know about the civet cat fruit, let me tell you.Put it together with ecstasy grass, if people eat it, they will die immediately.More than ten years ago, Yu Yang was the first to discover this connection, so he asked my father to order to eradicate the ecstasy grass in the area under his jurisdiction.There is only one plant left and it is kept in my house.

Because, the bead my father gave me can ward off evil and exorcise poison.Although the ecstasy herb is dangerous, if it is used alone on the human body, it will not cause death, it will only corrupt the blood and make people weak and sick.I also asked my father why I left one tree.He said that there is no absolute good or bad for species in the world. When used properly, poisonous weeds can save people's lives.So, I kept it up.I think that maybe, as my father said, leaving it to future generations will always find its benefits.

After the beads were given to you, I kept the ecstasy grass alone in a place where no one could touch it. I didn't tell anyone, and I didn't allow civet fruit to appear in my house.

Later, I saw Mr. Bai.

No matter how stupid and magnanimous I am, seeing him so close to you makes me sleepless.During that period when you were sick, I went back to the palace, talked with Yongnian, and told him the secret of the ecstasy grass.

Thinking about it now, maybe when I said it, subconsciously, I just wanted to use it on Mr. Bai.I'm not that cruel to want him to die; I just want him to be sick for a long time, and if it can't be so easy, I will come to you.

That's why Yongnian said that when the king of Xiangyang recruited skilled craftsmen to build the skyscraper; when he said that the Nanyue king's mansion planned to send people to participate;

I knew that he would use it to plot against Bai Yutang; but I didn't know that he secretly kept half of it, and together with the civet cat Guo, plotted against Yu Yang and killed my mother.

Yu Yang has always known that the ecstasy grass is kept here by me; the civet fruit is what Yongnian wants him to prepare; if he tells the truth, what will Yongnian and I, the father's son and daughter, conspire to kill the aunt? Face the world with face?Therefore, he refused to even ask for an interrogation, so he sacrificed his life for righteousness.

He has always treated you very well, and he may have thought about it, what would you do if I was accused of murdering my mother and my family was destroyed?

Speaking of this, she seemed to be exhausted.It was as if the wish had come true, and he closed his eyes and gasped lightly.Still holding him tightly, he asked in a low voice, do you hate me.

Zhan Zhao shook his head, and stroked her deeply sunken cheek with his hand, the pain was unbearable.

Yongning opened his eyes and smiled.Without love, there is no hate. Sure enough, Yongnian was right.Now she even felt that she was not qualified to say that she loved him.She felt miserable, and insisted, "I killed my mother, but I didn't keep the child."When I die, forget me.Never forgive me.Because of me, I can't forgive myself.

Tears fell and dripped on her face, like two crystal clear stars.Yongning wanted to wipe away the tears for him, raised his hand halfway, and said, take Xinxin away, no matter where you go, leave him.It fell down.

fall forever.

After waiting for him for three days, his eyes closed and never opened again.I never heard him repeat her words over and over: My family is ruined, what should I do?

what to do.For the first time in his life, he silently buried his face in her chest, tears falling like rain.

But she doesn't know anymore.

After the funeral, Zhan Xin slept with his father.Shake him up at night, Daddy, Xinxin is here, don't cry.

Zhan Zhao stretched out his hand to wipe it off, his face wet and cold.When I want to recall the scene in the dream, there is nothing in my mind.Lying quietly, hearing the sound of the waves for no reason, the tide rises and throws to the top of the waves, and the tide sinks to the bottom, completely involuntary.

He turned sideways, held Zhan Xin in his arms, and said softly, Dad watched you sleep, so he won't disturb you anymore.

Zhan Xin's soft little hands hugged his neck, and the faint milk fragrance and breathing came around.He concentrated in the dark, remembering that before he left, he wanted to take her and Xinxin back to the south of the Yangtze River; he wanted to wait for him to send Yuyuan back, and then told her that they would leave after the child was born; he wanted to say that if she liked, she could Live in Changzhou with the children, so that he can think about it often, go back often, and see peach blossoms often.

Yu Yuan has already said, father, himself, I don't know who else he hates; why he heard it, but still didn't think about it; why are you waiting, what are you waiting for?

Waiting to send Yu Yuan back, waiting for her to give birth to a child; or waiting for everything to become a "too late" at this time?

All the heart-piercing pains were gathered together and pressed hard on my heart this night, and I couldn't avoid it anymore.He put down the child, sat on the bed and poured tea, bowl after bowl of bitter cold, and poured it down his throat.

The icicles went straight to the soles of the feet, and they seemed to take root.

This body is as light as tea, and what is it that dilutes it.

Three days later, Yonglai came to visit, but it was all in vain.The servant tremblingly replied: Mr. Zhan took the coffin of the princess, and returned home with the young princess.Before leaving, leave a message to the prince, leave without saying goodbye, don't blame the prince, just pretend that he never walked by.Definitely coming back anyway.

Yongnian sat on the chair with no expression on his face.After hearing this, he got up and left the house, went down the steps and looked back with his hands behind his back, frowning and said, this house is too big.

When the osmanthus falls in the third autumn, Jiangnan is the time for fish, fat and crabs.Since Zhanfu had a baby, and then the son lost his mother, the mid-autumn festival has passed through the ups and downs of sorrow and joy.As for going and returning from afar, Zhanzhao traveled thousands of miles to bury his dead wife, and the door went up and down, but there was only silence.

One day after dinner, Zhan Zhong came in to clean up, and reminded the host that the young master didn't have a name yet, so he didn't know how to call him.

The old man restrained himself, but still couldn't stop his earnest expression.Zhan Zhao's parents died young, and he never felt the difference between master and servant in his heart to this old family who watched him grow up.He also knew that Zhan Zhong's joy was no less than having a grandson.He still doesn't know that the child's original surname is Yuwen.

Thinking of this, I was stunned again, and my heart was sore.He said that he had already thought of a name, so he would call him Zhanxi.What does Uncle Zhong think?

Zhanzhong nodded and said yes.Quietly looked at him, turned around and moved lightly.Zhan Xin climbed down from the dining table and called after him, "Grandpa Zhong, are you peeling lotus seeds for Daddy? Xinxin will help you."

Zhan Zhong turned his head and smiled like an old chrysanthemum.He stretched out his hand to lead her out, and said in his mouth, "Good boy, you peel the lotus seeds and eat them, and your appetite will improve..."

The old and the young moved two bamboo stools and sat in the yard talking.The delicate and crisp laughter in the wind was intermittent, and the well-behaved and quiet girl seemed not to understand that her mother would never come back to see her.Sunshine filled the courtyard to the brim, hiding behind the door, Zhan Zhao felt sad and hesitant for a while.The tomb has been repaired, and Yongning will be buried tomorrow; he doesn't know whether he should take her to see her mother with his own eyes, wrapped in the cold mud, unable to sleep.

At the dinner table, Zhan Xin read a word, "Daddy eat, eat quickly."Candlelight outlines her clear face with picturesque features.The father on the opposite side sighed early, there is a daughter in my family, and she has just grown up.

After settling all the trivial matters, the night air is already cool and clear.Passing by the west wing, the bedroom of Zhanxi and the wet nurse was still lit.The door was ajar, Zhan Zhao pushed it open, and turned into the room.

The nurse was sitting recliningly with a table in her hand, sleeping soundly; Zhan Xin lay alone on the edge of the couch, patted the swaddling baby, and said softly: I like my brother, I like my brother, I like my brother...

again and again.

Zhan Zhao froze in shock.

Zhan Xin talked endlessly, immersed in it, and didn't know anything about it.

Her father, standing behind him, was at a loss like never before.

The wet nurse was the first to wake up, she quickly stood up and pleaded guilty, picked up Zhanxi to check if the diaper was wet.

Zhan Zhao leaned over and silently carried his daughter out of the room.

Covered by the dark shadow of the eaves, Zhan Xin hugged her father tightly and buried her head together.The night is broken, the wind shakes the treetops and turns back, there is no other temperature, no one else.

After lighting the candle, Zhan Zhao turned to look at his daughter.Zhan Xin's eyes and nose were red, but his face was dry.Tears flowed into my father's hair on the road.

Zhan Zhao smiled and asked her: Do you like your younger brother?

Zhan Xin nodded quickly.

Zhan Zhao sat down, picked her up on his knees and faced each other.Quietly said, tell Dad why I didn't like it before, but now I suddenly like it.

Zhanxin's tears started to spin again, she rubbed her eyes and said, I didn't like my younger brother before, so my mother left in anger.Now I say every day, I like my brother, will she come back after hearing that?

The childish words made Zhan Zhao almost cry.He took two deep breaths and said, Mother loves Xinxin the most, how could she be angry?She, she went with grandma.When you grow up, she...

Seeing him stop hesitantly, Zhan Xin asked: Why did she accompany grandma and not me?Definitely don't like me.

Zhan Zhao shook his head, Xinxin, you have to remember, Mother will never dislike you.She accompanies grandma because she is her daughter.It's like you are daddy's daughter, so you have to accompany daddy wherever you go, don't you?

Zhan Xin was dubious, nodded and asked: When I grow up, will she come back?

Zhan Zhao lowered his eyes, unable to say yes.

Zhan Xin suddenly fell into his arms, trying not to cry out.Sobbing and talking for a while, then you, will you also go to accompany your father, father and mother, wait, when I grow up, will you not come back?

Zhan Zhao slowly stroked her vest, and said for a long time, no.Dad won't leave you, he doesn't like you.

Zhan Xin pulled out an arm and grabbed his clothes.After a while, he calmed down and said, Dad, I'm sleepy.From now on, you will sleep with me every day, and you are not allowed to leave.

Zhan Zhao nodded, okay.

Zhanxin's eyelids twitched, and he continued to ask: eat a lot of food and vegetables, and don't starve to death.

……

Don't throw me away.Never.

Zhan Zhao couldn't help but laugh, when did she learn to say forever.

But whenever you ask, I promise you.To the day when I can't speak.

After an autumn rain the next day, Zhan Xin came home from the cemetery and developed a high fever in the evening.The doctor treated it with wind and cold, but after taking the medicine for two days, he developed cough and convulsions again.Zhan Zhao's eyes were red with anxiety, and he stood guard in front of the couch regardless of whether it was morning or evening.Those who dared to go forward to persuade them to eat and sleep, were forced to come by him with a glance like a knife, and they were defeated immediately.

Zhan Zhong raised him since he was a child, and he has never seen such a silent and violent Zhan Zhao.Once he collapsed, no matter whether he pointed at the world or drew his sword to kill the gods, his heart would tremble with pain just thinking about it.After thinking about it, when he picked up Zhan Xin and fed him water, his expression softened for a moment, Zhan Zhong quickly said, why it looks like a rash, I'm afraid the doctor made a mistake earlier.It seems that there is a Doctor Gu in the neighboring village who specializes in treating children...

Zhan Zhao acted as if he had never heard of it, and still lowered his head to feed the water.Taking the cup away, his hands trembled slightly, and he couldn't grasp it firmly and fell hard to the ground.Standing up abruptly, he rushed out the door with Zhan Xin in his arms.

God knows how much patience he used to suppress the urge to kill, including killing himself.Misdiagnosis, such an obvious fact, he was so blind that he kept ignoring it.In the countryside at night, he couldn't see where the water was and where the mountains were, so he knocked on the door of Gu's house in half an hour.I can't remember at all how the road was walked.

Dr. Gu was frightened in the middle of the night and did not complain.At daybreak, I pulled off the child's collar and showed it to my father. It was indeed measles.Reassuring, "Don't worry", Feibi drew out the prescription, which was taught to the boy servant to prepare and fry.Unconsciously, as the day passed by, Zhan Xin developed a rash all over his body, which seemed to be thoroughly developed, and the heat on his forehead gradually decreased.Doctor Gu took a sip of tea leisurely, smiled at Zhan Zhao and said nothing.

Zhan Zhao noticed that he turned around, thought for a while and made a bow, Zhan was ashamed, and there was still one thing he didn't want to invite.Sir, can you allow me to stay at the house for a while, wait for my daughter to be safe, and leave naturally.

Dr. Gu shook his head and said, stay as long as you want, I originally borrowed the house.You stood for a whole day without eating or drinking, could it be made of iron?I would like to take a pulse and try.

Zhan Zhao didn't expect him to say these words, and he didn't have the heart to answer, he just smiled and turned to look at Zhan Xin.

Doctor Gu said from behind that she was very tired and couldn't wake up for a while.It's useless for you to look at it, why don't you take a walk outside and let me catch my breath.

Zhan Zhao just thought of thanking him, and said with a bow, sir, you have worked hard.It's better for you to go to rest, and Zhan will watch over here.

Dr. Gu muttered to himself, I don't chase you away, you chase me instead.Although I'm borrowing, could it be that I borrowed your house?Resisting not to blurt it out, he laughed and said, then I'm going to bed, don't call me again.

Seeing him turn around to leave, Zhan Zhao hurriedly called, Mr. Gu.

Stopping and turning around, Zhan Zhao said apologetically, if something happens, Zhan will still call you.

Dr. Gu's eye muscles twitched, and he walked out the door with a flick of his sleeves.After a while, a young woman was brought in, and said angrily, you can ask her if you have anything to do.Don't stare, she has better medical skills than me.

The woman smiled and said where, and sent him to the door while talking, then turned around and said all blessings, and asked Zhan Zhao: "Master Zhan, may you recognize the maidservant?"

Zhan Zhao sized her up in response and shook his head silently.

The woman pursed her lips and said with a smile: "The servant girl is lying, you can't remember it. I am a maidservant from Mohua Village, Songjiang, a maid in Ding Zongbing's mansion. I met you when I was serving young ladies at home."

Zhan Zhao's eyes flashed, but he remained silent.I heard the woman continue, "I came out of the cabinet with the lady. My uncle is from Changzhou here. His surname is Gu. He has been doing business all the year round, so he borrowed half of the old house from his clan brother to open a clinic to practice medicine. I often come with the lady to help make medicine and learn a little bit." Get some fur. This doctor Gu only treats children, and his temper is like a child. Don't laugh at him, Daxia Zhan, he has a good heart..."

Zhan Zhao didn't hear much, only knew that Ding Yuehua seemed to be here at this time.

After the woman finished speaking, she picked up the prescription on the table and went out.After a while, a tray was brought, with a small bowl of osmanthus and lotus root soup on it, which was crystal clear and white, exuding a sweet fragrance.She put down her smile and said, Lord Zhan, please use some as you like.I have informed the lady to come later.