Tide beat empty city

After dinner, Yongnian went to the inner room alone, telling others not to disturb him, and wanted to finish processing the paperwork for the day.The paper was spread out in front of my eyes, but I couldn't stay still when I saw it. I scanned it several times, but I didn't know what to say.He turned his eyes and stared at the candle on the desk. After a while, he raised his hand and flicked it lightly. The candlestick pushed the pen and inkstone to the ground; , weak, unable to ignite.

Split the table into thin strips and it will burn.He turned around looking for the knife, but no one stopped him.No one whispered in his ears that he should approve the document at this time, which is absurd.Not being able to find it, he simply kicked it over, the candlestick rolled a few times to the door, the curtain was stained with fire, disappeared and left the ground, and quickly swallowed up.

It was lit after all.He turned and sat back on the chair, watching the thieves rush in and out, turning the wooden rafters into a frame of fire, his whole body trembled with laughter, and tears came down.

Everything is still the same as before, killing and setting fire, no one came to accuse him of being wrong.This is what so many people have been striving for, to have all the power and do whatever they want.

What else is he not satisfied with?

He is so dissatisfied.The self is a bottomless hole, grabbing desperately, everything leaks out.Heart is empty.

The guard rushed in to put out the fire in a panic, using his body to clear the way.He went out laughing, went into the wine cellar, and got very drunk.Still nobody cares.

I don't know the time when I wake up.Shaking out to look at the sky, there is a twilight in the darkness.He bowed his head and recalled the dream, dejected and inexplicable.

Quietly led the horse out of the house, and rushed to my sister's house in one breath.Yongning Fang got up in the morning and was surprised to hear the news of the prince's visit.Busy out of the living room to meet each other, Yongnian sat drinking tea, calmed down.Seeing her, she got up and said, "I have official business in Xinzhou, and I want to go in person."Didn't Xinxin miss her father, so she also took her there to visit her brother-in-law.

Ten days ago, Yu Yuan and his brother were arranged to go north. Zhan Zhao confessed that he would return to Xinzhou and escort the two of them to the border of South Vietnam.Yongning kept his filial piety, and never went with Zhanxin.Calculating that he should have arrived at the station, when she heard Yongnian's words, she was immediately at a loss.He even said in a daze, is he in Xinzhou?Or maybe go to Jiangnan together and never come again.

Yongnian was irritable for no reason, but he smiled and said, what nonsense is my sister talking about.I told you he wasn't going.Even if you don't believe me, you should believe in yourself...

do not talk.Yongning turned his face away and said in a low voice, I'm calling Xinxin to get up.

Yongnian chased after him and asked: Please trouble my sister and teach me how to set up a car.I'm going from here, right now.

After getting into the big car, Zhan Xin lay down by the window and looked out.Yongnian's mood was ups and downs, he was about to go to sleep, but his mind was full of chaos, confusion, and indescribable anxiety.He forced himself up to tease her: "Xinxin, would you like to come and live at Uncle's house?"

"I'm not your child." Zhan Xin answered him casually, still looking out the window.

Yongnian thought for a while, and seduced her: "Your father is coming to live too. How about leaving you alone?"

"No!" Zhan Xin turned around and screamed.

Yongnian's ears trembled, he stepped back and smiled triumphantly: "Don't want anything? He has already agreed, it's not up to you."

"Your house is on fire! You want to burn him to death!" Zhan Xin stood up angrily, trying to jump off the car.

Yongnian quickly embraced and surrendered: "No, no. Your father is well in Xinzhou, who would dare to burn him to death? Don't run away! You don't want to see him?"

Zhanxin twisted a few times, but couldn't make it. He was forced into his arms and stared at him without admitting defeat: "Of course I want to see you. I'll tell daddy to turn into water, so I won't let you burn."

The hole came up again, and Yongnian asked unwillingly: "Why don't you like me?"

Zhan Xin pushed him hard, and said dissatisfiedly, "You don't like me either. Why are you hugging me?"

Yongnian had some blue veins on his forehead, gritted his teeth and smiled and let her go.Mo Ran just thought, you can hug if you like, Zhao, that's what your daughter said.And burn to death, hug together too.

Bickering all the way, when he saw Zhanxin rushing out of the car, Yongnian suddenly regained his composure, grabbed her and asked, "How do you know my house is on fire?"

Zhan Xin couldn't run well, but when he looked up, he saw the strong wind, and the sky was as dark as night, and when he was happy, he replied, "I saw it in a dream. It's going to rain, and I can't burn it."

Yongnian let go of his hand in a daze, Zhanxin had climbed out of the car, and the little figure ran to the door to take a quick shot.He followed on his heels, and before the servant opened the door to see clearly, the two rushed in together.Zhan Xin let go and called "Daddy", and searched from room to room.The servant kept chasing after him and said, "I'm not there, I haven't been back for two days, and it's probably in the camp."Little princess, lord, please rest first, the villain will go find...

Zhan Xin turned around and ran out of the door quickly, shouting "You stay at home, I will find it myself", almost throwing Yong Nian off.He was so anxious that he also shouted: "Xinxin, it's going to rain! Wait for Uncle!"

Seeing that he was being overtaken, Zhan Xin suddenly stopped obediently, let him pick him up and continued running.Running all over the sky with lightning and thunder, Du showed her smiling face.Yongnian glanced at her, panted and asked: What are you laughing at?

Zhan Xin lowered her head with a smile and said, Uncle runs much faster than me.

Thinking about it, Yongnian couldn't help laughing.Why am I in a hurry, let the little girl take advantage of it.Instead of slowing down, she said, does Xinxin miss her father? Uncle knows.

Zhan Xin leaned on his shoulder and asked softly: Do you miss Daddy?

Yongnian sighed and said yes with a smile.

Zhan Xin bit his clothes with his mouth open, and mumbled, "Come on, hurry up!"

When the pouring rain poured down, the two just found the tent and hid in it.The soldiers in the tent came forward to see each other, saying that Zhan Zhao was going out to take part in the army, and asked where the wind and rain blocked the sect.Yongnian was certain, seeing Zhanxin slipping out of his hands in a hurry, he suddenly had the mood to joke: Why do you want him?Isn't he water, and he is afraid of rain.

Zhan Xin clutched his hands tightly to break him apart, and kicked his feet up and down.After a while, my face turned red, and I sobbed hard, saying: Let go, let go, tears fell down in strings.

The weak body struggled and struggled, unyielding to being subdued.The screaming sound gushed into the ears with hot air, amplifying into a tsunami, which became longer and longer and sharper.Sweat irritated the hair and skin, causing a sharp pain in every inch of his body, causing heat waves from nowhere to hit him one after another, making the eye sockets red.As if being bewitched, he hugged Zhan Xin tightly and rushed out of the tent.

The torrential rain was raging, and it couldn't stop it from falling into his eyes, soaking through his thin clothes.Are you willing to take in these two abandoned children who are dependent on each other?

The world is miserable, and the world is boundless.So desperate that I just want to be led by you, it doesn't matter where I die.

During the whole team's return journey, Zhan Zhao wiped off the rain on his face and tried to watch with his eyes wide open.The distressed figure on the opposite side staggered closer, and in the torrent, a low cry of exhaustion broke out, Zhao.

Zhan Xin lay on Yongnian's shoulder, like a seedling wilted in the rain.Hearing his uncle yelling amidst the rumbling sound, he covered his face with his hands and turned his head, crying: Daddy, Xinxin will take you home.

Zhan Zhao took a few steps forward and hugged her in his arms, ordered the soldiers behind to follow, and rushed Yongnian to the camp with his hand.

After wiping off the quilt, Zhan Xin continued to complain with hot soup in his mouth: I called him uncle later, but he still quarreled with me.Children only quarrel, he is not an uncle, so I won't call him anymore.

Zhan Zhao reprimanded softly, nonsense.Don't call him uncle.

Zhanxin said, call the name.Didn't he call you by your name too?

Zhan Zhao glanced at the fire pond, Yongnian looked peacefully, staring at the flames in a daze, as if he didn't hear.He patted Zhan Xin on the head and said, that's not right.Dad won't allow it, do you hear me?

Zhan Xin nodded and said "Yes", hugged his hand, and fell asleep on the pillow.The eyelids flicker and twinkle, gradually forming lines.

When she fell asleep, Zhan Zhao gently stood up and went out.Showers come and go in a hurry, and before night, day unexpectedly reappears.Yongnian followed behind and said: Zhao, don't stand in the wind.Your clothes are not dry.

Zhan Zhao said flatly, don't disturb Xinxin.Step up and walk into the large tent on one side.

Yongnian followed him into the room, sat down and said that he hadn't had any ginger soup yet.Even Xinxin, who is so young, knows that you can't take care of yourself.Did you hear her say that she wants to take you home.

After returning home, Zhan Zhao repeated and asked, then what are you doing here.

Yongnian's chest rose and fell, and he said in a low voice for a while, "I can't see you, I can't do anything."

Zhan Zhao smiled, shook his head and remained silent.

Yongnian knelt and crawled to his side, raised his head and asked: Are you laughing at me?You know I'm telling the truth.

I was drunk the night before the trip, and dreamed that he was standing by the water in the south of the Yangtze River, surrounded by emptiness, his words and smiles were incomparable.It left him with nowhere to go, desolate, panicked, and disheartened.

He hated that despair, holding on to his lapel and unable to let go.The loneliness of abandonment overwhelmed him and lasted every hour since he woke up.

Zhan Zhao smiled and said, the lord came with Xinxin in his arms, so he was worried about Zhan.I don't know what you designed for me, where are you going to go?

Yongnian reached out to touch his belt, it was wet.He lightly frowned and said, Zhao, now Xinzhou has a large number of soldiers, why do you have to stand here and endure hardships.I'm worried about your body.

Zhan Zhao smiled deeper, and pushed his hand away calmly.Zhanmou is very good here, so don't bother the prince to worry about it all the way.

Wouldn't it be better to go back to Duanzhou Palace.Yongnian simply sat down and leaned against him, "You won't go to Jiangnan anyway. Looking here, can you see it?"

After all, he was still worried, Zhan Zhao stood up with a smile, walked away from him, walked into the ray of light passing through the gap in the curtain, raised his head so that the black and white clearly fell on his face.

After standing still for a moment, he said slowly, whether to look or not to look, is all out of my heart.The prince worries about gains and losses, so what's the benefit?It is better to advise you not to think about it.

Yongnian's forehead twitched, he gritted his teeth and asked, did you look at it?

Zhan Zhao sneered, shook his head and said, no.It's just that if you are willing to believe it, you won't ask such a question.

"I believe it." Yongnian walked in front of him, stared at him, and smiled very slowly: "You say, never see him."

Zhan Zhao pursed his lips and did not answer, his palms gradually clenched into fists.

Yongnian looked down, stroked his head and smiled and said, "I won't force you. Zhao, how long has it been since Fifth Brother hasn't seen you? You have too many things on your mind, so it's fine if you don't go to him; if he's fine, why can't he bear it?" See you? You are so smart, why have you never thought about it?"

"So what if you think about it, so what if you don't want to." Zhan Zhao smiled and shook his clothes, invisibly shaking him two steps away.He naturally understood the threat in the words.He still wanted him to say a word, using Bai Yutang's safety as a bargaining chip to make them separate and never see each other again.But, so you can approach it.

All the entanglements, right and wrong, can no longer be clarified in a few words.But helplessly getting used to each other, the suspicion of the false and the false, they can connect with each other for an instant.If this is fate, then it should come down to kindness or resentment.

I haven't seen each other for three years.In three years, how old his daughter is, how far is doomed to be separated?

He also understood what Bai Yutang said back then, "I don't want to".In fact, I have already thought that I don't need to think about it anymore, and I don't need to see you again.

Or in fact, deep down he was afraid.If you can't stay together, you will only provoke lovesickness.How can I never see you again.

Also dare not see.As Yongnian said, if you don't come to him, no matter what kind of physical and mental changes are due to him, is he still the good Bai Yutang who is far away in the south of the Yangtze River?

Three years was nothing more than deceiving myself with the letters I got.He can write lively characters, and still jokes about a cat he doesn't meet.It's good so far, if it can be expected, there will be no further harm; what can Zhan Zhao not do?

What's more, it's just not seen.

Thinking of this, he smiled a little far away.Youyou said: "There were many things in the past, but now I can't remember them no matter how I think about them. Maybe he is the same. It's been too long and things have changed, so he doesn't want to come."

"What about love, is there any more?" Yongnian asked tremblingly, unable to control it no matter what.

"Love?" Zhan Zhao was a little surprised, repeated stiffly, and shook his head: "I don't know if there is any. But I know that if love can only bring harm, I would rather not love or love."

Well, just treat it like you've admitted to letting go.However, he asked again, his eyes deep and shallow, full of throbbing: "As soon as Uncle Yu died, you left. You went back to accompany your sister to the funeral, just for him? Are you afraid that I will kill you when you send Yu Lan away?" She? After all, she was my woman once, and she was pregnant with a child for me; you see me so cold-blooded and heartless? And Yu Yuan, who originally joined the army here in peace, why did you send him away together? Did you do this, Isn't it bloody love?"

"But how do you know that Uncle Yu's death was not because of your love, which caused him harm? How do you know that your love can protect Yu Lan Yuyuan until when?"

"At the end of the day, do you know that if you provoked love and didn't want it, who did you hurt in the end?"

"I have pity on my sister, she is so infatuated, she only got your sympathy and apology, the gentler she is, the more humiliating she will be for the rest of her life."

"Fifth brother, me. You said you didn't want to owe, but you know how much you owe."

When it comes to later, no one is willing to move away first, with confrontational eyes.

Staring at him like this, Yongnian smiled again: "Zhao, you are really a disaster."

You are a demon, I would like to be exhausted and die.Want a good ending, what are you afraid of?He stretched out his arms and hugged him fiercely, closed his eyes and said, "Kill me, and I will let you go."

The palm that Zhan Zhao raised couldn't fall down.There were bursts of hot and cold in the chest, and blood gushed out, speckled, and sprinkled on the two of them.

He didn't know how long he vomited, his body was empty, and he almost wanted to fly.In contrast, it is the fall that is as heavy as death.

Feeling so relieved, he even wanted to laugh.This thought, now on the lips soaked in blood, is vague and weak.

Yongnian hugged him and sat down, lowered his head and said softly, Zhao, come back with me.

Waking up groggy, jolted beneath me, sleeping in a moving car.Opening his eyes and seeing Zhan Xin, Zhan Zhao smiled and called her: "Xin Xin, have you been with Daddy all this time?" When he said that, he looked down at himself, his body was completely changed.

Zhan Xin hugged him at the side, nodded and said seriously: "Yes. I won't let anyone bully you."

Zhan Zhao patted her head, trying to sit up with his elbows propped up.Zhan Xin hurriedly helped him lift it up, exerting all his breastfeeding strength.While panting, he asked, "Does Daddy hurt? Let me rub it for you."

Zhan Zhao raised his half body, smiled and said, "Father is fine."

How can something happen.Going home, Yongning is still waiting.Half asleep and half awake, he thought again and again of Yongnian's words, how could he face Yang's death with ease.

He held Zhan Xin in his arms and asked softly, "Did it scare you?"

Zhan Xin shook his head, trying not to let tears fall: "Is Daddy afraid of himself?"

Zhan Zhao couldn't help but bowed his head and kissed her, and said with a smile, "With Xinxin here, Daddy is not afraid of anything."

Zhan Xin buried her head in his arms, and whimpered, "You didn't scare me, but I didn't want you to fall asleep and not wake up, so I cried a bit. I won't cry, and you will wake up when you hear me call you in the future." , do you know?"

Zhan Zhao nodded solemnly, his heart warmed by the ice.

The cloudy rain is as fine as silk, and the light dampness is annoying, but there is nothing in the distance.Walking through the corridor, Ding Yuehua stopped slightly, and stretched out his palm to catch a floating piece in the air.At a loss for no reason, I don't know whose tears are in my hands.

The window of the nearby house is around the window, the door is half open, and the wind blows in obliquely, so that the ink on the table is wet, leaving only half of it clear.

Someone in the room laughed, "I must stand in the rain, do you want Brother Wu to write a picture of a banana beauty?"

Ding Yuehua stepped forward and pushed the door open, and said accusingly, "Check what you did, and the room is indeed damp. Don't you know it hurts?"

Bai Yutang sat up and leaned against the bed rail, and said with a smile, "I forgot to turn it off when I fell asleep. When Jinhua will come, just let me know and I'll be ready."

Miss Ding San doesn't need exquisite food in elegant rooms.She squinted at him, and said vigilantly: "What are you going to do, how are you going to lie to me?"

"The one who knows me is the third sister." Bai Yutang smiled, "You have been here many times, but you haven't taken it around to play. I have a bitter heart, and I can't sleep or eat."

She gently pressed his hand, "Fifth brother, I have grown up."

"Yeah, they're all married." Bai Yutang laughed, "Why can't I forget the little girl who pestered me and took her crazy."

Ding Yuehua turned his head to look at the half white statement on the case, he hesitated to speak.

Bai Yutang closed his eyes: "Yuehua, throw it away for me. It's too wet to see."

She got up and walked according to her words, rolled up the piece of paper, and held it tightly in her hand.Moisture permeated through the palm, cold and sticky.

Zhan Zhaoyi left three years ago, and he was brought back to Jinhua soon after.After a few meetings, Bai Yutang's image was still in her eyes, but she saw that the years were on him, gone forever.

It's hard to look haggard and full of spring.What can't be grasped by reaching out is more than just years.

She returned to sit beside him, looked at him and sighed softly: "It's too thin. Fortunately, Big Brother Zhan didn't see it."

Bai Yutang frowned: "What are you talking about him for? That stupid cat, he's not much better."

I know you haven't stopped thinking about him.Ding Yuehua bowed his head and pondered, and said: "When there is business in Xinzhou, I might as well follow. Fifth brother, don't worry, I'll just check on him for you, how is he now? I won't say anything." ; Madam Lu spent countless painstaking efforts to drain the residual poison in the organs to the lower limbs, and could not go any further.

After three years of lingering sickness, he gradually became silent.Heartbroken and anxious, day after day, no one knew what kind of long torture it was for him.No one can understand, he calmed his fiery eyes, understood what, and where he is still persistent.

Cautiously avoiding it, he sank deeper into the uneasy speculation.She is also like them, she dare not reveal it, and cannot ask each other.Before the words came out, it all ended in speechless and pity eyes.

Only he himself was used to a calm smile.This smile made her think of another person more and more easily.How deep the love must be before you can transplant the other party's soul into your own eyes.

"If you want to see him, you can see him yourself, you don't have to do it for me." He leaned on the pillow, still smiling: "I'll let you go, I'll hide by myself. Would you feel better if you were that cat?"

Between you, he can think of anything; but what if he thinks of it?Avoid seeing, is it possible to avoid heartbreak.Ding Yuehua nodded and agreed: "If Fifth Brother says no, I won't go. But Fifth Sister-in-Law has taken care of you all these years and worked hard to help you bring up Yunrui. You should take good care of your body no matter for yourself or for them. In Yuehua's words, Does fifth brother understand?"

Bai Yutang was helpless, closed his eyes and murmured: "Lie down all day, you teach me how to eat. I won't let you drink, I might as well die."

Opening his eyes, he saw her beautiful eyes with sorrow, and he smiled again: "Are you serious? You don't know me, so you don't want to die. Sister-in-law said it can be cured, I believe her."

Hearing the comforting words, Ding Yuehua burst into tears instead: "You know why sister-in-law is so determined. It's just because she believes that Brother Zhan's heart to get you better will surely shake the heavens and the earth."

This is involved, even if I don't want to, I still can't get around it.Bai Yutang was stunned and couldn't speak, and let her hold her hand, dripping hot tears on it, which made her heart ache, "Fifth brother, Yuehua is an ordinary woman, she only wants to be safe in her life, and she cares for her husband and children. I can't pay for the shocking feelings, and I can't afford to be greedy. But I can't understand the matter between you and Brother Zhan. It's just that no matter how we know each other, you are too bitter now. Standing outside of you, Yuehua There is no room for another sentence; I just feel that wishing for the other party is not because I have been looking forward to the future? I am afraid that you..."

"I'm afraid that one day I won't be able to lie down, and my hair will come up and wipe my neck and hang my beam?" Bai Yutang smiled and shook his head: "There is nothing in the world that Bai Yutang can't do, as long as I am willing. That stupid cat knows what to look forward to in the future, so he doesn't plan to see me."

Startled, Ding Yuehua said, "It's not fair."

Bai Yutang raised his eyebrows, gritted his teeth and smiled between his teeth: "Just wait and see. How can we leave everything to him."

As he spoke, a little boy ran into the door, threw himself into Ding Yuehua's arms and shouted, "What good things did Auntie bring me?"

What a devil incarnation, he will jump at the sight of a beautiful woman.Bai Yutang glared at him and said, "Bai Yunrui, come down for me. Auntie Ding came to see your father, everything is for me, nothing to do with you."

Bai Yunrui sniffled and slid down to the ground, turned to look at Ding Yuehua, and said in his eyes, look, we are used to him, he is not as good as a three-year-old.

Ding Yuehua tried not to laugh, leaned over and held hands and said, "Yunrui's gift is with mother, go see it yourself." Lie down next to his ear and coax him softly: "Daddy is not in good health, we let him go."

Bai Yunrui nodded knowingly, but it wasn't always like this.Turned around and ran out.

A series of complaints behind Bai Yutang's back: You son of a bitch, you only call him aunt and not father when you enter the door, and you have no respect for your elders.

Ding Yuehua let out a "puchi", covered his mouth with a smile and said, "Like a father, like a son. But Yun Rui knows how to love others, this is better than you..."

Bai Yutang narrowed his eyes threateningly: "How is it better than me?"

Ding Yuehua put down his sleeves, and sighed: "He said that when he grows up, he will take daddy to play around. He won't let you stay in the house and take needles and medicine all day long."

If you have heard it before, who did you say it to?Having a father like him really means having a son like him, Bai Yutang smiled wryly, the feeling was unspeakable: Is my son pitying me?

That is also the reason why there is love first.

Where were you when I understood, how long have you waited in silence?

The water droplets condensed on the eaves by the spring rain, marrying the east wind, maybe just waiting to be let down.