Tide beat empty city

In the carriage, Yongnian looked at Zhan Zhao who was lying beside him, wondering if he fell asleep or just didn't want to open his eyes to look at him.In the past three days, his health was up and down, and he lay like this most of the time, almost never speaking.Thinking that it would be like this, Yong Nian didn't feel annoyed.When it's too bumpy, hold him and sleep in your arms.

do you like to sleepI make you sleep more comfortably.

Medicinal meals are delivered continuously throughout the day.No one talked, he heard his own voice, repeating emptyly: Zhao, take another bite.Just one bite.

I will try my best to give you, what I can give.To fill my dissatisfaction.

Zhan Zhao accepted it quietly and rarely resisted.I just lay down for a long time, and I really didn't have any appetite.If you barely eat it, you will probably spit it out.

Occasionally, when he was in better spirits, he would sit up, draw the curtains, and silently look out the window.His line of sight was blocked by mountains, and he couldn't go far; when there was no wind, the southern sun was damp and heavy, which often made him suffocate and laughed at himself in his heart.

There's no way to save him, he's really sick.

He thought of the days when he rode his horse across the Central Plains and galloped through northern Xinjiang. He was young and full of vigor.

Close your eyes and recall the dripping freehand brushwork of the wind knife piercing your body at that time.Craving for it again.

At any point in your life, you want it.Ashes can also be revived.

Yongnian woke up in the middle of the night and saw a blurry figure beside him, sitting upright.

After being dazed for a moment, he got up in panic and asked, "Zhao, what are you doing if you're not sleeping?"

Zhan Zhao didn't answer, he exhaled for a long time, picked up the cold ginseng soup on the low table, and swallowed it with difficulty.

Yongnian stared blankly at him, forgetting to stop him.

Putting down the bowl, Zhan Zhao smiled at him and said, "I haven't practiced for a long time, so I'm unfamiliar with it." After saying that, he got up and got out of the car, and stood in the moonless desolate place, looking up and thinking.

The convoy froze in the night, with the sound of the wind blowing by, emotionless.

Yongnian followed silently, and put the robe in his hand on his shoulders.After a long while, he said bravely, "Zhao, no, don't think too much. Your body can't bear it now."

Zhan Zhao shook his head and said with a smile, "I didn't think about it. My health will be fine." Just as he turned around and was about to take a step, he staggered slightly.Yongnian hurriedly supported him, nervously said: "Are you dizzy?"

Zhan Zhao smiled again: "Sleeping for too long, I can't walk anymore. It's okay." He hugged himself back to the car, closed his eyes and leaned against the board wall, panting softly: "My lord, go to sleep. I'll sit for a while."

Yongnian unknowingly stretched out his sleeve, wiped the slight sweat from his forehead, and said, "I can't sleep. I'll sit with you."

Zhan Zhao opened his eyes.

I have to accept that there is this partition in the prehistoric world, and there is only him and him in it.

Gradually recovering, he doesn't stay in the carriage during the day, and usually drives with his own royal horse.

Probably because of unwillingness to sit with me.Sometimes Yongnian thinks this way, feeling faintly lost.

Zhao's appetite is getting better, and he hasn't coughed up blood these days.

He was no longer sick and lifeless.Shouldn't you be happy?

Why is it lost instead.

Yongnian lifted the curtain and looked out.Che Qian Zhan Zhao's back was still thin, but tall and straight like a tall bamboo.Just simply looking at him can also arouse his inexplicable impulse.

When the whole team rested, more and more soldiers approached to greet them.Zhan Zhao smiled and talked to them one by one, never getting bored.

What you think in your heart is the emptiness that is everywhere.I am also in it, why can't I be satisfied?

Across the crowd, Yongnian stared at him from afar.The frenzied desire in my heart to monopolize him alive is like a wild horse running wild, and I can't control it.

Such a different you is worth letting anyone do anything to get close to you.

Will I, who fell in love with you, finally be different from others in your eyes?

After returning home, I heard that the new concubine chosen by Yongnian is the daughter of a collateral line of the Xixia royal family.There may be a military disaster in front of me, which is easily resolved in the joy of marriage.

The marriage was concluded at Yongnian's initiative.Li Xian still had concerns, but he said that as the lord of South Vietnam, the boy loves all people in the world.Why can't I love a Xixia woman?

Li Xian said, if you regret the marriage for your sister and you want to clean up the mess, you don't have to.I, South Vietnam, can't afford to take on this matter.

Yongnian smiled and said, mother is too worried.I'm not for anyone, and I don't want to sacrifice myself.You will understand later.

Li Xian didn't say much.Asked for an engagement for him, and agreed on a wedding date.

He never said that he married for the sake of saving the people of South Vietnam from the flames of war.But the less it is mentioned, the more the rumors will be concluded in this way.

As a result, his prestige in the country gradually increased.

Since then, Yongnian's opportunities to listen to politics have increased suddenly, and his interest in political affairs has also grown.He was quick and thoughtful, and quickly gathered a group of close staff around him, often sitting in the mansion and discussing.

After the gathering that day, Yongnian walked through the courtyards to the Zhanzhao room.After entering the door, he took off the thick robe with wide sleeves, threw it out of the door, and threw himself on the couch to fight for a place with the master.

Zhan Zhao got up and gave him the whole bed.Lift the teapot and pour water slowly.

Yongnian was not polite, he fell down, spread his limbs, closed his eyes and said, "Zhao, this room is the best in the entire palace." Do you know why?Because you live.

Zhan Zhao came over to deliver the tea, seeing that he was so sleepy that he couldn't open his eyelids, he shook his head and said, "Don't go to bed when you're tired. There's no serious business, why bother to make this trip every day."

Yongnian was confused at first, but when he heard this, he woke up immediately, sat up and retorted: "Who said it's not serious? It's the most serious thing in the world for me to come to see you."

Hearing a lot of strange talk, Zhan Zhao is no stranger to it.Ignore him, and drink tea by myself.

Yongnian fell down again, staring at a plate of freshly picked lychees on the ledge, and asked casually, "Who sent the lychees? I heard that this year's new fruit just fell, and I haven't seen it yet. Zhao, you are really popular."

Zhan Zhao covered his teeth, and said, "Brother Yu...Yu Yang taught someone to send it. There are more in your room, I just didn't see it."

Yongnian went over to take down the plate, peeled one and handed it to Zhan Zhao. Seeing him shake his head, he stuffed it into his mouth and said, "Why don't you eat it? It won't be good if you leave it alone."

Zhan Zhao nodded his throat: "I get angry from overeating."

"Then I'll finish it for you. You can't get angry."

After eating, he asked calmly, "When did Yu Yang become your eldest brother? I still call him Uncle Yu. Isn't it a mess of seniority?"

Zhan Zhao didn't answer him, but only said: "There is no such thing as the king and the people talking about seniority. The prince doesn't need to be troubled by this."

Yongnian was stunned, and nodded after a while: "Then why should I be bothered. Do you care?"

Zhan Zhao asked back, "Why is the prince troubled?"

Yongnian lowered his head and said in a low voice: "I'm telling the truth. Seeing you is the most serious thing. It's also the only serious thing in my life."

Zhan Zhao was silent, listening to him continue: "When you are in front of me for a while, I don't bother you for a while."

But I want i.My question is, is this possible?

After saying this, he got up and went out.Going to the door and turning back, eyes full of tenderness: "I'm going. You should go to bed early."

Recently, people have gradually heard people talking secretly, saying that Yongnian is diligent in politics because he is keen on power.

I smile.If Yongnian had no power back then, he could only leave you in Kaifeng Mansion, Bai Yutang for the rest of his life.

Besides, what can I use to compete with the world.

brother-in-law.I don't like this expedient term any more than you do.

And patiently seek to get rid of it.

And the life related to you, if you have to use power as the way, why should I deny it, I love power?

Even if no one can tell, what Yongnian sees is whether it is it or not.

You understand.Because I am so, I want to tie this life with you firmly.

For it is all given; how can you not let me take it back?

You understand.

The servant came in to clean up, and collected the lychee shells scattered on the table.Turning around and seeing Zhan Zhao inadvertently, his eyes widened in horror: "Master Zhan, your hand..."

Zhan Zhao looked down.The teacup in his hand shattered, the tiles were deeply embedded in the skin, and the blood soaked the cuffs.

He laughed and clasped his palms vigorously.Still feel no pain.

At the beginning of autumn, Nanyue Palace held a grand wedding banquet, one married and one married.When the princess returned home, she set up another mansion as usual, and the dowry servants moved out with the bride in a mighty way.

The carriages and horses return to welcome the relatives, meandering through the alley, and encounter Yongnian in the bridegroom's wedding dress, accompanied by a sedan chair, and a tall horse coming from the opposite side.

The team separated on one left and one on the right, and when the horses' heads crossed each other, Yongnian looked at it with a smile, and suddenly leaned forward and said softly, "Zhao, I'm getting married with you..."

He brushed off a fallen flower on his crown casually, and the man and the horse passed by.The breeze brought by the action, with a half-sentence of laughter, filled the ear canal: "...It was deliberately arranged by God for you and me."

Zhan Zhao walks past without squinting.

After the wind and smoke, the youth's face gradually faded away.All the old graces are buried in the years.

As night fell, the guests at the banquet gradually disappeared, but Yu Yang still hadn't left, so he held Zhan Zhao to finish talking.

Drunk people cannot be persuaded.After dismissing the servant girls, Zhan Zhao made tea and poured water by himself, and listened carefully.

Yu Yang said: "Brother Mo is drunk, I can speak from the bottom of my heart, I'm really happy. Brother, you used to be alone like a fluttering penny, no matter how powerful you were in the court or in the rivers and lakes. You have no place to feel at ease; No matter how evil the world is, no matter how cold the world is, whenever you turn around, there will always be a place for you to rest when you go back. You said that the elder brother can If you are not happy, can you drink two more glasses for your brother?"

Zhan Zhao smiled, his black pupils shining in the starlight, clear and gentle: "Zhan Zhao has no father and no mother, and I haven't listened to such sweet words for a long time. Finally, God treats me well, and my elder brother told me these things. In my heart, my brother is also with you." Generally happy."

Yu Yang patted him on the shoulder, wanted to say something, sighed, bowed his head and drank again.

Zhan Zhao picked up the wine bottle, drank it with him, and then asked, "Why is elder brother sighing? What's wrong with you, tell me, brother, and I will resolve it with you."

Yu Yang shook his head: "Brother, you don't know. Listening to what you said just now, big brother feels sorry for you."

Zhan Zhao was startled for a moment, but suddenly his heart started to boil, making his nose sour.

Yu Yang raised his eyes to look at him, sighed again, and continued: "You just want too little and wrong yourself everywhere. You should have a family more than others. Someone will say something warm to you. Don't laugh at brother , I got drunk on purpose. If I don't get drunk enough to forget my identity, some words are hard to say."

Zhan Zhao calmed down for a while, then raised his head and said, "Big brother, you can talk to your brother whenever you want, so it doesn't matter if you are drunk or not? Unless you don't think Zhan Zhao is really a brother."

Yu Yang asked anxiously: "How could it be? At the beginning, I, Yu Yang, wanted to recognize my brother first, and I wasn't drunk at the time. Cough, so what if I'm drunk, it's true when I'm drunk. I'm..."

Zhan Zhao smiled and said, "Brother is sincere. Zhan Zhao knows."

Yu Yang was relieved, nodded and said: "You provoke me. It's okay, be careful with your words and deeds and wait until after dawn." Lifting the wine pot to fill the two, they put their heads together and asked him: "Brother, would you like to talk to elder brother? You are close relatives, but you are not happy?"

After drinking, Zhan Zhao pondered, then shook his head and said, "Brother, there are some things that need to be done as they should be done. It's hard to think about whether you're happy or not. So Zhan Zhao didn't think too much about it."

Yu Yang sighed and agreed: "Yeah, life is a hundred years, how can everything be happy. To tell you the truth, when my brother got married, he was not as good as you. You and the princess met face to face; I just went to the bridal chamber and took off the hijab for the first time. See my disgraceful wife. No matter how reluctant I am, I will still have children with her, and I can't leave her even now."

Zhan Zhao held the cup in one hand, smiled and said nothing.

Yu Yang raised his head and looked at him: "Brother, what are you laughing at? In fact, it doesn't matter whether you are happy or not, there is nothing that will stay the same for a long time. If you are happy, you will be sad when you are very happy. If you think about the unhappiness in the past, it is just a smile. Brother is so smart... ..."

Zhan Zhao cut it off with a smile: "Brother, why was he reluctant in the past, can you..."

Yu Yang laughed loudly, and reached out to clink glasses with him: "I'm drunk again. I don't want to say it, let you think about it." Then he sighed: "In the past many years, nothing matters anymore. The person in front of you."

Is that really the case, Zhan Zhao silently laughed.But how to get by.

The understanding at the other end of the years is thorough, and it has been suffering with blood and tears.

Yu Yang was also silent, and took his hand for a long time, got up and walked: "Brother, don't delay, let the bride wait for a long time. Big brother is nagging, big brother wants to say, treat yourself well and live with your heart. The old ones are gone. Mo Even the future is empty.”

Early in the morning, Zhan Zhao finished his practice, went into the inner room, saw Yongning's new make-up, knelt in front of the case, burned incense and prayed.When she stood up and turned her head, her eyes met, he didn't know where to start asking.

Yong Ning smiled, walked over and pulled his sleeves, and said softly: "You should also offer incense sticks. If you have anything to say, please tell the two elders at Quan Xia." Seeing his confusion, she lowered her head, a little embarrassed: "They say they are newly married. In the morning, you should serve tea with your parents-in-law. Isn't that right?"

When Zhan Zhao heard about it, he turned his gaze to the two new cups of tea on the table, and then back to his wife.After a while, I went to the case to burn incense, knelt down and kowtowed three times.

Yong Ning quietly stepped forward to help him up, hand in hand, turned around and walked out slowly.

In the middle of the journey, Zhan Zhao first broke the silence: "Princess, last night... I wronged you."

Yongning shook his head: "The official is drunk and unwell, his wife knows it." After a pause, he said: "The future will be long. Since we are husband and wife, why should I fight for one night?"

The woman's pretty face is red.Saying this, he was born dignified.

Zhan Zhao turned his head and sighed, then fell silent again.

Three days later, the princess and her husband returned to Ning Wangfu, the younger brother and younger brother-in-law went down the steps to greet each other, and the two couples worshiped together.Li Xian came to accept the gift with a faint smile, thinking she was happy.After exchanging greetings, the female relatives left to gossip in the inner room. Yongnian took Zhan Zhao's hand and asked him to go with him to explore the former residence.

Thinking about his intentions, Zhan Zhao smiled and did not refuse.

The old courtyard was silent.The two opened the door and walked in, standing in the middle of the house, looking around silently.

On the day Zhan Zhao moved in, all the utensils here were provided by the palace, and they were all placed as they were at this time.Standing in silence, the beam of light shines through the pane, and the shadows of flying dust sway all over the ground.The quilts and mattresses on the couch were stacked neatly, as if the pillows and mats were still warm, and there was a lingering breath for no reason, which couldn't be shaken off after lingering.

In delusion, Yongnian unconsciously raised his hand and drew far away in the air, imitating his outline, eyebrows and eyes.The serious expression gradually softened into a smile.

Zhan Zhao noticed it, turned his face sideways, and frowned slightly.

Yongnian sighed and put down his hands.

I can't even tell you how much I miss you.How to let him know.

Lowering his head, he said, "I teach people to clean your room from time to time. When I study late at night, I sometimes sleep here, and I feel more at ease than other places. Zhao, you took my soul away. Only you left An empty shell, like this empty room."

Saying this has nothing to do with me.Zhan Zhao tried his best to be indifferent, but he couldn't suppress the inexplicable bitterness.Perhaps the struggle was never different.No matter he or himself.

Yongnian smiled.What is in your heart, teach others how to answer.Then why do you still want to ask for it, no matter how many times you are disappointed, your heart will not die.

He put his palm on the back of his hand, took a breath and said: "You will always forgive me, won't you. You can't even bear to blame." Let go of his hand, step back and say: "Actually, I wanted to ask, I haven't got you a wedding gift yet. What do you want?"

Zhan Zhao stared at him silently for a long time, shook his head, but still didn't speak.

Well, Yongnian lowered his head and smiled, "Then I decide. Are you and sister happy?"

"What did the lord say?" Zhan Zhao asked back, he hadn't spoken for a long time, and his voice was a bit astringent.

Yongnian was stunned for a moment, and said in a stuttering voice, "Well, that means, that..."

Zhan Zhao raised his hand to interrupt him, thought for a while and said, "My lord is also married, why ask me."

But you are forced to.Yongnian thought about it, but didn't dare to say it.It is best not to be in love.

Unexpectedly, Zhan Zhao asked: "The concubine chosen by the prince will definitely treat her very well. Is that so?"

For a moment, he put away his melancholy, and his eyes were as clear as before.Yongnian shuddered slightly, pursed his lips and did not answer.

Zhan Zhao sat down with a cup, sniffed the fragrance of the tea and said with a smile, "Zhuji tribute tea. It seems that Zhan doesn't have to return the court, and he doesn't have to worry about not being able to enjoy it."

Yongnian settled down, nodded and said, "That's right. Whatever you want, I can do it for you."

Zhan Zhao looked up at him and smiled slightly.

Yongnian came over and fell at his feet.Xu Jiu said, "Zhao. You know me."

Zhan Zhao bowed his head, the smile on his lips seemed to be glued, like ice that had frozen in his eyes.

Why don't you know.Yongnian marries Xixia's wife, and the emperor will be uneasy again.The territory of South Vietnam that cannot be lost, who will take care of this country for the Zhao family.

It turns out that what Zhan Zhao has achieved so far is still not enough.

If you renege on your original vow, you no longer want to take a half-step back, and you don't know if it is enough.

After putting down his tea, he stood up and walked out without a word.

That night Yongning stayed at her mother's house, and Zhan Zhao drove back by himself.Walking into the yard in the twilight, I saw a small scar on the wall, the soil was dug out of the ground, and two or three servants were planting on the wet mud.

Half of the monstera is implanted, and the dark green leaves are dense and flooded, combing the evening wind, like soft and bright fingers.

Zhan Zhao leaned forward and looked at it, and just laughed.

A servant turned his head and was stunned.The other followed his gaze and was also stunned.

I can't describe how touching that smile is.Maybe it's not even beautiful, but it makes my heart tremble.

Maybe at night, only the starry sky can touch the strings deep in the heart of the earth.

It's not his usual gentle smile, it's not unkind.

It is a beam of light that is gentle but persistent, lonely but bright.Darkness cannot be bound.

It is the unquenchable attachment to the light reflected in the eyes when looking up.

The servant's voice softened, and it seemed that his voice was also dissolved and lit up: "Does Master Zhan like it? The prince taught him to move it, and it was planted in the original courtyard of Master Zhan in the palace."

Between the slender stems, flower buds are pulled out branch by branch, like small arrows.Zhan Zhao smiled and nodded: "It's getting better and better. This leaf looks a lot more."

The servant also smiled: "It's true when you grow up. How... the prince went into the garden again by himself, picked more than ten similar trees and sent them, saying that they would look better if they were planted together."

It's as if I heard Yongnian say, Zhao, you can still tell the difference between the past.

Zhan Zhao stood up straight.After a while, he nodded and said, "It seems that this is indeed the case."

The line of sight widens, and the hibiscus and camellia, which are higher under the corner, are sent from the clouds and finally landed as their home.Flowers bloom and thank each other in leisure, bowing down and raising their heads, covering each other and relying on each other.