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There is always a gap between reality and imagination. Su Yu can rehearse every expression and every movement of the male protagonist countless times in his heart, but when he really puts himself into the rehearsal, he finds that he can't meet his expectations.

Once, twice, even dozens of times.

No, it's not right anywhere, Su Yu's whole body fell into a state of anxiety, which made his heart extremely irritable, but he seemed to be caught in some kind of cycle, and had to continue repeating the same thing again and again. try.

Even though he was lying on the bed, he was still thinking about it, over and over again, and couldn't stop. When he could really fall asleep, it was almost dawn.

The time of deep sleep seems to be very short. He feels as if he is awake at one moment, and at another moment he feels that he is really asleep. pulled out.

Su Wei looked at the time. At 08:30, he slept for about two and a half hours, but he was no longer sleepy. At this moment, there seemed to be a voice in his mind that kept asking him, why can't you do it?Why can other people act but you can't?

As if to prove himself, Su Yu fell into the anxiety of the previous night again, practiced again and again, failed again and again, his heart was impetuous, his mind was chaotic, and his limbs seemed to no longer listen to his own commands.

Finally, he forced himself to stop, he knew he needed help, he looked at his phone, it was almost twelve noon, Jiang Chen should be eating now, right?

He wasn't sure, but this was the only person he could turn to at the moment, so he called Jiang Chen.

The bell seemed to ring for a long time, as long as a century. His heart was hopeful and lost, and he was vaguely afraid. What was he afraid of?He didn't know, maybe he was afraid that asking for help would be futile.

"Hey?"

"Su Yu?"

"why do not you talk?"

Jiang Chen's voice over there was getting louder and louder, and then he pulled back Su Yu's sanity. He said anxiously: "Can you help me watch a play? I can't act well. I don't know what's going on. You help me. Just keep practicing, keep practicing, and it just doesn't work."

Su Yu spoke urgently and quickly, Jiang Chen went through his words in his mind before he understood.

"Now?" Jiang Chen looked at the staff around him who were still busy, and the next scene was about to start.

"Can't you? It'll only take a while, really." Su Yu's voice contained a vague plea.

Jiang Chen smiled, he seemed to feel that Su Yu was acting like a baby.

"Did you record it? Record a section and send it to me."

Su Fu agreed, Jiang Chen just wanted to ask him if he had eaten, but the other side had already hung up quickly.

Su Fu, who hung up the phone, flipped through the transcribed videos. There were a lot of them. He was entangled for a while, and he didn't know which part to send, but the time was urgent, so he sent several to Jiang Chen.

Then waited again, 1 minute, 2 minutes... 10 minutes, Jiang Chen still hadn't replied to him.

Su Fu flicked the phone over and over, wanting to wait a little longer, but couldn't help sending a message to Jiang Chen, "Have you read it? How is it?"

After a few seconds, I sent another one: "I think the performance is a bit blunt, what do you think?"

Then there was another one: "You said how I should improve, what should I do?"

After posting three messages in a row, Su Fu stared at the dialog boxes of the two people and began to wait. He was very anxious and wished he could cross the Internet and stand in front of Jiang Chen and ask him.

Finally, the prompt "typing..." appeared on the top of the dialog box, but Jiang Chen seemed to be typing very slowly, as if it took a long time before Jiang Chen sent the message.

"I watched a few times, and I think it's okay, but the eyes are a bit empty. When the male protagonist sees the female protagonist, you are smiling, but there is no joy in the eyes, and it feels a little worse."

After Su Fu finished watching, he immediately called Jiang Chen again, and said anxiously: "I don't know what's going on, I can't find the feeling of joy, can you play it for me and send it to me?"

"Don't worry, if you keep practicing, you will definitely not find the feeling, go out for a walk, take a break and try again." Jiang Chen vaguely sensed that something was wrong with Su Fu, but he couldn't tell what was wrong.

"Help me, try to perform it once, it will be quick, okay? Really, just perform it once." As he spoke, Su Yu's voice was already pleading.

"What's wrong with you? Is something uncomfortable?" Jiang Chen's voice was full of doubts and anxiety.

"I'm just... I'm a little anxious, can you do it again?" Su Yan was still repeating what he said before.

The director over there was already calling Jiang Chen, and he didn't have time to ask any more questions, so he could only say to Su Yu: "The director is calling me, I'll act it out for you later, don't worry, be obedient."

After finishing speaking, it was too late to say anything to Su Yu, so he hung up the phone.

Su Yu looked at the phone that was hung up, and wanted to ask, how long will he have to wait?One hour or two hours?Or is it longer?

Sitting alone for a while, Su Wei felt that the impatience in his heart subsided little by little, and the whole person fell into a kind of extreme loss again. He was like a lonely boat on the sea, panicked and confused.

He didn't eat for a day, and in the evening, Su Wei seemed to feel better, so he ordered a takeaway, but he ate very little. Every food seemed to have no aroma, and the taste was like chewing wax, which was hard to swallow.

After eating, he didn't know what to do, so he lost the courage to continue reading the script. Anyway, he couldn't do it well, just like when he was a child, no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't meet his father's requirements. He looked at the girl on the balcony. A half-dead plant, just like him, life is slowly withering like a residual leaf.

Go to sleep, he said to himself, maybe he won't be afraid of anything when he falls asleep, but no, his mind doesn't allow him to stop thinking at all, and he begins to think, how do others judge him, he is Not a useless person?

He has no friends, he can't even fit into any circles, just like the day before when he walked into the crowd, no one wanted to talk to him, yes, no one would like him, this world is so scary, so There is no hope, and his existence is so meaningless, so humble, probably worse than an ant.

Will Jiang Chen still love him?No, Jiang Chen is so good, how could he fall in love with a person like him, such a worthless person.He still remembers that when he was a child, no matter how he put on a happy and beautiful coat, his father could always see his inner cowardice and incompetence at a glance.He was suddenly afraid of the arrival of tomorrow, maybe something even more terrifying would happen tomorrow.

But whether you wish it or not, the next day will come, it may be hopeful, it may be full of despair.

Su Kui looked at the night as it grew deeper and deeper, and watched the dawn gradually brighten in the sky, but the deep terror surrounded him. He was so uncomfortable that he couldn't breathe, but he still lived uncontrollably.

It was already dawn, but Su Yu didn't have the strength to get up. He felt that he couldn't lift his legs, and he couldn't stretch out his hands. He just wanted to be wrapped in the quilt all the time, isolated from everything outside.

But no, the phone has rang back and forth several times, and now even the door rang.

Su Fu stopped when he heard the door ringing for a while, heaved a sigh of relief, and every time he let go of his gripping heart, the bedroom door was opened.

"Brother, are you home?" Assistant Song Xiaotian asked while standing at the door of the bedroom, he seemed unsure whether to come in or wait outside.

After a while, no one answered, and he asked again in a strange way: "Brother, are you still up? You have to catch a plane."

Su Kui gave a grunt, Song Xiaocai turned and went to the living room, looking back while walking, the person on the bed seemed to move with difficulty, it took a long time to get up, the movement seemed to be a huge difficulty to get up.

He was amused and envious at the same time, being a star is good, but he drove half of the city to pick up Su Yu, he didn't expect him to sleep soundly.

It took another while for Su Yu to come out, the decadence and frustration on his face were well concealed, but his face was still pale, and the dark circles on his eyes clearly reminded him how he spent a sleepless night.

"Let's go." Su Yu said, with some tiredness in his voice.

"I brought you breakfast, do you want some?" Song Xiaotian took out the steamed buns he bought downstairs.

Su Wei shook his head and said, "I don't have much appetite, you can eat by yourself."

Song Xiaotian agreed, and the two quickly packed up and went to the airport. Song Xiaotian was very silent along the way. He didn't know what to say to Su Yu. Even though he had been Su's assistant for a month, he still felt unfamiliar.

Su Yu didn't intend to speak, he felt very uncomfortable, he was so bored, panicked, and blocked, he really wanted to find someone to talk to, but what could he say?He probably can only say that I am very sad, I feel that I can't live anymore, but these words are obviously not suitable to say to Song Xiaotian, so he can only remain silent.

This time, the program was recorded twice in a row, and the design process was also high-intensity, requiring constant pursuit and deciphering. For three full days, Su Yu basically had no free time, and he couldn't sleep at night. It has reached the extreme, and the mental endurance is on the verge of collapse.

When Su Fu returned home from work, his legs were as heavy as lead. Even though he realized that he was facing a serious problem, he was powerless. The air felt very difficult, and perhaps he was relieved like this. At this moment, he felt that death was also a kind of blessing.

Let me sleep forever, he thought, he was so eager for sleep, even if the phone rang countless times, he didn't want to bother about it anymore, he just wanted to sleep forever.