Rebirth: Marry Bai Fumei

Xu Nanshan frowned slightly when he heard the words, and when he turned around, he saw a woman in her fifties holding her nose, her face wrinkled together, full of disgust.

"Didn't you hear me? Pinch it! What kind of cigarettes do you smoke in public? Is this a smoking area?"

Xu Nanshan hadn't been yelled at like this before, he was taken aback for a moment, and said, "Oh...Sorry, I didn't find a smoking area..."

The aunt said: "If you don't find a smoking area, you can just smoke casually? My daughter is pregnant. If you stand by the window and smoke, all the cigarettes will float into the room and let her smoke."

Xu Nanshan held the cigarette between his index and middle fingers and took it out of his mouth. There was no ashtray at hand, so he threw the cigarette butt on the ground and stamped it out with his foot.

At this time, the aunt spoke again: "You young man, why are you doing this? You didn't see what the cleaners were cleaning just now, so you threw it on the ground? Have you got any quality? Pick it up!"

"..." Xu Nanshan was scolded bloody, and thought he was unlucky, so he bent down to pick up the cigarette butt, but there was no trash can nearby.

The aunt was satisfied now, looked Xu Nanshan up and down, and said, "Young man, are you a celebrity? My daughter used to like a male celebrity, and I think you look quite like him."

Xu Nanshan thought, maybe it was him.

"However, that young man used to look good. Recently, there have been reports of beatings, abuse, and his reputation has been ruined. You said he was a star, why didn't he do something good?"

Xu Nanshan: "..."

The aunt turned back to Xu Nanshan, and persuaded her sincerely: "This man, it's better to quit smoking, and don't learn the habit of beating others. I think you are not young anymore, you have a wife Right? When your wife was pregnant, you also smoked?"

Xu Nanshan: "...No." He has no wife.

"Mom? Why haven't you come in yet?" At this moment, a young woman's voice came from not far away.

The woman was in her twenties, very young, a few years younger than Xu Nanshan, with a slightly bulging lower abdomen, wearing loose maternity clothes.The black hair is scattered on the shoulders, and the fair face is a little fat due to pregnancy, and the face is slightly round.

Women come with their husbands and mothers to buy furniture for their babies who are born in a few months.She walked over following her mother's voice, but she was taken aback when she saw Xu Nanshan unexpectedly.

"... Shanshan?" The woman's voice was full of hesitation.

Xu Nanshan was also stunned, is this his fan?It looked a little familiar, he should have seen it before... that's an old fan.Xu Nanshan immediately raised a friendly smile, nodded and said, "Yes, it's me, don't say anything."

He thought that women would rush over excitedly to ask for autographs and group photos. He had seen this kind of scene a lot before.Who knows not.

After hearing Xu Nanshan's confession, the woman showed a trace of disgust in her eyes, and her tone was very cold: "You are also here to buy furniture. I can't live in the previous house. I'm afraid of being sent by Heizi, so that's why I want to move." ?”

This development doesn't seem right.

The smile that Xu Nanshan raised just now froze on his face, and his expression faded. He recognized the other party.This woman was the one who took over his song during his concert this year. She was sitting in the first row. She was supposed to be his diehard fan.Right now it looks... seems to be out of powder?

Seeing the cigarette butt in Xu Nanshan's hand, the woman covered her nose and frowned, "Are you smoking just now?"

Xu Nanshan was a little embarrassed: "Ah... yes, I'm sorry."

The woman said: "Don't you know that smoking is not allowed here? In public places, you smoke alone, so many of us smoke second-hand smoke, my mother still has bad lungs."

The aunt coughed twice in unison.

Xu Nanshan unconsciously moved his hand holding the cigarette butt back to block it.

After the woman finished speaking, she supported her mother and was about to leave. Xu Nanshan didn't know what was going on, and suddenly asked, "That..."

The woman looks back.

Xu Nanshan said, "Are you...have you lost your fan?"

The woman raised her eyebrows: "Do you recognize me?"

Xu Nanshan nodded: "...I remember you at this year's concert."

The woman said: "Since I got pregnant, I have gradually become less interested in chasing stars. And, more importantly, you are not the Xu Nanshan I used to like. Although the previous Shanshan was a bit more straightforward, but gentle , Respect others, that is the Xu Nanshan that I like."

"Many of those on the Internet are nonsense..." Xu Nanshan defended in a low voice.

The woman pursed her lips, rolled her eyes and said, "There are always some truths, true and false, a violent egomaniac like you, if I continue to like you and let my child know, it will be bad his."

"What's more," the woman looked Xu Nanshan up and down, "Look at your current appearance...how do you look like a musical talent in the past."

She didn't finish her sentence, but the disdain in her words left Xu Nanshan at a loss.Xu Nanshan couldn't help but look down at himself, and then he heard the woman mutter softly:

"I was really blind to like you..."

These words were like a heavy slap on Xu Nanshan's face. Xu Nanshan was embarrassed and embarrassed for a while, and instinctively wanted to refute, but when he looked up again, the woman had already left with her mother.

The corner of Xu Nanshan's mouth twitched, he clenched his fists tightly, threw the cigarette butt on the ground, and stomped on it a few times.

As he stepped on it, he scolded: "If you take off your fans, you will take off your fans. It's not like I don't have any fans! Do I care about you?! If you don't like it, you don't like it. Get out as soon as possible!"

Xu Nanshan scolded angrily, and when he finished scolding, he panted violently, stared at the direction the woman left, and didn't move for a long time.Gradually, Xu Nanshan's shoulders drooped, and he leaned against the wall as if he was exhausted, tilting his head, looking at the white ceiling, lost in thought.

He suddenly lowered his head, and slowly slid down against the wall, squatting on the ground, with his arms on his knees, and his wrists drooping naturally.Too long bangs blocked his eyes, and he lowered his eyes, under the long and thick eyelashes, the eyeballs looked motionlessly at somewhere in the void.

Time seemed to stand still, and Xu Nanshan seemed to have been pressed the pause button.If it weren't for the slightly rising chest, he might look more like a statue.

After a long time, Xu Nanshan stretched out his hand, bit by bit to reach the cigarette butt that he had crushed on the ground.The cigarette butt was a little far away, and with his left hand resting on the ground, he could barely reach it with his right hand.Xu Nanshan pinched the cigarette butt between his fingers, stared at the blackened end, sneered, and shook his head helplessly.

He raised his head, leaned the back of his head against the wall, curled his fingers, and held the cigarette butt in his palm.But the cigarette butt that has been extinguished does not bring any pain.

Is it the fault of the cigarette butts?No, it was his fault.Xu Nanshan thought to himself, if he didn't know how to repent, restrain himself, and be self-righteous, how could he be hated by others?

Xu Nanshan covered his face with his hands, and smiled self-deprecatingly in his palms.

"Brother Xu, Brother Xu?" Xiao He's voice seemed to come from the sky, "Brother Xu, where are you?"

Xu Nanshan took his hands off his face and listened to Xiao He's voice, but there was no response.

It wasn't until Xiao He came over by himself that Xu Nanshan raised his head in Xiao He's relieved voice, and looked at Xiao He.

Xu Nanshan asked: "He Zhou, am I a particularly bad person?"

Xiao He didn't understand, so he scratched his head and said, "No, Brother Xu, did you see what others said again?"

He pulled Xu Nanshan up from the ground, and said while pulling, "Brother Xu is still pretty good...No one is perfect, how can a person be without flaws? Brother Xu, don't worry about it."

Xu Nanshan: "It's really good?"

Xiao He doesn't know how to lie: "Well... Really, there is a little bad."

Xu Nanshan twitched the corners of his mouth, patted Xiao He on the shoulder, put his hands back in his pockets, shook his head and said, "Forget it... let's go buy furniture and finish moving the house as soon as possible."

"Okay, Brother Xu." Xiao He replied.

Xu Nanshan took two steps, then turned around and asked Xiao He: "Is my current appearance very unattractive?"

Xiao He said: "Brother Xu is still as handsome as before, but he doesn't seem to have the energy he used to. Recently he always stays up late and has dark circles under his eyes. He didn't make up or do his hair today. He definitely can't keep up with when he was on the show. "

"Oh, that's it." Xu Nanshan glanced at the extremely clean wall, but couldn't see clearly, he could only see the lazy figure on the wall with slumped shoulders.

Really lack of energy, Xu Nanshan thought, he actually wanted to cheer up, but felt very tired, obviously he didn't do anything today.

After buying the furniture, the boss sent them back with a car.Xiao He helped Xu Nanshan find two helpers to help him clean up his new home.

The new home is not very far from Lesheng's home, less than half an hour's drive.

Xu Nanshan originally wanted to make things easier, but now he felt that the distance was too close.After seeing Le Sheng like that, Xu Nanshan felt a little ashamed when he looked at his current appearance.

On the first night after moving, Xu Nanshan suffered from insomnia.

I don't know if he recognizes the bed, but he never recognized the bed before. Insomnia nights make people very anxious, but the more anxious they are, the more unable to sleep.

At first Xu Nanshan closed his eyes and tried to count sheep, but he forgot where he was counting, and the more he counted, the more he became more sober.Afterwards he squinted, trying to wait for the drowsiness to strike on its own, but it was clearly not realistic.Xu Nanshan tried to listen to some light music, but in vain.

Anyway, there was no work the next day, so Xu Nanshan didn't sleep at all, and got up to write songs.He listened to several records of musicians he once loved, but when he was about to write, for the first time in his life, he no longer felt his enthusiasm for music.

Holding the pen, Xu Nanshan felt for the first time that music is such a hideous thing.

This recognition made him feel extremely panicked, extremely uneasy, and extremely anxious.

He dropped his pen angrily and looked at the time, it was almost five o'clock.

It's almost dawn.

Xu Nanshan scratched his hair, opened the window of the bedroom, let the cold wind in the early morning flow in through the window, and he was shivering immediately in only his pajamas.Unfortunately, the cold wind did not make the brain sober.

Xu Nanshan leaned on the window sill and looked out.As winter approaches, the days are getting shorter and the nights are getting longer. If it is summer, the sky is almost dawn at this time, but at this moment, when looking out, there is only a dark night sky.A crescent moon hung in the night sky. It was bleak and cold, half covered by dark clouds, and only a small half of the crescent moon was barely visible.

Not a single star.

Xu Nanshan could see the mountains shrouded in darkness in the distance, and the green plants planted downstairs nearby, including tall trees and short shrubs.In the silent environment around, there was no other sound except the wind.The longest-lived Ticicada has also gone into hiding.

Xu Nanshan leaned on the window sill without bones, thinking of the sycamore tree outside Lesheng's bedroom window, and the faint fragrance of flowers, the fragrance of shower gel on Lesheng's body, and the fragrance of cologne on Lesheng's body when he was working.

Lesheng... Lesheng...

Xu Nanshan propped up his upper body with his arms, remembering the three fingers that Le Sheng lay on him in the car that night, and recalled that earlier, Le Sheng said to him, "I want to approach your life ".

But now, what is there for Le Sheng to work hard to get close to him?

Xu Nanshan stood at the window until the dawn passed. When it was almost dawn, the sky turned pale, and he returned to the bed, exhausted and sleepy, and fell asleep.

Xu Nanshan slept until the afternoon. When he woke up, he felt dizzy and his throat was dry. He touched his forehead - it seemed that he had a fever.

It's not surprising, it's strange that he didn't have a fever after blowing the cold wind for several hours.

The fever made people's thinking more dull. Xu Nanshan felt weak all over. He picked up his phone and looked at it. He saw calls from You Lesheng, Xiao He and Wang Aimin.With his eyes half open, he lay on the bed, swiped his finger on the screen several times, hesitated for a long time, and dialed Xiao He.

"Hello, Brother Xu? You finally called back. Did you sleep well last night?"

Xu Nanshan closed his eyes and gave a faint "hmm".

Xiao He said: "The two helpers I found for you have passed away today. See if there is anything you need. I just brought them to you when I passed by."

Xu Nanshan closed his eyes and thought for a while, then said slowly, "Bring me some wine."

"Wine?" Xiao He said, "What do you want wine for?"

Xu Nanshan: "..." He wanted to answer, of course he wanted to drink, but he felt tired even saying a word, so he didn't answer.

Xiao He took it on his own initiative: "Brother Xu, drink less alcohol, drinking too much will hurt your health."

Xu Nanshan said impatiently: "Why do you care so much? I hurt myself and myself."

After Xu Nanshan's training, Xiao He didn't dare to say anything, and whispered: "Okay, I'll bring you some."

Xu Nanshan said "hmm", cut off the call, buried his head in the quilt, and soon fell asleep again.

Xu Nanshan was woken up by Xiao He's serial calls.He stood outside Xu Nanshan's new home with two helpers, almost ringing the doorbell, when Xu Nanshan came to open the door with a sleepy face in his pajamas and slippers.

The two helpers are women in their thirties, one is surnamed Zhang, the other is surnamed Tian, ​​and the other is a cook, surnamed Li, who is a little older, in his forties.

"Brother Xu, you just got up?" Xiao He said in surprise, "It's almost three o'clock."

Xu Nanshan yawned, sat back on the sofa and slumped, and said, "It's fine anyway."

Xiao He put the wine brought to Xu Nanshan on the tea table, and then introduced it to several people. The three of them greeted Xu Nanshan together, Xu Nanshan nodded perfunctorily, and said: "Salary or something, those Xiao He Let me tell you all, then I won’t say more, you can go to work now.”

I just moved into my new home, so there are naturally many things to be busy.

When the three of them dispersed, Xiao He saw that Xu Nanshan's complexion was not right, and asked, "Brother Xu, are you feeling unwell?"

Xu Nanshan said, "I have a little fever."

Xiao He: "Fever? It's raining today, did you catch a cold?"

"Is it raining?" Xu Nanshan asked, "When did it rain? It didn't last night."

Xiao He: "Down this morning, it's so big, it's been down all morning."

Xu Nanshan was so sleepy in the morning that he didn't even notice.

"When you called just now, why didn't you tell me that I'll buy you some antipyretics, and you'll get better soon after taking it."

Xu Nanshan: "It's just a fever, it will be fine after a night of sleep, what medicine do you take?"

"Is it burning badly?" Xiao He asked, reaching out his hand to touch it, "Hmm...it's okay, it's not too hot."

"There's no thermometer here, is there? Take a thermometer and measure it."

Xu Nanshan: "No."

Xiao He: "I'll go out and buy."

Xu Nanshan: "Sit down!"

Xiao He who just got up sat down and asked, "What's wrong?"

Xu Nanshan: "Have you told anyone about my moving?"

Xiao He: "No, only the people in the studio know."

Xu Nanshan nodded: "Okay... you can go, I have nothing to do here."

Xiao He: "Brother Xu, you have a fever, why are you alright?"

Xu Nanshan: "Fever is such a big deal, don't bother me if it's nothing, go!"

Xiao He still hesitated: "No, the weather has turned cold recently..."

Xu Nanshan was too lazy to talk nonsense with him, rolled his eyes, and drove him away.Before leaving, Xiao He still asked Xu Nanshan to drink less alcohol.

Xu Nanshan thought he was long-winded.

After driving the person away, Xu Nanshan remembered Le Sheng's missed call, and Le Sheng's call was naturally a video call.Xu Nanshan thought for a while, but instead of going back, he sent a message, saying, "I'm sorry, I have something to do in the past two days, so I haven't passed it."

Le Sheng should be at work at this time, but unexpectedly he replied in seconds: "Is it a matter of work? Does it matter?"

Xu Nanshan: "It doesn't matter, don't worry."

Two seconds later, a video invitation was thrown over there. Xu Nanshan shook his hand and refused.His current appearance is probably very ugly, and he doesn't want Le Sheng to see anything.

Le Sheng: "What's the matter, is it inconvenient?"

Xu Nanshan said vaguely: "Yes, it's not very convenient. I'll go back to you later."

Le Sheng was silent for a while: "Then I won't disturb your work."

He also said: "You must not pay attention to those comments on the Internet, they don't know anything at all, they just follow the trend and talk nonsense."

"Many people think they are hiding behind the keyboard, so they have no scruples and dare to say anything."

Le Sheng's news came out one after another quickly.

Xu Nanshan bent his lips and asked, "Are you comforting me?"

Le Sheng: "...I'm afraid you will be sad."

Xu Nanshan: "I haven't. I don't care about those. Don't worry."

Only then did Le Sheng feel relieved: "That's good."

He waited for a while, seeing that Xu Nanshan didn't reply immediately, he thought he was busy, so he ended the conversation, said goodbye to Xu Nanshan, and sent a rare emoji to show off his cuteness.

Xu Nanshan looked at the expression that jumped out on the screen, and a faint smile appeared in his eyes.

In the evening, it started to rain again.

The weather seems to depend on one's mood. Xu Nanshan was in a gloomy mood, and the weather became gloomy. The pouring rain poured down from the afternoon to midnight.The gloomy sky made people breathless, Xu Nanshan closed the windows that were constantly dripping water, and watched the raindrops crackling on the glass.

The air was damp and cold, and the cold air penetrated into the clothes along the trousers, cuffs, and collar. Xu Nanshan was dizzy, his head was hot, but his body was chilling intermittently.He stood at the window and watched the rain for a long time, until he sneezed heavily, then retreated to the sofa, covered him with a thin blanket, and turned on the heater.

Xu Nanshan lit a cigarette. He didn't know when, he seemed to be smoking more than before.A pack of cigarettes is gone within two days.

Xu Nanshan leaned on the sofa, listened to the sound of rain, and unconsciously became dazed again. Drowsiness hit him, he lowered his head and closed his eyes sleepily.

The cigarette between the fingers was billowing with green smoke, and the sparks were flickering between the fingers. Somehow, the cigarette butt burned to the palm of Xu Nanshan. Xu Nanshan was so hot that he woke up immediately and found a blister on the palm of his hand .

Write songs, Xu Nanshan reminded himself.

He put out the cigarette butt in the ashtray, and somehow he came up with inspiration again, and quickly wrote a string of notes on the paper.After finishing writing, I started to revise again, and it was night after this revise.Sister Li learned that Xu Nanshan had a fever, so she went out and bought some antipyretics for him, and made it for Xu Nanshan to drink.

Xu Nanshan didn't want to drink it at first, but his energy and thinking were affected by the fever, which was not conducive to writing songs, so Xu Nanshan drank it.So at night, Xu Nanshan was much better.Xu Nanshan's health is good, he seldom gets sick, so he rarely takes medicine, and once in a while, the effect is particularly good.

Sister Li made dinner and asked Xu Nanshan to eat it, but Xu Nanshan ignored her.The three of them looked at each other, until Xu Nanshan lit another cigarette, then raised his eyes and said to them, "Eat first, I'm busy."

Xu Nanshan paused, and then instructed: "Don't disturb me while I'm writing songs."

The three quickly agreed.

Xu Nanshan took a deep breath of the cigarette, feeling the nicotine entering his lungs, he exhaled, and the smoke overflowed from his nose and mouth.The unpicked stubble and unmanaged hair made him look a bit aged.

That night, Xu Nanshan kept changing the song until the early hours of the morning before finally feeling satisfied, and sent it to Si Ziping and Mao Chengji.

Si Ziping's reaction was a little surprised: "Why are you still writing songs at this time?"

Xu Nanshan said: "Don't I often write songs at night?"

Si Ziping: "I'm not talking about that, I'm saying, shouldn't you take a good rest now, relax, and write some songs? Are you not tired?"

Only then did Xu Nanshan understand what Si Ziping was talking about. He twitched the corners of his mouth and said, "I'm happy."

Mao Chengji is a middle-aged and elderly man, unlike their young people, he replied to Xu Nanshan the next day.He discussed the song itself with Xu Nanshan, and asked about the effect Xu Nanshan wanted to achieve.

That night, Xu Nanshan found that he seemed to have entered a vicious circle.

If I can't sleep at night, I will be sleepy during the day the next day, but if I sleep during the day, I will not be able to sleep at night, and then I will suffer from insomnia.This is not a good sign, because getting enough sleep is the key to maintaining physical and mental state.

Xu Nanshan wanted to change this state of mind, but if people could only act rationally, there would be a lot less trouble in this world.

The disordered biological clock made Xu Nanshan even more depressed, and for various reasons, Xu Nanshan did not return any calls to Lesheng.

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