summer flowers will bloom

Perhaps Lu Jiwen should regret that he insisted on trying to talk to Qiu Yubai calmly.

At least at first, he should regret it.

Because just when he heard the noise of sniffling, he thought that the other party was crying, whether he was touched or poked at a sore spot, at least when he was crying, when his heart softened, he stepped forward and sat hesitantly. Beside the bed, when he wanted to touch the pitifully thin back, the man curled up on the bed, but suddenly there was no "follow-up", the emotional outburst was in time, and it went quickly, it seemed very likely that there was no "follow-up" at all. "Come" but just "go" so hard.

Turning over, Qiu Yubai sat up very suddenly, her eye sockets seemed to be red and wet, but the corner of her mouth was showing a bleak and arrogant smile.

"It hurts~" With his elbow resting on his knee, he looked at Lu Jiwen, who had already realized that something was wrong, "It hurts like hell, the stone is stuck in the bile duct, the doctor said that if I continue to suffer, I will not be able to get over it at any time, what's wrong Distressed about me? Do you remember how you treated me well back then? Hmm? Then you dumped that brat and come back to chase me, and give him to your cousin. That's right, you're already 35, isn't it just right to be with me who is on the [-]th? You don't think I'm old, do you? My looks are still there, right? I don't look like "four photos" Is it someone from you? Hey, Lu Jiwen, do I look younger than you? I’m only in my early thirties? You’re not at a loss..."

"...I should have remembered that you have always loved to act." Gritting his teeth, Lu Jiwen stared at the other party.

Qiu Yubai was not frightened by the sight, but kept smiling, slowly reached out, touched the other's chest, and grabbed Lu Jiwen's collar before he retreated.

At that moment, the lips almost touched each other, but the warm voice had a cold tone, Qiu Yubai curled the corner of his mouth, as if he was not being satirized at all, instead he held his breath and continued to speak even more embarrassingly. Annoyed words.

"You should have known, I'm just a showman." Simply defining himself, Qiu Yubai pushed away that strong chest with a smile, leaned back on the head of the bed, pondered for a while, and sighed , "It's a pity... I have acted too much, and I will see it as pure and persistent as Lu Jiwen back then. Hey, do you remember? Huh? How many times have I pretended to be pitiful to you? How many times have I used you to get rid of you?" Haunting slut? How many times have you picked me up from the nightclub? How many times...you babysit me till dawn? You stay up with me because I wink at you to be pitiful and then you pity It's flooding...you...haha...too funny..."

As he talked, he burst into inexplicable laughter. Qiu Yubai put away his smile little by little in the silence of the other party, then touched the tip of his nose after he calmed down, and finally his whole face gradually became quiet.

Quiet to sad.

He knows that he is hateful and pathetic, and he doesn't want to include the pitiful act he pretended to be in his definition, because that will only add pathetic and hateful elements.He knew that he had a bad temper and poor character, and he didn't want to make any excuses, he just wanted to keep going down like this until the bottom of the valley.Like a tainted whore, healing won't wash away the shame, so why waste time?

He shouldn't have promised Li Zhen to let Lu Jiwen come over. The appearance of Lu Jiwen would make him think of his past glory and filth. Back then, he shouldn't have gone to Lu Jiwen as soon as he got angry. No matter how sick he was, he was helpless , he should be helpless on his own, because he will be alone until he dies, and no matter how serious he is, he will choose to leave because he can't stand him.

The same is true for Li Zhen. Li Zhen will leave sooner or later. His personality is too bad. Besides, he is old. Even if a man is not like a woman, he will easily look old after forty, but he is no longer the man he was ten years ago. look like.The stupid kid who promised to try his hand at dating with him would find out in about a year that the whole age difference between them was a joke.

It's really not a joke.

"Forget it, let's go." Shaking his head, he finally chose to give up, even if it was only a few words, he still chose to give up pretending for the time being, the sneer is still cold, but the sadness is true, "You go Tell Li Zhen, let him go too, I don't want to waste time with a child, I can't afford it, and he doesn't need it. You let him think about it, when he was thirty, I was in my forties, etc. When he was forty, I was an absolute old man. I would lose my skin and my eyes would be bald. Of course, the premise is that I can live to be like that. You let him think about it, he can bear me That virtue, stay if you have the ability, if you can't stand it, and you get goosebumps just thinking about it, it's better to leave as soon as possible. If it's not the end, he will be the one who regrets it."

In the house, it was quiet for a while.

It was Lu Jiwen who broke the silence first.

With a shallow sigh, the man pushed the glasses frame, the initial resistance disappeared from his face, and the surprise just now was put away.

"If you want to say this kind of thing, you can say it yourself." Lu Jiwen stood up, tugged at the folds of his collar, and said in an unusually calm tone, "You will care what Li Zhen thinks, prove that he It’s already half the battle. He’s better than I was back then. Come to think of it, you’ve never considered my thoughts. It’s just meaningless to talk about it now. I just ask you to be nice to him as much as possible, at least Don't hurt him, okay?"

Another long period of silence.

"Get lost." This was Qiu Yubai's reply.

Lu Jiwen didn't get angry, he did leave, with Guo Jianyi, who looked slightly uneasy, and Li Zhen, who vaguely seemed to be able to guess something, explained a few words, and left this beautiful courtyard.

After closing the courtyard door, Li Zhen didn't immediately go to Qiu Yubai to ask what they had talked about. He just went back to the room quietly, cleaned the dining table and the kitchen, and restored everything to its original clean and tidy appearance. .

The cat came to his legs and acted coquettishly, wiped his hands, leaned over to tickle Du Qiu and Mayumi, and wanted to see if the cat food was gone. Li Zhen was about to get up when he saw a figure walking away from the stairs down.

It is Qiu Yubai.

The man's eyes were a little anxious and tired.When the two cats saw the real owner appear, they didn't go forward, let alone meow, they just pestered Li Zhen for a hug.

The anxiety and exhaustion in the man's eyes began to reveal annoyance and irritability, and he didn't approach him. Instead, Qiu Yubai, who was sitting in the middle of the stairs, just looked at Li Zhen from top to bottom.

"Don't catch a cold." He straightened up and leaned against the kitchen countertop. He hesitated for a moment before asking, "How are you talking with my brother?"

"How about it..." Qiu Yubai brushed her hair, avoiding the other party's eyes, "I think... I might regret that I didn't sleep with him back then..."

As he talked, he laughed again. Out of the corner of his eye, he could see Li Zhen approaching. He waited for the other party to get angry, so maybe there would be a good reason to drive him away, but what he waited for was just The young man who walked up the stairs step by step walked to his side and sat down with a sigh.

"You can't mess with me like this, and I won't explode just because of such words." Li Zhen said in a serious manner, and Li Zhen didn't speak out again until the two cats ran over quickly and continued to beg for caresses, "You, I think you are actually You are not the kind of indulgent person, you are just too lonely and too timid. But the result of this is that others can only see your cold and arrogant side. You see, it is obviously your cat, Why don’t you kiss me? Because you are the cat among cats, the most difficult kind. Cats need someone to watch them whenever they need them. That’s why people who like cats are called cat slaves.” The word "slave", no matter how good or bad it is, isn't one of the qualities that is always on guard? Think about it, how much time can you give cats every day? Right. So I think, as long as I am willing to guard you, of course I also have to watch that you don't let it go out and run around, after a long time, you will be happy to get close to me."

"Are you sick? Huh? You want to raise me as a cat?" Qiu Yubai wanted to get angry again.

"It's the same, it's the same." Li Zhen immediately began to act hypocritically, "Keeping a cat really can't just feed the stammer and drink it."

It may be that Qiu Yubai was really involved, or it may be that Qiu Yubai was touched by the analogy, and he lost his position in a hurry, because not only did he lose his temper, but he also directly expressed his heart disease for many years. Shake it out.

"But that's how I was raised! Give it to people who stutter! It's over! When I need someone, no one is there!"

This kind of confession, to be honest, made Li Zhen see the so-called... um... the light of hope while being shocked.

Scratching the back of his head, he calmed himself down, then reached out and put his arm around the other's shoulder.

"Well, don't mention the past, I will treat you well in the future, will it work?"

"...No need for you!"

"You don't even want someone to treat you well?"

"No need! You want to raise me like a cat! I don't need you to raise me!"

"Yes, yes, objectively, you definitely don't need me to raise it, but I can let you raise it without doing anything. Let's talk about psychology, can't I let me love you psychologically? You used to be a noble cat, Wandering for a long time, eating dirty and drinking cold food, don’t you think this is sick, no one hurts, how pitiful.”

"No one said they needed your pity!"

"It's not pity, it's love, love, okay?"

"I do not need!"

"You really don't want it?"

"do not want!"

"You don't want anything for nothing?"

"don't want!!"

"You said what's the difference between the two of us and the little brats in the first grade, so you can just say 'yes', that's great."

"Get out of here."

"real or fake?"

"roll."

"..."

"..."

"Hey, then I'm really screwed."

"..."

"I'm gone, but no one will give you hug therapy."

"..."

"Okay, then I'll get out, anyway, the kitchen is cleaned up, and I'll take out the garbage while I'm out."

"...?"

"Rest well, don't stay up late, I'll come back another day."

"..."

"That's it, you rest, I'll go."

How far did Li Zhen achieve what he said?

Probably not much.

So how much panic was Qiu Yubai at that time?

Possibly, really a lot...

Because when Li Zhen was trying to get up and go downstairs, a hand reached out eagerly and instinctively, and even though he was reluctant, he still grabbed his sleeve firmly.