summer flowers will bloom

Guo Jian fell in love with Lu Jiwen at first sight.

As for Lu Jiwen, probably, it was from the third meeting that he gradually fell in love with this lovely child.

But he doesn't actually want to, subjectively.

He has enough historical issues and a huge emotional debt. Before the age of 35, he lived a life with somewhat unrighteous views.It's not enough to spend money to buy springs, but as Li Zhen said, he does change every few days.

It's not that he doesn't want to give his sincerity, nor does he want a stable relationship, he just doesn't dare.

Having witnessed too many failures, whether inside or outside the circle, he really doesn't think he is qualified for a long-term true love.Maybe true love is limited, God only gives the same fixed amount every year, but the population is gradually increasing, so there are fewer and fewer people who are lucky enough to be sympathized with.

And then, suddenly realized that he was over 35 years old, Lu Jiwen, who had finally officially turned four, finally gave up the chicness of lingering in the flowers, he began to enjoy his loneliness, and no longer took the initiative to touch anyone , no matter how cute the other party is.

Just like Guo Jianyi.

The child that this cousin forcefully gave him is really cute. When he smiles, it looks like a living (*?▽?*) kaomoji dangling in front of his eyes, like an unsuspecting little milk dog, like a male version The description of Little Red Riding Hood may be a bit exaggerated, but the initial impression is indeed infinitely close to these images.

Is it appropriate to give him such a clean and high-quality product...

Among other things, he is only in his twenties, and he is in his youth. He is already in his fourth year, and he has started to go downhill day by day. Come together and go on, one day, his old age will become a huge obstacle.He doesn't even have absolute confidence to face a partner who is older than him. If he is really with someone younger than him, how much will the other party suffer in the future?Will he take the first step and abandon him as he thought in his pessimistic head?

In this era when everyone wants to eat a fast food for feelings, or even the best overlord meal, in this era of peace that lacks real ups and downs and tortures, the people who have long been vulnerable, such as you, such as me, when You and I are facing the reality, this biggest obstacle, this ultimate boss, can you really handle it...

The love songs sang forever and ever until death, and they all blew out the sun in one breath and drank up the Pacific Ocean in one breath, as well as "only you" and "all for you", but they were staged in reality, Aren't they all flying separately when disasters are imminent, or are they all shrinking and giving up in the face of obstacles?It's not all from passionate to unfeeling, from dedicated to promiscuous...

It is good to last forever, and it is great to be unswerving until death, but it is a love song after all... And love songs are like fairy tales, they are really deceiving.

Associate Professor Lu, who has had enough of the reality, will stand on his balcony and watch the lights of thousands of houses in the dead of night after finishing his papers or teaching plans, and fulfilling all the obligations of a scholar, a teacher, and a moral model. Release the pessimistic self in your bones, and be pessimistic.

And this kind of pessimism can only exist until the moment he meets Guo Jianyi.

Because as long as you see that handsome and masculine child, the walking face, the clear color in the flexible eyes, and the young cheeks that the sun will slip on his skin , Hearing that voice, touching that hand, feeling that heat... He will quickly forget his negative energy, like a fully charged new energy car, which can go a long way with a single click.

It was around the third meeting that Lu Jiwen realized this. The child Guo Jianyi was his positive energy charger.

he likes.

For that meeting, the place was decided by Lu Jiwen, but it was the other party who paid the bill.It is precisely because of this that Associate Professor Lu chose a new shop with relatively cheap drinks and good reviews. The shop is next to Chaoyang Park, and the location is quite hidden. The overall style is minimalist industrial style, with gray walls and black walls. Sofas, and a big, white patio.

Sure enough, the terrace is always the favorite of young people like puppies.

They don’t seem to be afraid of mosquitoes, smog, or flying birds “throwing bombs” at any time. As long as they can stay in an open, romantic place, where you can enjoy the night view of the city from a distance, and see the bustling downstairs from a closer look, you don’t need to stay. Mind the volume of talking, don't worry about sitting posture and eating, chat about the sea and the sky, run to the fence whenever you are happy, close your eyes, enjoy the still slightly cool night breeze at the turn of spring and summer, and wag your tail in satisfaction Come on, this is the so-called youth.

So, as soon as he got on the terrace, Guo Jianyi, who really ran straight to hold on to the black iron guardrail to see the scenery, was full of excitement, pointing to a building with a strange shape and asking if it was a certain building?Is the area over there without tall buildings the mysterious villa area that is said to be too expensive to afford?Seeing the invisible tail wagging wildly behind the opponent's little butt, Lu Jiwen not only swept away all his fatigue and worries, but also became interested.

He also walked to the side of the guardrail, he answered the other party's question, and then pulled the thin shoulder to make him stand on the other side of him.

"There are people smoking over there," he said.

"I'm okay, I'm not afraid of the smell of smoke."

"No, the terrace is windy, and sparks can easily float over."

"Oh." My heart was a little pounding. In order to relieve the tension and excitement, Guo Jian gave a skin, "Brother, you are talking about the sparks in the soot, not the sparks of the nine planets."

"...No, it's Mars of the nine planets."

"Ah? No, wait a minute. Do history professors make fun of the poor?"

Seeing the excited face of the little milk dog, Lu Jiwen just smiled, and then sighed: "Actually, both of us were wrong, it's the eight planets now."

"Oh yes, Pluto was kicked out." He pouted, and Guo Jianyi also felt emotional, "I remember when I was in the second year of junior high school, I couldn't accept the news when I heard the news. The bright spot of love on Pluto burst out, and a lot of people did a lot of emotional PS, so I feel even more pitiful. Why don’t you want it... Just because the size is not big enough? Isn’t this discrimination from Hongguoguo... "

"And it's discrimination in the cloak of scientific rigor, which is even more grandiose and cannot be refuted."

"Hmmmmmmmmmm!! That's how it feels! That's why I feel so aggrieved!"

Feeling that the big boy who nodded repeatedly to express his indignation was so cute, Lu Jiwen also had a somewhat unsteady look in his eyes. Once the inexplicable urge to communicate in depth arises, it is difficult to subside.

"That year, I happened to be applying for membership in the party, and I heard this news when I was writing a party class report. I was really moved."

"Ah... Pluto was kicked out in 06, and you were 24 that year?"

"Ah."

"At that time, you must have stayed in school to be a teacher."

"Not yet, I went out to serve in the army in my sophomore year, and then came back to continue my studies. I haven't graduated in 06."

"Oh."

"Didn't Li Zhen tell you this?"

"I didn't go into details. I know that you have been a soldier and a teacher?"

"Correct."

"Where are you going to teach?"

"Great Northwest."

"Old and young frontier and poor areas?"

"Yes."

"It's very bitter..."

"The first time I really felt bitter, but the second time I was calm."

"You actually went twice once, brother, do you really take this as a pursuit? To be honest, I always feel that people who grew up in cities, especially international metropolises, find it hard to imagine going to remote areas. ..."

"Pursuit... It's more appropriate to say that I am young and vigorous. Li Zhen said that I am utilitarian and cunning. I think fundamentally speaking, it is an impulse. I want to experience it for no reason and see what I can do." How noble is the original intention? Not necessarily, it is true that I have received real benefits, which is my current status, but in the whole process of supporting education, I dare to say that I risked my life to do my best. Who wants to say I am utilitarian, so I can do whatever I want, I know that I will 'be worthy of the Tathagata and not be responsible for your honor', that's enough." Rarely speaking to someone I've just met, and a young man who can almost be regarded as having a generation gap With the truth in his heart, Lu Jiwen even surprised himself for a moment.

That night was the first time the two of them really talked.It’s no longer just superficial mobility topics and funny news, but more about personal things, the reasons and opportunities for practicing, family conditions, values ​​and morals, and even the criteria for choosing a spouse.

Although when talking about this topic, Lu Jiwen said that it is really difficult to "choose" for the purpose of becoming a "couple" now. If possible, he hopes to be a person who fits in all aspects and has a smaller gap. Guo Jianyi felt a little lonely for a while.But the optimistic medical students quickly smoothed out the knots in their minds with "the difference of ten years is not too big, otherwise, look at Yang Zhenning, an old man?"

That night, Lu Jiwen found out that Guo Jianyi came from a family of doctors, with three generations, including the married daughters-in-law, and the one with the furthest relationship with the hospital was a researcher of medical equipment.Studying medicine seems to have formed a tradition, just like Lu Jiwen is a family of literati, up to the next level, until the Republic of China or even the late Qing Dynasty, there has never been a martial artist. In his generation, he has been a soldier and also trained A whole body of tendon meat is already considered a miracle.

"Then you study history because of the influence of that old tenant at home?" Guo Jian asked after drinking the last sip of refreshing grasshopper in his glass.

"Well, I called him Grandpa Su when I was young. He was really too old. As far as I can remember, he was a gray-haired image. He passed away the year I finished my college entrance examination and lived to be [-] years old."

"My God..." The little milk dog looked surprised.

"He even gave me a gold pocket watch as a souvenir. I'll show it to you when I'm free."

"Good good."

Looking at the big boy who nodded repeatedly, Lu Jiwen checked the time and told him that it was late and it was time to go back.

The other party did not refute, nor did he emphasize that he was an adult and his family would not care too much, he just obediently agreed and left with the associate professor.

That time, it was indeed Guo Jianyi who paid the bill, and the amount was not high, because Lu Jiwen only chose non-alcoholic drinks.He wants the child who has no fixed income to save a little, even if the child repeatedly reiterates that he has a small coffers, this little expense, "it's a drizzle~".

That night, Lu Jiwen drove Guo Jianyi home. Before getting out of the car, he grabbed the medical student who didn't dare to expect too much, leaned over and kissed that smooth cheek.

In fact, this kiss was a courtesy kiss at all, and it made Guo Jianyi happy for three or four days, and it was the kind of happiness that made him happy as soon as he thought about it, very happy.Even at that time, he just blushed and smiled, got out of the car, and said good night.

Even though it was that night, I was not at all uneasy.

Because when he tossed and turned and couldn't fall asleep, he used all his courage and sent Lu Jiwen a message with the courage he felt would be overdrawn until next year.

[Brother, are you willing to be my blue pot friend? 】

He wasn't trying to be cute on purpose, but if he didn't speak like this, he would appear too formal. If it was too formal, it would cause greater psychological pressure. If he was rejected, the result would be even more tragic.

Seeing that the message was sent successfully, he threw the phone aside, buried his face in the pillow and waited.

Before he was about to suffocate himself, he received a reply.

That's a simple sentence.

[I don't want the relationship to develop too fast. 】

Hey, expectations are in vain.

Seeing that full stop, Guo Jian felt a bit cold in his heart, but fortunately, it was only half missing.

He hesitated again and again, thinking that he still had to mature and at least give a rational reply so as not to lose his temper and ignore others, he was going to say a few words that were generous enough and graceful enough to save himself a little bit of face.But before he clicked the send button, another dialogue bubble popped up on the screen.

On the left, of course, is Lu Jiwen's portrait, and on the right, there is a sentence——

[But I am willing to give it a try. 】