world travel

Zhou Jiamu changed his name, his name is now Zhou Xinyuan.

This name was given to him by Kang Yan, and it is said that Kang Yan thought of it in a dream.Kang Yan said that the name Xinyuan is very good, and it always reminds him that he should get more things.The word Jia collides with Liang Jiayu's name, so don't worry about it.

So, he had been Zhou Jiamu for 17 years, and was completely abandoned by him without leaving a trace.

Zhou Xinyuan wasn't sad either, but felt a little lost.He always felt that when his uncle was still alive, although life was hard and the two kept torturing each other, he could still feel a sense of being alive.However, when he turned into Zhou Xinyuan, he really couldn't feel anything.

He always felt that Zhou Xinyuan was another person, and he was becoming another person.

I have always been confused, not knowing what to do, and not knowing what will happen in the future.Sometimes he felt that he was getting old, and sometimes he felt as if he was back to the seven or eight years old.He misses his mother, but the past can never go back.

Zhou Xinyuan moved from Langshan Town, and took a plane for the first time in his life to the bustling capital.

He called Kang Yan uncle, even though he really had no blood relationship with him at all.The word "uncle" was a bit shameful, and after being ashamed, Zhou Xinyuan shamelessly accepted it as if he had discarded the name in the past.

When he first came here, Zhou Xinyuan didn't understand anything. Although he was wearing the beautiful clothes Kang Yan bought for him, he was still rustic when walking in the crowd.This kind of rusticity can't be seen from the outside, but once he starts talking, this kind of rusticity appears, and he won't even order food outside by himself.

Kang Yan is very busy and doesn't have much time to spend with Zhou Xinyuan.So he brought a good friend and introduced him to Zhou Xinyuan, her name was Zhang Quan.

Zhang Quan is a psychiatrist. After she got in touch with Zhou Xinyuan, she gave him regular psychological counseling. Besides, she also assumed the duty of taking care of him temporarily.Zhou Xinyuan followed Zhang Quan, first rented a house, and then went shopping in a bookstore.

The first time he ate Haidilao, Zhou Xinyuan blushed all the time, because the waiter was so enthusiastic that he even felt a little embarrassed.There were many things he didn't know, Zhang Quan spent a long time taking him to play, but Zhou Xinyuan still couldn't let go.

He stopped reading books and fell in love with watching movies.

The house that Zhang Quan rented to Zhou Xinyuan had a large LCD TV, and Zhou Xinyuan watched movies all the time.

On his birthday, Kang Yan asked Zhou Xinyuan to learn how to drive. He said that he wanted to give Zhou Xinyuan a car in the future.

But Zhou Xinyuan didn't learn it. The coach had greeted him and was patient and gentle throughout the whole process. He still couldn't learn it.

Kang Yan didn't say anything, he just bought an alien computer for Zhou Xinyuan as a substitute for his birthday present.

In September, Zhang Quan helped Zhou Xinyuan contact the school and let him enter the third year of high school as a transfer student.Originally, both she and Kang Yan thought that Zhou Xinyuan couldn't keep up, but it turned out that he was more interested in learning than having fun.Zhou Xinyuan's foundation was indeed weaker than that of the children in the city, but he quickly caught up and even asked for a tutor.

In the college entrance examination that year, Zhou Xinyuan got a very good result, and his choice was the Department of Chinese.

But he didn't go in the end because Kang Yan told Zhou Xinyuan about his plan.

Zhou Xinyuan will never forget that day, Kang Yan took him to a revolving restaurant for dinner, and at the dinner table, he told Zhou Xinyuan how they should make the Liang family pay the price.Kang Yan chose Liang Jiayu only because Liang Jiayu was the youngest and the best to be close to.He wanted Zhou Xinyuan to go to film school, approach Liang Jiayu as an actor, and then find a suitable opportunity to make Liang Jiayu disappear.

Zhou Xinyuan didn't quite understand at first, he asked, "How close?"

Kang Yan said: "Liang Jiayu likes men."

Zhou Xinyuan's eyes widened slightly, he understood what Kang Yan wanted him to do, but he still found it unbelievable, he said: "You said let me...let me..."

"You have to make him like you."

"But I don't like men." Zhou Xinyuan laughed, "I... can't do it."

Kang Yan looked into his eyes, poured him a glass of red wine, and said, "Xiao Yuan, you can."

Zhou Xinyuan suddenly felt that Kang Yan was really like his uncle. Like Kang Yan, his uncle directed all his hatred towards others.The same is true for Kang Yan, he also hates, but no one can say exactly what he hates.Zhou Xinyuan knew that once they stopped this kind of relationship, they would lose all their goals in life and then go to destruction.

Sometimes, people live for such a little illusory thing.

Although Zhou Xinyuan didn't hate anyone, he could understand his uncle and Kang Yan.

Back at school, Zhou Xinyuan went to get her ears pierced.

He was obsessed with this little act of changing his body, it made him feel a little different.

He thought he might be a little out of order.He should hate, obviously his surname is Zhou, not Kang Yan.But he didn't want to admit that he really couldn't feel anything.After becoming Zhou Xinyuan, he just felt so tired, he wanted to start a new life, a life with nothing.

However, he did not reject Kang Yan.In other words, he couldn't refuse Kang Yan.

After living in the city for a year, Zhou Xinyuan would never go back to the past, he couldn't accept it.

Liang Jiayu... Liang Jiayu...

If he wanted Liang Jiayu to like him, then he had to like Liang Jiayu first.

Zhou Xinyuan performs pitiful self-hypnosis every day.He put Liang Jiayu's photo in his wallet and carried it with him all day, like a middle school student who has a crush on someone.Regarding Liang Jiayu's information, he will pay attention to it and memorize it as soon as possible.A few times, he really almost ran into Liang Jiayu, but in the end he just glanced at him through the crowd.

Zhou Xinyuan originally thought that he still had a lot of time, and he had to study in film school for four years. In these four years... he could become more normal again.

He wrote a script called "Mayfly", which is about the life of "Jiamu".However, Jiamu in "Mayfly" has become another person again. He still has a bad uncle, and he still almost chose to jump into the reservoir, but he made up Hu Yuxin, made up other things, and even helped him choose the last one. die.

He let "Jiamu" die in the sea, he thought it was great, it was a perfect ending.After finishing writing, Zhou Xinyuan felt a huge relief physically and mentally, as if he had already died once.

The script ended up in Liang Jiayu's hands for some reason, and he actually liked it very much. A year later, Liang Jiayu came to his school to cast a role, and Zhou Xinyuan was so shocked that he couldn't speak.

He ran out to make a phone call like crazy, asking why Kang Yan became like this.Kang Yan said lightly, isn't this better?

Zhou Xinyuan hung up the phone and walked silently in the rain with an umbrella.

Wouldn't it be better...?

Yes, great, really great.Who would have thought that there is such a coincidence in this world?

At the same time, Zhou Xinyuan also understood that he still hadn't gotten rid of the "Zhou Jiamu" in the past. If he wanted to be free, he could only follow Kang Yan's rules of the game.

Kang Yan did not force Zhou Xinyuan to audition.But Zhou Xinyuan knew that he would go.

He thought, not in four years, this is his best chance.If he wanted Liang Jiayu to remember himself, he had to be a little more crazy and a little more fearless, so he simply didn't take the first shot seriously.He was betting, betting on Liang Jiayu, betting on fate.

He thought a lot, but he was not sure.Even on the way to the audition, I wanted to leave several times.

But, he didn't leave.

That day, he took a deep breath, pushed open the door of the auditorium, groped in the dark, and walked in front of Liang Jiayu.

That day, Zhou Xinyuan didn't go to audition.

He is repeating his miserable life.