My green plums are very sour

There are two things that have been on my mind all the time.One is the failure of the self-enrollment examination, and the other is the wasted time with Shu Yu for so many years.These are arguably the two biggest mistakes I've made in my life.And without the first, the second might not have happened.

I told everyone that the failure of the self-enrollment examination was caused by my carelessness, and there was no other reason.Shu Yu once suspected that I did it on purpose, but I resolutely denied this idea.In fact, I did not do it on purpose, but this pot Shuyu may have to recite half of it.

I wrote the previous test questions very smoothly and quite confidently. I dare not say that I can guarantee 100% correct rate, but 90.00% is still a gamble.When I wrote the last big question in one breath and was about to do the second round of calculation, the speed suddenly slowed down.

My nerves were tense for several 10 minutes, I had finished most of the questions, and I couldn't help but relax a little. At this time, I had free time to think about it, and my thoughts drifted to Shu Yu.I know that she is quite dissatisfied with me taking the self-enrollment exam, one is because I secretly prepared for the exam without telling her, and the other is, if I pass the exam, I will not spend the whole three years of high school with them Pass.The way she frowns slightly and pouts her upper lip has been circling in my mind, and her usually smiling eyes keep blinking, as if silently blaming me.

My attention was flying away, which made it difficult for me to concentrate on completing the second round of calculations. When I deduced the third-to-last formula, I could no longer continue to calculate. The pencil drew a large deep mark on the draft paper, and copied what I just wrote. The calculation process is all blotted out.

What should I tell her after I go back from the exam?It is difficult for this little child to coax when he gets angry sometimes.However, I am not born with the ability to coax people, and most of the time I speak in a preaching tone, so it always seems that my attitude is too cold, and she is just making trouble for no reason.

The consequences of being distracted in the exam room are predictable.One minute before I handed in the paper, I wasn't completely sure what the correct answer was, so I could only use my intuition to pick the one I thought was the most likely from the many calculation results and fill it in, stepping on the bell and handing in the paper.

I had already given up hope.After the results came out, it was not as expected, just a little bit worse.

Everyone seemed to feel very sorry for this, and felt that it was a pity that I could not go to a better school.But for myself, what annoys me is when I can do it, but I can't.In the case of sufficient ability value, failure to complete the set goal is a kind of failure and a kind of self-denial.

I have been adjusting my mentality throughout the summer vacation. Although I have no chance to study in those schools, I can still use other methods to keep myself from falling behind.The impact of an exam failure must not affect my future study and life.

At that time, I didn't expect what would happen between me and Shu Yu in the near future.After everything happened, I couldn't help but think back, if I passed the self-enrollment exam smoothly, wouldn't this situation not have happened.

If I had left them to study in the provincial capital at that time, I might not have had the chance to find out that I had something wrong with Shu Yu, and I would not have had the entanglement that lasted for several years.What a wrong step, wrong step.

But it's hard to say, maybe this is the legendary fate, but it's more like a sinful fate.

If I were forced to give a reason for liking Shuyu, I would definitely not be able to.There are actually many advantages in her, but they are basically covered up by her "stupidity".

I never liked fools, Shu Yu was an exception.But there is also a process from disgust to acceptance for her.She was really almost completely uncivilized when I met her.I've always felt that normal peers were ignorant enough, and she was even more than that.

Due to my parents' reasons, I had to have frequent contact with Shu Yu, and I had to become friends with her.After a long time, I decided to transform her and make her as acceptable to me as possible.It can be said that there has been an unequal relationship between us from the very beginning.

Shu Yu's initial resistance to me gradually turned into blind obedience.After getting used to the rules and concepts I instilled in her, she began to trust me subconsciously, thinking that everything I said was right, and she just had to follow through.

I used to feel very fulfilled about this, but then it slowly turned into doubt and guilt.I gradually realized how seriously my influence on Shu Yu was.What she was then was not what she wanted to be, but what I thought she should be.She trusted and depended on me, and I controlled her, consciously or not.

But in any case, I have achieved the desired purpose.Although Shu Yu still does stupid things that give me headaches from time to time, but at least he is no longer so stupid that he doesn't even understand why he has to study for the exam, which is already a great improvement.

Apart from being a bit silly, Shu Yu has nothing wrong with her, and her stupidity sometimes looks very cute, with a very contradictory taste, especially when compared with her face.

When we first met, she was sweating all over her head, with some black stains on her clothes, she looked like a scruffy kid, and Rui Rui next to her was not much better.I have a slight cleanliness, so my first impression was not very good, and I laughed at them very veiled at the time.

After waiting for a few days to meet again, they were all cleaned up, so I took a closer look. They were obviously two beautiful children, and they were much more pleasing to the eye after they were cleaned.Rui Rui is a very typical girl, with black eyes and small mouth, she looks easy to talk.What impressed me the most about Shu Yu was her slightly upturned eyes, which always gave people the feeling that she was smiling, and her facial features were full of aura.

Every time she is stupid, Lingling's face shows a bit of bewilderment, which is unexpectedly cute, and people can't bear to criticize her.Sometimes I even tease her on purpose, which is really funny.

Although Shu Yu is quite worrying, I got used to it after a long time, and even developed some sense of mission, wanting to put her on the right track as much as possible.When Rui Rui and Qiu Zicheng got together, the time we spent alone increased significantly, and we felt like we were "depending on each other".

Shu Yu always accommodates and takes care of my feelings, and I also enjoy her preferential treatment, and then repay her from other places.Our relationship grows closer.

I watched Shu Yu transform from a scruffy little guy into a teenage girl, from half a head shorter than me to taller and taller to the same height as me.We occupy more and more weight in each other's lives, and we have turned habits into lives.

And life always has its ups and downs, and there are other people involved besides us.

Tao Songnian's appearance gave me an inexplicable sense of crisis. I don't know where it came from, but it made my heart's alarm bell ring loudly and I reacted irritably.

When Shu Yu stared blankly at Tao Songnian's face and was about to reach out to take the milk she gave me, I subconsciously felt a little uncomfortable, so I stepped in and dragged him away.

I admit that Tao Songnian's appearance is very characteristic, and she is very easy to like, and the gentle aura around her has a natural appeal.But she shouldn't appear in Shu Yu's eyes.

Shu Yu was very surprised by my sudden behavior, but she has long been used to obeying my wishes, and will not forget to think about it.

I quickly found excuses for myself after the initial jitters.

How many times have I said not to take things from strangers casually, not to mention that she is lactose intolerant, it is really not worrying at all, but luckily I pulled her away in time.

When I think about it this way, I feel much better, and I can feel at ease that what I do is justified.

At that time, I just regarded Tao Songnian as an episode. I didn't expect that she would become the norm in Shu Yu's life, and the two quickly became familiar with each other without my knowledge.

I was very dissatisfied with Shu Yu's concealment, but I didn't want to be angry with her, so I had to target Tao Songnian.I proposed to watch Tao Songnian's game with Shu Yu, and then I said something weird on the sidelines of the court, and Tao Songnian and Tao Songnian tried each other out.

Her probing, meaningful eyes made me feel uncomfortable, like a thorn in my back.

What puzzles me the most is that my hostility towards Tao Songnian stems from an unknown instinct, which violates my usual habits and principles in dealing with people.I hate feeling out of control.

On the way back, I couldn't help but feel a little bit at a loss. I went to the doctor in a hurry and generally wanted to get an answer from Shu Yu.The answer she gave seemed plausible, but it didn't really convince me.

That weekend I was bored at home and didn't go anywhere, except for reading homework and eating and watching TV.I don't like many TV shows, Animal World is one of them.That day happened to be talking about how animals court.

Many animals in the natural world will do all kinds of strange behaviors to attract each other's attention when they are courting, and some even fight with their love rivals to prove that they are stronger than others.

Looking at it, I couldn't laugh anymore, and a strange thought grew in my heart, and I stood there for a long time and couldn't get back to my senses.

On the TV, the peacock is spreading its tail, shaking its beautiful feathers, looking proud and coquettish.

I couldn't help but reached out and touched my face, then put it down nonchalantly, and sat on the sofa like a robot about to lose power.

Is this answer a bit too superficial?