My green plums are very sour

The air was hot and humid, and it smelled like it was going to rain.I crossed my hands and touched my forearm, dripping with sweat, and my palms were sticky.

Ning Ran walked ahead according to her usual rhythm, but because I was not very happy and didn't want to be side by side with her, I took half a step with my mouth drooping.

She almost walked to the small square two blocks away, but she didn't turn around to look around, as if she didn't know that I was in a mood.I stared at her sullenly from behind, with such a strong resentful aura that even I was afraid.

I thought she was going to ignore me like this, walked outside twice to finish the job, turned into the green alley in the square, Ning Ran thought of me suddenly, turned her eyes lightly, raised her delicate eyebrows lightly, softened The voice spoke to me, "You have nothing to ask me?"

I just waited for her to bring this up, and immediately stepped down and asked, "Why didn't you tell me that I'm going to move tomorrow? Did you mean it?" My tone was not good, and it was a little blunt. I've brooded about this before.

If she could give a proper reason, saying that it was an accident, I wouldn't bother, I just wanted an explanation.However, Ning Ran nodded and unexpectedly admitted.

"Yes." Her eyes were clear, "I didn't plan to tell you in advance, anyway, you will know when you move tomorrow."

I froze for a moment, looked at her with a frown, and asked anxiously: "Why?" What if I told me in advance?Can I still play and roll to prevent her from leaving?What's the point of catching me off guard now?

Ning Ran still looked very calm, "You're always going to be upset. I told you earlier that you're going to make trouble for a long time. Your temper is too long. Why don't you let me know when you really want to move."

I'm about to laugh angrily, and I have to thank her for being so considerate?What's the reason?After it's settled, no matter what I think, I have to accept it directly, right?Not even a little buffer time?

Her light tone made me speechless, and I couldn't hear the slightest bit of reluctance or nostalgia, as if she didn't care at all, making it seem like I was making a fuss over a molehill.

The atmosphere was a little stiff for a while, I hung my head and didn't want to talk to her, for fear that if I opened my mouth, I would be angry.

Ning Ran waited for a while but didn't hear my voice, she seemed to sigh lightly, and said comfortingly: "I haven't disappeared, you can come to me even if you move."

Saying this doesn't completely satisfy me, but it helped somewhat, I pouted, and still snorted in a slightly resentful tone.

"Okay, let's get down to business." Ning Ran's footsteps remained the same frequency, stepping on the stone slabs on the path without falling, "How do you read the guidebook? Have you considered which school to enroll in?"

This matter is also bothering me. I just planned to find an excuse to discuss with her, but this happened to be an opportunity, and the matter of moving was put on hold for now.

"No, I looked through the guidebook issued by the school several times, but I didn't know where to report it. What about you? Have you read it?" I smoothed my lips, looked very distressed, and looked at her eagerly. .

Ning Ran hummed lightly, focusing all her attention on the stone slab under her feet.

"Where are you going to report? I, will I be with you?" I temporarily suppressed the dissatisfaction just now, and looked at her expectantly with wide eyes.

However, Ning Ran stopped slowly, turned his face to look at me firmly, frowning slightly, shook his head twice, "Not good."

I thought she had the same idea as me, but I didn't expect her to reject me mercilessly just by showing a little wish.

"Why?" I was stunned and didn't understand why she refused.

Ning Ran took a deep breath, as if to soothe his emotions, and after a while, he asked me softly, "Why are you with me?"

I couldn't help being stunned, and stared blankly at her, my lips parted and I didn't know what to say.

"Before the college entrance examination, I decided to apply for a school in the coastal area. I also checked the admission status of that school in our province in the past few years. Based on my college entrance examination scores, I should be able to choose their ace major." She said. After speaking, he stared at me without blinking, perhaps waiting for my reaction.

Ning Ran's college entrance examination scores were among the top ten in the school, more than 100 points higher than the first line, and the school she fancy is naturally the best, and she must have a high score to be admitted.Although the admission scores for arts and sciences are different, my score is only [-] or [-] points above the first line, which is far behind her. If I apply for the same college as her, I may not be admitted.Although I have known for a long time that there is a huge gap between us, it really makes me ashamed to be brought up to talk about it at this time.

"Even if you can't go to the same school, you can go to the same city!" I scratched my ears, trying to find another way.I couldn't help but get a little annoyed by her repeated rejections.

Ning Ran still did not loosen his brows, and his face gradually became serious, "Have you known what schools are there? Do you know which majors are the best in each school? How high is the admission score? How many people are recruited in the province?"

I was instantly dumb, stomping my feet in depression.I don't know, I don't know any of these.But what does it matter?

"These are not problems. I can apply for any major, as long as I can be admitted." I thought for granted.

After hearing this, Ning Ran's face was completely dark, his brows were deeply furrowed, and he was very serious. He taught me in a deep voice: "Is the result you worked so hard on the exam just wasted like this? Just apply for a major? Haven't you ever thought about what you want? What to learn?"

I knew in my heart that I was a little dizzy, I could not make a sound, I lowered my head and peeked at her timidly from time to time, feeling anxious and troubled.

"What are you going to do? Just fill in any school, choose a major at will, and waste four years of university like this, as long as you are in the same city as me?" Ning Ran exhaled heavily, with a very ugly look on his face.

I didn't dare to nod my head. Such an idea had already flashed in my mind just now.Ning Ran became a little anxious, touched the back of her neck with one hand, and kneaded it twice to calm herself down.After a long time, she smiled wryly in a low voice, "Shu Yu, I will feel very guilty if you do this."

"You have to think more about yourself, instead of thinking of me first and accommodating me blindly. You are the protagonist of your life, don't treat yourself as my vassal. It's not good for you or me. good."

My mind was already confused, but after hearing what she said, I lost my mind, and stood there blankly as if the pause button had been pressed, my heart was as cold as ice.I couldn't even tell if she was blaming me.

"Then...then what do you think I should do?" There was a heavy blockage in my body, and I asked her in a weak voice.

Ning Ran didn't answer me immediately, she seemed to be thinking about it, and then replied softly after a while: "Your score is actually not low, you can definitely apply for a good university and choose a major that suits you."

"Will you...will you help me?" My voice swirled in my throat, as if I was dying.

Ning Ran's naturally hanging fingers moved unconsciously, but he didn't agree, "You can't always rely on me, such a decision can only be made by yourself."

I was a little numb, as if I was no longer surprised by her rejection, forced myself to curl the corner of my mouth, and nodded sullenly, "Okay, I understand."

"Then... we will rarely meet each other in the future, you..." Will you miss me often?I bit my lip and couldn't speak the next half of the sentence, and my fingers were tightly digging at the seam of my trousers.

"Don't worry, you--" Ning Ran's emotions were also a little turbulent, and he paused slightly, his voice seemed to float in the air, "You will have a very good life, even without my participation."

I always felt that something was wrong with what I said, and I wondered if I was too sensitive, so I looked at her with a puzzled face.There was a muffled thunder from the sky in the distance, and it seemed that the mountains and rain were about to come and the wind filled the building.

Ning Ran showed a trace of hesitation on his face, as if he was still fighting fiercely in his mind, I suddenly felt a little palpitation, my back was sweating but it was cold.

She seemed to have finally made up her mind and said it word by word, "This is great, we can all start a new journey, have a wider radius of life, meet different people, and examine our feelings more clearly."

My throat is a little dry, my voice is rustling, my eyes are looking at her but unfocused, "What do you mean?"

Ning Ran's tone was very light, but his attitude was very firm, "I was thinking that it would be a good choice for us to be separated for a while."

"We have known each other for too long, and our respective living radii are too small. Each of us occupies too much of each other's life. Under such circumstances, it is easy to act impulsively. If we separate, we can rethink Now, give yourself more options.”

My eyes widened suddenly, in disbelief at what she said.What is she saying?What is greater choice?Is this telling me to look at others again, compare with her, and choose the best?This is too ridiculous.

"You don't need to think about others anymore, I—" I was eager to defend myself, but she interrupted me with a sneer.

"What about you? Can you say that you will never change for the rest of your life?" Her words turned into a mockery in my ears.

"Why not?" My chest heaved violently, and I was so unconvinced that I even made my nasal voice a little more aggrieved.Why should she doubt my feelings like this?

Ning Ran seemed to have heard a joke, his brows and eyes curled up, but he smiled unexpectedly bitterly, the light in his eyes was much dimmer than usual, "You can say that, but I can't believe it. How old are we? Ten or so At my young age, I dare to say anything casually, anyone can speak quickly, and promises don’t require money, and I don’t have to be responsible. You can tell me today, but tomorrow? What about later?”

My chest sank like a huge rock, and I couldn't breathe.A loss and anger of not being trusted filled my brain. It was hard to breathe through my nose, so I had to open my mouth and gulp. As a result, my jaw became sore and my emotions began to rush into my nasal cavity and eye sockets. .Only then did I dare to really confirm that she was rejecting me and even staying away from me in a planned way.

"Such empty words, I can't even believe what I said." My consciousness was a little unclear, and I could only vaguely hear Ning Ran muttering to himself.

"If anyone regrets, what should we do? We are different from Rui Rui and the others, and we have no way out. So it is necessary to live separately for a while and think calmly. Can you understand?"

She seemed to have prepared enough bombs at one time, and hit me head and face, making me completely powerless to parry, and I was blown to ashes, standing there in a trance, so that a gust of wind could blow me down.

"Aren't you afraid... Aren't you afraid that something will change?" My throat seemed to be a little swollen and my voice was choked up, my lower eyelids were burning like flames were jumping, my heart was clenched into a ball, and there were bursts of pain.

Ning Ran turned his face away, his eyes staggered from mine, and fell on the grass next to me, his voice was so soft that he couldn't hear it, "Then I have nothing to say, it's all my life."

Her arm moved a bit, and my eyes were filled with misty water vapor. I couldn't see it clearly, but I just felt that she seemed to pass something to me.

"This is the sketchbook you kept with me. I think it's better to return it to the original owner."

I tremblingly stretched out my hand to take it, and grabbed it vigorously. The water droplets in my eye sockets finally broke the embankment, and big ones rolled down, my heart was sore and hot as if being scorched.

Suddenly there was a thunder in the sky, and the big raindrops hit me sparsely, as urgent as my tears.