Shen Langgui

I typed a few words today, but I was in poor condition and extremely sleepy. I really couldn't use better language to express the preset plot, so I simply stopped writing.

But the moment I dropped the keyboard, I felt a lot of reluctance, and I always wanted to say something, and I was one of the few readers.

Maybe I haven’t read much online articles these years, and I don’t know how many times the routines of online articles have changed. Therefore, the stories I write also have a long-standing sense of obsolescence. There are few readers, but I still insist on writing because , as I wrote on Weibo a few days ago:

Time and space are infinite, and human life is too short. Fortunately, there are words, which can comfort you when you are wandering.Maybe the writing is too simple, maybe the plot is not ups and downs enough, but this is the characteristic of my expression.The abundance of traffic and the number of readers are not important.The important thing is that expressing myself and expressing my heart is the way I yearn for to spend my life.

I will integrate this passage into "Gay Guy" and become Xizai's line.

Many authors, including comic book authors, resent being pointed out whether the characters they write are based on themselves.Maybe I am not smart enough, and my experience is not broad enough. The protagonists in my works, almost every one of them, have some shadows of themselves.

Today, I don't talk about myself, I only talk about Ah Li, and occasionally there will be confidants in different time and space whose shadows overlap.

"Shen Langgui" has been written so far, with a length of 14 words, but the theme I want to express is still half-hidden by the pipa.

It's called [depression].

That's right, borrowing the shell of an ancient story, I want to write about depression, and Ah Li is the unfortunate victim.The past before he was 30 years old can be summed up in two words: suffering.Now the plot has progressed to the stage where he is famous and rich, but it is not necessarily Tai Lai, at least, this "Tai" is not Tai in the secular sense.The psychological trauma left by past sufferings did not disappear due to the improvement of Ah Li’s material conditions. On the contrary, the little bits of darkness accumulated over the years and have gathered into dark clouds. Ah Li’s world has long been dark. Okay, but Ah Li has lost the most basic ability to perceive happiness.

Ah Li has always tried his best to be kind to the people around him, and these people have always tried their best to repay Ah Li, such as Yinzhang, Aunt Yin, Peng Yu, and Sha Ou.But the experience of these years, whether it's from Shen's family or Wu's family, has made Ah Li understand that the 'good' towards him from the outside world will not last long, and no matter how good a friend is, they are just passers-by in life.Road, or to go by yourself.

Therefore, Ah Li also thought the same about Shen Yue. At the end of the "Xia Bing" volume, Ah Li told Wu Bi that if he didn't want to stay, Shen Yue could leave whenever he wanted.A Li's love for Shen Yue was clear even though he was ill. Therefore, when Shen Yue was around, A Li could be regarded as 'happy'. At least his illness was temporarily relieved, and there have been no episodes so far.

In the current era of advanced medical technology, there is no guarantee of a cure for the disease, how will Ah Li be saved?

I forgot which chapter the author said: Only love can heal the wound.But if there is only Shen Yue using love to generate electricity, it would be too thin.

If there is a little luck in Ah Li's unfortunate life, then Shen Yue is the luckiest among them.Shen Yue is a very smart person, after he understands his feelings for A Li, he can't escape his attention to every detail of A Li.Therefore, when everyone thought that Ah Li was possessed by evil spirits and the doctor judged that Ah Li was insane, only Shen Yue saw Ah Li's reluctance, and felt that there was an invisible hand behind Ah Li, restraining Ah Li.

Even genius doctors are unreliable, it doesn't matter, as long as Shen Yue is around, he won't let Ah Li go.Therefore, he began to trace the source, to find the source of Ah Li's disease...

Specifically, I will not disclose too much.The volume of finding the cause is the second ending. The currently planned volume is called 'Broken Cocoon', or 'New Life'. Shen Yue explored the treatment of mental illness through constant exploration.To successfully rescue a patient with severe depression without any reference, only people with the courage of Shen Yue, and only those who love the patient to the bone marrow, can do it.

At the same time, I personally guess that only in this form can the discipline of 'psychotherapy' be created in ancient China.After all, utilitarianism/pragmatism has long been the mainstream value in our country, and studies that are useless to official careers are all categorized as heresy and disdain to delve into it.And Shen Yue's research on human psychology is precisely because it is useful, and Shen Yue wants to use it to save his lover, so he can create a miracle.

Depression is really a disease. Like cancer, it is a disease that humans do not voluntarily contract!

A few days ago, I read Teacher Li Yinhe's new book, and there is a sentence in it that roughly says that "male superiority to female inferiority is already a fact deeply rooted in the hearts of the people. In daily life, people don't even feel its existence until you replace the male in the daily statement with a female. Only then will you find the absurdity in it'.For depression, it is full of disdain like 'you are full and thinking too much/you are not in a good mood, can you just go out and relax', but put these words on cancer patients, think Come to think of it, it's ridiculous, right?

Patients with depression not only have to bear the torment of the disease itself, but also resist the ignorant verbal violence from the outside world.

Fortunately, in the story, Shen Yue understands that A Li's love is a last resort, and later he said to A Li: [Heart disease is also a disease. 】

As I just mentioned, curing depression is the second ending.In fact, at the very beginning, I originally planned to write a side story about the "healing" part, but Er Ma, a reader who has always supported me, was worried that the ending would be broken, and I didn't want to make her sad. Therefore, in September, I spent almost a whole month revising the outline, connecting the healing process with the previous article, and organizing it into the most important ending.

It would be a great honor for me if I could give some comfort to those with hidden diseases through this story.

As for the ending one, this is the original setting for me, and I will still write it.

So far I have written so eloquently, I don't know what to say.Almost forgot the most important thing.I have always wanted to keep it mysterious, so that readers will be surprised in the end, but this point suddenly tells everyone the core part of the story, and there is indeed a reason for it.Because I have to prepare for a very important exam in the second half of the year. I am busy at both ends of the work exam, and I really can’t write the essay. Therefore, I will post the core of the story and let readers weigh it for themselves. If you think this story is not to your taste, just leave. If you are interested Those who continue to follow will stay.

But it's not completely broken. I selected several update dates, which are: 11.10 and 11.27.You don't need to click in for the rest of the time, I don't have time to post new ones. After the exam at the end of December, there must be a period of time.

Back to the original topic, why do I bother to write with so few people watching.

Because I want to write!

Therefore, compared to ordinary people who choose to celebrate with carnival after the exam, I want to write essays to satisfy my greed.In addition, I will try my best to update in these five days, I wish you all a good day, good night~