A Moment of Joy [ABO]

Lu Xinyu couldn't remember what Qiao Yang said or threatened afterward.

He only remembered that the glands were burning like burning pain while he was in a daze.In a daze, he knocked over the vase on the table, the porcelain vase was broken, the flower buds were scattered all over the floor, and the water spread to the door of the study.

It was as if there were hands in the dark, guiding him step by step to discover the truth.

The truth is barren, and the clouds and mist of the past are like the moon in the water and the flowers in the mirror.

The study room is connected to a small room with exquisite decoration. Lu Xinyu has lived in this room for almost half a year, but she has never once doubted whether the structure of the room is short of such a space.

In half a year, he met the cleaning nanny many times, and he never had any doubts when he saw the nanny replace the handfuls of rose flowers from the study every day.

In fact, the truth of the facts has been frankly displayed at his hand, as long as he stops on the road chasing Qin Ke and glances at the side of the road, he will not push himself into such an unbearable situation.

Hitting the south wall, not only did not look back, but also rushed forward with blood all over his head.

The rose flowers all over the house are so beautiful.

His husband, Qin Ke, is a deeply affectionate and dedicated prince just as he has sketched in countless dreams, but this affection will never belong to him.

The man looking back in the rose flowers had a nice smile. Xu Jiting was always pretty. When she was in school, Lu Xinyu remembered that many Alphas had pursued him.

In other words, when I saw Xu Jiting last time, the pheromone smell was probably the rose flower.

Senior Xu doesn't like Alpha, no wonder... no wonder Qin Ke needs a substitute.

He was not overly excited or resentful, as if he had vaguely smelled some traces from the clues a long time ago, but his emotions kept pulling him, covering his eyes, plugging his ears, and immersing himself in Qin Ke weaving wholeheartedly. In the gorgeous dreamland.

However, the dream will wake up one day.

A strong sense of vomiting surged from the depths of his body. Lu Xinyu stumbled to the bathroom and retched into the toilet. He had barely eaten food this day, so he couldn't vomit anything at all; the stomach acid burned the opening of his throat, burning him hot pain.

Lu Xinyu sat on the floor, his current appearance was reflected in the floor-to-ceiling mirror in the bathroom. Since he was married, he has been ill twice, walked around the gate of hell, and lost about six or seven kilograms.The clothes that fit him half a year ago hung loosely on his body, revealing his deep collarbone, and even his wrists were thinner; his cheeks were sunken, his face was bony, his originally full apple muscles had shrunk, his dull eyes were swollen, Seems to be struggling to identify the person in the mirror.

It was only after I realized that there were bursts of dense pain in my chest.

How did it end up like this.

When Ming Ming was young, he had a pure and passionate enthusiasm, so bright and beautiful, every time he thought of this person, he couldn't help but be happy.

He still remembered that that day at the wine table where he had been away for many years, Qin Ke, who was close at hand, asked if he would marry him.

He also remembered that in the corners of this apartment, being held in Qin Ke's arms, there were countless lingering feelings.

The happy memories of those days and nights have now turned into faded clothes, revealing the disgusting and ugly inside.

When he took the initiative to spray Xu Jiting's scent, what was Qin Ke thinking?When he was lying under Qin Ke's body, who did Qin Ke see through him?

He wanted to yell loudly, to question Qin Ke, to ask for an answer, or a promise, or an apology.

Lu Xinyu stood up shaking, went back to the room with bare feet, and tremblingly dialed the number for Qin Ke.Many words flashed through his mind, what should he say?May I ask if what Qiao Yang said is true?Were you in his bed the night we got married?Do you really like Xu Jiting?Did you ever...really like me?

The call was not connected, but Lu Xinyu felt lucky.

It's nice not to have to hear those brutal answers with your own ears.

He didn't cry, he had shed so many tears for Qin Ke, but now he held his breath and refused to shed another tear.

From being sent to the emergency room to being discharged home, he hadn't seen Qin Ke, and the words that had piled up in his mind these days didn't seem to be important anymore.

His eyes fell on the photo on the bedside. There were two men in white suits standing in the photo. In the interlacing of light and shadow, one pursed his lips anxiously, and the other frowned impatiently. He took the photo frame and gently pointed his index finger Brushing over Qin's engraved face on the photo.

It was still the perfect face, the high nose bridge, the deep brow bones, and the two thin lips, which Lu Xinyu had depicted countless times in her heart in the past seven years.He is the one who smiles at him in the sun, and the one who shines on the rostrum.

Lu Xinyu collected all of Qin Ke's newspaper clippings, recited his birthday blood type constellation, knew his taboos and favorite dishes, knew how many shirt sizes Qin Ke bought, what color tie he usually likes...but he still couldn't piece together a truth. Qin carved.

Stuck in the maze, can't see the way forward; get out of the fog, and you will know the end.

It is said that when a person is dying, he will see a string of revolving lanterns, recalling the most important moments in his life.

When the relationship ended, looking back, I realized that I had gone too far alone.

When I met Qin Ke for the first time, the club recruited newcomers, the sun peeked out from the clouds, and among so many people, Qin Ke was alone surrounded by a layer of golden light; He crossed his eyes for a moment, but this glance made him remember it for seven whole years.

……

The first time he had a conversation with Qin Ke was two months after the start of school, when he was entrusted by the poetry club to go to the student union to solve the venue problem.Lu Xinyu timidly poked his head at the door of the student union office. Qin Ke was alone in the office. He swallowed, and knocked on the door twice. Qin Ke turned his head, and from Lu Xinyu's perspective, he could only see half of Qin Ke's face clearly. , every inch of bone and skin is outlined just right.

At that time, Qin Ke asked his classmates if there was anything wrong, his voice was low and pleasant, and he was instantly at a loss, forgetting what he should say.

……

In the first half of the sophomore year, Lu Xinyu followed the debate team to the school for a competition. He carried a schoolbag of mineral water, only to find that the organizers had prepared everything when he arrived.Qin Ke, who was sitting on the side getting ready, caught a glimpse of Lu Xinyu's bulging schoolbag, patted him on the shoulder and said, classmate, can you give me a bottle of water?

That person's fingertips just brushed his hand inadvertently, but the hotness has lasted for so many years.

……

Seeing that Qin Ke was about to graduate, Lu Xinyu finally copied out a love letter from hundreds of love letters, each word was neat and beautiful, solemnly signed her own name, sneaked into Qin Ke's public class and stuffed the love letter into it.

He waited at the place agreed upon in the love letter, when Qin Ke, who was covered in wounds, and the terrifying pursuers arrived.

He never regretted the knife he suffered because of Qin Ke, and he never complained about the disease caused by the knife, all of which he willingly and willingly.

Lu Xinyu lived in Qin Ke's downstairs ward, Qin Ke's ward was exclusive to VIPs, and ordinary people couldn't get in at all.If Qin Ke had read that letter, if Qin Ke still remembered the Omega who stood up for him, he wouldn't have been waiting for Qin Ke.

On the day Qin Ke was discharged from the hospital, Lu Xinyu stood by the window watching Qin Ke leave the hospital and get into the car that had been waiting for a long time.He kept shouting in his heart, Qin Ke, turn around, okay?

I just want to appear in your eyes and in your life, not a dispensable background in your memories.

There was no one else in the ward, so he hid his head under the quilt and cried for a while, as if hiding his fragility in the quilt would make a person stronger.

After wiping away her tears, Lu Xinyu said to the empty room, the words that were kept in her heart but had no chance to say:

Qin Ke, I like you.

……

One day seven years later, Qin Ke, who was drunk, squinted his eyes and asked him, would he marry me?

At that moment, he felt that the lights of the whole world were on, and the angels were singing carols loudly. His waiting and persistence were by no means meaningless.

……

It would be nice if time stayed in that moment.

Between us, we will always be the most beautiful.

The enthusiasm that was so earnest and sincere when he was young was finally ruthlessly extinguished.

He had already walked too far on the muddy road alone, with twists and turns along the way, and he was exhausted with blood and blood.

How much Lu Xinyu wished, if he hadn't gone to the dinner party that day, if he hadn't entered Qin Ke's room that day, if he hadn't put down his grudges and begged for peace that day...

If everything goes back to the original point, he will always just silently put Qin Ke in the most important corner of his heart, then maybe on a sunny afternoon, when he thinks of Qin Ke, he can still remember with a smile, remember The bits and pieces and beauty in it.

Instead of now, enduring the pain and cutting the heart, I want to pull this person who is fused with flesh and blood, and tell myself that I can't love anymore.

Can't love anymore.

More than 2000 days and nights of longing, copying countless eyebrows and eyes, silently reciting names thousands of times in the bottom of my heart, I can't think about it, I can't look at it, I can't read it anymore.

What is above love is the last bit of dignity that belongs to Lu Xinyu, his strength as a human being, and his rare stubbornness.

The afterglow of the setting sun outside the window gradually receded, Wanjia lights were on, and a little light was fainted through the hollow gaps in the curtains; people in the room sat in the shadows, and the hour hand on the wall ticked along the dial, and I don’t know how many times it turned , Maybe five minutes later, or five hours later, the people in the corner finally stood up slowly.

This time, he didn't bring the suitcase that accompanied him a few times, but he took his usual work bag, his wallet, bank card, ID card, and mobile phone.

The keys are left next to the photos, and there are very few clothes in the cupboard, and even less daily necessities.

The divorce agreement sent by Qin Shi two days ago was signed with three beautiful words on one corner, and it was safely placed on the dining table.

Let's just leave it at this point, this south wall has finally come to an end.

Goodbye, Qin Ke.

*It's finally here.

From the very beginning, I didn't want to write a cheap experience with no bottom line.From Lu Xinyu's perspective, Qin Ke is his dream lover all the time. After years of secret love, he married Qin Ke inexplicably like a dream. He also knew that it was impossible for him to suddenly get Qin Ke's love.So he gave in and tolerated step by step when he could bear it, trying to get Qin Ke's love.

But his retreat is not without bottom line. Lu Xinyu's character has always been weak and deceitful, but after the truth is revealed, his departure is also resolute and firm.Our little Lu has a strong heart wrapped under his soft exterior.

Of course, every reader has his own understanding, and I don't interfere with everyone's interpretation, which is why I rarely spoil and explain the background of the plot outside the main text.

Anyway, thanks to every little fairy who saw here!