To die

It was like a string that had been stretched in my mind, and now it was finally torn apart by Lu Hanqian.

Lin Yan's tears flowed all over his face, but he couldn't make any sound.The tears fell quickly and quickly, as if he couldn't breathe, he cried silently for more than ten seconds before he suddenly coughed and gasped.

Lu Hanqian's heart was about to break, he kept patting Lin Yan's back, and whispered, "Okay, okay, I'm here, I'm here, don't be afraid."

Lin Yan felt so ashamed. He had never cried much since he could remember, but now he seemed to want to vent all the tears, fear, helplessness and panic that had been stored for more than 20 years.

When he was a child, he was only educated not to show weakness - because showing weakness would not be sympathetic, and would lead to bullying instead, but no one told him that being too strong is easy to break, and Huiji is hurt.

Lin Yan just walked forward alone like this, his body was covered in bruises, his head was bloody, and he didn't know how to stop.

"Change your breath."

Lu Hanqian said: "Lin Yan, change your breath and cry again. Have you never cried your nose before? Why doesn't it seem like you have no experience at all?"

Lu Hanqian pulled his shoulders and pulled Lin Yan out of his arms, but Lin Yan lowered his head, unwilling to let him see his face covered with tears.

He felt a little embarrassed, a kind of inexplicable shame that he was ashamed to see people, but on the other hand, Lin Yan felt extraordinarily happy and relaxed, as if the things that had been pressed in his heart for a long time were washed away with tears.

Lin Yan's body twitched in Lu Hanqian's arms, like a child hiccupping.

Lu Hanqian stared at his tear-stained cheeks, wet eyelashes, red nose and eye corners, and his thin shoulders trembling slightly under his palms. He felt that Lin Yan at this moment was really fragile and precious, like some kind of Precious yet fragile porcelain. .It makes people feel pity at a glance, pitiful and cute to the extreme.

"Nothing to be ashamed of."

Lu Hanqian said softly: "I also have something to be afraid of. I'm afraid that you don't like me, I'm afraid that I'm too stupid to make you angry, I'm afraid that you're having a bad day, I'm afraid that the future is uncertain, whether it's dangerous for you to go alone... "

He hugged Lin Yan tightly, and kissed Lin Yan's forehead: "As a human being, there are joys and sorrows, joys and sorrows, fear and sorrow, why are you suppressing yourself so much? Come and walk around with me in the world, soaked in the red dust and fireworks, here It was fun."

Lu Hanqian loosened his arms a little, held Lin Yan's hand, reached the tissue box with the other hand, and asked Lin Yan, "Do you want to wipe your tears?"

Lin Yan's eyes were blinded by tears, he groped and stretched out his hand, and whispered in a nasal voice, "Yes."

Lu Hanqian put the tissue in his palm: "Will you go to the counseling room with me tomorrow?"

Lin Yan nodded.

Lu Hanqian "popped" on his swollen eyelids.

The effect of psychotherapy this time is much better than before.Although he still couldn't let go, Lin Yan no longer resisted being seen as weak as before.

When the doctor asked questions, he would answer in a low voice, "It hurts a little."

Lu Hanqian made an appointment with the doctor to bring Lin Yan over every half a month.

Lin Yan began to re-acquaint himself with the laws and regulations, bought a new set of civil law books on Amazon, and compared them with the relevant French regulations to study.

He emailed the wife who had asked him about divorce bills and promised to meet her.

However, I didn't expect that some not-so-pleasant episodes happened in the middle of just meeting each other.

The lady's husband followed her, and after seeing Lin Yan meeting her, he immediately put her in the car and took her away in public.

Of course, Lin Yan would not stand by and try to stop him, but this man started to push Lin Yan rather viciously, telling him not to meddle in his own business.

Lin Yan poured the mineral water on him thoroughly from head to toe, and then slapped the face of this scum who only dared to beat women twice with the mineral water bottle.

Violent forest law, rule all kinds of dissatisfaction for 100 years.

The man was doused with water by Lin Yan, and when he walked up cursing and was about to wrestle with Lin Yan, Lu Hanqian just parked the car and came out of the garage.

He immediately went up to grab the man's collar, dragged him behind him, and said to Lin Yan, who had a cold expression on his face, "No need, I'll just do this kind of dirty and tiring work."

After finishing speaking, he did not forget to blow a kiss gracefully to Lin Yan.

Lu Hanqian threw the man to the ground, and then slowly rolled up the sleeves of his shirt until his forearms were exposed: "Hi, I'm hitting you. You have the best lawyer in the world to defend me, so you dare to stand sideways in Paris." Lu Hanqian is leaving."

……

After half an hour.

Sitting by the flower bed, Lu Hanqian showed Lin Yan his fists that were a little red from the beating: "My hands are so sore."

"..."

"It would be nice if someone could blow it off."

Lu Hanqian sighed: "I'm really exhausted."

"...the police will be here soon."

Lin Yan said, "They will come over to ask about the situation."

"But the police won't blow my hands."

Lu Hanqian said shamelessly: "I'm so pitiful...Being someone else's little boy, I show my face and work hard, and no one hurts me when I get hurt."

"..."

"Don't look at it, you'll make me hurt to death."

Lin Yan: "..."

He shook Lu Hanqian's hand, and glanced at the man in a suit not far away who was completely immobile. He wondered how Lu Hanqian could say this without changing his face or beating his heart.

Lin Yan held Lu Hanqian's hand and had no choice but to lower his head to check to see where the pain was.

Who knew that he didn't get too close, and was suddenly pressed into Lu Hanqian's arms, and quickly pecked on his lips.

Lu Hanqian smiled lazily without shame: "I'll take my painkiller."

Lin Yan glanced at the pedestrians who kept coming and going, tried his best to maintain his composure and said, "...this is on the street."

"What happened on the street? Who hasn't been in a relationship, never seen a kiss?"

Lu Hanqian put his arms around Lin Yan's shoulders, leaned close to his ear and bit his ear, saying, "How am I doing today? Not bad. Little prince... I am your shield and your sword, and I only listen to you." One man's vicious dog."

Lin Yan didn't say anything, but felt that Lu Hanqian was getting too close, his breath sprayed all over his skin, and the base of his ears seemed to be a little red from the heat.

Lu Hanqian played with the straps of his windbreaker, wrapped them around his hands, and continued: "...But you must be sure, you must feed me well."

Lin Yan's eyes were not at ease: "...Yes, Humbert will give you double whatever he eats in the future."

Lu Hanqian stared at him for a long while, then laughed lazily.

One day later, Gu Zhao came to Paris to visit his little lover, and by the way, he visited Lu Hanqian who was living a life of a boy.

It was too late at night, and seeing that Lu Hanqian and Lin Yan's new home was decorated quite warmly, they were delighted and asked to stay.

In the middle of the night, half asleep and half awake, I heard the following conversation: "Lin Yan, I'm hungry."

"..."

Lu Hanqian: "It's time to feed me something."

Lin Yan: "No."

Lu Hanqian: "Then give me a kiss."

Lin Yan: "I don't want to kiss."

"Kiss me."

"No."

"Really not kissing?"

"..."

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After a while, Lu Hanqian lay back down peacefully again, sounding quite satisfied: "Okay, I can sleep now."

Trembling, Gu Zhao slowly covered his head with the quilt, deciding that he had been deaf for an hour just now.

Waking up in the morning, Lu Hanqian brought out a bowl of porridge from the kitchen refreshed, and asked Gu Zhao, "Did you rest well yesterday?"

Gu Zhao smiled weakly against the dark circles under his eyes: "Not bad, not bad, I slept soundly."

He thought that Lu Hanqian would put the porridge in front of him - no matter what, he could be regarded as a guest who came from a long way.

Who knew that Lu Hanqian just bypassed him like this, and let Gu Zhao watch helplessly as he put the first bowl of porridge in front of Lin Yan who was still yawning.

"It's a bit hot, eat slowly."

Lu Hanqian smiled considerately and said, "Gu Zhao, there is still some bread in the kitchen, go and get some sandwiches for us to eat."

"...???"

Gu Zhao thought for a moment that he was hallucinating.

Lu Hanqian took off his apron and went to the entrance to open the door.Then some workers came in with boxes and installed glass fish tanks in the living room.

Tropical fish is also ready and placed in the box next to the fiberglass.

Humbert lay on the ground and watched helplessly, his tail dangling, drooling greedily.

Lu Hanqian stroked the dog's head gently, and said softly: "Son, it's time for us to evolve. If you swallow the fish again this time, I will definitely castrate you."

"..."

After almost the time, Lin Yan finished his breakfast, changed into formal clothes and was ready to go out.

He carried the document bag in a rare way, and checked his tie in front of the mirror before leaving.

Lu Hanqian leaned against the door frame of the entrance and whistled at Lin Yan.

Lin Yan glanced back at him, and Lu Hanqian helped him open the door with a smile: "Don't worry, baby. You go forward boldly, and I will support you."

Lin Yan took a light breath and walked out.

With strawberry jam on his hands, Gu Zhao poked his head out of the kitchen inexplicably: "Where is Lin Lu going to play, so formal? Seems quite nervous?"

Lu Hanqian took out a cigarette from his pocket, and lit it lazily, "Today is the first time he has gone to court after recovering."

"...??!"

Gu Zhao turned pale with shock: "Fuck, awesome, does he have the qualifications to practice in France?"

Lu Hanqian rolled his eyes at him: "People who have passed the law test at one time are not in the same world as you who have to take the test for you after graduation from university."

"Why don't you stay with him on such an important matter?"

Gu Zhao asked.

"I went there because I was afraid he would have psychological pressure."

Lu Hanqian said: "Just let him play freely."

Gu Zhao looked at Lu Hanqian as if he didn't know him: "You seem like a kid who works hard and is afraid of being expelled by the teacher if he doesn't do well."

Lu Hanqian unbuttoned his collar, and arrogantly showed off the hickey on his neck to Gu Zhao: "I've already turned positive."

"..."

In the next few hours, Lu Hanqian spent the whole morning lying on the sofa and swiping his phone.

Gu Zhao was squeezed into squatting on the ground, eating snacks and watching movies.

When I don't know which part I saw, Lu Hanqian suddenly bounced up from the sofa, sat up straight suddenly, and kicked Gu Zhao non-stop: "Hurry up, hurry up, go and like Lin Yan's circle of friends!!"

Gu Zhao: "..."

? ?

Lin Yan probably just came out of the court, and took a photo of standing on the steps, looking down at the scenery below.

On the stairs not far away, a little girl was held by her mother.The black woman turned her back to him, with her head bowed and shedding tears.

However, in the picture, the little girl turned around the moment Lin Yan pressed the shutter, and smiled brightly at Lin Yan.

Lin Yan didn't write any words, but the blue sky, soft and white clouds, and the little girl's big eyes narrowed as she smiled, all seemed to indicate endless hope.

Darkness will always pass, no shadow can cover the sky.

Every day is a new day.

Gu Zhao has already clicked the likes, but Lu Hanqian is still hesitating.

He typed a line in the comment column, then deleted it again, and kept figuring it out for a long time.

It wasn't until later, after thinking for more than half an hour, that I finally decided.

Lin Yan's phone vibrated and he heard a notification tone.

He swiped the screen, turned to the last line, and saw Lu Hanqian's message.

He first sent him [/lips/] and [/rose/].

Then after a while, I added another paragraph.

Lin Yan glanced at it, smiled, and put the phone back into his pocket.

That sentence reads: "Look at people who are unparalleled in their ability to argue, they are unparalleled in their ability to argue wherever they go."

The author has something to say: I dreamed last night that I was arrested for writing Tanmei novels == standing in court, and there were more than 20 readers who were arrested with me for reading Tanmei novels.

There were many parents in the auditorium. I was very scared at first, but when I turned my head and saw my mother in the crowd, she still smiled at me, saying that I did nothing wrong, and burst into tears in my dream.

...By the way, I don't have a defense attorney yet.In the prison of my dream, I was sweating profusely studying law by myself, trying to defend myself and save a few years of sentence.I slept so tired last night.