To die

Lin Yan and Lu Hanqian seem to have slightly different definitions of this conflict.

When Lin Yan felt that the two of them had completely broken up and had nothing to do with each other anymore, Lu Hanqian was still obsessed with "what's the point of making small noises?" My heart is still with Lin Yan" and other unilateral conjectures.

Hearing Wall said that Lin Yan was going to book a plane ticket to leave Paris, Lu Hanqian was completely astonished.

When Lin Yan walked to the end of the corridor, there was a beep for the elevator to open the door, followed by the sound of hurried footsteps.

"Lin Yan!" Lin Yan was resting his hand on the doorknob, ready to push the door in.

Hearing the sound, he subconsciously turned around and saw Lu Hanqian running towards him quickly.

"do not--!"

But when he saw it, he saw it, but Lin Yan didn't even have the slightest intention to listen to what he said, so he quickly turned around and walked into the room as usual.

It was about to close the door.

Lu Hanqian quickly grabbed the door panel, and said in the little gap left: "At least tell me why!? Let me talk to you a few more words! Lin Yan, you can't just leave, tell me why! Hiss... ...It hurts so much that I pinched my hands."

Lin Yan paused for a moment, but he didn't use any more force.

He let go of the door, and Lu Hanqian quickly took the opportunity to come in and look at Lin Yan, but he didn't dare to get too close to Lin Yan, for fear that he would think he was plotting something wrong and be kicked out again.

"...I thought we were just arguing."

Lu Hanqian said: "Which couple doesn't quarrel, two people have to get along well together? But I didn't expect you to be so angry... It's my fault, I played with it, I apologize. I'm sorry."

Lin Yan is now in a very depressed mood, not in the mood to deal with emotional problems, and his expression is very cold, almost looking at Lu Hanqian indifferently.

Lu Hanqian looked at him for a few seconds and saw that Lin Yan remained silent, as if a certain idea in his heart had been confirmed.

He frowned slowly, staring at Lin Yan's tightly pursed lips, and asked cautiously: "...Can you talk, Lin Yan?"

Lin Yan's eyes flickered, his throat moved slightly, and he looked at the ground.

"……how come."

Lu Hanqian murmured in disbelief, and couldn't help but stepped forward and grabbed Lin Yan's hand. His expression was very shocked and uncomfortable, as if he had been hit harder than Lin Yan.

"Not even a single word?"

Lu Hanqian asked: "Try calling me by my name? Or 'ah'?"

Lin Yan wanted to pull his hand out, but at the same time shook his head while lowering his eyes.

It's pointless to say that now.

In the past few days, he even thought about whether he would never be able to speak again in his life.At first I was panicked and tormented, but after a long time, I could only accept it silently.After all, if God wants to play someone, it's useless to struggle.

Lu Hanqian stared at him blankly.

"Because of me?... pinching you at the last moment?"

Lin Yan didn't say anything, and even turned his head a little coldly.

But that is an answer in itself.

Lu Hanqian instantly felt the feeling of "being ashamed".

"……how so?"

Lu Hanqian seemed unbelievable. He pressed Lin Yan's shoulder, or touched Lin Yan's throat, flustered and anxious: "Aren't you well? Why are you still aphasia? Have you seen a doctor or taken any medicine?"

However, Lin Yan knocked off his hand in annoyance, and pushed Lu Hanqian away a little, not allowing him to touch him.

Lu Hanqian froze and froze in place.

"……sorry."

After a while, he opened his mouth and said in a low voice.

Lu Hanqian turned his gaze elsewhere, and didn't have the courage to meet Lin Yan's gaze, so he kept silently opening and closing his lips, unable to utter a single word.The only thing I can say is to keep apologizing: "I'm sorry, I don't know. I thought you were alright...I thought you were alright."

Lu Hanqian scratched his hair and exhaled heavily, feeling a sense of futility.

He felt uncomfortable, but when he thought that Lin Yan must be suffering more than him, he could only force himself to calm down and not express this negative emotion.

Lin Yan would not like other people's sympathy for him.

"Will be fine."

Lu Hanqian said hoarsely: "Lin Yan, don't worry, everything will be fine. Trust me, I will accompany you, and I will make you well."

But Lin Yan frowned and looked at him, as if he felt that Lu Hanqian's behavior was very strange.

Lin Yan didn't know what mood he was in, but Lin Yan laughed, a little helpless and inexplicable, he took out his phone and wrote in the memo: "Have you played enough?"

Then hand it to Lu Hanqian.

Lu Hanqian frowned and took it, and when he saw those words, he was stunned for a moment.

"……what?"

In Lin Yan's heart, from their reunion, everything was like a game played by Lu Hanqian.

It was a joke that he pursued Lin Yan, it was a farce to go to Lin Yan's place to be a badass, and it was overplaying to make Lin Yan aphasia in bed.

So when Lu Hanqian left with his small suitcase, in Lin Yan's heart it was that Lu Hanqian finally got tired of playing and the game was over.

He never felt that Lu Hanqian seriously wanted to grow old with him.

"...how can you miss me so much?"

After realizing the meaning behind these words, Lu Hanqian became sullen. He felt that he was underestimated.

It's like you solemnly handed out a love letter to a person, and he accepted it, but in your heart, you felt that you were just a child playing house, and you forgot after the trouble.

Even the feelings entrusted to him are contemptuous in Lin Yan's eyes.

"Lin Yan, can you take me seriously?"

Lu Hanqian simply didn't know how to communicate with Lin Yan, he was angry and powerless, and helplessly caught a glimpse of the ring on his finger: "You have already put on the ring I gave you, how can you say such a thing ?”

He pointed to the ring on Lin Yan's ring finger, and raised his left hand again, as if he had finally found some evidence: "How can my feelings for you be 'have you had enough fun?' Did I tell you that I love you?" I love you so much? I give you all my wealth and life, but you think I haven't had enough trouble?"

Lin Yan looked at Lu Hanqian's angry look, the helpless smile on his face gradually faded, he looked at Lu Hanqian quietly, his expression was replaced by a puzzled expression.

After a moment of silence, he asked: Why?

Just like when he was forced by Lu Hanqian to ask why, now he still doesn't understand why Lu Hanqian is so obsessed with him. "Why can I talk for three days and three nights."

Lu Hanqian said softly: "But what I want you to understand most is this result."

"Lin Yan, I really like you very much. Please try to trust me once, okay?"

He said: "I know, you have been refusing me to enter your world, and you never tell me what is on your mind. But I am willing to wait for the day when you tell me, but before that, can you Don't push me away?"

Lin Yan looked at him silently, as if he was considering the truthfulness of what Lu Hanqian said.

In Lin Yan's heart, Lu Hanqian has never been able to get rid of the shadow he left in Lin Yan's heart at first.

He represents privilege, debauchery, covering the sky with one hand.

Lin Yan thought for a long time before deciding to say it: But I still can't completely forget the past.

For some reason, Lu Hanqian was unexpectedly relieved.He thought: Lin Yan finally said this sentence.