To die

"……what!"

With this fall, Lin Yan's twisted right hand hit the edge of the bed.

The inertia of the whole body's weight was pressed on it, Lin Yan's face turned pale in pain, and he subconsciously curled up, trying to protect his right hand.

However, Lu Hanqian immediately pressed up, grabbed Lin Yan's limbs, and insisted on straightening him bit by bit.

"Don't move!...don't move there!"

Lu Hanqian squeezed Lin Yan's dislocated wrist in his palm. In an instant, he broke into a cold sweat and almost broke his voice.

Lu Hanqian paused, remembering that Lin Yan had just been pinched by him in the afternoon, and subconsciously loosened his hands.

As a result, Lin Yan struggled in the next moment and couldn't stop thumping.

Lu Hanqian sneered, grabbed both of Lin Yan's wrists, and fixed them firmly on the bedside: "You deserve the pain."

Lin Yan gasped in pain, his whole body trembling slightly.

Lu Hanqian grabbed his legs that kept kicking and kicking, and held them firmly, his tone was cold and fierce: "You try to move again? I'll break your hands right away, believe it or not!"

Lin Yan shivered and looked at him coldly, because of shortness of breath and pain, his forehead was covered with a thin layer of cold sweat, and his cheeks, hands and feet were cold.

"Now let's talk about it."

Lu Hanqian said slowly in a posture half pressed against Lin Yan's body, "When will you and that little nurse get together, huh?"

Lin Yan didn't answer a word, but stared at Lu Hanqian with trembling lips, his eyes were as cold as a small knife.

"You always call me scum, bastard."

Lu Hanqian stretched out his hand, grabbed Lin Yan's cheek suddenly, and said in a hoarse voice, "But I've been with you for half a year, and I haven't found anyone else—Lin Yan, what the hell do you have to scold me, huh?"

Lin Yan's hands were fixed high on the top of his head, and the cold sweat on his forehead slid down his temples. Enduring the pain, he trembled and said in a low voice:

"You think I'm green on you?"

Lu Hanqian raised his eyebrows: "Why, no?"

Hearing this, Lin Yan suddenly smiled——

His face was pale and cold, but his eyes were dark and clear.

In such a dark night, suddenly bending his eyes and smiling, there is a sudden and breathtaking feeling.

"Mr. Lu, you are flattering me too much."

Lin Yan laughed mockingly, and after a while, said softly and hoarsely: "Do you know what green you is? Only Mrs. Lu has this qualification——

And me, what am I? "

"..."

Lu Hanqian was blocked for breath by him.

What am I?

Lu Hanqian knew what Lin Yan meant.

In the past when they quarreled, Lu Hanqian would scold Lin Yan for not knowing how to flatter him, but it was just a thing he squeezed and flattened in his hands, and he dared to take Joe with him like this, and so on.

But having said that, when Lin Yan actually mentioned it like that, he felt another feeling in his heart.

Lu Hanqian's Adam's apple couldn't stop rolling, he stared at Lin Yan for a while, and then he bluffed viciously and said:

"It's good that you know what you are! ——Even if it's a dog raised by me, it's not qualified to hunt wild food outside!"

As he spoke, he sneered and went to unbutton Lin Yan's shirt: "I want to see if you really spent the whole night reading the case file in the coffee shop."

"You lunatic..."

Lin Yan struggled frantically, trying to turn his body sideways.

However, his hands were fixed to the head of the bed, and he couldn't turn over at all, like a fish that was thrown ashore and could only be manipulated by others, watching Lu Hanqian undo his buttons one by one.

Lin Yan's body was beautiful and white, well-proportioned and soft. In the darkness, he rubbed it like a piece of warm jade.

Lu Hanqian originally just wanted to check whether there was a hickey on his neck, but gradually, his breathing became messy involuntarily.

"..."

Lu Hanqian leaned over Lin Yan's body, his eyes were very hot.

"Go down!"

Lin Yan struggled a bit, suppressing his anger.

"Lin Yan, why haven't you learned to be smarter after so long?"

Lu Hanqian chuckled, slipped his finger carelessly to Lin Yan's chest, pinched it there, causing Lin Yan to curl up immediately, and then slowly said: "You should know—some things are never up to you to decide."

He pinched Lin Yan's chin, and kissed from his lingering eyebrows and pale lips to Lin Yan's delicate and slender collarbone, and at the same time stretched his hand down...

Suddenly, Lin Yan gritted his teeth and tried his best to bend his legs, kicked Lu Hanqian in the chest, kicked Lu Hanqian to the bedside, almost rolled down: "Get out!"

"..."

"Fuck! You fucking reversed it!"

Lu Hanqian was taken aback for a moment, and then he was almost pissed off, completely annoyed, and then thought of Lin Yan lying to him again and again, and actually walked to the bedside, and made a crisp "click" to Lin Yan's left hand!

Lin Yan immediately let out a cry of great pain, shaking violently like an electric shock——

Ten fingers connected to the heart, unimaginable sharp pain quickly spread from both wrists to the whole body, Lin Yan lay on his back, staring at the ceiling with blank eyes, gasping for breath.

The pajamas were already drenched in cold sweat, sticking wetly to his body, vividly outlining Lin Yan's flexible and slender waist and two small bulges on his chest.

Lu Hanqian leaned forward, kissed Lin Yan's cold and trembling lips, and pushed one knee between Lin Yan's legs, easily separating them a lot.

Lin Yan was already stunned by the pain, his whole body was weakened, and he no longer had the strength to resist.

"You have to be good earlier, why bother?"

Lu Hanqian gently kissed away a little tear from the corner of Lin Yan's eyes, and hugged him tightly.

…………

The next morning, at six or seven o'clock in the morning, Lu Hanqian called Jin to withdraw his troops, but Lin Yan was already in a daze and didn't respond much.

Lu Hanqian was satisfied enough, and then he noticed Lin Yan's hand, his heart skipped a beat, and he started calling the doctor.

But it took too long to tie it up, and when he put it down, Lin Yan's hands were completely numb.

His wrist was swollen to the size of a walnut, but Lin Yan was so numb that he couldn't feel any pain.

Lu Hanqian looked at the mess on the bed and Lin Yan, picked Lin Yan up, and prepared to take him to the bathroom to clean up.

Unexpectedly, Lin Yan moved slightly to one side, buried his face in the quilt, as if he didn't want to look at Lu Hanqian, and said in a hoarse voice:

"roll."

Lu Hanqian froze for a moment, stared at Lin Yan for a few seconds, then said coldly "I don't know what's good" and slammed the door away.

As a result, halfway through, he stopped at the door of the unit again.

The doctor will come later, Lin Yan is alone at home, and his hand is injured again, Lu Hanqian is always a little worried.

He stood in the aisle, lit a cigarette, and called Gu Zhao.

Gu Zhao has been very busy with his cousin's affairs recently.

Hearing that Lu Hanqian broke Lin Yan's wrist again, and even quarreled with him, asking him to look at Lin Yan, it was as big as two heads.

"Lu Hanqian, are you trembling?" Gu Zhao said depressedly, "Just sleep now, why do you always make Lin Lv sleep so badly that you need to see a doctor?"

"You think I want to?"

Lu Hanqian exhaled the smoke, and said irritably: "Who the hell is not going to bed to enjoy relaxation, Lin Yan is the only one, and every time it looks like a fight! Do you think I'm not tired?"

"Master Lu, in the new year, be yourself."

Gu Zhao said sincerely, "Twisted melons are not sweet. Lawyer Lin doesn't want to, so forget it. You are also tired. Lawyer Lin probably suffers more than you. Can we let each other go?"

Lu Hanqian snorted and laughed: "Let him go... Lin Yan is a piece of meat near my mouth, I must eat it."

Gu Zhao sighed helplessly: "Lu Hanqian, you're really stuck. You're like this..."

"I'm doing fine."

Before Gu Zhao finished speaking, Lu Hanqian interrupted him: "You were right last time, I don't like Lin Yan like this, but I haven't got it, I haven't conquered him, so I can't let go."

"But now other people just can't get my interest. His mother's father just wants to be with Lin Yan. What can I do?"

Lu Hanqian said: "I have to rub him soft one day, follow me honestly, and then talk about letting him go."

Gu Zhao was shocked by this brain circuit, he stumbled and asked: "Then, what if Lin Lu has been like this?"

"Then stay till I die."

Lu Hanqian said lightly, "I will never die."

After that incident, Lin Yan didn't speak to Lu Hanqian for a long time.

Even under the same roof, he completely treated Lu Hanqian as a piece of air and ignored him.

Lu Hanqian seemed to be completely broken.

In the past, he could barely be regarded as a beast in clothes, but now he doesn't even bother to pretend to be a beast in clothes.

When he had nothing to do, he went out to play with Gu Zhao's group, playing cards, racing cars, and dating young models, and it was impossible for him to come back before midnight.

Drunk, dreaming and dying, drunk with money and money, Lin Yan will come anyway no matter how disgusting he is.

Because of Lu Hanqian's performance during this period, his group of wine and meat friends even gave him a title: Red Lips Collector.

Because every time Lu Hanqian goes out to play, he rarely stays overnight, but he really likes to let those young models leave lipstick marks on his collar.

The redder the better, the more conspicuous the better - just in case Lin Yan might not see it.

Once, Lu Hanqian drank too much and was so drunk that he was still muttering in a daze: "...Lin Yan, Lin Yan, look here! Is it red or not, or is it gorgeous!...Damn it, it's better than yours! Take it easy, little nurse, I'm mad at you..."

Gu Zhao hiccupped from laughing on the sofa, "Hahahaha Lu Hanqian, you idiot, Lin Lu doesn't care about you at all! He doesn't even care about you..."

Lu Hanqian was holding a wine bottle, his eyes were glistening, and he was lying on the sofa in a daze.

A young model was kneeling beside his legs, very beautiful, flirting and coquettish.

After a long while, Lu Hanqian suddenly sat up from the sofa as if suddenly sober, and pushed the tender model away: "Get out! Get out of me!"

Seeing him stand up, Gu Zhao stumbled while leaning on the wall, then went out, and called the driver after three o'clock in the middle of the night, to go to Lin Yan's place.

The driver couldn't tell how miserable he was, and Lin Yan was even worse.

After working all day, I was preparing to appear in court until 01:30 in the evening. After washing up, I finally lay down on the bed. Not long after I fell asleep, I was woken up by the sound of metal bumping the door lock.

Lu Hanqian drank too much and couldn't fit the key into the door hole, thinking that Lin Yan had changed the lock, so he grabbed the door and kicked wildly.

Lin Yan buried his head in the quilt at first, and didn't want to pay attention to it, but Lu Hanqian was too noisy, and he was afraid that the neighbors would be quarreled in a while, and he would directly call the police to disturb the people.

Lin Yan couldn't bear it anymore, and finally pulled on his slippers and opened the door.

"... Lu Hanqian, you lunatic—"

As soon as Lin Yan opened the anti-theft door, Lu Hanqian rushed in. Regardless of whether the door was closed, he grabbed Lin Yan's shoulder and pressed against the wall.

"Lin Yan, do you care about me?"

He stared at Lin Yan, and kept asking, "... Lin Yan, do you care, do you care about me... huh?"

Lu Hanqian reeked of alcohol, his mind was clearly blurred.

Lin Yan was afraid that he would do something outrageous again, so he struggled with all his strength, trying to reach the cold water on the table.

A bowl of cold water was poured on Lu Hanqian, causing Lu Hanqian to squint his eyes and shiver slightly in this cold winter night.

"...you should be sober."

Lin Yan's chest heaved violently, looked at Lu Hanqian coldly, and said, "Let go!"

Water droplets slowly flowed down Lu Hanqian's cheeks.

Passing through his deep eye sockets, straight nose bridge, sharp lip line, and finally blended into the collar of the dark gray shirt.

Lu Hanqian raised his hand and slowly wiped the water off his eyelids.

Lin Yan stared at him warily, fearing that this person would suddenly attack him in the next second.

But Lu Hanqian still only looked at Lin Yan, and asked persistently: "Lin Yan, do you care about me? If I die outside, do you care?"

"..."

Lin Yan looked at Lu Hanqian as if he was insane, and suddenly smiled lightly: "What do you think?"

"...A week ago, in order to force me to submit, you broke my wrist with your own hands, remember?"

Lin Yan said lightly: "And the box of toys you bought...the things you used on me, all kinds of unheard of ways to play - do you treat me as a human being?"

Lu Hanqian stared at him blankly.

In the darkness, Lin Yan raised his chin slightly.

The thin outline looked sharp and mean under his indifferent tone, with an aggressive meaning.

Finally, Lin Yan said to Lu Hanqian coldly, "I hate you."

"I would be much better off without you—I... really hope you disappear soon."

This sentence is like a sentence for Lu Hanqian.

Each word was seared into his heart, and every syllable was so hot that he shuddered.

But Lu Hanqian just stood at the door in a daze, looking at Lin Yan helplessly.

How did that happen?

He thought blankly, among those little lovers of friends, he was the best to Lin Yan.

If you want money, give money, what you want, what is there that Lu Hanqian doesn't satisfy him?

It's just that Lin Yan himself never wanted it.

Lu Hanqian originally thought that Lin Yan just didn't like his background and couldn't get used to his rich and powerful behavior, but he never thought that it would be "hate".

How can one person's kindness to another person be exchanged for hatred?

"why?"

The stamina of the alcohol slowly came up, burning Lu Hanqian dizzily.

Trembling, he grabbed Lin Yan's shoulder and asked nervously, "...Don't you just hate me? How could you hate me?"

Lin Yan opened his hand, his eyes were as cold as a poisoned cold sword.

"Because you ruined me..."

Lin Yan said word by word, softly: "Lu Hanqian, do you know that as long as I think of you, I will be startled awake from my dreams at night."

"..."

"When will you disappear?"

Lin Yan looked at the drunk man, and said slowly, "It would be great if you could disappear...we will never meet again, and with you, I don't know how long I can live on..."

Alcohol slowed down the reaction speed of Lu Hanqian's brain.

But for some reason, when he heard Lin Yan say these words with his own ears, and stared at Lin Yan's lips, he still felt such pain, as if his heart was being crushed.

"...if I disappear, what do you want to do?"

Lu Hanqian's eyes were bloodshot, he exhausted all his strength, summoned up his courage, and said:

"Lin Yan, I beat Zhao Yu for you... I have never met the marriage partner arranged by the family, and there is no Zhao Qian, Sun Li, anyone who tripped you up in the lawsuit that I wanted to file before. You have come to a good end...why...why..."

...Why, still can't you hate me a little less?

However, Lu Hanqian still failed to say this sentence.

"Do you think I'm afraid of death?"

After a while, Lin Yan said softly, "Lu Hanqian, do you think I am a person who fears death?"

Lu Hanqian was stunned and didn't speak.

Lin Yan smiled: "If I were afraid of death, I wouldn't be a lawyer like this."

"In my whole life, I just want to do what I want to do. If I really hit the south wall at some point, it's fine if I die—anyway, in this world, no one will feel sorry for me."

"Let me submit to others, serve others in Israel, in exchange for a privileged asylum to survive, it is better to let me die."

"..."

"You will regret this."

After a while, Lu Hanqian said.

"I won't regret it."

Lin Yan said calmly: "I know you feel so stupid. Those who achieve great things can bend and stretch, and I am like this, which is the stinky character of a poor scholar-but I can't change it."

"You broke my spine one by one, smashed it, and I can't kneel down.... I hope I can lie flat on my own, and let you fuck whatever you want... Lu Hanqian, unless I die."

"You don't have a spine..."

Lu Hanqian gritted his teeth and said, "I've protected you so well! You fucking... will have to kneel down and beg me one day!"

Lin Yan didn't want to say anything more to Lu Hanqian, he glanced at him indifferently, went back to the room by himself, and locked the door with a "click".

Lu Hanqian stood alone for a while in silence, looking at Lin Yan's locked master bedroom, the dark room.

He took out his cell phone and made a call.