Life is like a journey

Deathly silence.

Only the roar of the river and the intermittent sobs.

A pile of cigarette butts fell under Xu Qiankun's feet, until he finished smoking the last cigarette in the cigarette case, he threw it on the ground in a ball.

"What's the matter?" He leaned over to look at the image sent back by the life detector.

Yu Gui raised his head from his arms, his eyes were red.

Liu Qingyun, who has always been strong in the team, kept pulling his hair with his hands: "It's all my fault...it's all my fault...why did I go out first..."

The wounded and Lu Qingshi were both inside, their whereabouts unknown, their life and death unknown, and the radio calls hadn't stopped since the beginning, but her frequency band hadn't responded.

The technician shook his head. The image sent back by the drone was pitch black. The far-infrared thermal imager on board is similar to the thermal nest of snakes. It relies on the temperature of the surface of the organism to sense the specific location. Any mammal No body temperature means no signs of life.

Yu Gui rushed over and begged him: "Please, try to go a little deeper, Teacher Lu must be alive, definitely alive!"

The technician looked distressed: "I... I will try my best... to fly a little lower... But the minimum is five meters... There is a risk of the drone crashing if it goes any lower."

"Borrow me a light." Qin Xuan bowed his head, and Xiang Nanke pressed the lighter for her.

She sat down with her back against the railing of the bridge, and lightly exhaled the smoke rings. The wind direction was bad, and her eyes were irritated sorely.

She stretched out her hand and rubbed it, and she shed tears without warning.

"Are you crazy?! Do you see that she still has so much blood to shed now?!"

"I am the leader of the medical team. If you have any dissatisfaction, you can go back and complain to the medical department."

"The most urgent thing is to save your life!"

"It's better to die than to live without quality"

The two people who have always been tit-for-tat in terms of diagnosis and treatment, in fact, there are rare times when they are very harmonious.

"You want me to forgive you for a can of coffee?"

"Then... invite Director Lu to drink coffee for one year!"

She has a lot of friends in her life, but Lu Qingshi is the only true confidant. She admires her medical skills and respects her personality. She probably can become a close friend, more or less with love, otherwise why would she even stand up and go to see her? I didn't even have the courage to glance at it. From the moment my fingertips touched a little bit of moisture, my tears couldn't be stopped like a flood that opened the gate.

Xiang Nanke gently embraced her shoulders, hugged him into his arms, and gave her silent comfort.

"Director Xu, it's not good, the patient's blood oxygen level is 90, and it's going to be unstoppable," another doctor jumped off the ambulance and reported.

"Increase the oxygen flow, I'll go and have a look." Xu Qiankun pulled off the stethoscope around his neck and got into the carriage.

There is no problem with the operation, but the problem is that the environment is too bad, and the organs will be infected more or less if they are exposed to the air. If they are not sent back to the hospital for antibiotic treatment, the life of this person will be lost.

Xu Qiankun gritted his teeth and jumped out of the car: "Close the team and go back to the hospital"

No one moved, and he stomped his feet and repeated it emphatically: "What are you doing in a daze?! Hurry up! There is still a seriously injured person in this car who needs urgent treatment!"

Yu Gui raised his head slowly: "What do you mean? Are you going to give up searching for Teacher Lu?!"

"Her Lu Qingshi's life is her life, but the lives of other wounded people are not her life?!"

Xu Qiankun blushed and roared thickly: "I didn't give up on her! It's her own disappointment! Look at yourself! There are no signs of life!"

The iPad was thrown into the muddy water.

Yu Gui rushed forward with red eyes, but was firmly held back.

Everyone knew that what he said was the truth, but no one was willing to accept this result. Everyone's eyes were red and they stared at him.

Yu Gui shook off Chen Yi, picked up the shovel lying on the side, and walked into the ruins without looking back.

"Stop!" Xu Qiankun chased up and shouted sharply, looking at her eyes that had been washed by tears, these words were not only addressed to her, but also to everyone present.

"Yes, although I have always been at odds with her, to be honest, I really hate her, but I will save as long as there is a glimmer of hope. This is my duty as a doctor." The rain streamed down his glasses , Xu Qiankun reached out and wiped it, patted the badge hanging on his chest and said loudly.

"But other than that, I'm the head of the department, the leader! All of you live on my belt! My biggest decision-making mistake was letting her go in the tunnel! I've lost a good deputy The Chief Physician is gone, I can't lose you any more!"

Yu Gui clenched the shovel in his hand, raised his head slightly, and let the rainwater twist into lines on his face.

When she first entered the emergency department as an intern, she didn't like Lu Qingshi either, because she always kept a cold face and ignored everyone.

When you don't speak, you are cold to death, and when you speak, you are stunned.

Especially on the operating table, sharing the same stage with her is every doctor's nightmare.

Later she realized that she didn't want to scold anyone on purpose, she just wanted to do well for the patients wholeheartedly.

If there is a mistake during practice, there is still a chance to make up for it, but the patient on the operating table has only one life.

She can't tolerate other people's mistakes, let alone her own mistakes.

During the many nights when he thought he was already working hard to study with the moon, Lu Qingshi would often read cases in the reference room and do exercises in the simulated operating room.

The first time she saw the softness wrapped in her hard shell was when she knelt down to Zhou Yuetong's parents in the corridor to ask them to donate their organs.

That scene made her heart hard to calm down for a long time.

It also gave her a strong urge to stay here.

Want to be like her.

I want to be like her, a doctor who can be trusted by her partners and can be independent.

To a certain extent, Lu Qingshi is her teacher, her guide, and the beacon that illuminates her progress.

It is the most reassuring existence every time you are in a hurry and panic.

"Don't be afraid of bleeding, this is the only way for every doctor"

It is just the right comfort every time you are frustrated.

"Even though we started much earlier than others, and have resources that many people dare not even dream of, in the end, people—— still have to rely on themselves"

It is a warm current hidden under the iceberg.

"Fortunately, you are still a doctor, don't you know that the best blocking time after occupational exposure is two hours?"

"I'll check your homework in a month..."

When the lighthouse was dark and the flagpole was broken, Yu Gui felt unprecedented sadness. She suddenly felt a sense of emptiness in the vast world and she didn't know where to go.

The young man bent down slightly, and for the first time let out a cry from deep in his throat.

"In this rescue operation, we rescued a total of 280 wounded, 270 survived, and 11 died. I can say that I am worthy of the white coat on my body. I have fulfilled my duty as a doctor."

"What I have to fulfill now is my duty as a leader. Everyone has it. Immediately get in the car and send the wounded back to the hospital safely!"

Pushing Xiang Nanke away with one hand, and stumbling over, Qin Xuan roughly tore off his breastplate from his neck and threw it into the muddy water.

She then took off her white coat and threw it on the ground, only wearing a thin undergarment and was drenched by the heavy rain.

"I'm not in the emergency department. I don't need to perform the duties you mentioned. If I want to give up my friends, I'd rather take off my skin."

She has always had a hot temper, but when she said this, there was a kind of calm ferocity.

Under the watchful eyes of everyone, she turned towards the direction of the ruins and strode away.

A dark blue figure chased after him.

Yu Gui also wiped the rainwater off his face, took off his white coat, picked up the shovel and left without looking back.

But someone had already rushed ahead of her, and Yan Yanlan's back flew by her side like wind and fire, and she almost cried: "Captain Gu...why haven't you left yet?"

Gu Yanzhi chiseled a few big rocks with a shovel, and some rocks fell from the top. She simply threw away the shovel and planed with her hands: "I won't leave until Qingshi comes out."

Fearing that using tools would cause a second collapse, everyone else followed suit. Qin Xuan's manicure broke off and was dripping with blood.

Gu Yanzhi's back was ripped apart, she didn't care too much, she was the fastest one to dig, the mud brought out with her palms inserted into the soil was stained with blood.

Not to mention Yu Gui, who was crying while digging, wiping away tears with his shoulder from time to time, his whole face full of confusion.

He has said everything he should have said, and he has fulfilled all his duties.

Xu Qiankun was sitting in the car, holding the car door and looking at the sad, sad or frustrated faces below.

"what about you?"

Hao Renjie clenched his fists and bowed slightly: "Sorry"

After all, he turned and ran towards the tunnel entrance.

Liu Qingyun put his badge on the car: "I'm sorry, Director Xu"

Then there is Chen Yi: "The anesthesiologist is the best partner of the surgeon. My textbook did not teach me to give up my comrades."

……

Several people turned around and ran towards the entrance of the tunnel, and some followed him into the car.

Xu Qiankun didn't stop him any more, he leaned against the car door, as if he was extremely tired.

"Let's drive, master"

The ambulance turned on its lights and drove away in the heavy rain.

"When I was young, when I was young, when I was young..." It seemed that someone was calling her name softly and lingeringly beside her ear.

Her sanity sank into a dark pool, and some supernatural force kept pulling her down.

Lu Qingshi was powerless to break free.

She has been soaking here for a long time, so long that her limbs become cold, so long that her breathing gradually becomes heavy, and so long that her heartbeat becomes slower and slower.

Finally, at a certain moment, the beating stopped completely.

She is like a leaf of duckweed floating in the sea of ​​consciousness. When the chaos is unclear, a voice breaks the light.

"Youth, hold on, don't die!"

The matching face at that moment also came into my mind.

Is it true that when a person is on the verge of death, there will be a certain moment when he recalls the past, and those details that he never cared about suddenly become very clear.

"I really feel like I've seen you before"

fire.

Overwhelming fire.

The heat wave licked the corner of her clothes.

A figure rushed over and pinned her down.

"Are you okay?!"

"fine"

The sea level turned upside down, endless white.

"Why didn't you save him?! Why?!"

A doctor in a white coat smoothes the folds of his collar.

"Sorry, sorry for the inconvenience"

There was a wave on the calm sea.

"Fighting against Dr. Lu was a pleasure"

"You are obviously a doctor, why are you still stereotyped?"

"When a person dies, he becomes a star in the sky"

"And what about a night without stars?"

"Then he is the star in my heart"

Meteors streaked across the night sky and fell into the deep sea with light and oxygen.

So everything began to recover, and tangled vines grew on the bottom of the sea.

"This world will not be dark forever. Dr. Lu is using his own light and heat to fight against vast and boundless diseases."

"Everyone is nice to me because they want something from me, what about you, what do you want?"

"I'm different from those people, I just want to be nice to you, without any purpose, because, you are worth it"

tick-

A drizzle fell into the lake.

bang - bang bang

Long lost voice.

"Find someone who is willing to bear the weight of your life, and share the rest of your life together"

Pain revived from the body.

The unconscious man frowned slightly.

She heard what she hadn't said that day.

"Qingshi... please share the weight of your life with me... I... like you..."

A rusty smell rose in his throat.

Lu Qingshi woke up choking on his own blood.

After coughing up the blood stuck in her throat, she slowly opened her eyes, thinking that she was in hell, otherwise why would it be so dark.

Until the warm touch came from under the body, it was human skin.

She touched again.

It was the boy, and he wasn't dead yet.

Lu Qingshi suddenly choked up, in this kind of place, it was the patient's body temperature that gave her great support.

She thought of Gu Yanzhi, her parents who had passed away, and her son who left her...

I also thought of the puppy who had been standing by his owner's side waiting for the rescuers to arrive.

Everyone is desperately trying to survive, and she, too, cannot die.

After her vision gradually adapted to the darkness, she found that she was crushed under the falling rocks. When the landslide happened, she protected the boy with her body, so her vital signs were stable.

The communicator didn't know where it fell, but according to her guess, it should not be far from the entrance of the tunnel, as long as it keeps climbing forward.

Lu Qingshi tied herself and the stretcher together with a bandage. She took a step, and the stretcher moved with it. Every inch of ground she walked was stained with blood.

I don't know how long it's been like this, maybe an hour, two hours, or a day...

There were many times when Lu Qing wanted to give up, but when he looked back at that boy, courage would pour into his body little by little.

It didn't matter that she died, but the patient had to get out safely.

Besides, there was still a heart, which she didn't have time to really face.

At nine o'clock in the evening, four hours had passed since the explosion.

During these four hours, they never gave up calling for her, nor gave up trying to rescue her.

Gu Yanzhi shouted until his voice became hoarse, and his whole hand seemed to be soaked in blood.

When everyone else was resting for a while, she still threw herself into the ruins, using her own hands to open a passage for her to escape.

Everyone knew that there might be no hope, but no one tried to stop her crazy behavior.

Sometimes, even knowing that the result is futile, all people want is peace of mind.

This may be the case for other people, but for Gu Yanzhi, when she was almost 30 years old, she found such a person who made her worry about her.

In her body, I experienced the bitterness and bitterness that I had never had before, and it was she who painted a thick stroke of color on her blank life.

If Lu Qingshi passed away right away, she would end up living with regrets for the rest of her life.

No, just thinking about it, she felt that she might not have the courage to face the sun tomorrow.

It was Lu Qingshi who saved her from death, and it was she who gave her a second life. Her heart beat because of her, and her existence was alive because of her.

She was the one who saved her before, now it's her turn to save her.

She has no strength.

The bloody smell in the throat kept coming up.

Lu Qingshi coughed up blood foam, she knew that there should be internal organs damaged, but she didn't know if it was the lungs, liver, or stomach.

His hands and feet were as heavy as if they had been filled with lead, and he began to suck in the little oxygen in the air.

Lu Qingshi lay on his back on the rough gravel, before closing his eyes slightly, a ray of light split the darkness.

someone!

It's the light of a flashlight!

She gritted her teeth, got up and dragged the stretcher forward again, her palms were scratched, and the fabric on her knees was worn to pieces, and every step she took was painful.

"Qingshi!" Finally, when she was about to lose her hold, a pair of hands passed through the darkness and supported her steadily.

Lu Qingshi felt that he could feel at ease: "You are here"

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I came too late..." Gu Yanzhi knelt on the ground, hugged her into his arms, kissed her bloody side face, and hot tears fell into the pit of her neck.

Lu Qing was taken aback for a moment, this time she didn't push her away again, it was only after a long time that she slowly hugged her back.

"thank you"

An inexplicable thank you contained too much she wanted to say.

When she was closest to death, Gu Yanzhi's words pulled her back from the abyss.

She is very grateful to her, really grateful, and a little greedy for the warmth of her embrace. Although both of them are in a mess now, she still buries her head in the crescent of her neck and takes a deep breath, which is mixed with the smell of sweat and The smell of earth.

It's nice to be alive.

In the silence and darkness, there was no time for others to catch up.

Gu Yanzhi gently held her head, lifted the broken hair on her forehead, and watched her dark eyes reflect the stars in the sky, and there was her shadow in them.

Just looking at each other quietly, the two of them shed tears at the same time.

Only they know that they almost miss each other forever.

"Don't cry, it's okay"

Gu Yanzhi wiped his hands on the clean place on his chest before wiping away her tears, when he felt the rough calluses on her palms.

Lu Qingshi slightly closed his eyes.

A kiss as light as a feather fell on the forehead.

Lu Qingshi's eyelashes trembled slightly.

She was a little nervous.

Gu Yanzhi swallowed, and the hand holding her waist tightened.

Really... want to kiss.

And...do something else?

But the others didn't give her a chance, and ran in with flashlights.

Yu Gui wept with joy: "That's great, Teacher Lu, it's really great that you're fine."

Qin Xuan cried and threw himself into her arms: "Qing Shi, woo woo woo... It's great that you're fine, I'll buy you as much coffee as you want from now on, woo woo..."

Lu Qingshi didn't push her away again, maybe because he didn't have the strength, maybe because she didn't want to push her away at all.

She looked at the joyful, excited, or tearful faces, with a sincere smile on her face.

"It's okay, let's send the wounded out first."

When a group of people carried the stretcher and Gu Yanzhi helped her limped out of the tunnel entrance, after a long absence, the rain dispersed and the clouds closed.

The dark clouds parted from the sky, revealing the shy moon's not-so-bright face.

The rain finally stopped.

They supported each other, Hao Renjie and Liu Qingyun carried the stretcher, Xiang Nanke walked in front, Chen Yi supported the back, Yu Gui held the liquid bag, Qin Xuan and Gu Yanzhi supported Lu Qingshi from left to right.

Behind them are endless ruins, but in front of them is a bright and smooth road.

It was played back like a movie in slow motion, the moon rose above their heads, everyone's footsteps were slowed down, their eyebrows and eyes were baptized with blood and tears, and they carried the surprise of the rest of their lives.

Yu Gui thought, she will never forget this moment and the people around her.

What made her even more unexpected was that when the lights on the mountain road were bright, Xu Qiankun jumped out of the ambulance and opened the door.

"Why are you standing still, get in the car!"

Liu Qingyun smiled: "Director Xu, haven't you gone back?"

"Don't mention it, our driver is tired of driving. After sending me back, no one is willing to come here. If I don't come, you will all be trapped here. Director Lu must thank me very much this time."

Still, as always, extremely vain and good face.

Everyone smiled slightly, and after sending the wounded to the ambulance, they got into the car one by one, and couldn't sit down and went to the police car facing Nanke.

Hao Renjie scrambled to climb out of the car: "Take me to the police officer"

"And me, me, I will go too"

Chen Yi and Liu Qingyun also ran over, Gu Yanzhi was a little embarrassed: "That... Yu Gui... you sit here"

"No, no, it's too crowded here, Teacher Lu is also a wounded person, please wait for me!!!"

Qin Xuan closed the car door, and the front and rear doors were locked at the same time, expressing helplessness to Nan Ke.

Qin Xuan shook the glass: "Little Guigui, we can't sit down here anymore."

There could be another one in the back seat, so everyone nodded in unison.

Yu Gui ran back crying.

she!real!of!very!No!think!when!electricity!lamp!Bubble!

"Are you seated yet? Ready to drive"

The carriage shook slightly, Lu Qingshi rested his head on Gu Yanzhi's shoulder.

The fire drill instructor who was already sitting upright became even more nervous, and licked his lips: "What's wrong, Qing Shi?"

Maybe it was because of the sweltering heat in the carriage, there was a thin layer of sweat on her forehead, her face was a little pale, her eyes were half-opened and half-closed: "Sleepy..."

Just one word seems to exhaust the strength of the whole body.

Gu Yanzhi put his hand on her forehead, feeling a little cold.

She picked up a clean white coat and put it on her body: "Is there any discomfort?"

Lu Qingshi ignored Yu Gui's somewhat ambiguous eyes, and pulled her hand away, so they clasped tightly together.

"No... just a little... tired..."

"Then I'll hold you to sleep"

She put the person flat on her lap, wrapped her arms around her waist, and fixed the person in place.

There was a weak smile on Lu Qingshi's face, like a Lingxiao flower in full bloom.

"Um"

Gu Yanzhi was startled for a moment, but soon her breathing became steady and she fell into a deep sleep.

Looking out the window from the lush forests to the high-rise buildings in the city, Yu Gui finally breathed a sigh of relief.

I don't know what's going on there...

She couldn't wait to go home, back to the damp and cramped home that belonged to her and Fang Zhiyou.

Seeing the school badge of Renji University of Medical Sciences come into view, Gu Yanzhi gently shook her shoulder: "Qingshi, wake up, we are here!"

Yu Gui jumped out of the car first.

No one responded to her.

That bad premonition was aggravated, and Gu Yanzhi shook her lightly again.

"Young time?"

Her head suddenly tilted to the outside, and she lay there quietly as if she had stopped breathing.

"Young time!!!"