Life is like a journey

Yu Guiyi stepped into the office, regardless of whether anyone was there or not, he just kept bowing his head and admitting his mistake: "Mr. Lu, I'm sorry, I was too impulsive this time, I shouldn't have hit people, and caused trouble for you and the department leaders. It has brought troubles to Dr. Sun and caused a very bad influence in the department. You can punish me however you want, I admit my mistake."

She gritted her teeth and continued, "I also accept all the consequences frankly."

After all, he bowed deeply in front of the desk.

There was no response for a long time, Yu Gui didn't dare to move, only heard the sound of the pen tip rubbing against the paper.

After a while, the voice stopped, and Lu Qingshi put down his pen: "Have you finished?"

Yu Gui bowed again, bit his lip, and his eyes were slightly red: "It's over, then I'm going to pack my things."

Not daring to look at her face, she hurriedly turned around and wanted to leave.

"Why, don't you want to go to work after two days of vacation?" Lu Qingshi leaned back in the chair, tapped the pen cover on the table lightly.

"Is it your job to see the medical records that need to be entered into the system on this big table?"

Yu Gui was stunned, and slowly turned around to look at the mountain of medical records on her desk, half of which was the happiness of the rest of her life, and half of her face full of emotions.

"Let's go, Qingshi." Qin Xuan changed into his regular clothes and carried a satchel. The next stop was a typical representative of urban fashionable girls. He leaned against the office door and knocked lightly twice.

Lu Qingshi got up, hung up his white coat on the hanger, picked up his backpack, and glanced at her: "Make way"

Yu Gui looked at these two people, who went to work and performed surgery normally, still treated each patient with an expressionless face, and was indifferent to her nominal student, indifferent to everything that happened around him, such a person would either Hard-hearted or simply dismissive.

Which one does Lu Qingshi belong to?

And Lu Qingshi's good friend Qin Xuan, a senior attending physician in obstetrics and gynecology, seems to be enthusiastic but actually doesn't pay much attention to life, maybe it's not that she doesn't pay attention to it, what she pays attention to is probably only the survival rate, and she puts all interests first. It's not worth mentioning in her eyes.

Can the passing of a life really cause no waves to them?

Even though several days had passed, she would still be swayed by her emotions, thinking about the way the pregnant woman looked before she died from time to time.

Is it really possible to be indifferent?

Yu Gui squeezed the medical records in his hand, but still asked the question out of his mouth.

Lu Qing kept walking, Qin Xuan turned to look at her: "Caiji, have you seen "Unnatural"?"

"Eh?!" Yu Gui's eyes widened.

Qin Xuan waved goodbye to her: "The forensic doctor Sancheng said: 'If you have time to despair, why don't you eat something delicious and go to sleep~' Goodbye~ Vegetable Chicken"

Lu Qingshi threw the backpack over his shoulder without turning his head: "If you see it too much, you won't be surprised anymore."

Hongrui Archery Club.

As soon as Qin Xuan shot ten arrows, he slumped on the seat and couldn't get up after being beaten to death: "Oh no, my arms are so sore, this is simply an anti-human hobby."

While sipping the drink brought up by the waiter, she raised her eyes to look at Lu Qing and clicked her tongue.

"You are also an existence against humanity"

Lu Qing drew his bow and drew his arrows in one go, but for some reason he thought of the match with Gu Yanzhi that day, and then looked at Qin Xuan who was paralyzed by the side, feeling a bit dull.

Even she felt a little baffled by this feeling, so she raised her hand and shot an arrow hard, hitting the red heart, and sawdust flew out.

Qin Xuan had an expression like seeing a ghost: "My God, you didn't act like this when you were in school, didn't you?"

Qin Xuan is also a graduate of Union Medical College, a year younger than her, and she is half her junior sister. She was busy doing research all day long in school, and the two of them had no intersection. Instead, they came to Renji Medical University. I gradually became familiar with it. Of course, this is also due to Qin Xuan's thick skin.

When Lu Qingshi entered the school, she was a famous figure. Of course, she was very popular, and she went to the student union to see her. Back then, Lu Qingshi was so tender that he could pinch water. A stop at the welcome office was simply a gold-lettered signboard of the college, plus he was gentle and sweet A well-deserved school belle, and look at this person wearing a sweatshirt and slacks with his hair casually rolled up. Is this really a person?

Qin Xuan curled his lips and put down his drink: "I said, clean up yourself when you have time, time is not forgiving, after all, you are not a [-]-year-old girl. I think you had many suitors when you were in school. It can be lined up from the auditorium to the east gate”

Lu Qingshi raised his hand and shot an arrow, hitting the bull's-eye: "It's not as exaggerated as you said, why didn't I think so?"

Qin Xuan rolled his eyes: "You spend your time in the lab every day, so of course you don't think so, besides, you had a boyfriend at that time~ a senior from the same department, a fairy couple~"

Lu Qingshi's hand holding the arrow paused: "You will die if you don't speak?"

Qin Xuan sat up straight from the chair, and suddenly became serious: "Actually, there is a question that I have always been curious about. From school uniforms to wedding dresses, you and Fu Lei have experienced so much together. Why did you want to divorce?"

Lu Qingshi didn't speak, let go of the hand that held the string, Jiu Huan.

Parked the car in the underground garage, Lu Qing walked back slowly with his bag on his back, the sky was completely dark, only a little light from the residents' homes in the community, plus the dim street lights, reflected the whole person's face a little dizzy white.

As she was walking, Qin Xuan's words echoed unconsciously in her mind.

"From school uniforms to wedding dresses, you and Fu Lei have experienced so much together, why did you get a divorce?"

She gripped the straps of her backpack tightly, memories flooding back.

"Now invite the bride and groom to exchange rings"

"Great, I have a baby!!!" On the day he got the test results, Fu Lei picked her up and walked around in front of everyone.

During the seven-month routine pregnancy checkup, the doctor advised her with a perplexed face: "Doctor Lu... let's give up... This child is born too... You are still young and still have a chance..."

She was born prematurely at eight months. She was panting in pain while lying on a stretcher. She could feel the warmth gurgling from between her legs. She was the only one in the huge emergency room. Operation.

With trembling hands, she grabbed the uterine opener from the instrument tray beside her.

There was a sound of steady footsteps behind her, and a hand rested quietly on her shoulder. Lu Qingshi was shocked and broke out in cold sweat. He turned his head suddenly and looked a little fierce in panic, which also shocked Gu Yanzhi.

"Who?!"

"I, I, I..." Gu Yanzhi let go quickly to prove his innocence: "I just came back from get off work and saw you standing downstairs, so I wanted to come over to say hello."

Lu Qingshi quietly breathed a sigh of relief and didn't answer, but when she was about to leave, she suddenly took a step forward and put her hand on her forehead.

Gu Yanzhi was half a head taller than her, and his whole body was immediately enveloped by the refreshing mint fragrance mixed with the faint tobacco smell.

The hand on his forehead was cold, Lu Qing was stunned, his whole back tensed up, her voice rang in his ears: "Is Doctor Lu okay? Does he look so ugly?"

"It's okay." She didn't know why she felt her throat was a little dry, so she knocked off her hand and took a step back.

"I went up first"

It wasn't until she sank herself into the soft sofa, holding a hot teacup, that she seemed to recover, looked at her hands, and muttered to herself: "Sure enough...is it still impossible to get in close contact with people? ..."

Gu Yanzhi looked at the tightly closed door and shook his head, tore off a notice from the wall next to it, and read it in front of the dim light in the corridor.

It is a wanted warrant issued by the Public Security Bureau. The man in the portrait has a crew cut, with sly eyebrows and mouse eyes. He is a robbery and murderer who has traveled to many provinces and cities to commit crimes. It reminds the general public to pay attention to precautions and contact the public security organs in time when they find clues. She After reading two lines, crumpled them up and threw them on the ground, took out the key to open the door.

Yugui was on duty tonight, and he went around the ward as usual. When he reached the door of Wang Youshi's ward, he stopped suddenly. In the dead of night, in the corridor, Wang Youshi's wife was curled up on the hospital bench alone.

She took out a blanket from the duty room and gently covered her body, but it still woke her up unexpectedly. The simple rural man hurriedly got up and declined: "Oh, doctor Yu, you can't do it, you can't do it, I can't help it." I'm just sleepy here, if it hinders your work, I'll leave now, I'll leave now"

She was talking about putting on her dirty cloth shoes, half of her toes were still exposed, and shrank back a little embarrassed when she saw her eyes looking over.

"Why don't you sleep in the ward?" Family members are still allowed to accompany you in the general ward, let alone pregnant women.

The middle-aged woman was silent for a while: "The children stay with his father, I will come out and sit for a while"

The small hotel next to the hospital costs 80 yuan a night. Yu Guishou fumbled in the pocket of his white coat for a long time, hesitating whether to give it to her, and afraid of hurting her self-esteem.

The woman saw what she was thinking, and quickly stood up and waved her hands: "Doctor Yu, you are a good person. Thanks to your busy schedule these days to take care of his father, we will be discharged from the hospital tomorrow. From now on..."

She glanced at the ward, and through a small piece of glass, her husband and children were curled up on a bed and fell asleep next to each other.

The woman covered her lips to prevent herself from crying: "No matter what... our family has remembered the kindness of Doctor Yu"

As she was about to kowtow to her, Yu Gui hurriedly helped her up. At this moment, it seemed that words of comfort were still a bit redundant. She silently took out a tissue from her pocket and sat with her for a while.

It turns out that as a rookie, I can do too little, too little in front of life.

For the first time, she felt a sense of hating herself for being powerless.

On the second day, there was a routine general practice meeting every Monday. Dean Meng sat at the head, and sitting around the table below were the directors of various departments and the head nurses.

Lu Qingshi sat in the middle position, with a nameplate with her professional title on it in front of her, colleagues around her were all listening attentively to the chief medical officer's speech, and she was idly flipping through the medical records in her hand.

"Okay, then the opinions on the treatment of Comrade Yu Gui in the emergency department are as follows. After the leaders of the medical department unanimously discussed and decided, Comrade Yu Gui is rigorous in his work, meticulous in his style, warm and caring to patients, and there are reasons for it. It is tolerable or unbearable. To hold Comrade Yu Gui accountable, the entire hospital circulated a notice of criticism and deducted three months of salary. I hope that the members of all departments will learn from it, build a good relationship with colleagues, and create a good working atmosphere. If there are such vicious incidents of fighting If it happens, regardless of the cause, it will be severely punished, and those who have serious consequences will be transferred to the public security organ for handling!"

There was clapping applause, Hao Renjie stabbed her: "If you survive a catastrophe, you will have a future."

Yu Gui smiled wryly: "I owe you a good word."

Good things don't go out, bad things spread far and wide, I'm afraid now she will change from the newcomer to the beater, and three months' salary will be deducted, life is very tight, ah, there is nothing to love in life.

"Okay, then the next step is the discussion of key cases in the hospital. Doctors below the level of the director can leave the meeting and return to their jobs."

The vice president in charge of business affairs opened the slideshow, and Wang Youshi's medical records were displayed on the large screen.

Yu Gui got up, but still looked back reluctantly.

Hao Renjie gave her a hand: "Come on, let's go!"

When the venue was completely cleared, all the medical staff present were elite medical staff, and the first to speak was the deputy chief physician of the Department of Hepatobiliary Surgery.

"Hilar cholangiocarcinoma is at an advanced stage. The tumor is about eight centimeters in size and occupies almost half of the liver. The patient is also accompanied by cholecystitis and bilateral lower lung infection. He was admitted to the hospital for emergency treatment due to gastrointestinal bleeding last week and was transferred to our department. The risk of surgery is high." It's too big, and the prognosis is bad, my suggestion is..." He pushed the glasses on the bridge of his nose, before he was interrupted.

Under such circumstances, the only one who can interrupt the director is the dean. Dean Meng speaks every word very slowly, but loudly: "The high risk of surgery does not mean that it cannot be performed."

He squinted his presbyopic glasses to zoom in on the medical records on the iPad: "Resection of the left hemihepatic and caudate lobe, removal of the gallbladder, partial resection and reconstruction of the portal vein, how about it? Can it be done?"

The sixty-year-old dean is also a well-known professor of hepatobiliary surgery at home and abroad. His vision is really unique. The deputy chief physician wiped the sweat from his forehead and continued: "This... theoretically it can be done, but... ..."

The director of medical affairs also cautiously interjected: "The director... Our hospital was complained just last year, and the case has not been cleared. Besides, the family members have no money for surgery, and the medical insurance can't claim so much... It is the patient who gave up the treatment. the meaning of"

Dean Meng put the IPad on the table, took off his presbyopic glasses, and said earnestly: "You can't turn away a hopeful patient because you don't have money. This is not the original intention of the First Affiliated Hospital of Renji Medical University. , also violated the conscience of a doctor”

His majestic gaze swept over, and everyone lowered their heads. Dean Meng sighed again: "I know what you are afraid of. It is difficult to deal with patients and their families these days! It is difficult to go to the sky! One who does not do well will pay You will be complained, deducted money, quarreled by the doctor, or even sued in court, but human life is at stake, and I will let everything else go! You can rest assured to perform the operation, and I will take care of the rest!"

Amidst the applause of tears of gratitude, Lu Qingshi stood up: "I have an opinion."

Everyone glanced at her in unison, and the chief of medical affairs tried to wink at her, but Lu Qing ignored it, and continued to walk up to point to the slide and said, "Dean Meng's operation method is very good, I agree very much, but after gallbladder removal , also need to do high bile duct plastic surgery, and cholangioenterostomy, even "

She drew a circle on the CT with her finger: "Regional lymph nodes also need to be cleaned to rule out the possibility of metastasis. The operation takes too long and the amount of bleeding is large. The patient's current physical condition cannot withstand such a major operation. If you die on the operating table, then you will not save people, but kill them, I’m done.”

A senior chief physician with a fiery temper slapped the table and got angry: "Doctor Lu, you have only been a deputy senior for a few years and dare to talk to the dean like that. Are you questioning Dean Meng's surgical method will harm the patient? !"

"Of course not, I'm just seeking truth from facts." Lu Qing met his gaze neither humble nor overbearing.

Dean Meng also supported the table and stood up, with a gratified smile on his face: "I am very pleased that Doctor Lu has such an opinion, but if the blood plasma and artificial heart and lungs are prepared in advance, and an experienced doctor performs the operation If so, will the success rate be higher?"

Lu Qing met his gaze, remained silent for a while, and finally sat down.

"I have no opinion"

A gleam of disappointment flashed across Dean Meng's eyes: "That's it, this operation is performed by—"

His eyes swept across the crowd, and stopped on Lu Qingshi, and finally a sigh escaped from his lips.

"I will be the chief surgeon, with the director of the hepatobiliary surgery as the first assistant and the second assistant, and other departments will cooperate fully. The work of the patient's family members will be handed over to the medical department. Tell them that they don't need money to do it for free. Okay, let's adjourn the meeting."