Life is like a journey

Lu Qing gritted his teeth, barely restraining himself from the drowning-like feeling of suffocation.

Her hands were still shaking, Lu Qing couldn't stop feeling sick when he thought of the child he and Xinhuan had just held in his arms.

She wiped her trembling palms on the white coat, and walked forward without saying a word. As she walked, her pace became faster and faster, and she started running unconsciously.

Fu Lei handed Pepe to Jiang Jing, who was chasing after him, and ran after him: "Qingshi, I have something to ask you this time, I admit that I was the one who was sorry for you in the past, and I don't want to drive this with you if I can." Mouth, but I really can't help it..."

Seeing the elevator coming down, Fu Lei covered the buttons. Lu Qing watched helplessly as the elevator slid away in front of his eyes. The numbers changed rapidly. Finally, he couldn't take it anymore and shouted: "Get out!"

Fu Lei was stunned in place, looking at her now, with the same familiar eyebrows and eyes, but added coldness, those eyes were red, and he was gnashing his teeth like he wanted to eat him alive.

He remembered the scene on Lele's operating table, and couldn't help but take a step back. Pepe broke free from his mother's arms, grabbed his trousers, and dangled excitedly.

"Dad, Dad, it was this aunt who brought me to find you! Dad, do you know her?"

Fu Lei held the child's little hand, the soft and warm feeling warmed his heart, even if it was difficult to say it, he would try it for the child.

"Pepe, it's Aunt Lu"

The child's sweet smile bloomed: "Aunt Lu, thank you"

Looking at those eyes so similar to Lele's and Fu Lei's, Lu Qing's heart felt like a knife was twisted, and the pain exploded from his mind, overwhelming.

"Young time..." Fu Lei squeezed the child's soft little hand, and said hesitantly, "I came this time to ask you to save Peipei..."

Lu Qingshi withdrew his hand from supporting the wall, his eyes flicked from the child's face, to Fu Lei's earnest eyes, and finally fell on Jiang Jing's body, the corners of his lips curved quietly into a sarcastic smile.

"It's really... the cycle of heaven and earth, and the retribution is not good"

This girl named Peipei actually suffers from the same disease as Lele's. This kind of disease with a one-in-[-] chance of onset can cause him to encounter it one after another, and they are all his children.

When Lu Qing wanted to laugh, he really did. The world is so ironic.

"You..." Fu Lei took a step forward, Jiang Jing gently grabbed his wrist, and opened her mouth softly. Only then did she notice that Peipei not only resembles Fu Lei, but also looks exactly like this fragile woman. carved out of the mold.

"Miss Qingshi..."

Lu Qing raised her head, her eyes were bloodshot, she stared at this woman firmly, resentment and resentment crawled up her spine like tarsal maggots.

"Shut up, you don't deserve to call me by my name"

Jiang Jing was startled by this look, and managed to calm herself down: "Okay, let me change my name, Doctor Lu, Doctor Lu, today we are just asking for help from a doctor as ordinary patients, I hope you can show mercy, Save Pepe, she is still so young..."

In the end, the red eye circles did not seem to be fake, but it was this true feeling that made Lu Qingshi sick, so disgusting that her scalp was numb and her limbs were trembling. Rip her hair hard and let them roll.

Lu Qingshi clenched her palms into fists in the pocket of her white coat, her nails dug into her flesh, she used the pain to keep herself awake.

"Anyone in the world can come to beg me, and I can save anyone, only you." She raised her chin slightly, and her contemptuous eyes flicked across her face: "And you"

Looking at Fu Lei, who is still in his prime in suits and leather shoes, he sneered: "You are not worthy"

"As for this little bastard..." Her eyes fell on the little girl who was pulling Fu Lei's trousers. Pepe hugged her father's leg tightly, her big eyes were ignorant and innocent, and she looked at her with timidity on her pale face because of being too sick .

"I can't even die"

Fu Lei clenched his fists tightly, and Lu Qingshi turned around to leave. She seemed to have been drained of all her strength. She squinted her eyes under the pale fluorescent lights in the corridor. He looked at her earnestly and grabbed her sleeve.

"Qingshi, I beg you, please! For the sake of our former love, please save Pepe! What Jing Jing said is right, she is still so young, and I have already lost a son. Lost Pepe..."

He said so earnestly, a big man abandoned his self-esteem and humbled himself, his eyes were even slightly red, how like she used to be, in order to save Lele, he begged him in a low voice, went to various departments to ask experts and professors, and kowtowed in front of grandpa.

Although she was willing, it didn't mean she could forget the humiliation.

Almost instantly, she raised her hand fiercely and shook off his hand, her eyes were red and her voice was trembling.

"What relationship do I have with you?! I broke up with you as early as the divorce! No, as early as when I tossed and turned all night because of Lele's illness, but you slept with this woman, there was a relationship between us." There is no more love at all! You go your way, I cross my bridge, don't fucking bother me again!"

After she yelled hysterically, no one could see how Pepe ran over, or whether she was on purpose or not. The moment she raised her hand, Pepe burst into tears, and Lu Qing looked at him. The back of his hand was stunned and confused, and Pepe's fair face was flushed.

Fu Lei only felt a rush of anger rushing straight to his forehead. He never hit a woman, and without even thinking about it, he grabbed her by the collar and lifted her up: "Lu Qingshi, are you fucking sick?! What's wrong with you?" Come at me! She is still a child or a patient, why are you angry at her!!!”

"Let me tell you that the divorce has nothing to do with Jiang Jing! You can't slap me even if you say I didn't do anything for Lele, so what did you do for me and this family! In your eyes I only have your surgery in my heart! Your patient! Lele was just born and my mother took care of her! She was an elderly man with bad legs who carried Lele up and down the stairs, took him to play, changed his diaper at night, turned over, Feeding milk powder! You haven’t even breastfed for a day in order to recover from surgery as soon as possible! What qualifications do you have to be a mother! You are not worthy!!!”

The child cried loudly, Jiang Jing's anxious voice of dissuasion, and the crowd's discussion all brought Lu Qingshi back to that isolated and helpless situation.

Like a beam of spotlights cast down, she has nowhere to hide, the pointing crowd is standing outside the transparent glass cover, she wants to run out, she wants to tell them no, she also wants to tell the crying child that she is no On purpose, but no matter which direction she was in, she couldn't get out, she couldn't get out even after being hit to the point of bleeding, and Fu Lei was still shaking her collar, those resentments that had never been talked about were gushing out like a blowout He came out and stabbed her to pieces.

"Since the first day of marriage, I have never asked you to do housework, you can't even cook! You are busy, busy with surgery and research, am I not busy in the same hospital and department?! I have to wash your clothes, change Lele’s diaper, and prepare breakfast for the next day when I come back late at night! Lu Qingshi, are you still human?! Not only are you unworthy of being a mother, you are also unworthy of being a mother. Wife, you are not even qualified to be a man or a doctor!"

After he finished yelling these words, the air froze for two seconds, tears welled up in Lu Qingshi's eyes, her lips trembled, as if stuck in her throat, something brushed past her cheeks, and a strand of hair fell to the ground.

The collar suddenly loosened, warm blood splashed onto his face, Fu Lei fell on his back, and a black figure rushed up.

"Fuck you!!!" Gu Yanzhi punched down, nosebleeds splashed, children cried, Jiang Jing screamed hoarsely.

For some unknown reason, the tears that had accumulated for a long time finally burst out of her eyes, Lu Qingshi rushed forward and pulled her: "Gu Yanzhi!"

The six relatives of the red-eyed person refused to recognize her and threw her away, and punched her hard again regardless, the front teeth collapsed, Fu Lei's face was covered with blood, and he moaned in pain.

The doctor, who was pushed away by surprise, landed on his knees, the pain made her eyes go dark, and when she looked up again, she punched Fu Lei's temple.

Lu Qingshi got up, stumbled towards her, and hugged her from behind: "Stop...stop...don't hit...don't hit...Gu Yanzhi..."

Tears trickled down, her soft body stuck to his back, hot tears splashed into the socket of his neck, Gu Yanzhi was stunned, withdrew his hand, and all the bloodshot eyes faded away.

She pursed her lower lip tightly, still a little unwilling.

Lu Qingshi clasped her waist tightly: "I don't want... I don't want you to go to jail... Stop beating... Stop beating... Let's go home... Go home..."

The hands locked around his waist are so white and slender, they are a pair of doctor's hands, with well-defined joints and abnormal flexibility.

Gu Yanzhi lowered his eyes, let go of his fist, held the hand to help him up, inserted it through the gap between his fingers, and interlocked with her fingers.

"Let's go, let's go home"

She picked up her scattered clothes from the ground, threw one hand over her shoulder, and pulled her girlfriend with the other hand, and strode away under the pale fluorescent light, seeing all kinds of eyes.

No one looked back. Before leaving the hospital gate, Gu Yanzhi put his coat on her body, opened the car door to push the person in, got into the driver's seat, and set off in gear.

While she was driving, she glanced at her from time to time. The man was wrapped in her coat and nestled quietly in the seat, looking out the window without saying a word, his eyes were empty and unfocused, because his eyes and nose were red because he had just cried. of.

Gu Yanzhi felt very distressed.

All internal organs hurt.

Fang Zhiyou didn't know how to bring this matter up to Yu Gui. The National Championship was about to be prepared, and she had to devote a lot of energy to preparing for the game. She couldn't meet her when she went to the hospital in her spare time. She knew that Yu Gui was hiding She, and An Ran also became depressed day by day, like a withered flower.

Fang Zhi couldn't bear it, but she had to say something, and finally found her on the rooftop on a weekend night.

This is Yu Gui's secret base. Every time she has something she can't figure out, she will come here. Except for Teacher Lu and Hao Renjie, this place is inaccessible. The smoking fingers shrank back.

The flickering of the little flame hurt her eyes. She had never smoked before.

Yu Gui smiled: "It's too much pressure."

Indeed, I have been busy recently, very busy, the appointment of the new director has not yet come down, Lu Qingshi has provoked the leader, and the people below are also very busy, and she still has to take time out to prepare for the exam, today's short break time is also two all-nighters Only got it.

Fang Zhiyou looked at her, her hair was tied up a little messy, hanging down to cover her red eyes from staying up all night, she looked a little sluggish.

She softened her heart a bit: "Go home."

"No..." Yu Gui put out his cigarette butt on the railing, the wind on the roof was a bit strong, making his white coat rattle.

“There is an operation tonight”

As she said, she missed her body and walked down, Fang Zhiyou grabbed her wrist: "Xiaogui, I didn't promise her"

Yu Gui closed his eyes, but you kissed her.

When I opened it again, there was a bitter smile on my face: "No matter what choice you make, it is correct. I really shouldn't fight with a person whose time is running out. It's meaningless, but have you ever thought about it? If you don't die for a day, you can stay with her for a day, if you don't die for a month, you can stay with her for a month, if you don't die for a lifetime..."

Fang Zhiyou's heart tightened: "Of course I don't want her to die, but for the rest of my life, it's impossible and I can't do it."

She looked at her with sincere love in her eyes: "I only have you in my heart, I just want to be with her in her last days"

Yu Gui slightly raised his voice: "Why do you want to accompany me? Who are you to her? Doesn't she have any other friends?"

"She has no friends like me." Fang Zhiyou let go of her wrist: "You have your Teacher Lu, your good sister, your senior brothers and sisters, and your colleagues..."

"I have nothing, I only have her as my only friend"

She still remembered that after her mother died, she was addicted to pain and couldn't extricate herself. It was a firework set off by An Ran that lit up her starry sky.

This is different from the feeling of being together with Yu Gui, because it is Yu Gui, who cares about her feelings, and barely cheers up. She can't cry or be sad. At that time, another person gave her warmth and support with her light and heat. .

And those times when she was giving charcoal in the snow, An Ran never asked her the reason every time she borrowed money, and would never ask her to pay it back. Every time, she said that it would be deducted from her salary, and when it was paid out at the end of the month, there was no loss.

She will always remember these kindnesses in her heart all her life.

Yu Gui gritted his teeth: "I only have you as my girlfriend!"

Before I knew it, the snow fell again. This was the last day of the Gregorian calendar, which also meant that it was the last snow of this year.

Lu Qingshi closed the curtains, walked to her side with a peeled egg in his hand, and squatted down.

Gu Yanzhi stretched out her hand obediently, neither of them spoke anymore, the smooth egg rolled back and forth on the back of her hand.

I don't know how much strength she used to beat Fu Lei like that, and her own hand was also swollen.

Lu Qingshi put down the egg, and then took a plaster and spread it on her carefully, the smell of mint permeated the room.

Burger sneezed and ran out of the bedroom to play after fries.

She looked at her side face, her long, half-dried hair was rolled up after a bath, revealing her white neck, her collarbone protruding out under the suspender skirt, her eyes were still a little red, and she hadn't spoken since she came back.

Gu Yanzhi moved his lips: "I'm sorry..."

The pressing movement of his hands became a little slower, Lu Qingshi shook his head: "You did what I always wanted to do"

She smiled wryly, and looked up at her: "But he's not wrong, I really owe..."

"No..." Gu Yanzhi shook his head, leaned over slightly, pulled his hand away from her palm, and cupped her face.

"How can being willing be called a debt? When he did those things for you, you thought he was willing, but you didn't know when he was already dissatisfied... Qing Shi, in my opinion, couples or husband and wife, after breaking up It's not tasteful to use these things to be sarcastic and sarcasm."

"He's not a man, to be precise, he's a man not worth entrusting to for life"

Because her face was being held, she couldn't lower her head, and could only let the tears accumulate in her eyes. What Fu Lei did for her, Gu Yanzhi has been doing for her. She was suddenly a little scared, afraid that she didn't know when. , she will also be resentful.

"What about you...would you be dissatisfied? I'm not very good at housework...I make a mess of the kitchen every time...I'm older than you and I always have to take care of you...Am I too bad... ...I'm afraid that one day you will too..."

The fire instructor shook his head firmly again, and interrupted her words: "To be honest, the soup you made for me for the first time was really terrible, but I finished it honestly, because I knew it was yours. Xinyi, you must be more nervous and careful than me when you do it, what reason do I have to refuse such a kind offer?"

"I also know that later you secretly went through the recipes for me and learned to cook. After I finished washing the clothes, you took them in and ironed them flat and hung them in the closet. You also sprayed delicious perfume. Every day I go out Clean and fragrant”

"When the chemical plant exploded and the rolling gate fell, you supported it with your hands." Gu Yanzhi picked up her hand, and even though it still smelled like plaster, she put it to her lips and kissed it.

"You said that the most precious thing for a surgeon is your own hands, and you saved me with your most precious thing"

"Qingshi, do you know why I was with you in the end, not Fu Lei?"

Lu Qingshi shook his head in a daze, bit his lip, his eyes were foggy.

Gu Yanzhi kissed her forehead very gently, like many times before, like a feather brushing over her heart, like a spring breeze blowing over a ruined wall.

Lu Qingshi heard the sound of Xueluo and flowers blooming.

"Because, I see another side of you that you don't know, and I love you, along with your dark side"