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Jin An silently made a decision, she didn't intend to say too much to Xiang Yang, firstly because she had already told Xiang Yang before, and secondly because Jin An didn't want to involve Xiang Yang.She is already in her 30s. She used to think that her parents' support was necessary, and only her parents' support could be done. Now she no longer thinks it is necessary.

Her parents can no longer suppress or demand themselves on any level.

Jin An prepared a nice day and sent Xiang Yang to play with Tang Mengmeng.Xiang Yang grabbed Jin An with some displeasure: "It's almost New Year's Eve, don't you want to prepare something?"

For example, how did you spend this year, and where did you spend it?Xiang Yang was a little scared, she lived alone for two years, will she have to live alone this year?Jin An just patted her head: "This year's [-]th, let's spend it together."

This is probably a promise.Xiang Yang nodded, Jin An kissed Xiang Yang on the cheek, and went out.

Now that it has been close to the end of the new year, the streets have begun to be decorated with lights and festoons.Jin'an has lived in City C for two years, and she knows that the city will gradually quiet down during the Chinese New Year, just like Beijing back then.Going home during the Chinese New Year always has a special feeling for Chinese people.Jin An is no exception. She can recall the scene of the Chinese New Year, but gradually can't remember the homesick self at the beginning.

Year after year, Xiangyang has slowly replaced the meaning of home.Jin An stood downstairs of his parents, breathing the cold and humid air in winter.She has never been so clearly aware that she and Xiang Yang have become a family since at some point.As for her and her parents, of course they have an undisputed blood relationship, but when it comes to family units, Wang Qing and Jin Nan are one family.

It's an amazing feeling.

Two strangers meet, get together, and give birth to a child of their blood.Then these children will leave their parents after all, saying how magical the blood relationship is.But isn't it the most amazing thing for two original strangers to give love, trust and responsibility to each other for a lifetime?

Jin An knocked on the door, and it was Jin Nan who opened it. When he saw Jin An, Jin Nan immediately laughed.After the family had a meal, Jin An cleaned up the dishes and went to wash the dishes.While washing the dishes, Wang Qing came over and stood beside Jin An watching her wash.After a while, Wang Qing sighed with emotion: "You are already this old before you know it. We are old too."

"Mom..." Jin An looked at Wang Qing, and she summoned up her courage.She thought she was ready, but in fact, she found that she still needed a lot of courage, "I have something to tell you."

Wang Qing glanced at Jin An silently, without speaking.

Jin An also lowered his head and silently washed the dishes.With the sound of splashing water, Jin An mechanically maintained his movements.

"Washing dishes should pay attention to saving water." Finally, Wang Qing said something without thinking, and then turned and went out.

Jin An lowered her head and looked at the bowls and chopsticks in the sink. She thought for a while, but she didn't know what she was thinking. She packed the bowls and chopsticks and went out slowly.The worst outcome... Jin An thought, he had already experienced the worst outcome.But is that really the worst possible outcome?When she left, her parents were still very strong, so she could be ruthless.

But now that his parents are old, if it happens again, can Jin An escape without hesitation like before?Jin An didn't know, she looked at the door ahead, and she knew that her parents were sitting on the sofa waiting for her. On that day 13 years ago, they sat on the sofa like this and told her that this is not allowed, it is not allowed, and it must be cut off.

However, she is no longer the Jin An she was back then.Jin An thought, and slowly walked into the living room.

Just like before, Jin Nan and Wang Qing sat at the two ends of the sofa, while Jin An stood facing them.Everyone fell silent.After a while, Jin An said in a low voice: "Mom and Dad, you all know about me. This is probably the way I am all my life." She pursed her lips, "I don't ask you to accept, but this kind of thing , not a disease, nor is it something shameful. I hope you can understand that I am not a pervert, nor a virus. I just fell in love with someone of the same gender as me."

"Then what about the future? When you were young, your husband and wife were always together. What kind of messy love do you have now? What about the future?"

"If you get married, you may get divorced, if you have a child, you may be unfilial, you may die young, or you may not have a baby at all. Even when you are old, one of the parties will go first." Jin An said.Looking at her parents' expressions, she finally sighed, "This is my life, and this is my own choice. Parents, you are my parents, but life is my own after all."

Wang Qing and Jin Nan stopped talking.

After a long time, Wang Qing said wearily: "You will regret it in the future, and you will blame us as parents for not fulfilling our responsibilities."

"Why didn't you fulfill your responsibilities?" Jin An said softly.

This time, there was no hysteria like many years ago, no angry resistance and confrontation, no weak kneeling and begging.After so many years, everyone seems to be exhausted by the drag of time, and they can sit down quietly and say what is in each other's hearts.But Jin An knows that this is not all due to time, but because she is no longer under the control of her parents. She and her parents stand at the two ends of the balance, and this time, they have finally reached an equal weight. .

"You raised me up, and when I get here, you have actually fulfilled your responsibilities. I have done many things wrong before, now, and in the future. I admit it. It is actually not your responsibility for you to persuade me, or not to persuade me. You have your own life, although I am your child, I will accompany you for a while, but I can't bear the whole of your life. The same. You don't have to think that you have to bear the whole of my life. "

Jin An gently rubbed her fingertips, she pondered for a long time, and finally said the words she wanted to say the most after so many years: "Mom and Dad, I never interfere with your decisions, not because of filial piety. , not because I am your child, but because I respect you. I also hope that you can respect me. I am your child, but I am also an adult."

After many years, Jin An finally figured this out.The real reason why the communication between her and her parents has not been smooth.

Love does not mean respect.Adults, on the other hand, demand respect.

Wang Qing stood up all of a sudden, she wanted to say something, but she only met Jin An's calm eyes.

"We don't have to force the other party to accept our own ideas. However, it is not difficult to respect your child and admit that your daughter is an adult and can be responsible for her actions. I have grown up." Jin An finished , She suddenly felt that the heavy stone in her heart suddenly relaxed.She can even look at her overwhelmed parents with a smile.

When Jin An walked out, her parents rarely asked her to stay.But Jin An didn't care anymore, she came downstairs and saw Xiang Yang as expected.Jin An was a little helpless, Xiang Yang smiled, and she approached Jin An politely, leaning into her ear and asking, "How did the talk go?"

"you know?"

"You can tell by the serious expression on your face when you went out today." Xiang Yang stuck out his tongue at Jin'an.

Jin An smiled, she took Xiang Yang's arm, and the two of them walked forward slowly: "I've already said what I needed to say, and it's pretty easy now."

"Then..." Xiang Yang stammered, "Did they accept it?"

"It's not important anymore." Jin An shook his head, "There's no need to accept it. They also have the right not to accept it. Why do we have to make them accept it? If acceptance is a pain for them, it's okay if they don't accept it." Don’t accept it. As long as they know that I am like this, it’s already fine.”

Xiang Yang tilted his head and thought for a while, then nodded: "Yes."

There is not so much black and white in life, and getting along with people does not require you to agree and accept me.This is originally the law of adults living in society, but when it comes to our loved ones, we always hope that the other party can fully accept us, and we can't tolerate any omissions.We forget the boundaries, forget that the other person is also a person, not a vassal of our own thoughts.

"Let time bear witness."

Jin An sighed, and in the distance, the first firecrackers of the new year had already sounded.

During the Chinese New Year, Jin An's parents did not go back to their hometown. The family had a family dinner together. Jin An said hello and said that he would go home in the evening.

Wang Qing and Jin Nan agreed after being silent for a long time.

The firecrackers were going off fiercely outside, and Jin An wanted to help, but his parents stopped him, saying they were coming.Jin An didn't refuse too much, she sat on the sofa doing nothing.She suddenly remembered the novel written by Xiang Yang that she read a long time ago, the prototype of her project.She didn't finish watching it at the time, and many things happened later, Jin An just forgot about it.

Jin An took out his phone and looked at it slowly.

Where did you see it last time?Jin An thought for a while, oh, the master has become a big boss, and the heroine abuses the scum.Jin An watched slowly, the master repented, and turned to pursue the heroine.But this is just a fantasy dream of the heroine before she died.At the end, she said to her master who pursued her in a dream:

"I will never say I love you again. I hope you can love me forever and pursue me forever. I am afraid that once I get it, we will go back to the past. I always run after you and can only look at your face When talking about love from the back. My love has always been humble, I only hope that, at least on the surface, it can look a little more equal, so that people can feel that it is you who love me more than I love you."