I have a good relationship with Jinzhu's Bai Yueguang

I fell in love with Xu Xiaomo, my benefactor's Bai Yueguang, and a person who has a very close and embarrassing relationship with me.

I am guilty, I repent, and I am sorry at the same time.

I regretted that I stood downstairs in the apartment for half an hour in the dead of night.

Standing in front of my apartment unit, I thought that if it was summer, the mosquitoes would have been fed for several generations.

There was no sound on the phone.Gu Shang didn't call me, so I was relieved.

After getting off the bus, my mood has not calmed down until now.

The person I have kissed before, but because the other party kissed my face, at this moment, I feel uneasy and cranky like a little girl who is in love.

I thought, maybe it wasn't a kiss, but just the other's fingertips.

Immediately there was another voice in my heart to refute, why not?

It's that confusing.

When I had enough standing, I thought I wouldn't lose my composure.I rubbed my face and went back to the apartment.

After opening the door, there was silence and darkness.After turning on the light, I saw Gu Shang's shoes unexpectedly.

The boss is actually at home?

But the lights were not turned on in the house, and the man should be in his bedroom.Gu Shang's room is in the corridor, facing my room.

I walked lightly to the aisle without turning on the light in the aisle, and I could vaguely see the light coming from the crack of the door in the darkness.

I wanted to knock on the door, but after thinking about it, I gave up.

It's no big deal, so don't get involved.

I went to the kitchen to cook a bowl of noodles, and I was a little absent-minded during the whole process. I didn't even notice that the bedroom door opened and the people inside walked into the kitchen.

Looking back and seeing Gu Shang's face, the bowl in my hand almost fell to the ground.

"Are you still asleep?" I suppressed the shock in my heart and asked calmly.

Gu Shang was wearing pajamas, his hair was still a little wet, he should have just taken a shower.

He hummed, "You didn't eat?"

I said no.

Gu Shang didn't reply, but blocked the door, which made me a little uneasy.

He won't know, will he?I thought to myself, but then I dismissed the guess.

I think, unless Gu Shang can read minds, he will never find out that I have a relationship with Xu Xiaomo.

"By the way," I remembered something, "Why did you call me this morning?"

Gu Shang looked at me quietly for a long while without saying a word, then stepped on his slippers and went back to the room, leaving me with a dazed expression.

He didn't ask me what I was going to do, nor did he say what I wanted to do in the morning.

Gu Shang was not sure if it was the first day, I didn't think much about it, I hurriedly tidied up after eating the noodles and went back to my room.

Before going to bed, I turned on my phone, and there was an unread message on it, which belonged to Xu Xiaomo.

The text message was as simple as ever: [Good night. ]

I hesitated for a moment and said good night.

This magical day seems to have passed by like this.

Before going to bed, I was still fantasizing about what Xu Xiaomo did to me, maybe it would also be interesting to me.

The last person who helped me get rid of my dad was Gu Shang.However, Gu Shang and I had no chance, but I fell in love with Xu Xiaomo again.

Where did you come from, Ling Jingchuan, you can't help rubbing up against someone with a bone.

"Oh." I couldn't help sighing.

Whenever I think of Xu Xiaomo, I think of Gu Shang.

It's heartbreaking and disturbing.

I feel like the kind of kid who calls other people's parents behind their backs.

Gu Shang is a heartless father, Xu Xiaomo is my steady and reliable new father, my father likes my new father...

Bah, bah, bah, what a mess.

The thought was a bit scary, and I shook my head, telling myself not to think about it.

But Gu Shang can't read minds, it doesn't mean he doesn't have eyes or ears.It is true that Gu Shang does not have super powers, but he is very good at catching up.

The next day, I made breakfast for Gu Shang and finished eating with him, then sat on the sofa and waited for him to change and go out.

Everything seemed ordinary.

I put on my mask, but I couldn't find my scarf on the sofa.

"Gu Shang, have you seen my scarf?" I searched for it from memory for a long time, but finally I could only try to ask Gu Shang.

Gu Shang was very forceful, "Yes."

I waited for him to point it out, and he said, "You put me in the car yesterday."

When I thought about it, it seemed that there was such a thing, so I was happy and planned to go out.

I was just about to open the door when I heard the man ask me, "Do you know why I called you yesterday?"

Gu Shang said: "On the way back yesterday, I saw that you forgot your scarf in the car. I thought you should need it, so I turned around and went back."

Gu Shang looked at me with a low voice, "I called you and asked you to get it down, but you didn't answer. So I got out of the car with my scarf and called you while walking..."

"I was just walking around, guess what I saw?"

I looked at the other person's expressionless face, and felt a sense of uneasiness in my heart.

Sure enough, the man asked abruptly, "Do you work at Xu Xiaomo's?"

He saw it.Alarm bells were ringing in my heart.

At that time, if I remember correctly, it should be when Xu Xiaomo and I just left the company.

Thanks to the fact that I'm wearing a mask to cover my uncontrollable expression.

After a while, I nodded my head, as a tacit consent.

The temperature around Gu Shang dropped again, I felt terrified, but I didn't know what to do, so I had to stay where I was, waiting quietly.

But Gu Shang didn't fly into a rage, and even his expression didn't change.

He just stared at me quietly for a while before continuing, "You didn't let me take you downstairs to the company before, and it was because of him?"

"I..." I opened my mouth, my brain froze, and I couldn't continue speaking for a long time.

In Gu Shang's view, this is an indirect admission.

We confronted each other silently for a long time, until Gu Shang sighed.

"Ling Jingchuan, let me ask you one last question."

Gu Shang paused every word: "Did you give him that thing hanging on his phone?"

fox.

What Gu Shang was talking about was the fox.

I froze for a moment, and finally nodded slowly.

At the same time, I thought to myself, have they met before?

"Why?" he asked again, completely forgetting about the "last one".

But I don't care about being talkative, I'm going to be messy, and being able to organize the language is already pretty good.

I thought for a long time before I said, "I...he and I are friends."

After finishing speaking, I lowered my head, not daring to look at Gu Shang again.I'm afraid that if I look at each other for a second longer, Gu Shang will find out the fact that I'm lying.

Xu Xiaomo regards me as a friend, but I...

I stared at the wooden floor under my feet, and the circles of lines seemed to be whirlpools, slowly sucking my mind in.

"Friend?" Gu Shang seemed to smile, "Friend?"

"You and Xu Xiaomo?"

At the end of the road, I chose silence and waited for the storm to come.

What would Gu Shang say?Say I'm shameless?Say I have bad intentions?

Maybe he'll smash things, like he did at the hotel.

But none.

When I closed my eyes anxiously, the man's calm voice sounded, "Let's go."

"I'll take you to work."

I opened my eyes and looked suspiciously at the back of Gu Shang walking out of the gate.

Finished?

that's it?

When I just returned to China, I met Xu Xiaomo for the first time, and then we met him frequently in coffee shops, and then we got closer and closer...

Every time I fantasize about Gu Shang's reaction when he finds out.

Angry, maybe surprised...

But it is by no means what it is like now, there is no waves and waves, as if what he discovered was just a trivial matter.

We still didn't say a word on the road.The only difference is that he sent me downstairs to Xu Xiaomo's company.

I pretended to be calm and got out of the car, but in fact my heart was already in a state of confusion.

Gu Shang didn't say much, and even said goodbye to me as usual.

To be honest, the calmer he is, the more disturbed I am.I know him too well, he chooses silence not because he doesn't care, it just means he cares a lot.

Also, how could he not care about it.

Maybe I should say something to reassure him.

I should tell him that the closeness between Xu Xiaomo and me was purely accidental, and there were not too many human factors.

But Gu Shang probably wouldn't believe this sentence.

I should also say that I am not interested in Xu Xiaomo, so the benefactor can rest assured.

But I can't say that.

……

……

Before the lunch break, Xu Xiaomo called me.Since it was working hours, I turned the caller on to vibrate.

I've just finished finishing a report, and I'm lying on the table planning to take a nap.The phone is covered by my hand, and my head rests on my arm.

The movement of the mobile phone without warning suddenly scared me to my feet, and I didn't even feel sleepy at all.

It feels like an earthquake, making your scalp numb.

After recovering, I saw the incoming call clearly, and my forehead twitched.

"Hello?" I answered, thinking of my colleagues around me, I didn't call his name.

"Which floor do you work on?" Xu Xiaomo asked me.

"20."

"Come to the entrance of the corridor."

"what?"

"I have something to see you." He said.

Although I was confused, I still went to the stairwell as I did.It will be a while before get off work ends, so the aisles are empty.

I hesitated for a while before pushing open the security door.

Xu Xiaomo was standing on the steps, leaning against the wall and looking at his phone.Hearing the movement, he raised his head and glanced at me from top to bottom.

I stared at him blankly, and blurted out, "Did you come down the stairs?"

10 floors.

I secretly admire.

Xu Xiaomo's eyes seemed to be looking at a fool.

"Elevator." He answered me.

I groaned, and inadvertently saw Xu Xiaomo's thin lips.

Both are beautiful, but some people's lips are beautiful when they don't smile, but Xu Xiaomo's is the kind that looks colder without smiling.

I watched, and then I remembered that faint kiss last night.

It's been a night and it's still winter, but the right side of my face is as hot as a fire.

I stretched out my hand and rubbed it, hoping to reduce the heat with the coolness on my hand.

"What do you want from me?" I touched my nose and my face, but when I found nothing, I could only bite the bullet and ask.

Last time it was resignation, what is it this time.I can't help feeling a little nervous.

"It's not a big deal." He said slowly, "I want to ask if you want to have dinner together."

"Oh."

It's really not a big deal.

My tense nerves relaxed again.

Wait, what did he say?

have a meal together?

"Is it okay?" He stared at me, but his tone was uncompromising, "It's next door, come back after eating."

"This is not very good..." I struggled in my heart, "It's a bit strange."

"No." He said firmly, "It's normal among friends."

Another friend.

Am I really thinking too much?

I couldn't help but look up at him.

Xu Xiaomo probably doesn't know how attractive his focused expression is, and those dark eyes seem to be able to suck you in.

It's the same for me, and it's probably the same for Gu Shang.

Thinking of Gu Shang, I feel dizzy.

"Let's go." I finally compromised.

……

……

Xu Xiaomo took me to a western restaurant.

On the way there, like a fugitive, I looked around cautiously, for fear that there might be a policeman somewhere, or that there might be a policeman hiding somewhere.

I observed all the way, except that I didn't pick up the grass, I didn't find any trace of Police Officer Gu.

Xu Xiaomo noticed, "What are you looking for?"

"Look for my boss." I was very absent-minded, and answered without thinking, "Maybe it's hidden somewhere."

Xu Xiaomo: "..."

I:"……"

Oops.

We were silent for a while, Xu Xiaomo asked me: "What happened to Gu Shang?"

It's nothing, I just found out that we were having an affair.I thought.

If it were in the past, I would probably say a few words for Gu Shang at this meeting, and in short, I would shape him into a man who is infatuated and dedicated, so as to increase my favorability.

But at the moment I hesitate.

It's a little troublesome for the gold master to become a rival in love in one day.

In the end, I had no choice but to say nonsense, "He probably didn't dare to see you, so he just followed behind sneakily."

Xu Xiaomo raised his eyebrows, "We just met this morning."

I was startled, "Did you meet this morning?"

"We had a meeting this morning," he said.

"Did you guys chat alone?" I looked at him nervously.

"Yes." He looked at me inexplicably, "What's wrong?"

"Did Gu Shang say anything?"

"what do you mean?"

I paused, Xu Xiaomo's face remained normal, obviously nothing special happened.

However, although Gu Shang has a changeable personality, he is not insane.He can't do impulsive things.

"It's okay..." I shook my head.

Xu Xiaomo ordered the food independently.

The price of this store is considerable, which reassures me a lot.

During the meal, I proposed to pay AA later, Xu Xiaomo unexpectedly agreed.

It seems that this person really considers me a friend?

Xu Xiaomo doesn't like to talk when eating, and the dinner table is very quiet.

I thought about it and asked him:

"Xu Xiaomo, I heard from Gu Shang that you graduated and went to France before?"

"Yeah." He was cutting a steak and replied without raising his head, "I just came back this year."

"Uh, don't people there habitually kiss each other on the face?"

He replied, "That's called a face-to-face gift."

"Oh, kissing ceremony..." I pondered for a moment, "Do you like that too? That kissing ceremony..."

Xu Xiaomo looked up at me.

I was a little guilty by this look, afraid that the man would see something, I hurriedly explained: "I mean, the French are more enthusiastic. I thought you might have this habit after you have been there for so long hahaha... "

Xu Xiaomo didn't respond, he put down his fork and looked at me without saying a word.

I laughed dryly for a while, only to feel extremely embarrassed and a little timid.

I originally wanted to try it out, but I would have fooled myself.

After a long time, Xu Xiaomo suddenly said: "If you think about it, it's not impossible."

"If you want, I can also give you a face-to-face gift when I meet you in the future."

I seem to hear the sound of my own heart beating, one after another, beating desperately as if to prove my freshness.

"I'm just kidding..."

"Xu Xiaomo, you are too kind to me." I sighed and said seriously to him.

Great, it made me think about it again and again, and the more I thought about it, the more I thought it was true.

Xu Xiaomo answered quickly, still with that indifferent look.

"I've said it many times. I treat you as a friend. I should treat you well. You don't have to worry so much."

It's the first time I've heard this person utter so many words at once, and I think what the other party said is the truth.

Don't worry...

But I didn't think too much, I was just a little lost.

Ugh.

……

……

Christmas is quietly approaching.

After that day, Gu Shang didn't mention the matter between me and Xu Xiaomo again, it seems that this matter has really been exposed.

Xu Xiaomo would send me messages every day, but he would only greet me in the morning and evening.He comes to see me a few times a week, always in the stairwell.

When he came to me, he always said that he had something to do, but in fact he was either eating or buying egg fruit with him.

Until I ate all the flavors of egg fruit, until the egg fruit in my drawer piled up more and more, I couldn't help protesting:

"Eat it yourself, don't give it to me."

He asked me, "Why?"

I honestly said, "Too tired..."

Xu Xiaomo really stopped giving me egg fruit, but replaced it with candy.

In the end I had to let him go.

I thought I would be the same as Gu Shang that time this time, seeing clearly and letting go.

However, it does not.

In addition to my regrets day after day, I look forward to it day after day.

Seeing that Christmas is only a week away, I came up with the idea of ​​giving gifts.

What to send?

Send flowers?

It seems too vulgar.

Before I could think of what to give, I was dragged by Gu to a flower shop.

After get off work, Gu Shang was not in a hurry to go home, but abducted to a nearby flower shop with retro decoration.

He picked and picked among them, and he was very entangled at first sight.

"Are you going to give it away?" I was bored waiting, and asked casually when I saw this.

Gu Shang was stunned for a moment, and then he burst out into a smile, and his eyes became much gentler.

"Yes."

"I'm wondering if I can make amends with this meritorious service."

I understand it as soon as I hear it.

Oh, he is going to send flowers to Xu Xiaomo.

As cheesy as it is to send flowers, to be honest, I was going to send them too.

It seemed that Gu Shang was ahead of him.

I sighed in my heart on one side, and heard Gu Shang talking to himself on the other side.

"I was a bit confused before, but I also realized that it's not too late to start."

If you look carefully, the man looks a little lonely.

I've seen the love story of the gold master before, so I didn't think much about it this time, "Uh, then go for it."

In fact, I thought to myself, don't work hard, Xu Xiaomo really can't move.

Having experienced it myself, I feel more sympathetic to Gu Shang.

But to be honest, even if Xu Xiaomo is not interested in Gu Shang, I am still a little worried.

Gu Shang smiled, and pointed at the various flowers in front of him, "Which one is better?"

I think Xu Xiaomo is similar to me except for his eyebrows and eyes, and his other hobbies and personalities are almost completely opposite.

It's the same for any flowers you like, right?

So I picked my favorite: "Daisy."

This is the first flower that I can name.At that time, there was a pot at my grandma's house, and I fell in love with it just by looking at it.

I fall in love at first sight not only with people, but also with flowers.

Gu Shang said yes, got up and wanted to call the shop assistant.

Seeing the man's earnest and focused appearance, I couldn't help breaking my mouth and said, "He won't accept flowers for Christmas. It's too vulgar, why don't we wait for the New Year."

I'm sorry, my lord.

I silently apologized in my heart.

Gu Shang paused, but in the end he really didn't buy it.

In the end, I didn't choose to send flowers either.

Before going to bed, I habitually opened the bedside table, and after seeing the book The Little Prince, I had an idea.

On Christmas day, Xu Xiaomo was on a business trip, so my plan to give gifts fell through.

But I got a text from him, a strange text.

He asked an inexplicable question: [Do you like daisies? ]

I replied truthfully: [I like it. ]

That night, while Gu Shang was taking a shower, the doorbell rang.

There was a strange boy standing at the door, holding a bouquet of flowers in his hand.

It's a bouquet of daisies.

The little brother asked me: "Is it Ling Jingchuan?"

I said yes.

"Your flowers." He handed the flowers to me, turned and left without asking me to sign.

I was stunned in place with the flowers, and only came back to my senses after a while. I hurried back to the room and stuffed the flowers under the bed and hid them.

There was no movement in Gu Shang's room, probably because he didn't hear the doorbell.

I sat on the bed for a while, and the more I thought about it, the more something was wrong.

Why does the wrapping paper of the flower feel so familiar.

I took out the bouquet again.

Turning over the back and looking at the logo printed on the paper, as expected, it was the same flower shop.

I:"……"

Xu Xiaomo gave me Gu Shang's flowers?