Soft spines

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At the beginning of late spring, the tung flowers are thousands of miles away.

Feng Shengjuan rampaged through the campus with the emptiness after school.

The roof of the complex building is the highest place in the entire middle school, because the entire building is the staff office, and few students dare to climb up.

It was so quiet that only the sound of the wind could be heard.

Sometimes when he doesn't want to go home, Li Jiaheng comes here to hide and relax.

Sounds a little different today.

Listen carefully for footsteps.

From far to near, the sound of stepping on the concrete steps became more and more clear.

The door was knocked open with a "bang", and the flying birds on the top of the laboratory building next door were buzzing. Li Jiaheng suddenly opened his eyes.

The hurried footsteps stopped abruptly, and then, like the dull sound of a heavy schoolbag being thrown on the ground, the man stopped a few steps forward, and there were deep and shallow breathing sounds in the air.

On the roof of the small utility room on the rooftop, Li Jiaheng, who was awakened by these sounds, turned his face silently.

There was a thin girl in sight, she was wearing an ordinary autumn school uniform, her hair was blown into a mess by the wind.

The whole back is lonely and depressing.

There are still layers of clouds in the sky, without azure blue color, she stands in a place where even a ray of afterglow can't shine,

He clenched his fists tightly and took a step forward.

"Hula-la."

The magazine that was originally covering his face to block the light was blown from a high place to the roof by the wind because of his sideways movement.

I'm in a bad mood.

But the moment the frightened girl turned around, she stood up neatly.

Ji Sui looked up at him, neither of them spoke.

Li Jiaheng was already 1.8 meters tall at that time.

Such a height, standing on the roof, standing in the afterglow of the setting sun, makes it difficult to look away.

That was the first time they met.

Unsuspecting silence and stares.

No blooming appearance, no strange faces with any warm colors.

The girl let go of her fist, put it in the pocket of her school uniform and left with her head bowed.

"There is always someone in this world, even if she never said a word to me, I can hear her voice."

At this moment, Li Jiaheng remembered the passage on the cover of the magazine like a ghost.

The year was 2005, when China's population reached 13 billion, the European Parliament passed the EU Anti-Japanese Treaty, and the Chinese name of Seoul was changed to Seoul.

The year was 2005. Li Jiaheng transferred to No. [-] Middle School because of his family job transfer.

In his memory, he has moved many times since he was a child, and every time he felt as if he had died.

The inner depression made him very introverted and autistic for a long time, but he had no other choice.

The year was 2005. Li Jiaheng, who had died the same way, met Ji Sui, who wanted to die.

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In April, Li Jiaheng officially joined the team.

Apart from classes, he spends most of his time training.

Sun and wind, the whole person is dark and thin.

It was raining this morning and the field was slippery. The coach asked them to rest, and Li Jiaheng had a rare morning in the classroom to catch up on sleep.

I was dreaming and shot a three-pointer at the buzzer, and was awakened by the shake. "Li Jiaheng! The teacher is calling you."

Woke up, rubbed his face, got up and went out through the back door.

The office is at the end of the corridor.

Orthodox light-yellow painted door frame, iron-clad wooden door, rusty screws, and a smooth rust-colored doorknob.

"Ji Sui." The girl who was about to leave at the door turned around when she heard the voice.

"Go and call Li Jiaheng from our class... Oh no, no, he's here."

He who was outside the door went in, and she who was inside the door came out.

He stopped to signal her to go ahead, and she nodded to thank him.

It turned out that she was Ji Sui.No.1 in that grade.

A few seconds, it's not enough to even raise your eyes to take a closer look at the other person's eyebrows and eyes.

Strangely, Li Jiaheng remembered it very clearly.

To this day, he can still remember the temperature of the sun, the wind that day, the color of clothes she wore, and even remember that the vase on the teacher's desk was filled with a small bunch of baby's breath, But the only thing she couldn't remember was the look in her eyes when she walked past him.

He was annoyed more than once, why only the most important picture to him, the past that he most wanted to peep, had only a vague outline.

That was the initial obsession with Ji Sui.

15-year-old Li Jiaheng attributed the origin of his obsession to curiosity.

He really wanted to know, how could someone like her want to die?

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There will be a parent meeting after the monthly exam in September.

Because of Li Jiaheng's basketball skills, the school left his mother for an interview.

He waits in the corridor.

Li Jiaheng witnessed Ji Sui being beaten that day.

When Ji Sui's mother learned that her grades had dropped, she slapped her backhand.

There was a loud bang.

My heart skipped a beat with fright.

Ji Sui didn't hide or cry.

She looks calm.

If it weren't for the fist that was trembling because of too much force, Li Jiaheng would have believed her pretending to be calm.

Li Jiaheng had already recognized it.

Ji Sui was the girl he had seen on the rooftop.

She sent registration forms to Li Jiaheng, and also helped the basketball club write a column in the school newspaper.

They met face to face several times, but they both tacitly said nothing about the encounter on the rooftop.

The reason he was curious about before now seems to be known.

He can understand her sensible loneliness and grievance, understand her powerlessness and struggle in the face of reality, and even feel the endless softness and sourness in her heart.

Just because he once walked this road.

He saw his own shadow in the familiar gloom and escape.

Li Jiaheng found an excuse to go home later, and ran to the complex building without looking back.

He ran up to the rooftop in one breath, and was inexplicably relieved when he saw Ji Sui sitting on the roof of the utility room.

Mudi slowed down, raised his hand and threw an ice pack to Ji Sui.

"Thank you." Ji Sui frowned in pain because of the wound on the corner of his mouth when he spoke.

"That's your mother?" Li Jiaheng climbed up with a cold face and sat down beside her.

"Why, doesn't it look like it?" Ji Sui put the ice pack on his face and gasped.

"It's not like." Li Jiaheng stared at her swollen face, pursed his lips and said, "Does it hurt?"

The color of the sky starts from the farthest place, and it is blurred layer by layer from dark blue.

I can't figure out whether to cry or laugh, happy or sad at this time.

It was as if a person sinking into the water suddenly grabbed a piece of driftwood. For the first time in more than ten years, someone asked her in such a gentle tone, "Does it hurt?"

The fog that suddenly rose in front of his eyes also seemed to be a kind of unskilled weakness.

"It hurts." Ji Sui nodded.

Subconsciously sympathizing, Li Jiaheng stretched out his hand and patted her hair lightly.

Ji Sui turned her head away, "You will become stupid." She said with a smile.

Seeing Li Jiaheng stunned, she smiled and smoothed the hair on the back of her head.

Li Jiaheng turned his eyes away, he also wanted to laugh with her, but unfortunately the difficulty was too high.

"Ji Sui, I thought you would cry." He swallowed his throat and said.

"What's there to cry about?" Ji Sui gritted his teeth and said nonchalantly.

"The last time I bought a new school uniform, my dad raised his hand and threw an ashtray at me, and that hurt." She smiled, her eyes were particularly red.

Li Jiaheng remembered that they also met that time when the leader of the Academic Affairs Office took uniforms.

At that time, a piece of gauze was stuck on her forehead, and the teacher asked her how she did it.

What did she say, oh, she said that she knocked accidentally.

The heart that was suddenly gripped was depressed to the point of wanting to curse.

"Do you know what my greatest wish was since I was a child?"

"What is it?"

"I can't wait to grow up, I want to leave here."

"Li Jiaheng, I must go to the best school and leave here."

In the evening came the wind.No one was sure that it was love that came.