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He Yuelin put a cup of pure water with ice cubes in front of Luo Tanshen, and looked at him for a few seconds, "Xiao Shen, you don't have to answer me so quickly."

On a scorching hot day, Luo Tanshen was wearing a suit and leather shoes, with his hair combed neatly, as if attending an extremely formal business meeting.

But the loss, uncertainty, and irritability in his eyes betrayed him.

This attire is like a warrior's armor, if it is removed, the inner hesitation will be exposed in front of others.

He doesn't want anyone to pry into his softness.

"Why, you were chasing me fervently a while ago, but now you don't want to?" Luo Tan raised his chin slightly, his eyelids drooped slightly, his arrogance was as usual.

"Why would I not want to." He Yuelin pretended not to see through his forceful aura, "I just think that you are too tired, and you haven't had time to take a good rest after you come back, and you haven't seriously considered the matter between us."

"Everyone needs to sleep for 24 hours like you?" Luo Tan smiled deeply, took up half a glass of purified water, and when he put down the glass, his fingers trembled slightly, "I've made up my mind."

He Yuelin looked at the swaying water in the cup.

Luo Tanshen's figure and face became distorted and abstract after being refracted by the cup and water.

But that seemed to be the true projection of his heart.

But the overly upright man outside the cup and water is like a well-disguised phantom.

"What you said last time, I went back and thought about it, and I think it's right." Luo Tanshen said with ease, "We are indeed the most suitable people for each other. You are ruthless, and I am ungrateful. In the future, we will make do with each other and hurt no one." Nobody."

He Yuelin looked at the frivolous smile in his eyes, and smiled for a moment, "Since you think so, then it's great. I'm the most troublesome to explain everything, only you understand me."

Luo Tanshen put down his crossed legs and stood up, "Let's finalize it as soon as possible."

He Yuelin was silent, "You don't want to wait for him to come back and say goodbye to him?"

It is self-evident who "he" refers to.

Luo Tanshen looked gloomy, with a wry smile on his lips, but he quickly returned to normal, "Don't bother you."

He Yuelin picked up the cup and poured the remaining water into the sink, and the "truth" in the cup was also poured out.

"As you wish." He Yuelin said.

The river wind in midsummer burns on the face like being scorched by a raging fire, causing scorching heat.

Luo Tanshen parked the car on the bank, and the music and screams from various bars behind him were mixed together, washed away by the tide rushing towards the river bank from time to time.

On a certain winter night, he once told Shan Yufei about his childhood and youth in one of those bars under a bean light.

He looked back, raised his hand to block the wind, and lit a cigarette.

Since he was 16 years old, he has talked about many love affairs, and each one is like hunting.

Those who were chased by him were all "prey". Now that I think about it, except for Ping Zheng who has tripped him up recently, the faces of the others have been so blurred that I can't recall them.

Shan Yufei is also a "prey", but he can no longer turn around as gracefully as before.

He hunted Shan Yufei, maybe Shan Yufei also hunted him.He put shackles on Shan Yufei's heart, and his own neck and wrists seemed to have been hung with invisible chains.

He has never been so lost in a breakup.

At this moment, he realized that he was not as bold as he had imagined.

Just like just now, he needs to be "fully armed" in order to agree to the marriage with his usual proud attitude in front of He Yuelin.

He was afraid that he would show his timidity and appear less confident.

And in the future, he needs to constantly anesthetize himself—I have a marriage contract with He Yuelin—so that when Shan Yufei returns home, he can tell Shan Yufei heartlessly and nonchalantly that we are over.

He couldn't deny that he had feelings for Shan Yufei, otherwise he wouldn't rush to country T when he learned that Shan Yufei was in danger, and he wouldn't be heartbroken after learning about Shan Yufei's life experience.

But compared to the affection and persistence that Shan Yufei poured into him, his so-called "heart-wrenching" is really too shallow.

Shallowness can't bear the affectionate consumption.

When they met in childhood, he couldn't remember the appearance of the little boy at all, but Shan Yufei missed him for more than ten years because of the little care he gave.

Four years ago at the Yuancheng University celebration, he didn't notice Shan Yufei at all, but Shan Yufei's eyes remained on him all the time.

Perhaps it was also because of him that Shan Yufei reported to Yuanda.

He has self-knowledge and knows that he cannot respond to this affection.

Things that are too heavy give him pain, such as the family relationship with his grandmother and brother.

Luo Xiaoyu's life and death bound him, making him a "lunatic" in Luo Yuncheng's mouth. For many years, he carried this family relationship forward alone, and he was never willing to carry another perhaps even heavier relationship.

It's best to be fickle.

He doesn't need and can't give too strong affection.Rather than falling into the abyss with Shan Yufei, it is better to join hands with He Yuelin in the future.

It's a pity that I couldn't keep my promise and spent Shan Yufei's 21st birthday with Shan Yufei.

A few months ago, at the top of Nanshan Mountain, Shan Yufei gave him a birthday that he might never forget in his life.Now, he couldn't repay this kindness on Shan Yufei's birthday.

He owed Shan Yufei.

But this time is not the only one owed to Shan Yufei?

There are too many, even if it is not clear.

He stared blankly at the gloomy river water and the moon breaking in the river water, for a moment, he laughed helplessly.

Shan Yufei was the moonlight that fell into his heart, falling to pieces.

"Your birthday is coming soon." Ming Jingchen said, "The climate and scenery here are better than the original city, why not spend it here. Yuxin will be happy to celebrate your birthday. Wait until the birthday is over..."

Shan Yufei insisted coldly, "Please arrange for me to go back."

Ming Jingchen was rarely interrupted, his eyes were full of scrutiny, and he said after half a minute: "Do you think you have a choice?"

Shan Yufei was neither angry nor eager, as if all emotions were sealed in his heart, "Do you have any?"

Ming Jingchen frowned, "You want to make a deal with me?"

"It's not about conditions." Shan Yufei said, "I'm asking you."

The atmosphere suddenly became stagnant and oppressive, two cold gazes collided, and no one looked away.

After a while, Ming Jingchen raised the corners of his lips and sneered, "Okay, they are from my Ming family. If you want to go back, I will satisfy you."

The night in the motorcycle factory area is very quiet.Shan Shanhai acted slowly, busy for several hours before tidying up the house.

At this moment, he was sitting under the dim light in his bedroom, cleaning a plastic photo frame.

In the frame is a photo of Shan Cixin.

In places where the development of motorcycle factories lags behind, almost every household has photos of deceased relatives hanging in their homes.The Shan family had been hung up before, and after being hit twice, Shan Shanhai hid everything related to Shan Cixin.

"Xiaofei hasn't come back yet." The old man's voice was hoarse and low, "They said he was safe, I know, they were comforting me. Something must have happened to Xiaofei."

"You are in the sky, why don't you bless Xiao Fei? He is your child. You loved him so much when you were awake, are you unconscious now?"

"...It's my fault. If it weren't for me, he would have gone far away. I am alive, and I am his burden."

Shan Shanhai stuck his son's photo on his chest, the wrinkles on his face were filled with tears, and after a long time, he murmured: "If he can come back safely this time, I will definitely leave and never drag him down again."

"Our little Fei, it's time to have a normal life..."

It was almost noon when the plane landed at Yuancheng Airport.

Shan Yufei rushed home, Shan Shanhai couldn't believe his eyes when he saw him.

"Grandpa, I made you worry." He patted Shan Shanhai on the back and helped the old man onto the seat.

Shan Shanhai held his hand tightly, wanting to make sure that he was not hurt, and refused to let go for a long time.

"Grandpa, I'm fine." He smiled and comforted, "Look, haven't I come back to celebrate my birthday?"

"Yes, yes..." Shan Shanhai said while wiping away tears, "Today is Xiaofei's birthday, he is 21 years old, he is already a young man."

He looked at the house and smiled, "Grandpa, I have to go out later, can you cook me a bowl of birthday noodles now?"

Shan Shanhai was stunned, and quickly stood up, "I'm glad you came back, I almost forgot about it."

He watched Shan Shanhai walk towards the kitchen and sighed softly.

As long as he can remember, every year on his birthday, he will get a bowl of birthday noodles.If Shan Cixin is not sick, the noodles will be cooked by Shan Cixin.Shan Cixin is a very careful person, there are two fried eggs in the noodles, one is at the bottom of the bowl and the other is in the middle of the noodles.He ate the one in the middle first, thinking that it was gone, but at the end of the meal, he found that there was another one hidden.

Shan Cixin said, this is called a surprise.

But most of the time, Shan Cixin was insane, and the task of cooking the noodles fell on Shan Shanhai's shoulders.

The old man had no intention of creating surprises, and put two fried eggs on top.Although it is delicious, it is not as happy as finding fried eggs at the last moment.

The Shan family was poor and couldn't afford expensive cakes, but a bowl of birthday noodles never made him short.

He hurried back to the area of ​​the motorcycle factory, not only because he wanted to reassure Shan Shanhai, but also because of the habit of eating birthday noodles on his birthday.

As for what he had experienced in the past few days, and the grievances and grievances in the past 20 years, he didn't want to tell Shan Shanhai suddenly.

He needed time to digest, and he didn't dare to stimulate the poor old man before he finished digesting.

Soon, Shan Shanhai came out of the kitchen with the biggest bowl in his house.He went up to meet it, and saw that there were indeed two fried eggs on the face.

"Thank you, Grandpa." He took it and smiled at Shan Shanhai.

"Xiaofei, happy birthday." Shan Shanhai kept looking at him, his no longer clear pupils covering all his reluctance.

He had an intuition that Shan Shanhai's mood was abnormal, and he guessed it was because of his disappearance this time, so he said softly, "Grandpa, don't be afraid, everything will be fine in the future."

Shan Shanhai smiled and nodded, urging: "Eat quickly, if you don't eat, you will lose weight."

He bowed his head and stirred the noodles, Shan Shanhai looked at him lovingly, and said silently - after this birthday is over, grandpa won't drag you down anymore.Xiao Fei, you can get better without Grandpa.

Halfway through eating the noodles, he suddenly discovered that there was a fried egg at the bottom of the bowl.

He looked at Shan Shanhai in surprise, "Grandpa?"

"Eat one more." Shan Shanhai said: "When I was a child, I ate two fried eggs for my birthday, but now I'm so tall, eating one more won't hold me up."

He finished a bowl of birthday noodles, went to the kitchen to wash the dishes, and Shan Shanhai stood by the door watching him.

He turned around and said, "Grandpa, I have something to do this afternoon. You have been worrying about me these past few days. You must have not slept well. Go back to your room and rest."

Shan Shanhai agreed, but did not leave.

In the end, he was the one who cleaned up the kitchen and helped Shan Shanhai back to the bedroom.

The curtains in the bedroom were drawn tightly, and Shan Shanhai's expression could not be seen clearly in the darkness.

He said, "Grandpa, I'm leaving."

After a while, Shan Shanhai responded, "Okay, be careful."

He was about to close the door when Shan Shanhai called: "Xiaofei."

"Ok?"

"Happy birthday, Xiaofei."

He smiled and said, "Grandpa, you have already said it."

Shan Shanhai laughed hoarsely, "Really? Confused, confused..."

The afternoon light was dazzling, and Shan Yufei walked into the dappled sunlight and the chirping of cicadas under the tree.

In the upstairs home, Shan Shanhai stood up after sitting for a long time, and calmly pushed open the closed door.