love me after drunk

"I am a student in his school, and he is the instructor of the English club I joined." Fang Kainan said, staring blankly at the ceiling.

"So it's a teacher-student relationship." Wang Hao smiled wryly, and understood why he was wearing Ruitao's T-shirt of the same style, and felt inexplicably tense—it turned out to be Ruitao's T-shirt.

Fang Kainan felt a little uneasy, nodded, continued to look at the ceiling, and said to himself: "Before I met Mr. He, I had no real experience in dating, and I was not even sure about my orientation. Although I was in high school I also had a crush on boys at school, and I chatted with other netizens after I went to college, but I have never met them. I am still relatively introverted and a little scared.”

Wang Hao listened carefully, Rui Tao's another romantic debt, he felt absurd to stay out of it.

"When I saw Mr. He for the first time, I blushed and felt very nervous. But I didn't dare to think about it. After all, I have always had a crush on others and it has become a habit." Fang Kainan continued, "I didn't expect him to be gay. I basically don't understand anything.

"Teacher He doesn't often appear in the club. But one time before the school's spring break, the club organized an English exchange activity. I went a little early that day, and only Mr. He was there. I didn't say a few words to him before, so it was a bit embarrassing, but He is very talkative. For some reason, I chatted with him casually about European and American music, but the conversation became more and more speculative. It was not until other students came that I was embarrassed to stop the conversation. Later we met several times on campus, and he made an appointment I went to eat and chat together. At that time, I could already feel that he also liked me. Everything happened too fast, as if I was dreaming. I was already fascinated by him, thinking that it was love.

"After that, Mr. He also went to the three-day and two-night outing organized by the club during the summer vacation. We deliberately kept our distance in front of our classmates every day. On the contrary, the more depressed we were, the more we could feel that each other was on fire. The other person's eyes met occasionally, and it was like getting an electric shock.

"After dinner that day, the boys gathered in the hotel room to play cards together. Because I drank a lot of beer, I said that I was not feeling well, so I went out to get some air. I quietly went upstairs to the door of Mr. He's room. After wandering back and forth for a long time, I finally made up my mind. I stretched out my hand to knock on the door, but the door opened by itself. Seeing his fiery eyes, I rushed in like a demon. The door closed behind me, everything was out of control, and the fire could no longer be suppressed .”

Speaking of this, Fang Kainan turned to look at my face and asked, "Would you hate me if I told you this?"

I forced a smile: "No, he has always been like this... I remembered, he said that he had something to do with school and went out for two days last summer."

"I also felt it. He has a lot of experience in this area... He was just playing with me. The novelty passed for a while, and he left me behind in a blink of an eye." Fang Kainan sighed, "I was For his somewhat conceited prodigal son, he is especially irresistible.

"He was the first person I've ever had this kind of relationship with, and the first time it happened was too hasty, too unexpected, and I wasn't prepared for any safety measures at all. He was the experienced party, and I was out of my wits, What I worry about is whether I am too clumsy, whether the other party is disappointing... I hold on all the time, obey everything, like a sheep.

"After that one, we've had a few more because there were no safety measures in the beginning, and it didn't work after that, and I wasn't expecting any danger at all..."

Fang Kainan looked at me again, meeting my eyes.I suddenly felt very uneasy.

"Did he... tell you?" Fang Kainan asked softly.

"Tell me what" I couldn't quite believe the thought that popped into my head.

"You said he broke up with you, is it because of his physical condition?" Fang Kainan stared closely at my eyes, as if trying to find some answer from it.

My heart was cold, and I was still a little unbelievable.

Fang Kainan saw the doubt in my eyes, looked at the ceiling again, and continued on with a blank expression: "When he started to distance himself from me, the sky was already getting cold. I was busy with exams at that time, and one day I got up to go to class. I suddenly felt a headache, my body was weak, and I was crying, so I had to take sick leave and rest in the dormitory. At first I thought it was just a cold, but I didn’t think much about it when I got better. After the exam, I happened to see a magazine in the library When I saw an advertisement for HIV testing, my heart was moved, and I took a long drive early in the morning to the hospital on the advertisement for testing.

"Of course the test is under a pseudonym. I can't remember exactly how I was called into the outpatient room by the doctor, how I was notified that the result was positive, and I was asked to do another test to confirm the diagnosis, and then I needed my real identity information. Wait. I can’t remember how I tricked them into escaping from the hospital. I was terrified and ran out without even sitting in the car. I walked on the street for a whole day in a daze, and only returned to school after dark. The first thing that came to mind was to call Teacher He.

"He said it was impossible at the beginning, and shirked responsibility. Later, I asked him to check it out, and I was able to figure it out, because I have never had a relationship with anyone except him..."

Fang Kainan suddenly couldn't continue speaking, and closed his eyes, as if he was suppressing his emotions.

Wang Hao didn't expect to hear the truth like this, and he suddenly understood the cause and effect, but he froze to one side.When Wang Hao came back to his senses, he found Fang Kainan curled up under the quilt, trembling and sobbing silently.

Instinctively, Wang Hao lowered his body, hugged Fang Kainan gently through the quilt, and patted his shivering shoulder carefully.

With the answer to everything, Wang Hao closed his eyes, fluctuating with the thin body in his arms, as if he had returned to the biting river under the night, but this time there was no direction to the river bank.

It was still as long as a century later, Fang Kainan calmed down again, lying in Wang Hao's arms, shrinking his nose from time to time.

Wang Hao got up slowly and wanted to help him get some tissues, but Fang Kainan grabbed his hands tightly when he was about to get up.Wang Hao looked at him, his face was so young that it was almost immature, and the tears were mottled, and the eyes were sunken again, bottomless.