go the same way

Li Pei looked at him, and after a long time, put the chopsticks on the edge of the bowl on the table.

"Doctor Nie, you don't understand what the past tense means to me."

It does take a lot of courage to really destroy yourself in a violent way.

But if the rest of a person's life is flattened and smeared into a vast whiteness, but he is required to walk through the rest of the road with no sense of direction, the difficult thing becomes living instead.

Li Pei was not brave enough, so he chose the former.

But now, due to fate, the time has been shifted to the most regrettable night in his heart, and he has so generously put all the people he lost in his life by his side. All he wants to do is to cut off everything related to inches, Live again for your family and yourself.

He got up, stopped looking at Nie Xunqiu, and said in a soft but firm voice, "That's all I want to say. Within a week, I will arrange everything. Doctor Nie, don't say goodbye."

Nie Xunqiu knew that it wasn't that Li Pei was stingy in saying goodbye, he just didn't want to leave any hope of meeting again.

Just like when he left.

They obviously just walked leisurely, found a hidden small restaurant, and tried dishes with a surprise in mind, like any pair of ordinary friends that could be found in the crowd.

Nie Xunqiu didn't look up, he quietly huddled in the narrow chair, staring at the clean bowl across the way.

Li Pei always eats the rice in the bowl very cleanly, even if there are a few grains of rice left, he will pick them up with the tip of his chopsticks one by one, which was coaxed and taught by his elder brother.

That man was very picky when he was a child. He was always picking and choosing on the table with a pair of chopsticks. He didn’t eat poultry with two legs or fish without legs. Vegetables, no rice, even if someone forced him to fill a bowl, there would always be half of it left.

His mother felt that she had not taught the child well, making him ignorant of etiquette, ungrateful, extravagant and wasteful. She blushed because of this and severely reprimanded her youngest son.Li Pei was not such a well-behaved child at that time, he pushed his mother away with all his strength, locked himself in the room, and wiped his tears sullenly. He bowed his head and stepped out of the door.

In the dead of night, the still-growing child was dizzy and had a sound in his stomach. He probed his brain to check his surroundings, but found that there was no light in the house, so he quietly ran downstairs into the kitchen. All he was left with was an empty refrigerator.

Li Yan didn't sleep all the time, he knew he couldn't survive the whole night with a child's body, so he packed an extra bowl of rice and hid it in his room when cleaning up.When he came down, he carried the bowl full of rice, which was white and a little loose due to the evaporation of water.

Li Pei stood beside the sink, waiting anxiously for the number on the microwave to jump away every second, and when he heard the sound of "ding", he happily squeezed his chopsticks tightly, asking his brother to take it out quickly.

Things that I don't usually like to eat, when I'm hungry, it's extra sweet without any side dishes.After he finished the bowl of rice, he scraped off every grain with the tip of his chopsticks, and later he developed the habit of serving the rice first.

Nie Xunqiu seemed to see that one big and one small, they were surrounded by the lighted kitchen, the pure aroma of rice filled the enclosed space, one deep sniff would give them a feeling of warmth and satiety.

Li Pei doesn't often mention Li Yan in front of him, only when he has special events and habits, he will say "brother taught me", and there is always a faint miss in his eyes.Nie Xunqiu knew that Li Pei liked his brother very much, and that kind of liking was nothing but the kind of affection between family members that he had never experienced before.

It was he who personally cut off the shadow standing in front of Li Pei and killed Li Pei's innocence.

His debt will never be repaid.

Li Peiwu paid the bill by himself, and when he left, he walked around to the right to avoid rubbing Nie Xunqiu's elbow.The time to go upstairs was just in time, and the lock picker was just about to get on the same elevator. The man was easy to recognize, he was young, he looked two years younger than himself now, he was wearing work clothes, and the green cloth bag was old. new lock cylinder and tools.

Seeing that the number he pressed was the same as the floor he wanted to go to, the locksmith asked, "Are you the one who needs to change the lock? This kind of anti-theft door is very easy to open, and there is no need to change it again. It will cost a lot of money."

Li Pei said: "The previous lock didn't have a spare key, so if you lose one, you lose it. There is no injustice."

Maybe it wasn't lost, it was just placed in an invisible corner, but he didn't want to look for it again.

The models of the lock cylinders in the whole building are almost the same, so there is no need for Li Pei to describe them. The locksmith also brought the matching size based on his experience. He skillfully removed the panel and unscrewed the screws. In just two or three minutes, the old lock cylinder was removed. Removed and replaced with a new one.

This kind of work can be regarded as practice makes perfect, but some also depend on talent. Door locks are simpler than car locks. Once their company took over a job to drive a BMW, and asked three or four masters to drive it for several hours, but they couldn't get it open. In the end, he had the courage to give it a try, and completed the commission within ten minutes.

Li Pei just listened, and found a lot of confidence and pride in his tone, as well as a youthful vigor that he couldn't find in himself.

He handed the new key to Li Pei, feeling that he was boasting too much, and smiled embarrassedly: "Try it, it's new, I won't hide the key secretly. I suggest that you should match more keys." A few spare keys, the feeling of being unable to enter the house... I don't know how to describe it, anyway, it's very urgent and uncomfortable."

Seeing that he was trying to find some precise words to describe that feeling, Li Pei smiled, took the key, and took an extra banknote when paying.

The locksmith checked and said, "If there is an extra card, it will be bad if we misunderstand our company's arbitrary charges."

Quite honest.

Li Pei explained: "It's a tip, so you don't need to report it. Let's have an extra meal tonight."

The young man was very happy, he said thank you a few times, and trotted to catch the elevator, the scattered tools in the bag collided together, making a crisp sound.When he left, he grinned and waved to him, as if there were still many children at heart.

For some, life and joy are simple, and the purer the emotion, the more contagious it is.He used to be probably the same kind of person, with just a little bit of sweetness, he could temporarily cover up all the unhappiness and bitterness.

The reason why I say temporarily is just because those sweets are all wishful thinking.

Although he tried the lock just now, Li Pei inserted the key into the lock hole again, turned it around, and heard the sound of the lock tongue clicking open.The key is alloy.Unlike the older brass keys that are held in the hand, they will be heated by the temperature of the palm, and there will be a strong metallic smell.Li Pei likes that smell very much. In addition, he also likes the faint smell of gasoline when he stays at the gas station, the sweet smell of kraft paper bags, and the special smell that bursts out when the match is struck on the phosphor surface. .

Cunhe usually only has the scent of soap on his body.He loves cleanliness, and will not choose a certain fragrance, what he uses when taking a bath, and what is left on the ends of his hair and skin.Only by clinging tightly, being hugged and sniffing hard, can one catch a trace of the faint and extremely faint smell of gunpowder. At that time, Li Pei should know that this person is a dangerous weapon, and he is holding it in his heart. on the gun.

He took out the key, looked carefully, and found that the one in his hand was very similar to the previous one.

What he bought at that time was not a rough house, and the redecoration was actually very fast. He hired an interior designer to confirm the general style, and asked his secretary to help him order a lot of home decoration magazines on the market, and read them at home. Sometimes, I would occasionally ask about the size and how to look at it.The other party probably only thought that he wanted to invest in real estate, and every time he mentioned it, he would say that he didn't need to ask his opinion. Li Pei insisted on asking, so he chose a few floor lamps and pillows that did not affect the overall situation.

Cunhe is a practical person with no aesthetics, even so, he still asked people to buy those pillows with cold colors, and added some bright colors to them himself.

Li Pei's work is not easy, he will drive past the community every day, but he doesn't stop often, he goes up about once in seven times, to see the progress of the new home, and calculate how long it will take to ventilate before he can live in it with peace of mind.

The materials used in the decoration were as simple and environmentally friendly as possible, the amount of glue used was reduced, and many spider plants were brought back from the flower and bird market, all in order to reduce formaldehyde.He thought that he could even call it urgent at that time, and he had already regarded the place where he lived for nearly 30 years as his second choice in his consciousness. Perhaps the real reason was not that the traces of his elder brother were too deep, but that he really wanted to To have a nest again—with the twig and feather they both hold.

Sleeping together in the same bed, sexually intense and co-produced, from the beginning you asked me to answer, and later developed into bickering over trivial matters in life, unknowingly, five years have passed since day and night.

He doesn't know what the relationship between his parents is like, and his elder brother has no chance to bring his beloved back home.

But Li Pei thinks that maybe that's what a couple is like, there is no need for flowers and romance, or to go through the test of impermanence and life and death.As long as it rains at night, I can think of bringing an umbrella for him.

On the day of handing over the house, Li Pei also asked someone to change the lock cylinder like this, and took the key to make a spare one himself. It was a bit late when he returned, and he didn't call back in advance, and the dinner on the table was not too hot. .

"You're back, I'll reheat the dishes."

Cun He touched the bottom of the plate with his fingers, picked it up and took it back to the kitchen.Li Pei changed his shoes in the hallway and followed him into the kitchen. Seeing him looking at the fire seriously, he didn't know how to make an opening statement.

The relationship between them is muddleheaded, and they haven't clarified their feelings, and he hasn't said he loves you to Cun He.Would it be too sudden to give the key out so rashly?

In fact, it was not sudden. I have been busy with the new house for half a year, and I should understand that whoever invests in real estate will spend so much time on decorating it. Those are sunk costs and will be demolished after the sale.

Li Pei's heart was agitated, he didn't look like a person who was about to be 30 years old, he didn't bother to think about anything else, he simply grabbed Cun He's hand, and stuffed the spare key directly into his fist: "The key to the new home, you...you still follow me Let's go together."

It was clearly an invitation, but how could it be filtered out of his mouth? It sounded a bit like an order.

And that one has always followed orders the most.

He didn't say anything, and he didn't think this key was so special, his reaction was exactly the same as when he heard Li Pei say what he wanted for dinner.

Li Pei gave Cunhe a key, which could open the door of his house and step into his heart.

He won't have the courage to give it a second time.