Heaven falls

Lin Youlian sat on the bed all night, his mind was in chaos, but his mind was very clear, with clear ears and eyesight.She knew when Yu Hao got up, knew that she had stood in front of the door for a long time, knew when she would return to her room... and even more knew that when Zhao Sui came, Yu Hao really left with him.

Why is this happening?

Lin Youlian recalled everything from childhood to adulthood, he remembered the scent of his mother, he remembered what his elder brother said when she was very young, and he remembered that his second elder brother always knew how to stay in the room and read books all day long. Thinking of her father's face after her mother died, thinking of those brothers who accompanied her growing up... until the end, thinking of Yu Hao saying that she would leave her for some shit reason.

She suddenly found that no matter what happened, there was nothing she could do about it.It cannot be predicted, cannot be changed, cannot be redeemed, but can only be endured.The deep sense of powerlessness permeated her whole body, sucking her bone marrow and making her bones soft and numb, and sucking her blood made her hands and feet cold and her head swollen.

She saw a word in a book before, she was puzzled and asked Lin Erzhen, Lin Erzhen explained that this word means that people are very small, like a grain of grain in the sea.She has never seen the sea, but she knows that a grain of millet is really too small.

But now, she felt that she was that grain of millet, falling in the air and being manipulated by others.If others want her to fly, she will be enshrined with supreme glory; if others want her to live, she can be rescued even if she is trapped; if others want her to die, she has no room to turn around and beg for mercy.

Send mayflies to the world, like a drop in the vast ocean.I was just ignorant before, but now I feel deeply about it.

Now, what should she do?

She sat there for a long time, her neck was stiff and painful because her head had been hanging down, and she didn't even have the strength to squeeze it.Why do you need to pinch it? If it's like this all your life, it's okay.

Will Holly regret it?Regret meeting her, regret going back to save her, regret coming here with her and being imprisoned... Many years later, will Haoer regret knowing her, and even feel sick when thinking about that night?

It hurts to think about such a thought.Lin Youlian laughed at himself a little.

What can a person like her do?

After Yu Hao left, Lin Erzhen came to the courtyard and stood where Yu Hao had stood before.He looked at the closed courtyard door, and after a long while, he bent his back as if he had exhausted all his strength.At the last moment, that person only looked in Lin Youlian's direction, leaving nothing to him.It seems that I really can't think about it.Lin Erzhen, like Yu Hao, glanced at the door of Lin Youlian's room, thinking in her heart that she might not be able to meet such a stubborn sister in the future.

If he knew that they had already reached such a field, would he still agree with Yu Hao's approach?

Lin Youlian didn't worry Lin Erzhen for long.She sat for a day and slept for another day, until the third day after Yu Hao left, she got up early to fight or dance around the yard as usual.Seeing Lin Erzhen coming out, she greeted him with a smile.Lin Erzhen was puzzled, observed Lin Youlian for a day, and finally shook his head and followed her.

Lin Youlam's current state is worse than that in Shangjing back then.Afraid that the heart is no longer alive?

*****

Time always disregards the past that people feel. Lin Erzhen looked at the mark he made on the book, half a month has passed.

After this period of nurturing, Lin Youlian has turned into a girl who moves like an elk and is as quiet as a rabbit. Right now, she is obediently sitting beside him, holding a book in her hand and fascinated by it. to ask him.These days, apart from practicing martial arts, she only reads books. She is afraid that she will read all the books that she has never read in her previous life. Fortunately, he also has a lot of books.

Lin Erzhen regained consciousness and looked at the travel notes in his hand, then looked up at the already red sky, and suddenly figured out something.He will never think about who Zhao Sui is, nor will he guess how Yu Hao will deal with him there.What's the use of guessing.

Lin Youlai has never been in that house since she moved out that day, and she never even walked through the door when she returned to the house she chose later.Naturally, Lin Erzhen wouldn't go in either. The two letters in the poor room were just ashes, looking miserable.

In mid-May, He Hanhui, who had disappeared for a long time, suddenly appeared in their yard.Lin Erzhen exchanged pleasantries with him, listening to what He Hanhui said between the lines, I'm afraid they are going to retreat and continue to march, so come over to ask them what they mean.

If it was normal, they would kindly come over and ask whether they were going or staying. It should be that Yu Hao got his heart there, so they had a choice.After realizing it, Lin Erzhen was about to say that they would stay here. If he could, he would actually prefer to leave and live incognito.

But before he could decide what to say, Lin Youlian who had been silent for a long time suddenly said, "Let's go together."

"Lao'er?" Lin Erzhen opened his mouth in a hurry, but he just called Lin Youlai, but he didn't know how to say the rest.Naturally, he somewhat understood Lin Youlian's thoughts.

He Hanhui obviously didn't expect that Lin Youlam would choose this one. He was originally a person who liked to turn corners and let others take the bait by himself, but the other party let the delicious bait not eat, but came to bite the hook that would make his mouth bleed.He didn't even bother to hide his surprised expression, and after a few words, he left and left, presumably because he wanted to report this matter to others.

Lin Erzhen kept the words she wanted to persuade, looked at Lin Youlian like that, and stopped talking.

Of course Lin Youlian knew what Lin Erzhen wanted to say, and she also knew that it was a foolish choice for her to choose, but she couldn't help but speak.Why must she go?Can she live well if she leaves this place?The army was in chaos, and he might have died in an unknown corner.If you stay here, at least you can still know how you died.

And, closer to her...

"Second brother, why don't you go find Ai Ziyan." Lin Youlian said suddenly.

Lin Erzhen was taken aback, and glanced at Lin Youlian: "Leave you here alone, and I'll go out to find a way out?"

"The Lin family can't be broken up in our generation. Aren't you afraid that you will be beaten to death by your father and elder brother in the future?" Lin Youlian raised his head and closed his eyes. He didn't think about it just now, but he should actually send Lin Erzhen away.These complicated matters should not have involved him in the first place.

"If I do what you say, I will be beaten after this afternoon. It's the same." Lin Erzhen felt better, and suddenly felt lighter.It turns out that it is true that nothing happens.Only the unknown will make people frightened, but it is calm to be able to guess the ending without any worries.Left and right are nothing more than that, what is there to plan?

"It's not the same. Brother, don't make me feel ashamed of the ancestors of the Lin family..." The last few words were inaudible, as if I didn't have the energy to finish.

Lin Erzhen heard it, she was quiet for a while, and said softly: "I don't want to be ashamed of my ancestors...and I don't blame you..."

Yes, it's not Lin Youlian's fault.If you want to blame, blame this troubled world.If Emperor Renhe hadn't seized the throne, and if Emperor Renhe hadn't been so suspicious and ambitious, perhaps their family would still be staying in Shangjing well.Without the inexplicable orders given by the former national teacher, the Lin family would never have fallen into such a situation.Everything is just a trick of good fortune, maybe it's just that the gods in the sky feel bored and want to watch some tricks.

The subsequent conversation between the brother and sister was in vain.The two of them tacitly stopped talking about such things. After a few days of peace and stability, they counted the days and guessed when the day of the march would be, who would call them at that time, and whether there would be someone to protect them. or walk...

In the end, they didn't wait for the person who came to call them on the road, but they waited for the person Lin Youlian didn't want to see and miss the most.

***

It was also afternoon, Lin Youlian and Lin Erzhen were still sitting under the tree with a chair, each holding a book, and occasionally they just closed their eyes and squinted for a while when they felt sleepy.When Lin Youlian opened his eyes following the sound of the courtyard door being opened, he thought why this person couldn't knock on the door but turned his eyes first, and saw the man in white silk standing at the courtyard door.When the sun shone on her body, it was forcibly bent by white, making that person appear to be shining white, like a fairy who suddenly descended on this filthy mortal world.

Isn't she just a fairy?Lin Youlian said to himself in his heart, with an indescribably mocking tone.She looked at Yu Hao quietly, watched her slowly walking towards her step by step, looked at her eyebrows and the corners of her mouth, and recorded all the subtle expressions on Yu Hao's face in her heart.

Lin Youlai didn't intend to talk to Yu Hao at first, but seeing this man standing quietly in front of her, his eyes seemed to scratch her heart, she still couldn't beat her after all.

"What are you doing here?" Lin Youlian said with a smile, "Do you want to move back?" Seeing Yu Hao's eyes turning red because of her words, she felt both happy and blocked.

"Hey, I went there for your safety, and I tried my best to find a way to let them let you go..." Yu Hao's voice was very soft and soft, as if it would scare the eyes if it was too loud. This person is like, "Lao'er, be obedient, don't make me feel that I am in vain..." In vain or something?She couldn't even speak.

Ke Lin Youlian understood.She almost blurted out, "You are already standing with him, why are you bothering with my safety!" But in the end, she held back her words.

It's really boring, so boring.What is she still doing?People finally begged her for a ray of life, so what's the use of her being so ignorant...

Xu saw that Lin Youlai's attitude was a little loose, so Yu Hao continued to work hard: "Tomorrow they will call for a lecture, and you should go there at that time, and explain to them that your order is actually Zhao Sui's. You were arranged to keep the blood of the royal family... so that you can be regarded as a hero in the eyes of these people. Even if Zhao Sui repents in the future, he can't do anything to you. After you leave, go to Hengzhou immediately, and Ai Ziyan should already be there to meet you ..."

Yu Hao babbled a lot, but Lin Youlai became more and more distracted as she listened: "Great Master... Zhao Sui..." She muttered to herself, but she didn't know what she was talking about.

"The great national teacher is the former national teacher. He has been traveling around the border but he is also helping Zhao Sui to attract people. Now, except for some people in Shangjing and Beidi who have not expressed their position, the others are almost Zhao Sui's people..." Yu Hao said softly explained.

"This Zhao Sui is really amazing." Lin Youlian smiled.

"National teachers are powerful." Lin Erzhen also said, "Is Zhao Sui a descendant of the late emperor?"

"Yeah." Yu Hao just nodded slightly, unwilling to waste any time on this matter, "Lao Er, listen to me, go to Zhidi..."

"Incognito?" Lin Youlam seemed to have come to his senses, and smiled brightly at Yu Hao, "From now on, I, Lin Youlam, will not exist in this world, will I?"

Yu Hao's lips moved slightly, but he didn't speak.

"Alright, if you don't have it, then you don't have it." After speaking, Lin Youlian stood up and stretched himself.Seeing that Yu Hao was still standing there motionless, only an arm's length away from her, he suddenly leaned forward and whispered in Yu Hao's ear: "You are really favored, knowing so many things, he still agreed You make such an embarrassing request...I'm afraid I love you so badly..."

Regarding the word love, Lin Youlai also learned it from reading miscellaneous books these days. At first, she only said that she liked it, but now she knows that there is an emotion called "love" in this matter.So, does she love Yu?Does Yu Hao love her?

"No, actually... I didn't..." Yu Hao anxiously wanted to defend himself, but his sharp tongue was no longer one-tenth of what it used to be in front of Lin Youlam.Looking at Lin Youlian now, she felt trembling in her heart.She was also having a hard time these days, with all kinds of thoughts weighing down on her, which made her lose the half-hearted spirit she used to have in front of Lin Youlian.

Lin Youlian straightened up, raised his hand to touch Yu Hao's face, and said with a smile, "Oh, I've lost weight, is it because of me?"

Before Yu could speak, she said again: "You will gain weight in the future..." Especially when I'm not by your side, you have to take care of yourself.

"Lao'er, then tomorrow..."

"As you wish." Lin Youlian finished speaking with the corners of his lips curled up, and he didn't look at Yu Hao anymore, turned around and went back to his own room, still walking around the room they used to share.

Lin Youlian kept his back to Yu Hao, and even closed the door with his backhand.She listened to Yu Hao and Lin Erzhen's indistinct voices, and tears fell without warning.Nothing was what she wanted, not even this last meeting.

How much she wanted to hold Yu Hao in her arms.

Trembling, Lin Youlian covered his mouth and nose with his right hand, closed his eyes and took a deep breath.Only this hand was the only one that touched her, the only one.

From now on, it will be farewell...

The author has something to say: Ouch, Lai'er is so pitiful.The atmosphere went wrong in an instant.