out of print lover

In the end, the two compromised with each other and watched a classic love movie from the last century. The hero and heroine finally parted ways, and Lin Xing felt blocked after watching it.

"I don't understand." Lin Xing said, "Since they are in love, why does the male protagonist leave the female protagonist and leave alone? To defend his own country, he can also take the heroine with him, why does he have to leave alone?"

"This is a movie from decades ago. Of course, people's values ​​at that time were very different from what they are now." The tragic ending did not affect Xu Xiwan's mood. She turned off the TV and comforted Lin with a smile. Xing, "Besides, it's not surprising that you, a flower that grew up in a greenhouse in peaceful times, can't understand people's state of mind when the country is ruined and the family is destroyed."

"I don't care about the country or the family." Lin Xing rested his chin on the pillow and looked at Xu Xiwan enthusiastically, "All I need is Wanwan."

Xu Xiwan teased her, "You have little virtue but no great righteousness."

"What small virtues and great righteousness, it's just self-sacrifice advocated to maintain the stability of the group." Lin Xing laughed, "The essence is not all for oneself, but everyone thinks that they will always be the majority in the group , Sacrifice will never be your turn.”

This is typical Xu Xiwan's way of thinking. Lin Xing was influenced by Xu Xiwan's side, and even his way of thinking was gradually approaching Xu Xiwan's.

Xu Xiwan couldn't refute what he believed in, so he could only smile and said: "Whether the idea of ​​sacrificing the small self to fulfill the big self is right or not, at least it can temporarily maintain the balance of human society. The longest life span of a person is 100 years, 100 years Once it's over, all the small virtues and righteousness will be buried in the soil, who cares."

"Because life is too short, you should guard the people around you. If you can't even live up to your lover, what's the point of living?"

The topic gradually deepened, and further down it was philosophical speculation. Xu Xiwan looked at the sky outside. The sun had fallen below the sea level, and there was still a little red afterglow on the sea. It should have been much cooler than during the day. Xu Xiwan pulled Lin Xing stood up, "Let's go, it's already evening, let's go for a walk and find a place to eat."

When going out, the sea breeze was blowing and it was still a little bit cold. Lin Xing shivered, and went back to the house, putting on a cool coat.

The beach in the evening is very lively, with many tourists, the heat of the day has faded away, the sea breeze gently brushes the cheeks, and the sound of crashing waves can be heard in the ears, and people's mood becomes extremely calm.

Xu Xiwan and Lin Xing stood side by side, walking aimlessly along the boundary line between the sea and the sand. From time to time, shallow waves came ashore, passed their insteps, and then subsided quickly. Retaining the residual heat of the sun, warm and soft, Lin Xing looked at the couple walking hand in hand in the distance, felt itchy in his heart, strengthened his courage, and quietly hooked Xu Xiwan's little finger.

Xu Xiwan felt Lin Xing's knuckles hooked on her little finger, and turned her head sideways, looking at her with some doubts.

Lin Xing sneered, "The sand is too soft, I'm afraid I'll fall, so let me hold your hand and give me some strength."

The sand is indeed very soft, and as soon as you stop, your feet will slowly sink in. Xu Xiwan held Lin Xing with his backhand, wrapped her palms in his own, and said with a smile: "If you want to borrow strength, it should be like this. Hold, what strength can you borrow like that?"

The dry and delicate touch made Lin Xing's heart skip a beat. She looked at the hands she and Xu Xiwan were holding together, feeling joyful but also a little dissatisfied. She changed her position and squeezed her fingers into Xu Xiwan's. The gap between the fingers turned into an intertwined grip, "You can't hold it like that at night, it's so secure, you can't even break it apart, don't you think?"

"You're the only one who is smart." Xu Xiwan shook his head and smiled, and let Lin Xing hold his hand, leading him forward.

"Wow, look at every night, there are still small crabs on the beach after dark." The last ray of the sun also disappeared at the sea level, and only the neon lights of restaurants and bars in the distance provided faint lighting on the beach. Lin Xing I turned on the flashlight of my mobile phone and took a photo aimlessly on the beach. I suddenly saw a small white translucent crab crawling past my feet sideways. It disappeared into the sand in the blink of an eye. .

Lin Xing saw the beach at night for the first time, and was surprised to see a small crab. He bent down and searched the beach for a long time, trying to find another one.

Lin Xing looked at the crab, Xu Xiwan only looked at Lin Xing, she couldn't get enough of Lin Xing's vivid side face with surprise, but when Lin Xing also turned to look at her, she looked away guiltily up.

"Wanwan, there are many small holes in the sand, are these crab holes?"

"Probably." Fortunately, Lin Xing didn't notice her almost obsessed eyes. Xu Xiwan turned his face and coughed dryly, "Don't just look at the crabs, are you hungry? Let's go eat something?"

As soon as Xu Xiwan said it, Lin Xingcai felt that he was really hungry, so he reluctantly said yes, and led Xu Xiwan to the restaurant at the end of the beach in the distance, and looked back at the densely packed crab holes several times.

The street at the end of the beach is full of catering industry, and further ahead is the bar. The western food is cold, and Lin Xing's stomach can't bear it. Xu Xiwan took Lin Xing to a Chinese restaurant and ordered a few light and warm side dishes. It was far worse than Xu's cook, but it wasn't too bad. Lin Xing was really hungry again, so he even added half a bowl of rice.

After eating dinner and resting for about ten minutes, Xu Xiwan remembered Lin Xing's reluctance to leave the beach, and asked Lin Xing if he wanted to go to the beach again, but Lin Xing shook his head, "Wanwan, let's go bar?"

As soon as Xu Xiwan heard the word bar, he frowned and refused, "No."

"Why not?" Lin Xing was dissatisfied, "I'm an adult, I can go to bars now."

"First, the bar is mixed with fish and dragons, second, you can't drink, and third, I won't let you go." Xu Xiwan gave Lin Xing three reasons at once, and finally came to a conclusion, "That's why you can't."

Reasonable and well-founded, but not enough to convince Lin Xing.

Lin Xing rolled his eyes, propped his chin and smiled, "If you can't do it, you can't. If you don't go with me, I'll let sister Xiaoqing go with me tomorrow."

Xu Xiwan glared at Lin Xing, but Lin Xing was not afraid at all, and continued, "Anyway, the bar doesn't have long legs, so I can't run away. Going today is the same as going tomorrow. Wanwan, sister Xiaoqing is more reliable than you." There are too many scores, you want me to follow her to see the world, or you go with me tonight, you choose one."

Seeing Lin Xing's narrow smile, Xu Xiwan had no choice but to compromise, summoned the waiter to pay the bill, and took Lin Xing to the bar street.

The lights were feasting, and there were women with bright makeup and revealing clothes standing at the entrance of many bars. Lin Xing saw it and found it novel and interesting. He looked around and said, "Wanwan, why don't we go here and have a look?"

Xu Xiwan frowned, and speeded past those unscrupulous shops, finally found a low-key and clean bar at the end of the street, and brought Lin Xing in.

Xu Xiwan's vision is really good. Except for the slightly dim lighting, the rest of this bar is normal. At least compared with those bars that don't look like anything special, it's really too normal. There is no deafening DJ dance music, There are also no delirious teenagers who are delirious and shaking their heads. Instead, there are soothing and elegant classical music, and young people who gather together in groups of three or four to drink and chat quietly.

Xu Xiwan was very satisfied with the atmosphere of this store, but Lin Xing's eyes were full of disappointment. Even if he wanted to take advantage of the chaos, it was not easy to do something in such a quiet tavern.

"A new face?" The bartender in front of the bar was a young Caucasian woman. Seeing Xu Xiwan leading Lin Xing in, she whistled ambiguously, pointed to the sign on the bar, and spoke English with an accent. Said: "This store prohibits minors from entering."

"I'm an adult!" Lin Xing was upset that the bartender treated her like a minor, and before Xu Xiwan could speak, he replied in English first.

"Every teenager who enters the store says that, I don't believe it." The bartender leaned against the bar counter, her charming eyelashes swaying slightly under the light, "Please show your ID."

Lin Xing snorted disdainfully, and slapped his passport on the table. The bartender glanced at it, smiled, looked distressed, and sighed falsely with his forehead propped, "It's so embarrassing, I'll never see you Asians. True age, come in, young lady."

They found an empty table, and just sat down, the bartender followed, sitting next to Xu Xiwan, legs crossed, elbows on knees, palms under their chin, turned their heads, and looked at Xu Xiwan provocatively ,"what do you want to drink?"

"I want a glass of Marg..." Lin Xing was interrupted by Xu Xiwan before he finished speaking.

"Two Cokes, thank you."

"Coke?" The beautiful bartender rubbed against Xu Xiwan's side, "Come to the bar and only drink Coke? That's against the rules." She was wearing a uniform, but three shirt buttons were unbuttoned, revealing her plump figure under the collar.

The bartender's strong scent of perfume lingered on the tip of his nose. Only then did Xu Xiwan notice that this bar seemed a bit strange. From the waiters to the customers, it was all women, not a single man.

Xu Xiwan suddenly understood. No wonder the bartender would be surprised by strangers on a small island with tourism as its pillar industry. The reason may be that this bar itself is very special.

Xu Xiwan stayed away from the pungent perfume calmly, "Sorry, I'm not..." She was about to say "I'm not gay", but Lin Xing took a step ahead of her, hooked her neck, and snuggled up against her Over the shoulder, with a pair of round eyes, he stared fiercely at the bartender whose figure was about to emerge.

"She has a companion, go away." When she said "goaway", she exhaled a bit of warm moisture, which stained Xu Xiwan's back earlobe red.

The bartender didn't seem surprised, he apologized, and didn't continue to pester Xu Xiwan, but he still blew a kiss to Xu Xiwan when he left.

Because of Lin Xing's breathing, half of Xu Xiwan's ears were numb. It was only after the bartender left that he thought of a question. As a child, does Lin Xing know a little too much?

"Where did you learn these messy things?" Xu Xiwan asked, frowning.

"TV, newspapers, internet." Lin Xing shrugged nonchalantly, "I told you already, I'm not a child anymore, what's so special about knowing a little about homosexuality?"

But will children with normal orientation learn about homosexuality?Xu Xiwan was a little worried, thinking of going back to have a good talk with Lin Xing at night.

Like the same sex or the opposite sex is not the point, the point is that Lin Xing's attitude is very problematic, too casual, this is an irresponsible behavior for her or her future partner.

Just as they were thinking about it, the waiter had already brought them two glasses of Coke and a complimentary cocktail.

"We didn't order this." Xu Xiwan said.

"This is what Amy bought you, Miss." The waiter pointed to the bar.

Xu Xiwan looked in the direction she pointed, and saw that plump and beautiful bartender was also looking towards them, and evoked a charming smile.

Lin Xing looked at the pretty bartender with resentment, regretting why she had to propose to come to the bar, she hadn't done any bad things here, Xu Xiwan was almost seduced by that coquettish foreign woman, the more she thought about it, The more angry he was, he drank the brightly colored cocktail in one gulp.

"Xiao Xing!" Xu Xiwan reprimanded softly, but it was too late, Lin Xing shook the empty glass in his hand at Xu Xiwan, and said with a smile: "Oh, Wanwan, it's nothing to drink just one glass, and this wine is nothing like Wine, sweet and delicious."

It took only a few minutes, but Lin Xing had already started slurring his speech and was obviously drunk. What's wrong with that?

"You're drunk, hurry back with me." Xu Xiwan was about to help Lin Xing to stand up.

"I don't...I won't go back!" Lin Xing puffed his cheeks, "I'm not drunk...I still want to drink...excuseme..." Lin Xing raised his hand to greet the waiter, but Xu Xiwan gestured She didn't need to come over, she took a note on the table, took Lin Xing's arm and took her out.

Lin Xing was unconscious, feeling dizzy in front of her eyes. She only knew that the glass of wine she drank just now was sweet, just like a drink. She wanted to drink more, and was about to ask the waiter to order another glass, but she felt suddenly caught People picked it up and didn't know where to take it.

"I won't...I won't leave! I still want to drink!" Lin Xing started drinking like crazy, refusing to leave the bar door without saying anything. She raised her voice, which was especially loud in a quiet bar, and didn't provoke too many people. The guests looked towards the door one after another.

"Xiao Xing is obedient, come back with me, let's go back to the villa and drink slowly."

"You...lie...you lie..." Lin Xing danced, "You never...don't let me drink..."

Drunk people are very strong, Xu Xiwan could hardly control her, and finally got her out of the bar, only to hear the bartender standing at the door of the bar and whistle again, "Enjoy yourself~"

Xu Xiwan had blue veins popping out of his forehead, even though he was well-bred, he couldn't help but swear in his heart.

"Wanwan... Wanwan..." Lin Xing was drinking madly, stumbling around on the street and calling Xu Xiwan's name, but Xu Xiwan had no choice but to squat down and support Lin Xing Lin Xing picked up his thighs.

After Lin Xing was picked up by Xu Xiwan, it seemed as if someone had turned off some switch. He was obviously much quieter, at least he wasn't jumping around and drinking like crazy, and obediently lay on Xu Xiwan's back, beating softly Snoring, whispering Xu Xiwan's name.

"Wanwan...why are you ignoring me..." Xu Xiwan thought that Lin Xing was about to fall asleep, and heard Lin Xing's nonsense again.

Knowing that it was nonsense, Xu Xi hesitated for a moment, put Lin Xing on his back, but smiled with lowered eyebrows, walked on the exotic streets at night, and responded to her softly: "Because I'm angry with you!" .”

Lin Xing was so drunk that he could still hear what Xu Xiwan said clearly, and asked vaguely, "Why are you angry?"

"Of course it's because Xiaoxing doesn't cherish her body and doesn't listen to my words." Xu Xiwan walked a long distance, took a breath, and said again: "That's why I'm angry."

"No disobedience." Lin Xing seemed to be very afraid that Xu Xiwan would be angry, so he lay on Xu Xiwan's back, closed his eyes, and cried, "I don't dare anymore, Wanwan, don't be angry."

Knowing that she was crying fakely, Xu Xiwan still couldn't bear it, sighed and said, "Okay, I forgive you."

Just because of such a sentence, Lin Xing was still weeping and pretending to cry one second, and laughed happily the next second, hugged Xu Xiwan's neck, and kissed behind Xu Xiwan's ear, "Wanwan, you'd better gone."

Just because of this, Xu Xiwan's hands shook, and he almost fell out with Lin Xing.

Xu Xiwan didn't dare to be careless, held Lin Xing's thigh tightly, and couldn't help frowning to remind her: "Be quiet, what if you fall later?"

"I'm not afraid. I'm just afraid that Wanwan doesn't want me." Lin Xing leaned on Xu Xiwan's unforgiving back, and his voice came from Xu Xiwan's back, "Wanwan, don't be angry with me in the future, okay?" good?"

A smile overflowed from Xu Xiwan's mouth, "That depends on whether you are good or not."

"I will be good, and I will listen to what you say." Lin Xing said, his voice gradually lowered, and in the end, his voice was almost inaudible, "Every time you are angry, my heart hurts, it hurts so much, like It's like a needle prick."

Lin Xing said, "I like you so much, why are you still angry with me?"

These words can only be uttered when drunk and insane. Even Xu Xiwan can hear the strong humility and prayer in Lin Xing's words.

How could I not pray, Xu Xiwan was very kind to Lin Xing, so good that Lin Xing could be pampered by her side when he was old enough, but there was no guarantee for such kindness, Xu Xiwan and Lin Xing had nothing to do with each other in the first place, Lin Xing Fortunately, relying on Xu Xiwan's little love, when Xu Xiwan has his own lover one day, such a love will be like a fog, and it will disperse as soon as it is said, and it will never be found.

In Lin Xing's world, there is only Xu Xiwan, and in Xu Xiwan's world, Lin Xing is only a dispensable part.

If Xu Yiqing heard this, she would definitely scold Lin Xing for being heartless. Xu Xiwan was kind to her, and anyone with a discerning eye could see the sincerity inside. How come Lin Xing turned into a mist that would be blown away?What a waste of my sister's hard work.

Of course Lin Xing knows Xu Xiwan's sincerity, but sincerity is different from sincerity. Lin Xing's sincerity to Xu Xiwan is because he wants to regard Xu Xiwan as a lover who will spend his life together. Xu Xiwan's sincerity to Lin Xing is Treating Lin Xing as a child who needs to be pampered, sincerity doesn't matter, but the types are different, it becomes two parallel lines, which can never be intertwined.

"I like you so much, I like you so much..." The more Lin Xing said, the more heartache became unstoppable. Xu Xiwan felt a chill on his neck, only to realize that this time Lin Xing was really crying. He breathed slightly depressed, with The smell of alcohol made Xu Xiwan cry silently in his ears.

Xu Xiwan's eyes turned hot, and he blurted out, "Me too..."

After only two words, it stopped abruptly.

It cannot be said that this is wrong.

Lin Xing's attachment to himself is no different from his attachment to Lin Ling when he was young. It's all because an older guide appeared in his life, and he worships and loves her, but this is not love.

The difference between attachment and love is only one word, and the meaning is completely different.

Xu Xiwan is a selfish person. If she is a little more selfish and cruel, she can take advantage of Lin Xing's strong attachment to her, break off her unfulfilled wings, take her as her own, and make her forever her only one. people.Xu Xiwan's selfishness turned into reluctance when he came to Lin Xing's place.

I can't bear to confine her only by my side, I want to see her fly high into the blue sky, want to see her sky high and land wide, free and at ease.

Xu Xiwan should be Lin Xing's backing, not a shackle.

So it cannot be said that Lin Xing's attachment to him cannot be used, that would be too despicable and cruel.

Lin Xing said, "I like you so much."

Lin Xing waited for Xu Xiwan's response.

Xu Xiwan stopped talking and didn't say another word.

Even when he was so drunk that he couldn't hear the words from Xu Xiwan's mouth, Lin Xing lost all his sincerity, and more and more tears accumulated in his eyes, and finally rolled down , out of breath, but didn't make a cry.

Those who cannot cry must become someone who can stand by Xu Xiwan's side, so they cannot be so weak.

Xu Xiwan felt that his back was already wet. He didn't hear Lin Xing's cry, but his heart ached even more unbearably, painful and sore. He just wanted to hug Lin Xing and comfort her, and didn't want her to cry.

Xu Xiwan slowly walked back to the villa with Lin Xing on his back, and Lin Xing cried all the way.When they came back, Xu Yiqing was still playing outside. The living room was pitch black. Xu Xiwan turned on the overhead light, carried Lin Xing back into the room, let her lie flat on the bed, took off her shoes and socks, and covered her with a quilt. Just about to leave, Lin Xing grabbed him.

Lin Xing was so drunk that he grabbed her hand and refused to let go.

"Wanwan, Wanwan..." Lin Xing called Xu Xiwan's name, but he could only see her mouth opening and closing, and couldn't hear what she was saying.

Xu Xiwan had no choice but to squat down, put his ear next to Lin Xing's mouth, and finally heard clearly.

As if struck by lightning from the top of his head, Xu Xiwan froze on the spot, but Lin Xing kept repeating that sentence, which was very short, only three words.

Lin Xing said, "I love you."