out of print lover

Lin Xing's birthday is in August, which happens to be July [-]th of this year.Her mother's tomb is not in a formal cemetery, but a field grave on a hill in the countryside. Rural people's funerals pay attention to burial. More than ten years ago, cremation was not mandatory, and most of them were buried. This hill was the village at that time. Grave hill.

In midsummer, the sun is scorching, and there is only one loess path stepped on by people to go up the mountain. It is about one foot wide and overgrown with weeds on both sides. This path is hidden and difficult to distinguish.Although it is impossible to have snakes in the middle of the day, it is in the wild after all. Xu Xi picked up a branch at night, scouted the way ahead, and knocked in the grass ahead from time to time. Lin Xing followed her and walked hard. go up.

At the foot of the mountain, I didn't feel it, but when I got to the middle of the mountain, the tombstones were one to the east and the other to the west, sporadically came into view, and only then did it look like a graveyard.

It used to be a quite prosperous village nearby, with a thriving population, and the village was very lively. People often came to worship on the cemetery. As long as there were family members who died, the tombs were cleaned very cleanly. Most of the young people are migrant workers. They bought a house in the county and moved their family out of the countryside. This small village gradually left only a few widowed old people. Later, the old people also passed away one after another. After a while, the whole village disappeared. Inhabited.

The cemetery has also become a desolate scene with overgrown weeds.

It was the first time for Lin Xing to see so many tombstones, and he was confused. He dragged Xu Xiwan's clothes along the way, not daring to lift his head. After so many years of materialistic education, she was still no match for the unknown fear of ghosts and gods in human hearts. .

Not only is the altitude higher as you go up to the top of the mountain, but also because there are many graves on the top of the mountain and the air is too cloudy. In short, when we approached the top of the mountain, the temperature was obviously several degrees lower than that at the foot of the mountain. Lin Xing took off his coat because it was too hot at noon. At the waist, shivering from the cold at the moment, I put it on again, and then buttoned it up, only to see Xu Xiwan stopped in front of a grave and said, "Here we are."

Lin Xing stopped buttoning his buttons, walked to Xu Xiwan's side in two steps, and looked at the lonely grave in front of him.

A few meters away from this tomb, there are several other tombs scattered around, all of which are covered by weeds, leaving only a small green soil bag. The words in the words have long been illegible, and it seems that they have been forgotten for many years.

Lin Xing looked at his mother's tomb again. The tombstone showed some signs of aging, but it was very clear. The grass around the grave had also been tidied up. A black and white one-inch photo was pasted on the tombstone. Lin Xing had never seen her mother before. , but recognized at a glance that this was his mother.

Xu Xiwan bent down and leaned the pure white tulip he brought against Lin Ling's monument. This was Lin Ling's favorite flower during his lifetime.Xu Xiwan took out the handkerchief from his pocket, poured some mineral water from the water bottle, wet the handkerchief, half-kneeled in front of the monument, and wiped the dust on the tombstone bit by bit along the top of the monument.

"Teacher, I brought Xiao Xing here." Xu Xiwan carefully cleaned Lin Ling's black and white photo, "Xiao Xing is 16 years old today, and she looks exactly like you back then."

Indeed, Lin Xing's appearance is completely inherited from her mother, with a small nose and a mouth with a little bead, which is the same, especially a pair of eyes, round, black without any magazines, very pure , the corners of the eyes drooped slightly, so when looking at people, there is always an innocent and affectionate feeling.

He and Lin Ling are completely carved out of the same mold.

Lin Xing seldom thinks of her mother, one is guilt, and the other is that she has never played the role of parents in her life, and she has lived a good life, as if her mother is dispensable to her.

"Teacher, it's been a year since I last visited you." Xu Xiwan seemed to regard the tombstone as a living person, rubbing it while talking to the tombstone, "One year Another year, time flies so fast, I remember when I left, I was younger than Lin Xing now."

"Xiao Xing has grown up now. She is a beautiful and sensible girl. You always said that I never let you down. Look, I didn't let you down this time, right?"

"Teacher, I just brought Xiaoxing now. Don't blame me. I know. You miss your daughter down there. No, I brought her here."

It was rare for Xu Xiwan to be so talkative, one sentence after another, as if he couldn't finish it.

Lin Xing stood a little behind Xu Xiwan, watching her wipe the stone tablet inch by inch, she was so gentle that she seemed crazy.

With such deep friendship, people with a discerning eye can tell at a glance that Xu Xiwan has an unusual relationship with this deceased old man, not to mention Lin Xing's love for Xu Xiwan, Xu Xiwan's slight emotional changes, can be sensitive Provoke her nerves.

Lin Xing only heard her mention her mother a few times from Xu Xiwan's mouth. She expected that her mother had a good relationship with her, but he never imagined that it was such a close relationship that made Xu Xiwan kneel on her knees so naturally. Wipe her grave in front of her grave, there is no taboo at all.

It can be seen that Lin Ling's weight in Xu Xiwan's heart, it is estimated that no one can shake it in the slightest.

Knowing that now is not the right time, Lin Xing still felt a little untimely lump in his heart.

"Xiao Xing." Xu Xiwan finished talking on his own, and then remembered to greet Lin Xing, "Come here, kneel down and kowtow to your mother."

Upon hearing this, Lin Xing immediately knelt down in front of the tomb, kowtowed three times to Lin Ling's black and white photo, and called "Mom".

Lin Xing had never had a chance to call it that way in his 16 years of life. He opened his mouth suddenly, a bit unaccustomed to it, coupled with the difficult mountain road and dry throat, his mother's cry was as harsh as sawing wood.

After Lin Xing kowtowed, he knelt there. Xu Xiwan only focused on looking at the tombstone, seemingly forgetting about Lin Xing's existence. After kneeling for more than ten minutes, a gust of mountain wind blew in. Lin Xing was so cold that he covered his mouth and coughed lightly. With a sound, Xu Xiwan turned around, "Is it cold?"

Lin Xing said, "A little bit."

Xu Xiwan took off his coat and put it on Lin Xing, "It's fine if you want to, don't kneel down, it's cold on the ground, if you get sick, Teacher Quanxia knows that you won't be safe."

Lin Xing got up obediently, and squatted beside Xu Xiwan, leaning against her to draw some warmth, "Wanwan, are you my mother's student?"

"It used to be." Xu Xiwan opened a can of beer he brought up the mountain, half of it was in front of Lin Ling's grave, and the rest was half listening to her raising her head and drinking it all in one gulp, before saying, "You Mom is my middle school teacher."

"It turns out that my mother is a teacher."

"He is the best teacher in the world." Xu Xiwan added.

Xu Xiwan was naturally more ruthless than ordinary people, she never caused trouble, and was never afraid of trouble. She was good-looking when she was a teenager, and her face caused her a lot of trouble. Once, she was spotted by a gangster outside the school. A group of people blocked her in the alley in front of the school. They thought it would be easy for a few big men to deal with a twelve or thirteen-year-old girl, but she didn't expect this little girl to be a murderous master, so she took a handful out of her schoolbag. The watermelon knife slashed at them, and cut off the arm of one of the bastards, frightening the group of bastards to surround her and dare not go forward.

Xu Xi told this past event as a story while drinking at night, with a calm expression on his face, but Lin Xing was terrified when he heard it, and asked her directly: "What happened next? Did you get hurt?"

"Of course I was injured. Those are five strong men, and I'm not a god." Xu Xiwan chuckled, "At that time, they cut a hole in my waist with a dagger and punched me in the stomach. But it’s nothing, the key is that a guy with a baseball bat swung his left shoulder, and he can’t move half of his body, hey, I thought I confessed it there when I was young.”

Xu Xiwan thought about it now, those people didn't beat him in the face, probably the gangster made a special confession in advance.

"What happened? Wanwan, you're all right, right?"

"It turned out that your mother, my teacher, arrived in time, called the police, and saved my life." Xu Xiwan laughed as he recalled, "Hey, your mother and your father also met because of this incident. Said that I am still a great matchmaker for the two of them."

Lin Xing was shocked, "My father is a policeman?"

"That's right, he is a policeman in that area, and his surname is Lin, because the incident I encountered was considered a vicious security problem. Later, they seemed to have introduced some special measures. Anyway, he was on duty at our school. For several months, I used my position to escort the teacher to work every day, and then I had you, but they were not married at that time, and they were discussing marriage. It's a pity..."

"What a pity?"

"It's a pity that the marriage didn't work out. He was upright and offended too many people. He was finally revenged. One night when he came back from duty, his head was covered by someone on the road, and he was stabbed | hacked | dead."

Xu Xiwan drank wine against the tombstone, recalling.

Lin Xing's father died on the road that Xu Xi had to go to school every day. Xu Xi went to school very early in the evening, and saw the corpse before he could take it away.

His head was covered with a torn sackcloth, his hands were tied behind his back, his feet were tied tightly, and he had no ability to resist. He was stabbed more than a dozen times in retaliation, and the most severe one pierced through. His stomach was blown, blood flowed like a river.

This case shocked the whole city at the time. The perpetrators were all arrested within three days. The leader was sentenced to death, and the rest were sentenced to at least 15 years. However, Xu Xiwan still felt that the world was too tolerant of villains. To torture a person to death, the punishment he received was so light.

"At that time, the teacher had been pregnant with you for several months, your father died, and your grandparents went to the school to make a big fuss, saying that the teacher was a murderer, and killed their son, and asked the teacher to pay for his life. The leaders felt that the influence was not good, so they forced the teachers to resign themselves.”

In fact, Xu Xiwan had already been taken to the Xu family at this time, and she pieced together the rest of the story based on the news from that year.

Before Xu Xi left late, she said goodbye to Lin Ling. Lin Ling had a bulging stomach and a hard life, but she was very cheerful. She said that she named the baby in her stomach "Lin Xing" and hoped that she would be lucky in her life and turn bad luck into good luck , Die Chengxiang.

Lin Ling said: "My lucky baby will grow up well. When she grows up, I will tell her the story of her father and tell her that her father is a hero."

Lin Ling is a very optimistic person, always looking forward after being hit.

Lin Xing's parents were good people, but they didn't end well in the end.

Lin Xing was not a lucky child either, if it wasn't for Xu Xiwan, she might not have survived today.

After Xu Xiwan went to Jinling, she remitted money to Lin Ling every month. One day, the remittance suddenly failed, and she had a premonition that something happened to Lin Ling. Unfortunately, Xu Xiwan was still young at that time, and was unable to find out what happened to Lin Ling. What happened, and later, when she returned to the country, with the ability, Lin Ling's bones were already rotten.

During Xu Xiwan's brief girlhood, Lin Ling was the only one who cared for her. She played the three roles of teacher, friend and mother in Xu Xiwan's life. Sometimes she was playful and lively, and sometimes she was serious. Xu Xiwan Being alone in the cold for a long time, Lin Ling warmed his heart a little bit, and he also developed some inexplicable feelings towards Lin Ling. When he was young, Xu Xiwan thought it was love, until he grew up, and gradually turned back. After a while, I realized that it was just an instinctive attachment to Lin Ling, an older woman who is also a teacher, friend and mother.

Xu Xiwan didn't even have time to repay Lin Ling.

Lin Xing's 16th birthday was spent in pain, there was no celebration, only a sacrifice, she knew the darkness in this world, she didn't experience it personally, she didn't feel the pain, she just felt sorry for the misfortune of others, until she learned the cause of her father's death , what happened to my mother, and only then did I realize the pain of despair and helplessness in the darkness.

"It turns out that what my uncle said is right, I am indeed a broom star." Lin Xing thought, her mother gave herself such a name, which is really not worthy of the name. If her mother hadn't insisted on keeping her, she should have had a beautiful and ordinary life.

"You are not a broom star." Xu Xiwan wiped away the tears hanging from Lin Xing's cheeks, "Xiao Xing, your birth is the greatest wish of your parents, they are willing to exchange their own death for your life, although your Memories don’t start with happiness, but you also came into this world with love and warmth. Your mother, she would rather you live in this world than lose you in exchange for her so-called peaceful and happy life .”

……

After returning to the hotel from the cemetery, Lin Xing was exhausted physically and mentally. She even fell asleep in the car. Xu Xiwan couldn't bear to wake her up, so he put his arms through the bends of her legs, carried her out of the car, and carried her into the car. Got a hotel room.

That night, Lin Xing dreamed of his father and mother. In the dream, Lin Xing could finally see their faces clearly. They were holding hands and smiling at him in the dazzling light.

"Dad, Mom!" Lin Xingfei threw himself into their arms, his father touched her face with rough hands, and his mother wept with joy.

"Xiao Xing, although Mom and Dad didn't grow up with you, Mom and Dad love you." Lin Xing heard his mother say in his ear, "Fortunately, Xiao Xing is very happy now, he is a good child, Mom and Dad are very happy. rest assured."

Lin Xing didn't know what kind of character his father had. In his dream, he was a man who was not good at words, with a broad chest, hard bones, and rough palms, but his movements when touching Lin Xing's face were gentle.

That night, it seemed that Lin Xing's lack of fatherly love and motherly love for 16 years was filled in a dream. She was not the little broom star who killed her parents, but a lucky child born in the love of her parents.

Even her name was not chosen randomly, it contained the most ardent expectations of her parents.

……

Xu Xiwan and Lin Xing stayed in this remote county for a long time. Xu Xiwan took Lin Xing to see the place where he used to live. In the past 16 years, the urban area has been planned several times, and many familiar buildings have been demolished. Yes, but the county middle school is still there, it's summer vacation, the school is empty, Xu Xiwan stuffed 200 yuan to the old man at the door, and got permission to go in and visit.

"So your mother is in that office." Xu Xiwan pointed to a door on the second floor of the old teaching building to show Lin Xing, "She has a childish personality and is frizzy. She often skips breakfast in a rush to work. I had no choice but to buy two breakfasts every day, one of which was sent to her as soon as possible after class."

"Your mother will also make lotus root pork rib soup for me. The lotus root she cooks is very fragrant and glutinous. After I left here, I have traveled all over the world, and I have never been late for such delicious lotus root."

"And there, it's her dormitory." Xu Xiwan took Lin Xing through an arched door and entered the teacher's dormitory area, "I used to stay in her dormitory when I was on vacation, and then she asked me to help her Correcting those piles of students' homework." After more than ten years, Xu Xiwan recalled it still vividly, "After grading the homework, she will make me tremella and lotus seed soup."

Lin Xing walked through the dormitory area with Xu Xiwan, feeling sour in his heart, and retorted: "You don't like sweets."

"Yeah, so there are so many sweets, I can only eat this bowl of white fungus and lotus seed soup."

Seeing the smile on Xu Xiwan's face, Lin Xing panicked for no reason. She only knew that Xu Xiwan didn't like sweets, but she didn't know that Xu Xiwan only liked a soup of tremella and lotus seeds.

Lin Xing wanted to ask Xu Xiwan what kind of feelings he had for his mother, but in the end he didn't ask.

There are so many memories between Xu Xiwan and his mother, you come and go, Lin Xing even feels that the past ten years that he and Xu Xiwan have been together are insignificant.

As if declaring sovereignty, Lin Xing reluctantly took Xu Xiwan's hand.

Xu Xiwan pulled it out.

What Xu Xiwan thought was that Lin Xing was already 16 years old, and this gesture of holding hands with interlocking fingers was too ambiguous and was no longer suitable.

But Lin Xing saw it, and only thought that Xu Xiwan was in the place of memories with his mother, and even holding hands was a blasphemy to this place.

This is my mother's former residence, so I shouldn't have such dark and complicated thoughts, Lin Xing just couldn't help it.

Lin Xing always thought that he was the one closest to Xu Xiwan, who knew that he was always far away.

The person Xu Xiwan misses in his heart, Lin Xing estimated that he could not account for one-tenth of that person.

……

On the day Lin Xing went to school, Xu Xiwan personally sent her there.

Normally when Lin Xing goes to school, the driver picks her up and drives her in a car that is ordinary people. Although it has been specially modified, it is inconspicuous and has never attracted anyone's attention. Even the students in Lin Xing's class don't know about Lin Xing and Xu's family. Based on her usual food and clothing expenses, it is speculated that her family should have a small fortune, but judging by the car her family drives, it is true that she does not look like a rich person.

This admission is different from the previous ones, with a huge momentum.

Xu Xiwan personally sent Lin Xing there, and drove three Bentleys, the front and rear two were full of bodyguards, the co-pilot in the middle one was Xue Qushuang, and Xu Xiwan took Lin Xing in the back seat.

Lin Xing didn't pay much attention to luxury car brands. When he saw the three cars and the posture of more than a dozen people, he couldn't help but secretly stunned, and he didn't want to show it.

Is this going to school or meeting state|state|leaders?Is such a big battle necessary?

Xu Xiwan seemed to see her thoughts, and put his palm on her shoulder, "Of course it is necessary."

In this kind of private school, a person's grades and ability are far less important than his family background. The teachers here are much more capable and snobbish than outsiders. Who is the prince of which family, who is just an unfavored illegitimate child, who needs to please , Who can ignore it, the teacher has figured it out the moment he got the student list.

Lin Xing is not a serious Xu family, and Xu Xiwan has been holding her in his arms all the time, never letting outsiders know that today is Lin Xing's first appearance in front of other aristocratic families, in order to ensure that she will not be bullied in the private school, Xu Xiwan must let all the teachers and students in the school see how much the head of the Xu family attaches importance to her.

Starting today, this world is completely different from the world Lin Xing was in contact with before.

The private school has no name. It used to be called a private school, but after it became a private noble school, it was still called a private school. There was only a "private school" sign hanging at the school gate. The school management came out to welcome them in an orderly manner.

"Mr. Xu, welcome. This is student Lin Xing, right? Come on, hurry up and invite inside." The principal was very enthusiastic, and led a group of teachers to welcome Xu Xiwan and Lin Xing into the living room, and greeted Xu Xi in person. Wan poured tea with Lin Xing, Lin Xing saw that attitude, almost flattering.

Xu Xiwan picked up the teacup, lifted the lid and slowly tossed off the tea leaves, "Principal Wei, we Xiaoxing will take care of you from now on."

"Mr. Xu, don't worry, this is for sure!" Xu Xiwan came in person with a battle, and Principal Wei was all alone, how could he fail to see that Xu Xiwan attached great importance to Lin Xing, and made a firm promise to Xu Xiwan He said that Lin Xing must enjoy the most intimate care in the school, but Xu Xiwan didn't mean that.

"Principal Wei doesn't know, I am a very strong child, I will not admit defeat in everything, maybe I will be stronger than me in the future, to tell you the truth, don't I want to teach her what I have in my hand? Principal Wei should help me to discipline me strictly."

It is polite to say strict discipline, Principal Wei will not take it seriously, but there is a message in Xu Xiwan's message that Principal Wei dare not ignore, sooner or later the power in Xu Xiwan's hands will be handed over to this obedient and quiet girl in front of him inside.

This is equivalent to being the imperial heir!

Principal Wei gasped, thinking that the person who came today was just like Xu Yiqing back then, a little girl doted on by her parents. After three or four years, she was waiting to marry when she was old. The future heir of the family!Such a little girl is actually more noble than the prince status of many aristocratic families!

The meaning in Xu Xi's late words is to pay attention to Lin Xingde, and not to let Lin Xing hang around at school every day like dismissing those second-generation ancestors. The school has to teach Lin Xing something that can be handed, otherwise Xu Xi will be late. Can't spare them.

No wonder there was so much momentum, even Xu Xiwan came in person.

"Mr. Xu, don't worry, I understand. This school will guarantee that the young lady will receive the best teaching service." Principal Wei suddenly became serious when he spoke again, and even respected Lin Xing's title.