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Xu Xiwan was applying medicine to Lin Xing's forehead.

Lin Xing was very scared.

She secretly looked at Xu Xiwan several times, Xu Xiwan's face was livid, his pupils were dark, his brows were slightly frowned, and his lips were pursed into a line. It was not like usual, they always curved upwards in a nice curve.

This face was still pretty, but Lin Xing was shocked.She wanted to explain to Xu Xiwan several times, but she opened her mouth, but she didn't know what to say.

"Wan..." When Lin Xing finally plucked up the courage to say it, Xu Xiwan had already given her the medicine before he called out Xu Xiwan's name, packed up the medicine box, turned around and put the medicine box back into the drawer of the TV cabinet , and then went straight into the kitchen, ignoring Lin Xing at all.

Xu Xiwan was angry.

Lin Xing thought dejectedly, she should be angry because she was too stupid to embarrass her.

Lin Xing's life at school was not very good, but she never dared to confess to Xu Xiwan.On the first day of school, Lin Xing made a big fuss in class.

The first class at the beginning of school is Chinese, which is the class of their head teacher. The head teacher randomly checks the homework, one by one, the children get up and recite the Tang poems learned in the previous semester. Lin Xing started to read it directly from the next semester. Dazed, he kept his head down, praying that it would not be him, but the head teacher was the first to point him up and asked to recite.

Lin Xing stood up, his face flushed.

The class teacher said: "Recite "Ode to the Goose"."

But Lin Xing couldn't, she didn't even know what "Ode to the Goose" was.

She was the only one standing in the class, and because of her short stature, she sat in the first row. When she stood up, all eyes in the class focused on her. Lin Xing had never been stared at like this before, and she answered Without answering the teacher's questions, my heart was pounding with fear, my face was blushing, and my head was almost buried in my chest.

"Recite "Ode to the Goose"." The head teacher said again impatiently.

At this time, the students in the class had already started whispering to each other.

"Quiet!" The class teacher's pointer slapped twice on the podium, as if it was on Lin Xing. She tensed up all the muscles in fright, and said weakly: "Old... teacher, I... I Won't……"

The teacher looked down at her coldly, but Lin Xing didn't dare to look up. After a while, the teacher said again: "Then open the book and read it again."

Lin Xing buried her head even deeper. She was so ashamed and ashamed that she wished there was a crack in the ground so that she could slip right in. "Teacher, I... I... I can't understand..." She couldn't even understand her neck. It's red.

Lin Xing only heard a sneer from above his head, and the teacher asked the whole class, "Which classmate can recite?"

Most of the students in the class raised their hands in unison, and the head teacher pointed to the student on the right of Lin Xing, "Yang Yuran, you recite."

The girl named Yang Yuran stood up, with her hands behind her back, and she blurted out "Ode to the Goose" crisply and loudly. The head teacher smiled and praised, "Sit down, classmate Yang Yuran is awesome." At the end, she glanced at Lin Xing again, coldly Hmph, "Some students with stupid brains should also sit down."

Lin Xing was still immersed in his own shame, and didn't hear what the class teacher said until Yang Yuran, who could recite poems next to her, tugged at the corner of her clothes and reminded her in a low voice, "Hey, the teacher told you to sit down!"

Only then did Lin Xing sit down in a panic. Unexpectedly, he moved too much in his haste and swept his schoolbag to the ground. There was a loud noise, which once again attracted the attention of the whole class.Lin Xing squatted under the table to pick up the scattered textbooks, and Yang Yuran also squatted down to help her pick them up.

Leaning on the podium, the teacher in charge said sarcastically, "I'm really clumsy, and I don't know myself at all."

Lin Xing paused when picking up the book. For some reason, tears fell from the sockets of her eyes and hit the back of her hand. She covered her eyes with her palms, trying to stop the tears from flowing, but her eyes didn't obey her control, and the more she If I don't want to cry, the tears will become more violent, and the brand-new textbook will be wetted.

Although she was young, she was often bullied by others, but she was never as wronged and ashamed as she was today, and she wished she could disappear from this world.She would rather the class teacher beat her up directly than say these needle-like words.

For the first time, Lin Xing knew that hurting people with words was [-] times more painful than direct violence, and it was so painful that he could not speak.

Chinese pinyin and addition and subtraction within ten were learned last semester. This semester, the students in the class are learning more advanced things, but Lin Xing can't even write a single letter well, and the teacher will not teach her more just to take care of her alone Once again, Lin Xing had to study hard by herself. Fortunately, her deskmate, the little girl named Yang Yuran, was kind-hearted and taught Lin Xing a lot. She also told Lin Xing that she could follow the CD-ROM at the back of the textbook Self study.

Lin Xing's intelligence is really mediocre. Even though Xu Xiwan taught her, she still learns very slowly, and she can't even keep up with the level of the last one in her previous class.The homeroom teacher didn't know why, as if he wanted to find fault with Lin Xing. Knowing that Lin Xing couldn't do it, he kept telling Lin Xing to stand up and answer some questions she hadn't learned before, and made her sit down when she couldn't answer the first two times. In the end, I have to stand as a punishment, standing next to the podium to be watched by the crowd, and one stop is a class.

Children are extremely snobbish creatures, especially in a small class, the head teacher is the one who has the absolute right to speak, she dislikes a person, the children can feel it keenly without saying anything, and then spontaneously exclude and isolate her, every class There are always such children in every class, and in this class, the child who is excluded and isolated is Lin Xing.

Slowly, even Yang Yuran, who helped Lin Xing in the first class, began to hate Lin Xing, and drew a "[-] line" in the aisle between their desks to warn Lin Xing not to cross the line.

Especially in today's math test, Lin Xing only knew three arithmetic questions within [-] points. She only scored [-] points in the [-]-point test paper, and the worst students in the class also passed. Pulling it down dragged the whole class down. The always kind math teacher began to show dissatisfaction with Lin Xing. Of course the head teacher became even more angry. The naughtiest boy in the class gave Lin Xing a nickname and called her "Lin Xing". Idiot", because only an idiot will only take three points in the test.

Lin Xing didn't dare to tell Xu Xiwan about this, Xu Xiwan already worked very hard every day, Lin Xing couldn't let her worry about her own affairs anymore, besides, she was too stupid to be hated by others, Lin Xing was afraid that Xu Xiwan would hate him like everyone else in the school, so he dared not say anything.

Even if I cried many times in secret at school, I still have to wipe away my tears after school and try to be happy, so that Wan Wan can know that Xiao Xing worked hard at school, listened to the teacher well, was very good, and was not that stupid , had a great time.

Little Lin Xing doesn't understand the world of adults, but she also has her own "little selfishness" - there is only one Xu Xiwan left in her world, without Xu Xiwan, there is nothing, she can't let Xu Xiwan Also hate myself.

She had been discarded twice, and she didn't want to be discarded a third time.

That's why Xu Xi only saw Lin Xing who was a little more excited than usual later.

But it was discovered by Wanwan, and Wanwan still hated herself.

Where will I be thrown next time?Lin Xing didn't know, the only thing she knew was that there would never be another person who was as nice to her as Wan Wan was.

Lin Xing's eyes were sore.

Can't cry, can't cry, crying will only be more annoying.

As Lin Xing thought about it, tears still rolled down his cheeks, forming two small rivers on his face.

She couldn't cry, she covered her eyes and went back, her tears went back quickly, why was she so disobedient, if she cried again, she would be thrown away by Wan Wan.

Tears poured from her fingers.

Even her thin, thin shoulders began to tremble.

Xu Xi put the food on the table at night, and was about to turn around to ask Lin Xing to eat, when he saw this scene.The child sat on the sofa, covered his eyes, and cried quietly into tears.

"What's wrong with Xiao Xing?" Xu Xi went over late and held Lin Xing in her arms. She thought Lin Xing was crying because the wound was too painful, so she comforted her, "Xiao Xing is in pain, right? Xiao Xing sure It hurts a lot, it's my fault, I didn't take good care of Xiao Xing, hurt you, and even showed you face."

"Wanwan..." Lin Xing broke down in tears, hugging Xu Xiwan's waist, "Don't...don't want me..."

"I will...I will be good...I will work hard...I will never...never..." She was so choked up that she couldn't speak, and could only wrap her arms around Xu Xiwan's waist tightly.

This is because he was wronged at school, so he can think so wildly.

Xu Xiwan hugged her and sighed, feeling a little helpless, "Why doesn't Xiaoxing always believe me?"

Xu Xiwan said, "I won't want you."

These words were like a reassurance, and Lin Xing's trembling shoulders finally calmed down.

"Let's eat." Xu Xiwan said, "Didn't you say you're hungry?"

Lin Xing took a ride with Xu Xiwan to the restaurant.

The meal was silent, Xu Xiwan asked her if she was bullied at school after the meal.

Lin Xing denied it.

"Xiao Xing." Xu Xiwan became serious.

Lin Xing sniffed and asked pitifully, "Would you hate me?"

"No, but if you don't tell me the truth, I will be sad, sad every day, does Xiaoxing want me to be sad every day?"

"I don't want to." Lin Xing shook his head, "I want Wan Wan to be happy every day."

"Xiao Xing can share with me all the things in school, no matter good or bad, and I will be happy."

So Lin Xing confessed to Xu Xiwan intermittently, "The kids at school don't like me."

Xu Xiwan was persuasive, "My Xiaoxing is so cute, how can there be children who don't like it?"

"Because I'm stupid." Lin Xing bowed his head and counted his fingers sullenly, "I don't know how to recite poems, I don't know Chinese characters, I don't know pinyin, and I don't know how to count."

Lin Xing said, "I am, an idiot."

Xu Xiwan's eyes darkened, "Who said that? Teacher?"

Lin Xing shook his head, "Zhang Haoxuan, and my classmates all said so."

"Xiao Xing is not stupid at all." Xu Xiwan smiled, "You don't know these things, not because you are stupid, but because you haven't learned it. Other children know, not because they are smarter than you, but because they are smarter than you." You have studied for half a year, and you just learned it. If Xiao Xing studied for half a year, he would be able to recite more poems and recognize more characters than other students.

This matter is my fault, I didn't consider it thoroughly, and asked you to study, but I didn't expect the problem of not being able to keep up with the progress, Xiao Xing, I apologize to you, can Xiao Xing forgive me? "

Lin Xing snuggled up to Xu Xiwan, "It's not Wanwan's fault, Wanwan is fine."

Xu Xiwan put his hands on her shoulders and did not speak.

Later, Xu Xiwan took Lin Xing to learn the preschool textbook bit by bit, starting from the first lesson.

Xu Xiwan was lonely since she was a child, and she didn't have many friends, so she didn't expect that the social relationship between children would imitate the social relationship of adults. The class, discrimination, and bullying of adults all exist in children groups, and even worse, Much more straightforward than the adult world.

Lin Xing's ability to express is not very good, and Xu Xiwan can guess from her sporadic descriptions that they are all children in the same class. Even if Lin Xing is a new transfer, most of them are just curious and will not humiliate Lin Xing for no reason. Fortunately, Lin Xing was bullied like this in class, of course there is someone behind him to guide him, who?Besides the head teacher who pushed Lin Xing, who else could there be?

As for the reason, Xu Xiwan guessed it pretty well.People died for money, and birds died for food. It was probably because Xu Xi forgot to "respect" the class teacher when he sent Lin Xing to school at night, which caused such a disaster for Lin Xing.

The lower the level, the darker it is. A small class teacher dared to ruin a child's life just because he didn't receive the "red envelope".