River City Story

This day happened to be the fifteenth day of the first lunar month, Lin Yan rinsed his mouth and returned to the bedroom, slept for more than two hours, and woke up again around six o'clock.

He Zhengxi was still sleeping soundly, leaning his head on his chest, trying to shorten his 1.8 meter stature.He doesn't have the usual self-confident appearance at all, he looks like a boy, quite obedient.However, he is indeed still an older boy, but his thinking mode is more complete and mature than his peers.

After observing his younger brother, Lin Yan raised his face and looked through the gap in the curtain.The outside is covered with an indistinct gray-white layer, and a thin and fine drop of water has accumulated in the corner of the glass, creating a quiet and comfortable atmosphere.

He touched the cell phone next to his pillow, opened the calendar, and there were habitually filled notes in the small square.Every month, especially during the seasons, Lin Yan would talk to Xu Jialin at a fixed time.Starting this year, there will be no such step. Lin Yan can't tell what kind of feeling it is.

He Zhengxi's breathing sounded next to his ear, Lin Yan locked the phone screen and closed his eyes again.

When I was a child in Xicheng, on days like this, people started setting off firecrackers outside at five o'clock.Alleys and alleys, one after another, it didn't stop until it was close to eight o'clock.Xu Jialin also often does this kind of thing. He always buys the one with a thousand rings, which is not long, but the decibels are surprisingly high, and it can wake Lin Yan directly from the bed.

When Lin Yan first moved into the old ancestral hall, although he could no longer hear in one ear, he still felt pain from the shock caused by the sharp sound.Xu Jialin seldom pays attention to these minutiae. Sometimes he even throws the firecrackers directly at Lin Yan's door in a joke. He glared at Xu Jialin.

"Drop a golden bean to show uncle!" Xu Jialin likes to tease him like this, and he never tires of it.

Later, when he went to school, he realized that this would make his ears more uncomfortable.

Little things like this gradually accumulated more and more, and Lin Yan summed it up based on his extremely limited life experience at the time: This uncle surnamed Xu may be a gangster who does not do business properly...

But Lin Yan doesn't dislike such adults.Xu Jialin has countless bad problems, but he is very frank and does not hide any of his flaws inside and out, and even seldom treats Lin Yan as a child.It's like...he walked in front of him with big strides, and Lin Yan put his butt behind him and trotted along the way. Occasionally, he stumbled and rolled, and he didn't need help. He patted his clothes to get up, and then ran.

Of course, the more important point is that Xu Jialin let Lin Yan go to school, and it was a good elementary school.

"You don't need to be excellent, but you must recognize all Chinese characters. When I am old, you can read the newspaper to me."

When sending Lin Yan to school, Xu Jialin told him this.

Until now, Lin Yan has not been able to master the sound, form and meaning of all Chinese characters, but reading newspapers is naturally more than enough.It's just that the person who promised to listen to him read the newspaper actually ran away on his own, like every summer when he set off in a hurry a long time ago.The difference is that when two or three months have passed, no one will push open the door with a big travel bag and give him a rough hug with an unshaven beard.

Such thoughts, from the time of Xu Jialin's accident until now, have been lingering in his head over and over again.

Before he knew it, Lin Yan fell asleep again.Although I tried my best to recall Xu Jialin before going to bed, there was still no picture of Xu Jialin in my dream.On the contrary, He Zhengxi would appear from time to time, with his own scenes and plots.

He didn't wake up until almost 9 o'clock in this cage sleep, and when he opened his eyes, the person who caught his eye was his familiar little brother.

"Why are you everywhere..." There was a burst of breath in Lin Yan's nasal cavity that belonged only to those who had fallen asleep, which made people feel very comfortable.He muttered softly, turned his face the other way, his cheeks puffed up slightly.

He Zhengxi only heard the first half of the sentence clearly, and didn't bother to delve into the rest. He walked around the end of the bed with a smile, walked up to Lin Yan, bowed his face and said, "It's past 8:[-], brother. Otherwise, take medicine, Meal time will be disrupted."

Lin Yan stretched out an arm from the side of the quilt, shaking it in the air, He Zhengxi grabbed his white and dry wrist, and added: "Lin Cong got up before 8 o'clock."

With difficulty, Lin Yan wrapped the quilt tightly and sat up straight with the strength of He Zhengxi's hand. His eyes were glued to the wall for more than ten seconds, and finally he chose to get up.

"It's been so depraved lately." He put on his coat, took the warm water handed by He Zhengxi, leaned on the edge of the bed, and said while drinking with his fluffy head drooping.

"No." He Zhengxi quickly denied, "There are very few people who can get up at 9 o'clock during the holidays." He went back and opened the curtains with a slam, letting in the sunlight.He Zhengxi turned around and leaned against the table, and looked at Lin Yan with a smile on his face, "This is the right of us young people, no one will blame you for sleeping in for half a day."

Lin Yan was so frightened by He Zhengxi's extraordinarily gentle appearance that he got goosebumps all over his body. He drank all the water in the cup, cleared his throat, stretched his waist and said, "You have to tell Uncle He what you said. He will definitely find an excuse for his son to be lazy, and he will be sincerely shocked and relieved."

He Zhengxi folded his arms and chuckled, and pouted towards the door, "My dad is outside." He said, "You can go and ask."

Lin Yan's face changed, and he shouted angrily: "You didn't say it earlier!!" He coughed, and opened the drawer to look through the comb.After flipping through for half a minute, he finally remembered that there was no such extra thing at home, and the only one was in the bathroom.

He Zhengxi stretched out his hand again, spread it out, and said to Lin Yan: "My mother is here too, she said she would celebrate the festival with us."

Lin Yan took the comb, smoothed out his hair indiscriminately, raised his leg and gave He Zhengxi a kick, then put on a refreshing smile, opened the door and walked out.

Seeing Lin Yan approaching, Fang Ximin wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, and raised his hand to greet him: "Your brother is too great, we must let He Zhengxi learn more from him, otherwise it would be tiring to keep a straight face every day." , Why didn’t I find out when I came here before!”

Unlike Lin Yan's changing with the trend, Lin Cong is like a primitive natural communication expert.He is used to dealing with anyone with his irrelevant communication mode.For example, now, Fang Ximin has been teased by him so much that the muscles on his face are almost deformed by laughing.Occasionally, Lin Yan felt that Lin Cong and Cai Xusheng should be able to become friends, but if the two of them got mixed together, the ceiling might be overturned.

Standing behind Lin Yan, He Zhengxi patted his shoulders, and said dissatisfiedly to Fang Ximin: "Do you want a son who is in the top three in the exam, or a son who is in the bottom three?"

Fang Ximin laughed even wider after hearing this.Lin Cong raised his hand to refute him: "I have made a lot of progress in the final exam this time, and I have already left the bottom three. Just wait, I will work harder next semester, maybe I can catch up with you."

He Zhengxi cut his head sideways, and then said with a straight face: "That's fine, I'll wait, otherwise you will be my grandson."

Lin Cong didn't choke back, he glanced quickly at Lin Yan and He Zhengxi, and laughed lewdly.

"Are you disgusting?" He Zhengxi stretched out his hand to lift Lin Cong up, "Your main battlefield today is in the kitchen, have you forgotten what you said a few days ago?"

"What time is it! Don't bully me unscrupulously just because of my brother's favor!"

"I'm only bullying you when I'm out of my mind! You have to remember, you asked for it all!"

Lin Yan smiled at Fang Ximin, not knowing whether to laugh or cry, and went to the balcony to greet He Yi, who was basking in the sun, before going to the bathroom, and began to wash his face, brush his teeth and take a shower.

He Yi and Fang Ximin always only had lunch at Lin Yan's place before leaving. They each had too many things to do, but even if they weren't busy, they didn't plan to stay for a long time.In the world of three children, it is not easy for two adults to participate.

Lin Cong said that he would cook the fire himself, but suddenly quit before the battle.He wasn't nervous when facing Lin Yan and He Zhengxi, but now that there were more elders, he felt stage fright.Lin Yan had no choice but to roll up his sleeves and serve it by himself, while He Zhengxi was cutting vegetables and side dishes, with a perfect understanding.As for Lin Cong, he cooked a pot of glutinous rice balls very carefully.When served, the noodle soup is black and sesame-colored.

"Except for a mouth that can speak, you really have nothing to praise." He Zhengxi stared at the bowl on the dining table and frowned.

He Yi couldn't help laughing a few times, causing Fang Ximin to roll his eyes, so he rubbed his nose, changed his serious face, and yelled for everyone to serve juice and clink glasses.

Although Fang Ximin loves to listen to Lin Cong's chat, but because of Lin Yan's family affairs, she can't get too close to Lin Cong. She regards Lin Cong as an outsider, and is very worried that there will be problems with his character development.Looking at it now, he is indeed a pretty good kid, but no one can say for sure what will happen in the future.What if I turn around and bite Lin Yan one day?Lin Yan now regards Lin Cong as a innocent and harmless cute little brother, and treats him wholeheartedly, Fang Ximin actually wants to persuade him.It's just that if words are spoken out, it may cause a rift in the originally harmonious relationship, which may be a big problem again.Let's just say that this kid is very good now, if he can always follow Lin Yan and He Zhengxi, he should not be able to find anything. Maybe he can improve his grades and get into a decent school.

She can think about so many things in twists and turns, but she is also thinking about her son.He Zhengxi can't do without Lin Yan, everything about Lin Yan is closely related to him, and her son is too persistent in some aspects, so it is easy to do some outrageous things.Last year, when she knew that He Zhengxi had knocked Lin Cong's head off, her face turned pale with fright.Fang Ximin felt extremely emotional, family and family are the most complicated issues in the world.

No matter how long it takes, it has to be filled, and no one can escape.

After dinner, the three of them went downstairs to bid farewell to He Zhengxi's parents. At Lin Cong's suggestion, they went to the shopping mall across the road and brought out a bunch of snacks.After arriving home, Lin Yan distributed a red envelope to each of his two younger brothers.

"I didn't take care of it during the Spring Festival. I don't have much money. It should be enough to buy a pair of sneakers." He said.

There was a shelf of envelopes near the stationery counter in the mall. Lin Yan suddenly remembered about the New Year's money when he saw it.In previous years, I had to pack it, and after getting to know Lin Cong, I would also prepare a copy for him.Although he knew that their family was not short of money, but he was the only adult among the three, so such a ceremony still had to be done.

Lin Cong happily put it away, cheered and ran back to the bedroom to find the wallet.He Zhengxi pinched the envelope hesitantly, trying to stuff it back several times.

Lin Yan gave him a red envelope when he was a child, and there was only a small amount of money in it, but for a child, no matter how small the money was, it was still a huge sum, and he was happy at that time.Afterwards, He Zhengxi recognized his parents and had a cold war with Lin Yan, but when there were big festivals, he would still receive some money, which was still not much.The messages from Lin Yan were only two or three sentences, mostly telling him to study hard, use the money to buy stationery or save money and so on.After arguing on the phone during the winter vacation in the first year, He Zhengxi was probably very unwilling to admit defeat and resented Lin Yan for letting him go back to Yancheng. He would always return the money, and even got angry once. He sent Lin Yan a message saying: "I don't want your money, don't send it anymore, and I don't want to be your younger brother."

After sending out this text message, Lin Yan did not reply to him. A few months later, he continued to send money to He Zhengxi as usual, leaving only a few messages.This made He Zhengxi angry and had nowhere to vent, so he could only say thank you in shame.As for the three "no", He Zhengxi admitted that he really didn't want Lin Yan's money, and how busy Lin Yan was, wouldn't he know?How could he bear to take the money.As for not wanting to be a younger brother, this is naturally He Zhengxi's sincere heart, the reason is needless to say.

It's just that at that time, he was full of anger, and he couldn't think of appropriate words at all.Thinking about it now, I feel unreasonable.

"Give it to me if you don't want it." Lin Yan said to him suddenly, "Anyway, you will be 18 soon, and you won't be able to get it next year."

He Zhengxi stuffed the red envelope into the lining pocket, and smirked: "I'll give you the money next year."

Lin Yan pursed his lips and shook his head, and said: "You don't need to rush for quick success, take your time, don't worry."

The next day when Lin Cong started school, under his various beggings, Lin Yan accompanied him on the bus to school.It coincided with the rush hour of travel, and it was not until halfway through that there were vacant seats on the car.

Although the two of them are brothers with a good relationship, they are not close enough to sit and embrace each other at all.Seeing that Lin Cong had been dozing off by leaning on the armrest, Lin Yan dragged Lin Cong to the front and pushed him on the seat before the people nearby had time to come over.Lin Cong closed his eyes and hesitated, subconsciously stretched out his hand to squeeze Lin Yan's coat tightly, leaned his head on his lap, and fell asleep in a daze.

Seeing his calm and at ease, Lin Yan smiled helplessly and sighed.

Most of the students on the bus were students, and the style of the school uniform in the coat was exactly the same as that of Lin Cong.Lin Yan turned his head and looked around. He didn't know whether it was because his mood had changed, or because Lin Cong's classmates were really under a lot of pressure. Lin Yan felt that their faces were not full of vitality, even more sleepy than himself.

In his middle school days, he was surrounded by poverty and exhaustion all day long, but because he had the courage to break the boat, he was always full of energy.Now that I went back to experience it, I realized that this state is actually very beneficial to my growth, not only disadvantageous.Because he can concentrate on going straight to a road without being bound by family, social, resources, and preaching.

Already standing near the bottom, no matter how you go in the future, half of the possibilities will be upward.This truth has only recently begun to become clear to him.The only thing Lin Yan felt dissatisfied with was that he couldn't take Xu Jialin to walk a few more steps on the good road together.

Involuntarily, he thought of Xu Jialin again.That person overdrawn everything when he was young, and he should have enjoyed everything he should have enjoyed. Going to bars, dancing disco, finding women, forming cliques, hugging each other, and finally trying to spend time in jail in a fashionable way.Many people may not have such a rich experience in their whole life.Lin Yan didn't know if Xu Jialin had the word "contentment" in his life, but at least, every time Lin Yan went to visit him in recent years, there was no such thing as desire in his eyes at all.

The clouds are light and the wind is light, casual and unrestrained.This is not a state that can only be achieved by discipline. Lin Yan used to feel relaxed about it, but the last blow came so fast that no one could have imagined it.

He looked down at the sleeping Lin Cong, thinking that if something happened to Lin Xucheng one day, what would Lin Cong do?And He Zhengxi, no one in his family is weak, and in the future, the burden on his shoulders will not be light.Measured in this way, he became the most comfortable one.He didn't know whether to worry about them, or to take pleasure in their misfortune for the time being.Soon Lin Yan felt a little despicable again. After all, Lin Xucheng was only in his 40s, and the presupposition of an accident was no different from cursing someone to death.

After glancing at the station notice on the carriage, Lin Yan pulled the corner of his clothes out of Lin Cong's hand, and patted his face: "There are two stops left, classmate, wake up."

Lin Cong opened his eyes, stretched in the limited space, raised his face to Lin Yan, wrinkled his facial features tightly, and then quickly stretched them out.

Lin Yan was puzzled: "Huh???"

Lin Cong shook his head dejectedly, turned his face to the car window, and said, "Brother, you are so slow."

Lin Yan smiled wryly: "Where did I make you unhappy?"

Lin Cong turned his face back again: "I was acting like a baby to you just now, didn't you see that?"

Lin Yan looked at him with disgust: "You are a boy, and you are 16 or 7, and you are acting like a baby with your elder brother? Are you insane?"

Lin Cong sighed and didn't plan to talk to Lin Yan anymore.

Lin Yan couldn't figure out why Lin Cong was suddenly unhappy. He stood there in a daze like a bewildered parent, unable to say anything for a while.After getting off the car, standing at the school gate, Lin Cong pursed his lips and looked like he was about to cry.

"What? Someone at school is bothering you?" Lin Yan couldn't help straightening his twisted backpack straps, "Still don't want to go to school? You're already a high school student, so don't always expect adults to solve your problems."

Lin Cong shook his head: "No."

Lin Yan pressed his eyebrows tightly, "Then you said it."

Lin Cong: "Don't tell me."

Lin Yan turned around on purpose: "Hold it yourself, I have to go."

Lin Cong was anxious: "Don't!" He scratched his hair, turned his head, and said hesitantly: "Brother, although parents are too much, you can treat me as your own brother."

Lin Yan nodded in confusion: "Of course, am I not good enough for you?"

"Ah!" Lin Cong howled, causing the students to look this way, "It's not a big deal." He lowered his voice and said, "That's right, I hope you can get closer to me, I always feel that there is a generation gap between us. It's really big."

Generation gap?Lin Yan's eyes widened in shock.The age difference between the two brothers is only 4 or 5 years old. Lin Cong used the word "generation gap" to describe them. I really didn't know whether to cry or laugh!

"Do you think I don't regard you as one of my own?" Lin Yan asked him with his head slightly lowered.

Lin Cong hesitated and hummed.

This character is really straightforward, Lin Yan thought.Compared with his younger brother in the normal sense, he really looked at Lin Cong as a child.Therefore, there is nothing wrong with using the term generation gap...

Lin Cong was completely different from He Zhengxi's high-IQ awkward guy. He was a very ordinary, lively adolescent boy.Most of the time the mind is simpler, the so-called "straight ball" type.Chatting with such a person is a very carefree and relaxing thing. No matter how big or small the knot in my heart is, it is not a dead knot, and it can be solved by picking it carefully with your fingers.

"Where did I not treat you as my own?" Lin Yan said innocently, "All the bedrooms are allocated to you."

Lin Cong snorted and complained, "That's because He Zhengxi's motives are impure."

Lin Yan cast his eyes elsewhere, then turned back: "Oh, whatever you think."

Lin Cong turned his head, with an expression of "you're messing with me again".

"I actually don't know what the 'one of my own' means in your mouth." Lin Yan walked up to Lin Cong and said seriously, "This kind of question is not something you should think about at your age, there is no need ,understand?"

"don't know……"

Lin Yan sighed: "Sorry, I will teach you more brazenly in the future, so the head office?"

"That's not the case." Lin Cong continued to purse his lips, "Why did you have to give up your seat to me on the bus just now?"

Lin Yan spread his hands: "You are so sleepy, who will I not give it to you? This kind of question is worth getting angry? I don't understand you teenagers with adolescent problems, or do you have special hobbies?"

"Brother, I don't understand what you're saying, but that bastard He Zhengxi once showed me that the two of you are sitting in the same chair! On the bus." Lin Cong whispered angrily.

"!"WTF!

Lin Yan's ears turned red instantly, "You can only believe half of what he said! Did he say anything else???"

Lin Cong looked up suspiciously: "Not anymore."

Lin Yan let out a sigh of relief, and patted Lin Cong's head, "Okay, this matter is nothing compared to farts, and it's worth your endless fussing and wasting my time."

"...Okay then." Lin Cong combed his hair messed up by Lin Yan, turned around and gave Lin Yan a hug, "Then I'm going to school, bro."

Lin Yan waved the back of his hand like a father: "Hurry up and go."

Lin Cong reluctantly asked again: "Then will you come to pick me up this afternoon?"

Lin Yan: "Go away! Don't even think about it!"

Lin Cong trotted into the school neatly, and went upstairs with his classmates shoulder to shoulder.He doesn't care if he is called "stupid". Since the second half of elementary school, Lin Xucheng's career has been getting better and better. The pocket money in Lin Cong's hands has naturally increased, and many friends have surrounded him because of this.He spent a lot of money, and some classmates even praised his beautiful pencil case, and Lin Cong would generously give it away on the spot.

This kind of behavior made the other party very embarrassed, but Lin Cong didn't realize it. He just hoped to make friends who could chat with him by giving gifts.Lin Cong was very lonely, Lin Xucheng was not at home all day, and Yu Qin had no common topics with him, only knowing to give pocket money.This is a very rich and simple trouble, Lin Cong had to solve it in a more rich and simple way.

Meeting Lin Yan and He Zhengxi and getting along with them is the most interesting and profound experience of Lin Cong so far.He even gradually felt that what his parents gave him was not as much as what his elder brother Lin Yan gave him. It might sound unfilial, but in Lin Cong's heart, he really thought so.

Therefore, he must firmly grasp this relationship, and need to test it from time to time to reassure himself.

Of course, what he hopes most is pure brotherhood, which is different from He Zhengxi's peddling...

After the Lantern Festival passed, Xu Jialin's May Seventh came soon, but Lin Yan had no plans to return to Xicheng.He clearly knew how much he could bear in this matter, so he didn't dare to move.He Zhengxi saw that Lin Yan kept silent, so he also kept silent.It's impossible for him to take the initiative to mention it. Xu Jialin's position in Lin Yan's heart is too important. No matter how strong a person is, it is difficult to get out of it in a short time.

But on May 2000th, Lin Yan called He Zhengxi and went to the suburbs together.The ashes of paper with flames flew up into the sky, and soon disappeared.Whether this thought, sent over [-] kilometers away, can reach Xu Jialin's ears is unknown.

The old ancestral hall has long been refurbished, and it seems to be rented out for use as a salon and bar; the changes in Linshui Street are even greater. A memorial archway was built at the entrance of the alley, and a whole row of exquisite buildings was built along the river. Delicate antique two-story building.Even if Xu Jialin could really go back, he probably wouldn't bother looking for the house.Maybe he will find a place to eat and drink nearby, hang in the air, and smell the alcohol.

Miraculously, that night, Lin Yan actually dreamed of Xu Jialin.According to the legend, the day when the soul returned home, Xu Jialin knew it as scheduled, as if it had been promised.Standing in front of Lin Yan with his appearance when the two first met more than ten years ago, with a cigarette butt in his mouth, he laughed straight.Holding the old schoolbag that Lin Yan used in primary school on his finger, turning it back and forth like a windmill, he still has the unruly image.

There was no bandage on his head, and there was no tube in his throat. It was completely intact and belonged to Xu Jialin himself.

He stared at Lin Yan for a while, without saying a word, just laughed.Lin Yan wanted to chat with him, he could do anything, but he couldn't make a sound when he opened his mouth.Xu Jialin waved his hand, as if signaling Lin Yan to stop working.Then he turned around, lightly tossed the schoolbag in his hand, caught it again, hung it behind his back, and bid farewell to Lin Yan gracefully.

Lin Yan immediately became anxious, and he was about to follow. Unexpectedly, Xu Jialin suddenly uttered a voice. Lin Yan heard him say slowly and clearly in his usual hoarse voice: "Dad has done the most reliable job in this life. The one thing I did was to bring you home, and in the days to come, I must live well, remember?"

Lin Yan kept shaking his head, he wanted to tell Xu Jialin that he couldn't remember, could I beg you to wait a little longer.But Xu Jialin strode forward without looking back, walking further and further away like a walker, and soon, his figure disappeared in a cloud of flying sand, leaving nothing behind for Lin Yan.

Lin Yan stood motionless on the spot, looking at the boundless and barren land in front of him, feeling desolate in his heart.

After staying there for an unknown amount of time, a gust of wind blew in from afar, and the ground surface suddenly cracked and sank. Lin Yan's feet disappeared instantly. He began to sink along with the sand dunes, and human voices came from his ears.

Opening his eyes with difficulty, under the light of the desk lamp, Lin Yan focused on the face of the person in front of him.

"It's you talking..." He rubbed the corners of his eyes, his voice was dry, "Old acquaintance."

He Zhengxi lay down again, and asked softly, "Did you dream about Uncle Xu?"

"Yeah." Lin Yan replied, "I didn't expect Wu Qi to come back. He's pretty smart, but he didn't speak, and he couldn't see people clearly. I didn't even have time to ask him what he planned to do in the future... "

The dimly lit room was silent for a while, and then intermittent choking sounds sounded. Lin Yan breathed heavily, and tears silently flowed out of his eyes, soaking the pillow towel.

He Zhengxi didn't speak. He stretched five fingers on his left hand, crossed and merged with Lin Yan's curled fingers, and wrapped Lin Yan's head with his right hand, bringing him into his arms.

Lin Yan no longer resisted He Zhengxi's overtures, and at this moment, their positions seemed to be completely reversed.He leaned on He Zhengxi's chest, feeling the steady and powerful heartbeat from He Zhengxi's body, and his whole body seemed to have gained a brief tranquility.

His tired nerves slowly relaxed, and soon, he fell asleep again, without a dream all night.

After that day, they also started school.

Spring comes quickly, and on the streets inside and outside the school, crops of flowers bloom and wither like a relay.When the flowering period is over and the canopy is dyed with a highly saturated new green, the time has entered early summer, and Lin Yan's healing cycle has finally opened another new stage.

During this period, his appetite gradually improved and his condition gradually recovered. Everyone who experienced it was happy about it.

This is really not easy.For most outsiders, mental illness tends to go unnoticed.Even though they are receiving more and more attention from the media and scholars, they are still synonymous with "problematic personality", and not many people know how painful the patient is.After all, when life is going well, who wants to take a few minutes to understand what other people are suffering?Even Lin Yan himself is not willing to open the social page every day to lament, or confide how much distress he has in his heart to an acquaintance.

He worked very hard to survive the most difficult days, returning to daily work and life little by little, and even joined the fitness group run by his juniors with He Zhengxi, and started to get in touch with professional long-distance running tentatively.

He was pleasantly surprised to find that he enjoyed the experience of long-distance running.This feeling is very unique, like re-walking the past life path. It was indeed full of discomfort at the beginning, but slowly, he ran more and more smoothly, and he was almost addicted.

At the end of this new road, in addition to sweat and hard work, there is also infinite joy, as well as eager anticipation and longing for the next departure.

He Zhengxi was delighted with all the changes in Lin Yan, no, maybe it shouldn't be called a change, because Lin Yan used to be so radiant, dazzling and charming.In a few months, when all the treatments are finished one after another, Lin Yan will definitely be better than now, and He Zhengxi has no doubt about it.

"Your look, I really have nothing to say." Lin Yan walked over sweating with a scarf around his neck, and sat cross-legged with him on the grass near the plastic track.

He Zhengxi smiled, and handed over the water bottle in his hand, "Let's go outdoors next week, and make a hundred laps here, why don't you go out and run for a few kilometers."

Lin Yan nodded cheerfully: "Okay, I just went out for a picnic." He took the backpack, took out his mobile phone and read the memo, "I need to find some free time, I'm too busy recently, I have to go to Dr. Yang for a follow-up visit, and I have to go for a run , to review..."

He Zhengxi raised his cheeks and looked into the distance, grabbed two stalks of grass in his hands, and murmured a word with his mouth pursed.

Lin Yan pushed his head knowingly, "I haven't forgotten your birthday."

He held up the phone screen in front of He Zhengxi, "Look, isn't this a sign? Recently I was thinking about what gift to buy for you. At least I'm 18. I've been going around for a while, and I finally became an adult by taking advantage of your wishes. As for me, There is a plan, haven't you recently researched a new one..."

"Stop, stop, stop!" He Zhengxi interrupted Lin Yan, covering his ears tightly, "Don't reveal any details of the gift to me, I want a surprise! A surprise!"

Lin Yan immediately agreed, and changed the topic to talk to him: "Actually, there is something I haven't told you about the postgraduate entrance examination, for fear that you will be angry."

"Oh..." The atmosphere quickly cooled down, and He Zhengxi turned his head to look at Lin Yan intently: "I know, isn't it because you want to go back to Xicheng?" Talk to me."

"Then what do you think?" Lin Yan asked immediately.

"What do you think?" He Zhengxi's eyes were full of grievances, compared with his figure, he looked very pitiful.

Lin Yan rubbed the sweat from his palms, and said in a deliberative tone: "Actually, I have made a lot of presuppositions in the past six months, about our relationship, about our future life, about this life, you have paid too much now, If one day I come back again, I mean, the chances of completely getting better with this kind of problem are very low, I really can't promise you anything."

He raised his hands and wiped his temple hair behind his ears casually, revealing his entire face flushed with sweat.Handsome and beautiful, He Zhengxi's eyes were dazed.

"At the dinner table, I said that I wanted to go back. I was actually a little impulsive, and I could even say that I didn't care about it. I, I like that place so much, and I can't bear the people there..."

"I understand what you want to say, brother." He Zhengxi said first.He let out a breath, and firmly clenched Lin Yan's forearm with both hands, "Aside from any personal emotional factors, I still don't agree with you returning to Xicheng. You still think that you are my burden, and you don't understand yourself at all. How much energy do you have. Brother, do you really know why you want to go back?"

There was sullenness in He Zhengxi's words, this was the first time in recent months that he had used slightly tough words to Lin Yan, and his fingertips even trembled slightly.

"The answer to this question, I can answer for you now." He said, "Don't go, at least for three years, I will not allow you to leave me alone in Yancheng. I just hope you don't go."

"What about three years later?" Lin Yan put on his clothes, and looked into the distance, "Every time you say something like this, I always feel that I am facing another He Zhengxi, who is no stranger to me, but it is difficult to adapt to it. You understand the reason." He rubbed his cold arms after being blown dry by the wind, and put on his sleeves, "However, this is also because you have been growing up, but I have always been walking in the same place, refusing to accept the reality , various realities."

These words must not be very pleasant to He Zhengxi's ears, but it also represented Lin Yan's sincerity to himself, so he boldly stretched out his hand and forcibly turned Lin Yan's face back towards him.

"Allow me to skip this topic directly." He stared at Lin Yan, his eyes were sharp and affectionate, with a weight beyond his age.Looking directly at him like this, Lin Yan felt guilty and embarrassed soon.He blinked a few times quickly, and moved his gaze down to the tip of He Zhengxi's nose.

"Hey." When He Zhengxi spoke again, there was some helplessness in his tone.

"Two things," he said, "and don't expect me to correct it. I have to be strong enough to deal with a character like yours, otherwise, I will definitely be led away by you again, or we will have another big fight and roll to the ground Fight each other."

"...Every time you say that, I feel very uncomfortable." Lin Yandao, "I always feel that I am very cunning and like a vacillating heartbroken?"

He Zhengxi twitched the corners of his mouth, tilted his head, and gave him a half-smile look.

"Aren't you cunning?" he asked.

"The cunning person, it's always you, He Zhengxi." Lin Yan lowered his head, his expression was hidden in a shadow, and only the undulating lines of his profile could be seen.

"Even though there is no blood relationship, we did live together as brothers and sisters for five years. From the first day you stepped into the gate of the old ancestral hall, I was ready for 'this child will leave sooner or later'. Facts have proved that this preparation is necessary." Lin Yan raised his face with a smile, and cast his gaze to the sky, "Do you know what I was thinking at that time? You always complained that I sent you away too quickly and too badly. It's close to human, like throwing a burden."

He Zhengxi immediately argued