Fang does not leave the year

Since the conversation that day, Fang Nian hasn't seen Xue Zhilin for many days, not even seeing anyone at breakfast.Asked the nanny at home, and only got one sentence: "Mr. Xue said he has very important things to do..."

Then there is no text.

Fang Nian thought about it for a while, and he probably understood a little bit. He might really believe what he told him that Mr. Li might live like himself...

But those words are all my own nonsense!

Fang Nian felt a little guilty. He shouldn't have lied to Mr. Xue in order to comfort him...especially by telling him that Mr. Li might still be alive.

Mr. Xue is a good man, he should have a happy family.Perhaps it would be good for him to obey the arrangement of his family, go on a blind date, and find another loved one to form a family again.

Gu Pingsheng came again today.

When he came, Fang Nian was preparing to paint, but after thinking about it for a long time, he still felt unable to draw.His mind was in a mess, thinking about Xue Zhilin.

"What do you think?"

Suddenly a person appeared behind him, and Fang Nian was taken aback. The little seal he was playing with in his hand almost fell to the ground and broke, but fortunately Gu Pingsheng caught it.

Gu Pingsheng took a look at this small seal, Hetian Yu's.After dipping in the ink pad, he pressed it on the rice paper that Fang Nian had laid out.

"Hmm... Master Baitian, what do you mean?"

"It means Baicheng and Shutian."

"What do you mean by Baicheng and Shutian?" Gu Pingsheng asked this sentence, sitting behind the desk naturally, not treating himself as an outsider at all, as if he was the owner of this place.

Fang Nian remembered that Gu Pingsheng was also a top student, didn't he understand?He glanced at him secretly, seeing that he was still staring at him, he was at a loss for what to do.Turning the wheelchair around, he went to the coffee table and poured him a glass of water.

"Please drink water... Baicheng and Shutian both mean books. Baicheng comes from "Northern History·Li Xiaobo Biography": "My husband has thousands of volumes of books, why pretend to be a hundred cities in the south?" The allusion of Shutian comes from "Wang Mai · Sending the nephew of the family back to Zhangpu Poetry": "May the son continue from now on, and the book fields will be sown frequently." I carved this small seal when I have nothing to do, just for fun."

"Oh..." After hearing this, Gu Pingsheng only answered with a single syllable, then leaned on the back of the armchair, looked at the ceiling, and also saw the bookshelf that was almost as high as the ceiling.

This is an action he often does, and Fang Nian is no stranger to it.

The two sat quietly like this, neither of them spoke.Fang Nian quietly raised his eyes to peek at him, but couldn't see his face.The top two buttons of his shirt were unbuttoned, and his collarbone could be clearly seen.

He's lost weight again...

Looking up, you can see his neck, Adam's apple, and the unshaven stubble on his chin.

He used to pay the most attention to his appearance, and often shaves him by himself. Although he doesn't like it, he always stands still and cooperates...

Thinking of those days, Fang Nian looked at his legs now... He also raised his head hastily, because he was afraid of tears falling down.

"Do you know Fang Nian?"

Fang Nian was caught off guard by Gu Pingsheng's sudden question, so he hurried to see him.He still looked up at the ceiling without moving.

"..."

"Do you know Fang Nian?" Gu Pingsheng asked again.

"Fang Nian...oh, I know. Fang Nian is Yueyue's father, and it's your..."

Fang Nian couldn't continue, and lowered his head.What kind of status he used to have in his heart is still unclear to him, so he doesn't dare to say it.

"He is my lover!" Gu Pingsheng said quietly.

Fang Nian looked up at him in surprise, "You said, he is yours..."

Gu Pingsheng half-closed his eyes, "Yes! He is my lover. It's a pity that I didn't understand my heart until he left! But it's too late...it's too late!"

"Mr. Gu..." Fang Nian didn't know what to say, should he comfort him?Or should I feel happy?Because he heard with his own ears his feelings for himself...

Although time has changed and things have changed!

"When I met him, he hadn't graduated from university, but he had already found a stable job. He still cooks a lot of delicious food, and he also takes pictures of the food and puts them on the Internet. I went to eat with him When I was in bed, he made me a lot of snacks... I know, he didn't really let me eat, he wanted me to spend more time with him, even if it was just a few more minutes, he would be happy. I used to be very carefree and promiscuous, I found a lot of young people, I raised them, gave them money, bought them various luxuries, and even houses. It’s like the ancient emperor’s harem... Now thinking about my previous life, it was really like a dream , just like my previous life, although many of them also came here.

But Fang Nian is different, he didn't come here for these things.He has a formal job, he can support himself, and he has never asked me for anything since he joined me.If he hadn't met me, he might have lived a stable life for the rest of his life.Blame me... I fell in love with him first, he is good-looking, his brows and eyes look soft, but his personality is a little different from his appearance, but I liked him that way at that time, and I tried my best to get him in hand.

At the beginning, because I was still fresh, I tried my best to treat him well, and he quickly fell in love with me.It's just... Later I lost patience with him, and sometimes I didn't see him once in three or four months.He never bothered me on the phone, he only visited when I remembered him.He is very afraid of heights, and I deliberately teased him by getting drunk and throwing him on the plane... You don’t know how frightened he was that time, he couldn’t fall asleep for a whole month, and when he fell asleep, he would sweat and do Nightmares, I can only sleep by taking sleeping pills... I only found out about this later, when I wasn't by his side.

He treated me with sincerity, but I was always indifferent to him, even ignoring him.You don't know, he is really obedient to me.Occasionally resisting and quarreling with me, I take it as a hobby, and never consider whether he is really unhappy or angry... I even forgot that he is also a living person and has his own emotions and feelings .My mistake was that I treated him as a doll, hugged him and accompanied him when I was in a good mood.I'm in a bad mood, I don't care if he stays in that corner, anyway, he will always be there waiting for me...

I was wrong, he didn't wait for me..."

Fang Nian tried his best to relax his mood, his body now does not allow him to have too excited emotions.But after hearing what sounded like an apology, guilt, and confession, even an outsider couldn't remain indifferent.

What's more, this is what the person I love the most said to me!

"Mr. Gu..."

"Don't talk! Listen to me! If I don't talk today, maybe I won't have another chance in the future. I've held these words in my heart for too long, and I don't think I can make it through if I don't talk about it. Xiaoxi...you know For some reason, I saw Fang Nian's shadow in you. I know I shouldn't think so, after all, you are Lao Xue's lover. But I just have such an intuition, so I say these words to you ,hope you do not mind."

"Of course! Of course I...wouldn't mind! Mr. Gu, I...Should I persuade you? Since...Since Mr. Fang has left, you should start your life again, not to mention, he I also left you Yue Yue. The deceased is gone, maybe he has already reincarnated, maybe he has forgotten his friendship with you and you with him, why should Mr. Gu be persistent!"

Gu Pingsheng didn't speak, but Fang Nian knew he was crying.

Is he always like this?

Fang Nian stared at him for a few seconds before hesitating to speak.His current identity is Li Weixi...a person who knows Gu Pingsheng but has no friendship.There are some things he wants to say in his heart, but due to his status, he shouldn't say them...

Thinking back and forth in my mind, I finally turned the wheelchair and went out silently.He knew that Gu Pingsheng didn't want others to see his tears.

Only Gu Pingsheng was left in the room, still raising his head, rubbing the small seal with his hands.