If this sweet shell is destined to be peeled off by you

"Yes, although not now, but after this season, he will come to fish."

Standing outside the barbed wire wall, looking through the hole Xueyue looked at this place that he missed.

The original muddy water was paved with two layers of steps made of stone slabs, and the grass on the side had just emerged, with fluffy blue shoots, a little bit of green.

"Kara!"

Beside, Xiao Lin has already opened the door, beckoning Xue Yue to go in with him.The door is not too high, so you need to lower your head, but when the two of you entered, the moment the door closed, Xue Yue suddenly felt that she had returned to the childhood where there were no other bright colors except this touch of green.

Standing on the stone slab, it feels different from the soft soil under your feet. The steps that can fully accommodate two stools are more stable. The water waves will be blown out of folds by the wind from time to time, gently pushing the stone steps, so you don’t have to worry about getting your feet wet.

"Ah! It feels really comfortable... This is the most comfortable place in the yard. Although being dragged fishing by the director sometimes feels boring, it is indeed very relaxing! Hehe!"

He couldn't help laughing, and the pair of eyes under Kobayashi's glasses were bent into a cute shape. The corners of the eyes were long, which seemed to have a kind of affinity.But inexplicably, Xueyue felt that such smiling eyes were very similar to Maeda.

The smile on Xue Yue's face made me feel very unnatural, and I tried to find a topic to make myself forget about it.

"Uncle, does he always like to pull people to accompany him to fish?"

"Yeah, most of the time he comes to fish during his breaks, but... he is still very busy and has little free time. Although winter will come, but it is said that he is here for fishing, but it is actually similar to feeding."

The relaxed Xiao Lin's voice was a little languid, and the slightly nasal sound made Xue Yue feel relieved a lot.

"Well. Yes, uncle, he really likes fishing."

Turning her head to look at the water surface, Xue Yue wanted to see if there was any active guy in the water.

However, Xiaolin suddenly realized that Xueyue and the dean have been fishing together for several years, and he has no need or qualification to say these things.

"Hey, Xueyue, can I ask you a question?"

Turning to look at Xueyue, Xiao Lin looked calm.Looking at Xueyue, she just nodded, hummed, and then said it cautiously.

"The dean... Has he always been so lonely? I have been here for more than a year, but I have never seen anyone else around the dean."

"It's not so much loneliness."

Xueyue, who didn't look up, let out a sigh of relief.

"It should be more lonely."

"lonely?"

Xiao Lin, who was full of doubts, also looked at the little fish swimming in the water.

"Uncle, when he took me fishing, he was just fishing. When I was young, I was not good at talking. My uncle might think that I couldn't talk, so he didn't chat with me. He just stared at the float and sat for an afternoon. I didn't know much at that time. Why can I sit still when I’m so bored, I don’t take away the fish I catch, but I put them back before I leave, this kind of boring thing has tormented me for a while.”

Can't help laughing, Xue Yue continued.

"But then I understood. Uncle, the reason why he wastes time fishing and releasing fish is that he is really too busy. Relying on such boring things to pass precious time, maybe only loneliness can do it. Always He was working hard for the orphanage, and he had no private time, and no one to accompany him. Later, when I grew up, I felt that fishing quietly with my uncle was really a kind of relaxation.”

"Hey...that's great...why did he keep talking to me when I was fishing with the dean..."

A little envious of Xueyue, Xiao Lin's mood is a little delicate.

"Isn't that great? Uncle, he usually doesn't talk to me too much. Well, maybe it's because I was young at that time. Tell me, I probably wouldn't understand."

"Ah? Forgive me, haha! Mr. Dean is not forgiving, and I have suffered a lot!"

Amused by Xiao Lin's words, Xue Yue squatted beside the water with a smile and stirred the cold water with her fingers.

"Mr. Xiaolin...you have a good relationship with Uncle, I always feel that you..."

The hesitant gap in the words made Xiaolin a little nervous, and he always thought that he was very natural and there should be no mistakes.

Xueyue turned her head easily, and looked at Xiao Lin with a smile on her face.

"Always bickering, like a daily routine between couples!"

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No matter how you look at it, Xueyue is only a young man around 20 years old, and he is indeed only 22 years old.What surprised Xiao Lin was that his insight was so sharp. The feeling of being exposed made his face a little hot, so he had to cover his mouth and cough in embarrassment.

"This...is really embarrassing..."

The embarrassing look of dodging eyes made Xue Yue stunned.He didn't expect that it was just a joke, but Xiao Lin's reaction was a disguised admission.

"Eh?!"

Xueyue's unexpected appearance made Xiao Lin feel so regretful that he wanted to jump into the water, that sentence could be treated as a joke, but who knew that he couldn't pretend, he was defeated first and admitted the fact.

"No, I, my... ah... how can I explain it to you... Actually, the dean!"

"It's alright."

Facing Xiaolin's embarrassment, Xueyue looked relaxed and calm. After all, he had to face this situation every day, so naturally he would not react.

"The place where I work is a gay bar. It's been four years. I won't be surprised. And I think that if you are attracted to someone from the bottom of your heart, you don't need to care whether it's a man or a woman."

In Xiaolin's eyes, the handsome Xueyue at this moment seemed to be an angel descending, with love and understanding, almost moved him to tears.

Not knowing what to do to make a good expression, and not knowing whether to smile or not, Xiao Lin just touched his earlobe and said thank you a little embarrassedly.

Xiao Lin, who is in love with a man for the first time, carefully takes care of the uneasiness hidden deep in his heart, cares about other people's eyes, and is afraid that he will not be able to bear it.Although Xueyue's understanding can't completely relieve all anxiety, it can make her heart less tense and depressed.

"Really... Thank you for your understanding."

Her cheeks were a little hot, but fortunately Xueyue didn't care, she just stood up and straightened her clothes.

"Let's go out? Although I'm not afraid of the cold, but Mr. Xiao Lin seems to be very cold, his face is red from the cold, shall we go back?"

Looking innocently at himself, who was blushing, Xiao Lin only felt that he wanted to find a crack in the ground to sneak in.This is not cold, this is obviously a surge of blood, and it is all because of his shyness.

"Ah, let's go back, the dean will be back in a while."

After all, the two locked the door and walked in the place they used to come and go.

On the other hand, Maeda, who was riding a motorcycle, was in a mess.He is in his 30s and can't easily control his emotions. At this moment, he can't wait to roar and vent.It's just that when the cold wind blows through the hairline, it makes me calmer, and I blame myself while reflecting.

When facing the pure Xueyue, there is always a feeling of being on the verge of losing control, trying to suppress it and slowing down, but today it is so hard to hold on, it is really a mistake.

The locomotive was fast, and Maeda rode to the beach in the cold wind, and sat on the bike without getting off, leaning his elbows against the bike, looking a bit slumped.

Xueyue is really too clean, the lips that have never been touched by anyone are wet and soft, and the light-colored pupils in the clear eyes are reflected even more by the glimmer of light refracted by the overflowing tears, everything is so beautiful. Beautiful, the only one who couldn't restrain the impulse was himself, did something that hurt Xueyue, and brought bad memories to Xueyue who had experienced it for the first time.

I am really too much.

I wanted to pick off the snow lotus growing on the top of the cliff, but I didn't take good care of it.She wants to know whether Xue Yue is angry with herself because of this, whether she feels that she is a complete jerk, wants to apologize seriously to him, wants to get his forgiveness, and forgives her rudeness.

After staying on the deserted beach for a long time, the heat from his body was about to be stripped by the sea breeze, Maeda decided to go back and wait for Xueyue to come back to see him.Although I don't know if I can come back today, I always want to wait for him.Want to see him for the first time and listen to his greetings.Even scolding is fine.

On the way, I bought a piece of cake. Maeda didn't have any appetite because he didn't have lunch, so he wanted to give it to Xueyue to make amends.When I got home, I just sat on the sofa and smoked a cigarette.I haven't been in love for a long time, and I occasionally play games with strangers. The short-term happiness can make me forget the coldness of loneliness, but it is difficult to change the status quo.

The original living environment was too disturbing. My parents didn't understand and blamed me. Whether it was at work or in interpersonal communication, there were always troubles. I simply resigned and lived alone for a while.Although the parents expressed their opposition to their son's escape, they also set aside a sum of money for living expenses out of concern, at least enough for him to live on his own for two years.These short two years should be enough to adjust his mentality, and it is also the deadline for him to return to real life.For the time being, Maeda can only avoid the various troubles and injuries that he has brought to himself and others.

Inexplicably, Maeda remembered that child.Although it has been several years now, the influence on him has never disappeared.

The self who was confessed on the rooftop, originally just wanted to make a joke, but naturally attacked him, and the boy who was eaten up afterwards lay on the ground, his eyes fluttered, and he was in love with each other, and his youthful love was dangerous. Stimulation, I also stepped on the edge of danger out of control and unconsciously.

At that time, I was just a young teacher, living a mixed life.Only this lover can be regarded as one of the colors in life, fresh and green, full of the breath of beating high school boys.

"Oh! It was crazy at that time..."

Can't help laughing at himself, Maeda was very disturbed by what happened today.I kept thinking about the past between myself and my little lover at that time.Whether it's leaving a breath of two people in every corner of the school, or taking the risk to deceive the boy's parents, taking him out on weekends, going to hotels, or going to the wild, the hormones are so unbridled that the boy's whole body begins to change. .People become crazy in this way, unable to find themselves.

What is the difference between the lovers at that time and Xueyue now?Perhaps it was the enthusiastic and active gaze that was different from Xueyue's indifferent, calm, and repulsive eyes. Even if she was disgusted, Xueyue tried to keep her distance, even if she was mentally defenseless, her body tried her best to maintain a wrapped posture.Just like meeting Xueyue for the first time, he looked a little out of control, but still made people feel untouchable.

Is it really the same?Maybe it's the same.But why do I still like Xueyue?Is it because I can't resist this one the most?Maeda found this explanation somewhat amusing.

The time waiting for Xueyue was extremely long, Maeda, who was entangled in the whirlpool of memories, narrowed his eyes slightly, motionless like a statue.He had a headache as if being pinched, and his frowning eyebrows became tighter and tighter.

The sound of footsteps came from outside the door, and she opened her eyes quickly, walked quickly to the door and opened it.Xueyue was standing at the door of her house, holding the doorknob, turning her head and looking at herself in a daze.

"Eh?"

The author has something to say:

The understanding of loneliness and loneliness has not been very clear, maybe I am used to being alone.However, in my opinion, loneliness can be cured by crowds, and loneliness cannot be eliminated even in crowds.But the dean is really a good dean~ What kind of relationship is the dean and Xueyue, emmmmm...