if i walk towards you will you run away

We will meet again in five years.

When seeing the name of the main creative designer, the accelerated heartbeat can't deceive anyone, just like God knows the secret and unacknowledged expectation in Ouyang Xu's heart.

Ouyang Xu thought, but I have read him for so long, hated him for so long, I have always taken the initiative, I am really tired.

When Leng Yan was 22 years old, his clean and cool voice was still singing.

"If I walked towards you, would you run away?

if i stop will you come close

if i say you are my destiny

would you believe it

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This person has never approached me once.Not once.

When the playback stopped, Ouyang Xu swiped his finger and clicked to delete.

When Leng Yan returned home, the porridge on the table was untouched, and the quilt was spread neatly, as if no one had been there.

Later, when Ouyang Xu saw him again, he became more polite, no longer sarcasm, no longer embarrassing Fu Chen, everything was business-like.

Leng Yan understood that Ouyang Xu was only clingy and noisy in front of the people he cared about.He has always been polite and considerate to insignificant people.

He thought, isn't this what I want to see, but why does my heart hurt so much.

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A year later, Rongchang's project was completed, and the boss of Party A organized a dinner.

Leng Yan hates socializing the most, and usually he finds excuses to turn down such occasions.

But not this time.He felt ridiculous, and didn't know what to expect.

Perhaps it was because after this meal, he and Ouyang Xu never saw each other again.

Someone at the dinner table persuaded him to drink, and Leng Yan picked up the wine glass and drank it down in one gulp.

After the banquet was over, someone asked who would send Leng Yan home, but Ouyang Xu grabbed him into his arms before Fu Chen did. He couldn't just ignore the drunk Leng Yan.He said to himself, after all, is a classmate.Just because we are classmates.

Ouyang Xu sent Leng Yan home and turned to leave, but his hand was held.

Leng Yan leaned forward, put his hands around Ouyang Xu's neck, and said vaguely, "Don't you want to be friends with benefits, it still counts."

Ouyang Xu looked at the steam in Leng Yan's eyes and thought, you asked for this.

The kiss was pressed down without a doubt.

Leng Yan closed his eyes.It's the last time.

Ouyang Xu finally entered the body that haunted him again. He watched Leng Yan panting under his body with red eyes, bent down and kissed the corners of his eyes, and murmured a clichéd line, "Leng Yan. Leng Yan, you ever loved me?"

Leng Yan was only slightly drunk, he heard Ouyang Xu's words clearly.

He thought, how could I never love you.

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Leng Yan couldn't remember when he started to like Ouyang Xu.

Maybe it was when Ouyang Xu taught him how to swim.

Maybe earlier, when his shoe hit Ouyang Xu's waist that day, when Ouyang Xu put the shoe at his feet and smiled at him.

He misunderstood that Ouyang Xu also liked him.

But that day in the dormitory, he saw porn in Ouyang Xu's computer.

He began to avoid Ouyang Xu, but he was lucky until Ouyang Xu's birthday, when he saw Han Jing confessing to Ouyang Xu.

Standing outside the classroom door, Leng Yan said loudly in his heart, "No."

"Don't promise her."

He went back to the dormitory alone.Throw the tennis racket in the corner and cover it firmly with a curtain.

The best way to fall in love with a straight man is to keep away from him.Leng Yan knew this well, so he applied for a one-year exchange abroad.

Unexpectedly, after he came back, Ouyang Xu really fell in love with him.

He felt that Ouyang Xu just wanted to push Ouyang Xu away several times on a whim.And he also knows how difficult this road is.

It's not that Ouyang Xu can't like girls, if he can take the broad road, why should he walk the thorny path with him.

Ouyang Xu once asked him, "Am I too noisy, annoying me?"

Leng Yan said that he was bored to death, but in fact he really liked the way he was eloquent and eloquent.

Hope he can be happy like this forever.He can't delay him.

But when Ouyang Xu looked into his eyes and said that he would go abroad with him, he was very happy, really happy.

Because of the environment in which he grew up, Leng Yan is a person who is not very emotionally volatile, and his heart only beat violently for Ouyang Xu.

We were still together later.

Leng Yan lied to herself that they were only together temporarily.One day Ouyang Xu will lose interest in me.

During the time with Ouyang Xu, Leng Yan felt that his IQ had dropped, but he was so happy.

During the vacation after graduation and separation, Ouyang Xu was obsessed with wechat.

Leng Yan suddenly remembered that he forgot his mobile phone in the living room, and suddenly broke out in a cold sweat.

The most unexpected thing still happened.

His mother clutched the phone, her face full of shock and confusion.

He knows his mother.A mother who has always been proud of him.Once she failed to live up to her expectations, all previous efforts would be in vain.He thought that his proud mother was not worried about his future at the moment, but was most afraid of embarrassing her.

He guessed right.

Leng Yan's mother did not let her current husband know about it.She took Leng Yan to her ex-husband's house and locked Leng Yan up with a lock.

Study abroad together?Don't even think about it.

Leng Yan repeatedly recalled what his mother said to his father, "My son has been so good since he was a child, how could it be possible. That boy must have brought him down."

Is that right, did I harm Ouyang Xu?

It is your son who has led others into trouble.I was born like this, but Ouyang Xu was not.

When his father brought in the meal, Leng Yan said, "Dad, I figured it out. Tell me to call him to clarify."

Leng Yan got the phone and saw hundreds of missed calls, as well as Ouyang Xu's desperate apology on WeChat, he held back his tears.

So there was that phone call.

He hung up after saying those hurtful things.

Maybe I just want to find a reason for my cowardice, Leng Yan thought, so what qualifications do I have to say I love you, I am so cowardly, I always give up easily.

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Ouyang Xu decided to be a scumbag, put on his clothes and leave before Leng Yan woke up.

Buying breakfast in a convenience store, I saw porridge on the shelf.

When standing in front of Leng Yan's house with ointment and porridge, Ouyang Xu scolded himself, you trash.

Leng Yan opened the door and almost fell into his arms.

Ouyang Xu stretched out his hand to touch it. His forehead was hot and he had a fever. Fortunately, he came back.

He helped Leng Yan lie back on the bed, and asked, "Where is the medicine?"

Ouyang Xu opened the desk drawer, and there was only a photo frame turned upside down inside.He turned the frame over and saw that the person in the photo had a familiar face.

It's Ouyang Xu and the snowman.

Ouyang Xu was silent for a while, put the photo frame back, and opened the lower drawer, which contained a medicine box.

There is also a medical record book.

After feeding Leng Yan the medicine, Ouyang Xu sat by the bed, "What happened to your leg?"

Leng Yan still said, "I fell."

"You don't want to say it. Anyway, you are always like this," Ouyang Xu said, "There is no truth in your mouth."

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Another week passed.

Leng Yan opened the door, he didn't expect the person in front of him to appear in front of his house.

Ouyang Xu said, "I'm not welcome in?"

When Ouyang Xu was taking the medicine that day, he saw Leng Yan's medical records.The doctor couldn't understand the words, so he took pictures of them all with his mobile phone.

His doctor friend said it was a record of rehabilitation training.The comminuted fracture a few years ago did not recover well.

"But he doesn't look very obvious now."

"That shows that the recent recovery is not bad."

According to Leng Yan's urine, Ouyang Xu could easily imagine his thoughts.During the vacation after they separated, for some unknown reason, Leng Yan broke his leg. Perhaps the doctor told him that he would have sequelae, so the proud Leng Yan felt that he was not worthy of him, so he simply cut off all contact.

After thinking this through, Ouyang Xu forgave Leng Yan almost immediately.Although he still complained that he always gave up on himself so easily, he knew that no matter what he became, he would never despise him.

Ouyang Xu thought, yes, I'm cheap, and I deserve to fall on him.

Ouyang Xu sat on the sofa in Leng Yan's house, and pretended to speak casually, "Leng Leng, since we've slept together, let's get together again. I'm not the kind of irresponsible person."

Leng Yan's bright eyes dimmed again, "I drank too much myself."

Ouyang Xu said with a smile, "Then you want to hear from me, do I still have you in my heart?

Leng Yan looked at him with a complicated expression.

Ouyang Xu put away his smile and said sternly, "You don't want to get married at all. When you said we broke up, it was because of your legs, right?"

Leng Yan lowered his eyes, he couldn't figure out how Ouyang Xu would know, but so what, "It's all in the past."

"It's not over here. Do you know how sad I was at that time?" Ouyang Xu said, "Leng Yan, you are always running away. You think you are doing it for my own good, but have you ever asked me?"

"You thought that homosexuality was a difficult road, so you pushed me away. You thought that you would be disabled, so you didn't deserve me, but these are all your thoughts. Why do you make decisions about my life?"

"Then what do you want me to do? Knowing that it will hurt you, do you still come to your side?"

"Fool." Ouyang Xu looked straight into Leng Yan's eyes, "I love you so much, you hurt me by leaving me."

Leng Yan's heart was turned upside down, but he couldn't say a word.

Ouyang Xu said, "Leng Leng, let's start over."

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Ouyang Xu guessed very well.But the reason why Leng Yan broke his leg was more complicated than he thought.

Leng Yan regretted that call to Ouyang Xu.

He went on a hunger strike for two days, passed out, and was successfully sent to the hospital.Then he ran out of the ward while his parents were not paying attention.

But when he was running away, he was too anxious, slipped and rolled down the stairs.

This was his bravest attempt, but it ended in failure.

Ouyang Xu felt very complicated when he found out.It turns out that it's not that Leng Leng didn't work hard, he even went on a hunger strike for me!Also defied his parents and escaped from the hospital!Ouyang Xu felt happy and distressed.

"Then why didn't you find me later? It's really stupid."

Life is so short.I don't want to miss a second with you.