life fate

Early the next morning, Master Yuan Wu came to tell Zixiu to set off.Zixiu didn't sleep well last night and couldn't get up in the morning.After Zisangyu woke up, he pushed him several times: "Zixiu, wake up, Master Yuanwu is calling you."

Only then did Zixiu open his eyes in a daze. His complexion was fair, but the dark circles under his eyes were unusually obvious.He looked at Zi Sangyu sleepily and blinked blankly.

Zisang Yu laughed, "It's time to get up."

There is always a banquet in the world. Zixiu and Zisangyu had to go on the road after saying goodbye. Zisangyu also emphasized repeatedly: "You have to write me back!"

The sun was shining brightly, Zi Sangyu was dressed in white, and his smile was still so bright.Zixiu stared in a daze, thinking of what he couldn't help doing last night, he felt a little shy all of a sudden, blushing and said "hmm".

Fortunately, Zi Sangyu didn't understand his dirty thoughts, and wondered if Zisangyu would treat him like this after he knew about it.

The days when I returned to the sea of ​​clouds became boring again, chanting scriptures, practicing kung fu, and doing chores every day.Zixiu has always yearned for the colorful world, but this is the first time he has lost his mind.He missed Zi Sangyu, his smile, his voice, and everything about him.

Once, when Yuan Wu was lecturing on the scriptures, he lost his mind and was punished by Yuan Wu to copy the scriptures fifty times.He copied it alone in the room, and for some reason it later changed to Zi Sangyu's name.People have kalpas and karmic obstacles, Zixiu felt that he could not get over the hurdle of Zisangyu.

Zi Sangyu actually wrote him a letter. At that time, Zi Xiuxiu was weeding Yunhai’s vegetable garden, and a junior came to deliver a letter to him. When he knew it was Zi Sangyu’s letter, he immediately dropped his work and couldn’t wait to read it. want to dismantle.But his hands were still stained with mud, and he didn't want to stain the letter paper, so he directly took the new cassock and wiped his hands, which left the younger brother stunned.

The letter was very long, and Zi Sangyu's handwriting was strong and elegant, which should have been very discordant, but the black and white writing was very beautiful.He talked about his newly learned poems, told some interesting stories about the teacher, and also mentioned that Zi Sangshi let him accept a small business in the family, and said that he had a dispute with his elder brother...

They were all trivial matters, but Zixiu watched them with great interest.Zi Sangshi didn't want his son to become an official, so he didn't consider letting Zi Sangyu take the imperial examination at all, which made Zi Sangyu a lot of leisure.

After Zixiu finished reading, he hurried back to write a reply letter. He carefully considered every word, and it was already dark after writing.He folded the letter carefully and sealed it before he felt a hint of hunger. He missed dinner.

Of course, even if he didn't miss it, he wouldn't have dinner... Because he forgot to finish weeding the vegetable garden, Master Yuan Wu punished him not to have dinner for three days.

But Zixiu was not unhappy at all. After sending the letter, he began to wait anxiously for a reply.The days are lacklustre, and they flow away as calm as water. From the hot summer to the snow, it is just a blink of an eye.In the past six months, he and Zisangyu have communicated many letters, each of which was carefully hidden by him.

In early spring, Zi Sangyu finally wrote to say that he would come to live in Yunhai for a while.Zi Sangyu was seriously ill before, and now he has to find a secluded place to recuperate. Zi Sangshi and Yuan Wu have some friendship, and after hearing Zisangyu said that he wanted to come to Yunhai, he helped him talk about love.

Master Yuanwu naturally agreed, but he arranged Zisangyu's residence far away from Zixiu's.He can't say that he has a delicate heart, but he can still see that Zixiu is so careful.

He is a monk and believes that all living beings are equal, and there is nothing wrong with a man liking a man.But Zixiu is still a Buddhist disciple, it's wrong if he can't control his emotions.

He can't help evildoers.

Zi Sangyu didn't tell Zixiu about his serious illness, and he didn't even say that he came to recuperate.So Zixiu was kept in the dark. When he knew the date of Zisangyu's arrival, he waited eagerly at the entrance of the sea of ​​clouds early in the morning, and only saw the emaciated Zisangyu in the evening.

Zi Sangyu only brought two servants, but a lot of luggage.Zixiu went up to pick up the luggage first, but found it was extremely heavy.

"You...why are you so thin?" Zixiu asked hesitantly, Zisangyu looked very haggard, although there was still surprise on his face, but his face was still a little pale.

Zi Sangyu smiled lightly and said, "It's just cold after being warm, it's just a bit of wind and cold."

Zixiu frowned, unable to ask any further questions.He led Zi Sangyu into the residence, and when the servants opened the luggage, they saw that there were some medicine jars and medicinal materials inside, and his brows frowned even tighter: "You just suffered from a little cold?"

Zisangyu smiled: "Well, I'm just weak." He told his servants to pack up, and followed Zixiu to visit Master Yuanwu.

In order to thank Master Yuanwu, Zi Sangshi specially gave a set of Tang Sancai tea set that he had collected for a long time to Zi Sangyu, and asked Zi Sangyu to forward it to him.

Master Yuanwu chatted with Zisangyu for a while, thinking that he was still seriously ill, so someone sent him back, and he detained Zixiu himself.

Zi Xiuben wanted to catch up, but when he saw Yuan Wu's serious expression, he had to stop obediently.In the past six months, he has really been out of his mind, and he has lost count of how many times he has been punished by Master Yuanwu.

"Zixiu," Yuan Wu knocked on the table, motioning him to sit down and talk, "Do you know why I gave you this dharma name?"

Zixiu lowered his head: "This disciple is stupid, so please ask Master to teach you."

"'Zixiu' is also 'self-cultivation'. Your heart is not pure. Only by comprehending the Dharma can you gain the Tao." Yuan Wu paused, and then said: "People have seven emotions and six desires. It’s all empty, and only by seeing through it can we avoid vulgarity.”

Zixiu didn't speak all the time. He didn't know how the master could see through it easily. How can a person live a lifetime to be clear all the time?

He doesn't know, and there is no way to know.

It was a bit late to come out of Master Yuanwu's room, and he knew that the master must have seen his little thoughts, and he was in a mess, so he walked aimlessly to Zisangyu's courtyard.

Zi Sangyu coughed clearly at night, it was still early spring, the night was not warm, and the sea of ​​clouds was high, if it was not covered thicker, it would definitely be cold.

He wanted to go in and see if Zi Sangyu had covered the quilt well, but he still had Master's words in his mind, this emotion should never see the light of day, but he was more and more greedy.

Zixiu warned himself, "This is wrong", and hurried back to his room.

On the second day, Xiu had to get up early to ring the clock. He didn't have a good rest at night and yawned continuously. Everyone laughed when they saw him.It wasn't until he was about to go back to his room to catch up on sleep that he saw Zi Sangyu, who was sitting in his yard reading a book.When he returned to Yunhai, he specially dug a bamboo plant and planted it in the yard, and now it has flourished.

Zi Sangyu was still wearing a white shirt, his hair was blown by the wind, he was holding a book and reading alone, the world was silent.

The sleepy bug that Zixiu couldn't get rid of no matter what, he ran away without a trace, and he said softly: "Didn't you catch the cold, why don't you put on more clothes?"

Zi Sangyu raised his head and smiled at Zixiu: "I forgot."

Zixiu had no choice but to take out a smaller coat from his room. He was taller and stronger than Zisangyu, but fortunately he still had clean clothes from previous years.Zi Sangyu put it on, and pointed to the pages of the book to discuss poetry with Zixiu.

Zixiu looked at his calm face, Zisangyu's face was already a little pale, now wearing clothes that were one size bigger, he looked even thinner, but the corners of his eyes and brows were full of leisure and affection, making him look extremely indifferent.

Zixiu thought: Maybe this is all right, he can hide his unknown thoughts and look at Zisangyu openly.

After thinking about it, Zixiu became obviously courteous to Zisangyu, and changed ways to find supplements for Zisangyu to eat.The diet list in Yunhai was simple, and Zixiu was afraid that Zisangyu would not be able to nourish his body, so he quietly went down the mountain to the farmer's house to beg for meat to bring back.

Master Yuanwu should have also discovered it, but for Zi Sangyu's sake, he just turned a blind eye and let it go.

Zi Sangyu stayed in the sea of ​​clouds until the beginning of summer. He recovered from his illness and gained some weight.Zi Sangshi was surprised when he came to pick him up, and thanked Yuan Wu very happily.

Zixiu and Zisangyu are actually very good. Neither of them are bluffing characters. They occasionally discuss poetry, occasionally talk about Buddhism, and most of the time they are silent and do their own things.But no one felt bored or impatient, and they often looked up and smiled at each other with a tacit understanding.

Zixiu could no longer be satisfied with this kind of life.But also know that there will be an end.But when Zisangyu bid farewell to him, he was still a little sad: "Then...you should take good care of your body and don't get sick again."

Zi Sangyu showed a smile: "Okay, I will write to you!"

He stayed here for a few months, and many disciples in the sea of ​​clouds knew him, but Zixiu kept Zisangyu tightly guarded, and no one talked to this legendary son-in-law much.There were even quite a few brothers who were close to Zixiu and said jealously: "Zixiu doesn't miss old friends anymore."

After Zisangyu left, Zixiu returned to a deserted life. He has lived such a life for more than ten years, but after getting to know Zisangyu, he always felt too indifferent.Like a piece of white paper, without any color, only when seeing Zi Sangyu can it be embellished.

This kind of magnified yearning made him unbearable, so he took out his treasured letters and read them over and over... This finally caused disaster.

A disciple who had been at odds with Zixiu noticed Zixiu's strangeness, and stole the letter while Zixiu was away.More than ten letters are enough to spread all over the sea of ​​clouds. After a long time, everyone knows that Zixiu likes men, and he is the young man who came to sea of ​​clouds to look for him.

When Zixiu heard the news, he could no longer control the rumors. Everyone looked at him with complicated expressions, as if they were looking at something rare, with disdainful eyes.