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Article by Ju Pei:

In high school, unfortunately, I entered a school that I didn't like.It's not about grades, it's about getting into this high school because of my parents' divorce.

I have been very clear about my sexual orientation since I was in junior high school.I like guys, but in high school I was with all kinds of girls.Not because of physical needs, but because I didn't find what I liked.

Also because of the relationship between my parents, I am full of distrust of relationships.What is the time limit for liking someone, one day, one month, one year, or a lifetime.Who can tell.

So instead of being afraid of a relationship ending, play it.No one should take it seriously.So I have never rejected the girls who posted it.

I thought I would always be like this, but my senior year changed.This year is also a root that has tortured me for so many years.

I especially remember that in September of that year, the teachers were boiling, and the hot spots reached a certain height.It's clearly autumn, but the temperature is very high, making people irritable.

I played the game all night, and I was so sleepy, the two people at the front table were fighting, it was very annoying.I'm always angry on the spot, and I'll hit anyone who doesn't like me.

"Fuck. Nima! You have to fight and fight. You have to play and get out," the classroom was quiet for a moment, and no one spoke.I lost my temper and turned my face against others, so no one dared to talk to me at this time.

I don't have much time to go to class, it's different from the previous class.In the past, it was the same as entering the classroom and following the vegetable market, but now you can hear a needle drop.

I couldn't sleep because of the two people in front of me. In order to vent my anger, I kicked a trash can.In this way, the classroom is extremely quiet.

"Well, hello everyone. I am the chemistry teacher who is here to teach you this semester." A handsome man came to the podium with a green voice, like a clear spring.All my anger was extinguished.

My heart kept beating, and my eyes never shifted from the moment he entered the door.

"My name is Shen, I hope we can get along happily." It turned out that his name was Shen.A happy relationship is like having a date with each other.

This sentence that came out of nowhere, I was just thinking about it.But later, as long as I saw him, I couldn't take my eyes off him.Still later, I started messing with his class.

He is a person who always smiles at people, no matter how naughty I am, he is neither cold nor hot.He must think I'm very naive, but we're not much older.

It was too late when I really felt that I liked this person.He is the long-term object of my sexual dreams, even my sexual fantasies.I knew before that the time to like someone will not be very long.

I think this time is also very short, and it may be the reason why I have never dated boys before, so I watch the precipitation frequently.

In order to restrain this feeling, I no longer provoke precipitation.But some things cannot be restrained.I even start fantasizing about what he looks like underneath me every time.What kind of sound will it make, and what kind of flushing will be on the skin.

I can't stop thinking about it.But he always appeared in my sight every day with a frown and a smile.Bright red lips, white jade-like neck.I really want to bite.It's like the ABO setting in the Tanmei novel.I want to tag him.Bite him on the back of the neck.

But how can there be any ABO, it is all imagination.

In order to cut off my more and more sick thoughts, I think it's time for me to find a girl to fall in love with.But when a girl confessed to me, the precipitation appeared again, and when she saw a girl standing beside me, she smiled at me and left.

Just a smile.I feel like I'm done, I'm not going to accept any more girls.Or wait until the statute of limitations for love passes, and wait until I forget about him.I will start again, after all, I know that feelings are just for fun.

We didn't see each other much after high school.But how come you can't see them if you live in one area.Moreover, I will go to the high school that I hate even intentionally or unintentionally.Just to have a look at him.

He is smiling every day, and he doesn't know what he is laughing at.I even think that smile is fake sometimes.But it was fake and took my heart away too.

Xie is 22 years old and has no girlfriend.I live alone, and I will buy some vegetables when I pass by the supermarket after get off work.He prefers to eat meat, and he buys some meat almost six days a week.

Life is very regular, but I feel that he is suppressing something.The more I watched him the deeper I sank.At this time, I still don't understand what the difference is.Know the arrival of the university notice.

The university is far away from home, when you are on the road.My heart was empty, I felt like I forgot something while sitting on the train, and I thought about it when I was eating, I forgot to see what Shen Shen did today, what he ate, and what clothes he wore.

I couldn't help crying during the meal, I can't see him every week.Does he have girlfriends while I'm not watching him?Or... get married?

A sudden sense of panic sets in and I don't even want to go to this university anymore.I want to jump off the train.

I began to miss it, and settled in the smile that I called him teacher every time.It is so youthful, it is so gripping people's soul.I even thought I would jump off the train and run to him, calling him, "Teacher Shen."

I want to see him smile at me.

That was the first time in my life that I felt hopeless. Shen was a straight man, but I wanted to possess him from head to toe.Possessively.

After four years of college, I was 23 years old and 26 years old.My feelings for him have faded from my sense of self.But when I went back to that street, that high school that was not very happy.When I saw him again.

How to put it, I think I'm done.How can there be any feelings that will be forgotten, only those who pretend to be passionate.I like precipitation, this fact cannot be changed.

The more I avoid him, the more I can always see him.I thought it was arranged by God.As a result, heh.

Precipitation He is following me.There was even a look of infatuation in his eyes.I panicked instantly, is he looking at me?I'm not sure, but why is he looking at me like that?is... like... me?

In the next few days, I will go to the place where he deliberately waits for me to buy a pack of cigarettes.He still hid in the corner like that, afraid that I would find out and watch me secretly.

When I walked out of the convenience store, his slender waist twisted and walked out.I follow him like before, he still lives in the same place as before.

He still hasn't changed, and neither have I.I couldn't hold back and still made a move on him. I half-forced him to be my lover.But I didn't expect that he really agreed to me.

He is really interested in me.I didn't expect to be able to do such a humiliating thing as a lover.I have to chill him for a while.

During this time, I prepared a lot of things, thinking about bringing him next time.I just eat him up and let him be my stuff inside and out.

What I want to do more is to bite the back of his neck until he begs for mercy and promises to be mine for the rest of his life.

And I kept him cold for a while, and he went out on a blind date for me, thinking it was his trick to irritate me, but I still felt angry.

But luckily we did that night and the neck tasted good.And I didn't realize that I was abusive in that way and he was abusive in that way.

We are just a match made in heaven!

Precipitation articles:

I'm like crazy, I can't catch myself.

I always thought I was schizophrenic before, but now it seems that I am not.I completely let myself go.

I used to feel depressed and lived almost the same every day, doing the same things at the same time, at the same place.

Now, I almost vent my anger on the spot.Today, because the classroom was too chaotic, I turned my head and left.Before this, I had to bite the bullet.

I feel more and more that it is a good thing to meet Ju Pei again, and the sex between us is also very pleasant.It's just that every time I finish it, my body is full of traces left by him.

I've never had sex with anyone before, so I never knew it could be this intense.At first I thought it was just for fun, but then I couldn't extricate myself.

Especially when I heard Ju Pei talk about playing ABOplay, I couldn't help myself.What an excellent teacher, what a good boy, I just want to sink there.

Every time Ju Pei is in bed, she will say that I am coquettish, that I like to be abused.I felt it too, and I always thought I was an abuser before.

"Get off work?" At the gate of our school, Ju Pei was smoking a cigarette, standing there with his hands in his trouser pockets.He came to pick me up every day for the past few days, and then we had dinner together. After the meal, we fooled around.

"Yeah." There are a lot of students this time, so I winked to signal him to hurry up.But he seemed dissatisfied.

Although Ju Pei was full of reluctance, he still kept a distance from me.But once there are few people, he will always drag me to a corner where there is no one to do some bad things.

"Hey! People are coming soon!" I squeezed his collar, breathing too quickly.

"What are you afraid of? I'm blocking you." His voice was too hoarse, and I felt like I couldn't hold on anymore.

"There are too many people you and I know nearby, aren't you afraid that your former classmates will see you messing with me?"

After hearing my words, he let me go quickly.I was a little disappointed in my heart, and I was just asking for that sentence.I thought he would say something nice to prevaricate me.

I went to his house with Ju Pei in a lack of interest, and when I entered the door, he pressed on the door and kissed wildly.To be honest, I don't really want to do it, but I was hooked by him within a few strokes.

The speed of cooking without eating is also very fast.I was lying on the bed and suddenly wanted to end it, which was meaningless.I'm not afraid that Ju Pei will slander me in front of my blind date, but he is afraid that acquaintances will discover our relationship.

"Hey, that's really boring."

"What's boring, didn't you have fun just now?" Ju Pei held an afterthought cigarette in the corner of his mouth, "Let's play a game, precipitation?"

Suddenly stopped calling me teacher, I panicked, "What game?"

"Next time, if you are seen by my acquaintances, you will be my boyfriend willingly."

This... such a boring game!Whoever doesn't play is stupid. Than!

"Okay." I answered casually, but Ju Pei was doomed to lose in this game, because he was so famous in school back then.

He is a fish destined to be eaten.

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