Goddess conspiring against me

The name An Xiaoyu is not unfamiliar to me.

When I was in elementary school and junior high school, my mother often mentioned this person in front of me.

My mother said that this child is very good-looking, just as cute as the Barbie doll I loved to play with in kindergarten.

I was not very happy when I heard this sentence in elementary school, because I had stopped playing with Barbie dolls at that time, and I felt that my peers who were still playing with Barbie dolls in elementary school were too naive.

When I was in the third grade of elementary school, my mother showed me photos of An Xiaoyu's performance.I don't understand, how could she look so good with her face painted as a monkey's butt?

In the second year of junior high school, my mother praised that An Xiaoyu was very talented in dancing, and now he is the leader of the Street Dance Youth Troupe.For a moment, I looked at the girl in suspenders, a torn T-shirt, and a hip-hop hat and fell into deep thought.

The first time I met An Xiaoyu was when I entered high school.

It was September 2006, 9, and I will remember that day for a lifetime.

There was an all-hands meeting on the first day of high school admission, and I was going to speak on stage as a freshman representative.

I just got on stage.He said hello to the microphone, teachers and students.

There was a commotion from behind the line.

I heard the voices of students talking, and several teachers and security guards began to rush from the front of the line to the back.

I looked back in the glare of the morning sun and saw a girl in ripped pants standing on a white fence in the distance.

It's strange that from such a long distance, I was caught in the eye by the thighs exposed in her trouser holes.

Amidst the teacher's stop and the students' booing, the man jumped down from the 2-meter-high wall.

It messed up my speech plans.

An Xiaoyu was warned and punished.She was probably the first person to be given a warning as soon as she entered school.

We are divided into a class.

When she introduced herself on stage, I matched her with the girl my mother was boasting about.

Not quite.

After school started, she got acquainted with all the male and female students in the class at a very fast speed. At that time, I still had no friends.

She ran for the propaganda committee, and the class voted almost unanimously. Of course, I think it has something to do with her popularity.

I didn't vote for her.

We have never seen each other or spoken to each other.Until one day, under Jiang Yiyi's pushing and shoving, she shyly walked to my seat.

Ask me if I want to report a program during the school celebration.

I turned her down.

She walked away a little hurt.

I was thinking, she looks like my Barbie when she frowns.

Unexpectedly, the next day she stopped in my place and asked me the same question.

I found a reason this time, saying that I don't have any programs to show for it.

She said how could it be, aren't you a violin performer?

I looked at her suspiciously. "how do you know."

She looked at me like a frightened bunny. "My mother said that she and your mother are high school classmates."

I understood, but I still rejected her with "I haven't practiced for a long time".

After she left, I thought she could not only jump fences, but also talk to people well.

Still, thinking of her frightened look, I touched my face.Do I look so scary.

On the third day, she came again.I was a little impatient.

I wonder what reason she has this time?

An Xiaoyu said: "I beg you, classmate Si, the rest of us really don't have any good performances."

"You should help your aunt's friend's daughter."

She mentioned this, and I thought of her in suspenders.

"Don't you know how to dance hip-hop?" I asked with my mouth open. "Why don't you have a show?"

"Uh... It's embarrassing to not dance for a long time." She actually used the same reason as me.

Also too perfunctory.

"I'll play the violin if you dance hip-hop."

Later we both performed at the school celebration.Her hip-hop dance is very good, and the rhythm and drums are all stepped on just right.Action is powerful and clean.She was very handsome, and the boys and girls below all whistled her praises.

She came into my life after that.

She took me to the library to read and study on weekends.In fact, only I am studying, and she is reading novels and American dramas with the MP4 she bought secretly.

During class during the week, she hit me with a small note and asked me if I wanted to go to the canteen to buy spicy sticks after class.

I frowned, I don't eat spicy strips.

But still went with her.

She has to pull me to go to the toilet, I am not used to going to the toilet with others.

I rejected her, but she didn't feel hurt at all. She took Jiang Yiyi or other girls and happily went to the bathroom hand in hand.

I'm a little unhappy, so I can be replaced so easily?

This is the first time I have experienced this inexplicable feeling.Contrary to An Xiaoyu, I am a person who must think clearly when encountering things.

I posted a post on the Internet, and someone replied to me, saying that you must be in love with An Xiaoyu.

Crazy, An Xiaoyu is a girl, how could I fall in love with her.

Although I have never liked boys, the traditional concept in my mind tells me that girls generally like boys.

Although I didn't believe that post, the idea of ​​liking An Xiaoyu was implanted in my subconscious.

Thinking about it now, I didn't like An Xiaoyu at the time, at most I had a good impression.

When she was in the first grade of high school, An Xiaoyu was very entangled. She herself prefers liberal arts, such as English and history.But her parents told her that science will have more development directions.

She came to ask my opinion, of course I want to study science.

And I also hope that she can also study science, so we don't need to be separated.There are relatively few literature classes in our school.There are only more than 10 classes in liberal arts, so the liberal arts class is reorganized, and the science class does not need to be changed.

She told me that Jiang Yiyi was going to liberal arts.

I said, then you go to liberal arts, but we probably don't have much chance to meet each other.

I played a trick.

Seeing her biting her lip in displeasure, I feel shamelessly satisfied.

She chose science in the end.

We even became tablemates when we were choosing seats.

I have more reasons to be tired of being with her.

An Xiaoyu's science is really not very good, barely 100+ in mathematics, physics and chemistry students are struggling at 50 and 60.

She is actually a hardworking type, but she probably has no talent.

After going to cram school, I barely passed.

I feel a little guilty, and I should also be responsible for her choice of science.

So, I started to make up lessons for her.Both of us are commuting students, but in order to make up lessons for her, we will still stay until the end of evening self-study.

Weekends have also turned into going to my house to make up lessons, instead of pampering her to watch American TV dramas in the library.

She comes to my house at 9 o'clock in the morning on weekends, we do homework in the morning, and I make up lessons for her in the afternoon.

During the lunch break at noon, I slept in my bed.

I'm actually a bit of a clean freak and obsessed with beds.The first few times I was not used to lying on the same bed with her.

But she sleeps pretty well, and the smell of laundry detergent on her body is pretty good, which has a sleep-promoting effect.

A few times when I woke up from a nap, I found that I held her in my arms.

It's full of her scent.

Even now when I think of Sunday, I can still think of sunshine and her smell.

This was about the time when my affection for her changed.

I dreamed about her at night, and I did messy things to her in my dreams.

I dreamed that I kissed her and touched her.

Later, An Xiaoyu asked when was my first kiss, and I told her it was when she was drunk and forcibly kissed me in the third year of high school.

But I didn't tell her that I had kissed her thousands of times in countless dreams.

These dreams made me so panic-stricken that I went to a psychiatrist on the sly.

At that time, there were very few psychologists in Liushi. This person was a friend of my mother, who had returned from studying at Harvard.

She told me it's normal and don't be afraid.Possessiveness may be at work, or it may be that he likes her.

Did I say liking girls is abnormal?

She said no, it's just that the person you like happens to be a girl.

Now that I think of it, I want to thank her for her psychological counseling.

I don't like girls, I only like An Xiaoyu.

Although I was affirmed by the psychiatrist, I still dare not express my thoughts.

I'm afraid of scaring her.

And we were already in the third year of high school, and the most important thing was to go to college.

An Xiaoyu's grades finally came up, thank God.

After unremitting hard work, she was admitted to Beijing City University.

I argued with my dad, but I still didn't choose the TOP2 school he attended, but chose Beijing City University.

My explanation is that it is also very convenient to go home this way.

An Xiaoyu felt sorry for me. I told her that it was my parents who didn't want me to go to a university that was too far away.Later, the matter of studying abroad was immediately slapped in the face.

During the class reunion, An Xiaoyu got drunk.

Drunk, she has a wildness that she doesn't usually have, and she insists on performing hip-hop and somersaults for everyone.

I was afraid that she would hit her head when she was drunk, so I stepped forward and stopped her.

I didn't expect her to be locked in my arms, but she was not good at all.She bit me on the face, leaving teeth marks.Like a mad puppy.

Some pain.

The lips she put on in the next second made me forget the pain.

This kiss was not as fragrant as in the dream, but the softness of her lips was softer than in the dream.

Her lips are so sweet.

I stared at the bite marks on my face when I looked in the mirror and decided I wasn't going out for the rest of the summer.

I touched the tooth marks on my face, and then my fingers rested on my lips.Thinking of the way she kissed me, the touch of her lips...

The next day, my mom saw the bite marks on my face and asked me what was wrong.

I said An Xiaoyu was drunk and bit me.

My mother said that in the future, you can watch her and don't let her drink. It's okay to bite you, but what to do if you bite someone else.

Mother. .

I think my mother likes An Xiaoyu so much, she should be able to accept that I like An Xiaoyu too.

I came out to my mom that night.

My mother lost her former composure, she pondered for a while and said, let her think about it first.

When I was packing up for school, she held my hand and said solemnly. "This road is not easy to walk, parents will accompany you."

My dad leaned against my door, smiling encouragingly at me.

My eye sockets are a little hot.

I hold my mom tight.

After my mother let go of her arms, she told me seriously again. "If Xiao Yu likes you, of course it's fine. But don't take the initiative to bring him on this road."

I said yes, I didn't expect at the time that I had waited 9 years for this day.

During my freshman year, An Xiaoyu and I became even closer.

I often dream that she agrees to my pursuit.

Dreaming that I did something bad to her.

Until her sophomore year, she made a boyfriend.That boy was her classmate from the same department, and he was stalking her.

She agreed.

Two people will hold hands in and out of various places on campus.

I really didn't want to see that scene. At that time, the professor recommended me to study in Germany.It is indeed a good opportunity, and it can also get rid of the sweetness of the two, so I agreed with it.

When I was in Germany, I often missed her again.

When I miss her, I study or memorize a few more words.

Suppress the thought of contacting her and calling her.

When I was in Germany and the United States, there were girls or boys who confessed to me.

I really don't feel anything.

When I was in America, the girls who rejected me called me frigid.

I do not mind.

After returning to China, I saw that An Xiaoyu had posted a circle of friends looking for a roommate, so I immediately decided to live with her.

For me at the time, it was impossible to say that I didn’t have any ideas.

But I did nothing and complied with my mom's request.

At that time, I thought that being with her was enough.

She found another boyfriend shortly after.

I've improved, and this time I can watch them date, hold hands, and joke about them with a deadpan face.

While joking, my heart is bleeding.

On September 9.16th, An Xiaoyu said that he might settle down with Qi Zhengyu.

That day, I opened Yu'an's WeChat account. Yuanxiao0905 is the inversion of An Xiaoyu's name, and 0905 is the day I first met her.

I'm mad.

I play a scene where two people are chatting.

I imagined that she was acting like a spoiled child to me, that she was engaged to me, and that she and I were celebrating New Year's Eve...

Later they got engaged, and I decided to make the character Yu An my boyfriend that day.

Make me look less pitiful.

After my mother found out, she kept crying.Call me stupid.

Said I could try being with other girls.

But how can I try it with other girls?

The other girls were not An Xiaoyu.